Cursed Love: Cursed Love (Cursed, #1) (6 page)

As I kneel before her, I pull her closer to me so that I can get a taste.

She smells fucking amazing and I need her right now. I push her legs apart just enough that I can get better access to her dripping wet pussy.

My thumb grazes over her clit and she begins to squirm.

“Linc, don’t fuck around. I want you…
now
.”

“Patience, Jo, I need to taste you before I take you.”

She grabs the back of my head and pulls me into her cunt. I spread her lips with my fingers and dive into her sweetness. She’s soaked from wanting me and I’m going to give her exactly what it is that she needs…what
I
need.

Her mound is freshly waxed, smooth and ready for me to devour.

My tongue darts out, and with a slow and steady lick I start at her clit and lap at her entrance. Her body begins to quiver as I reach around to squeeze her ass.

Her hands are tangling in my hair and she pulls me in deeper to her. With one hand I smack her ass and insert three fingers into her swollen cunt. There’s no playing around—I know this girl inside and out—she can take all that I want to give her.

I pump my fingers in and out of her warmth while massaging her clit with my thumb. Her body begins to fall toward me and I know she’s close.

Lifting her left leg, I move it to slide over my shoulder. She hangs on to my hair for dear life and I push my fingers in deeper, curling them forward to hit her g-spot just right.

My tongue licks against her clit piercing and her moans become louder. I pump my fingers in and out of her faster and faster ‘til I know she’s about to come.

She rips at my hair as I feel her walls clamp down around my fingers.

I slide her leg off of my shoulder and rest her back onto the bed. She moves herself so that she’s lying in the center with her perfect body calling for me.

Reaching my hand into the top drawer of my nightstand, I pull out a condom and toss it over to her.

She picks it up and puts it to her mouth. With one swift nibble on the wrapper, she has it open and ready for me.

Kneeling onto the mattress, I make my move toward her. I position myself so that I’m straddling her hips, showing that I’m ready and waiting for her.

She pulls the condom from the wrapper and grabs for my rock hard cock.

With her soft, warm hands she caresses my balls and moves her hand to my shaft.

My body jumps at her touch as she runs her hand up and down my cock. I’m growing more anxious by the second and if she doesn’t hurry up I’m going to smack her ass and take her from behind.

Jo pulls the condom down over the top of my length and slides herself out from underneath me. Her hands come up to my shoulders and she signals for me to move onto my back.

Hell, if she’s willing to ride me, who am I to argue?

I flip onto my back and wait for her to make her move. Rather than sitting on my cock to face me, she turns her body in the opposite direction to saddle up reverse cowgirl.

Holy fuck!

Now that my eyes have adjusted to the darkness, I’m able to see her perfect little body with the light from the moon shining through the window.

I grab onto her ass as she positions me at her entrance and quickly slides onto my cock.

“Fuck me!” I say through gritted teeth.

“Oh, I plan to, baby, just give me time,” she replies.

Her ass is on display as she leans forward onto her elbows and begins to swirl her hips in a figure eight.

The sensation of her pussy wrapped around me has my eyes rolling into the back of my head.

She lifts herself upright and positions herself so that her feet are on the mattress next to my hips. She moves herself up and down as I buck my body off of the bed to match her rhythm.

The sound of skin slapping together echoes through the room in combination with our moans and screams of ecstasy.

This girl knows how to work my cock and what positions drive me crazy.

I can feel my balls begin to tighten and I know it won’t be long until I lose all of my self control. I reach for her hips to slow her down. Once she’s come to a complete stop I can feel that her body is shaking, her breath is uncontrollable, and I can feel the sweat as it forms on her lower back.

She lifts her hips off of me and my cock senses the lack of contact. I need to be inside of her and fuck the hell out of her before I lose my mind.

I step off to the side of the bed and pull her hips back. She leans forward onto her elbows and gives me the best view of her perfect ass. I smack her left cheek and reach forward to grab her hair. As I pull on her long locks she lets out a moan and I go in for the kill.

My cock is screaming for her warmth as I slam into her from behind. She lets out a scream and I smack her ass again. With one hand still in her hair, I dig my fingers into her hip with the other. I pump my cock in and out of her, watching her ass the entire time.

My heart is racing as I feel my climax getting closer. I pull harder on her hair and reach my hands around her so that my fingers can work her clit. I massage her just below her piercing. She screams my name just as I feel myself unload into her. I ride out the last few minutes, allowing her walls to milk every last drop from me.

The sweat is falling from my forehead onto her back. I pull out and rip the condom off just as she turns around to wrap her arms around my neck. She pulls me into her and kisses me harder than ever before.

She pulls away right before saying, “Linc, I love you.”

The adrenaline from our fuck disappears and is overtaken by my fears.

A sensation of numbness coats my body as I begin to step away from her.

Maybe I heard her wrong. I mean, we just fucked. My mind may be cloudy, but I could swear I heard Jo say she loves me.

What the fuck is that?

We’re not supposed to even like one another more than fuck buddies.

This can’t be happening.

I feel like I’m in an out of body experience with my pants down.

“Linc. Did you hear me?”

I nod my head and make my way out of the room toward the bathroom.

I can’t lose her to this, but I don’t love her.

Why the fuck does she love me?

She’s ruined everything we’ve had by saying those three little words.

I’ve always wanted to hear them, but I never did from the people who mattered the most.

Those words are poison to my ears…no, no, no!

Not Jo.

Chapter 6

After spending what feels like an hour in the bathroom, I come back into the bedroom to find Jo sitting on the edge of my bed.

She’s turned on the lights in my room and there’s no doubt that she has regret plastered all over her face. She has on one of my hooded sweatshirts and has her legs tucked up beneath her.

My eyes meet hers as I walk into the room. For the first time ever, I feel awkward being in the same room with Jo.

As I watch her, I can feel the tension in the room building. She’s chewing on her bottom lip and ringing her hands together on her lap. She’s pulled her hair up into a ponytail and her eyes are red and puffy.

She’s been crying and looks upset. No matter how much it bothers me to see her hurting, I know there’s nothing I can do or say to make her feel better.

I don’t know how or why this is happening, but we need to talk about what she said.

Walking toward her, she starts to fidget. If
my
nerves are a mess, I can’t even imagine how
she
is feeling.

I sit down beside her on the bed and rest my hands on my knees. We sit in silence for a few minutes before she gets up to stand. She starts to pace the room until I feel that she’ll wear a hole in the carpet.

The lack of sound is driving me mad, I have to say something.

Her back is to me as she stares out the bedroom window.

“Jo,” I say in a whisper.

I will her to turn and face me, but she doesn’t.

“Look, I don’t know what just happened, but we really should talk about it.”

She turns from the other side of the room and stares at me.

“What just happened?
Are you kidding me?
I’ll tell you what just happened. I opened my big fucking mouth when I should’ve kept it shut.”

Tears start to well in her eyes and I feel lost in the moment. I move to stand and walk toward her, but she turns and walks back over to the bed.

“Jo, we’re friends. I can’t have you being pissed off at me for something I didn’t do.”

She looks at me. Her lips start to quiver as the tears fall from her face.

“I get it, Linc, it’s not a big deal. So what? I told you that I love you and you didn’t reciprocate the same feelings. I’m a fucking moron and now I need to be the one to deal with it.”

She sits down on the bed and curls her legs up underneath my sweatshirt. Pulling the sleeves of the shirt over her hands, she swipes at the tears falling from her eyes.

I can’t stand how upset she is. Her body is shaking as the tears fall from her face. I know I haven’t done anything wrong, but seeing her in pain like this is killing me.

“Jo, I
do
care about you. You’re my friend. I had no idea that you had feelings for me like this. You never acted like we were anything but fuck buddies. How was I supposed to know?”

I throw my hands in the air. I’m frustrated and pissed off that she’s doing this to our friendship. Everything has been great until she had to drop the ‘L’ bomb.

“I should just go,” she says in between sobs.

“Jo, you’re not going anywhere. We left your car at the bar and it’s nearly three in the morning. Let’s just go to bed and I’ll take you back in the morning.”

She gets up off the bed and takes a step forward. Looking me in the eyes, she wipes the tears from her face.

“I can’t, Linc. I can’t be this close to you knowing that I’ll never have you. You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to tell you how I feel. This didn’t just happen overnight for me. I’ve loved you for a long time. I just wanted to wait for the right time to tell you.”

I turn my head to look away from her for a moment. I need to grasp my bearings before I flip the fuck out.

Confusion doesn’t even seem like the right word to describe how I’m feeling. Shocked maybe…I don’t know.

My head whips back to her. The expression on my face has to let her know that I’m at a loss for words.

“Jo, where the fuck is all of this coming from all of a sudden? I don’t get it, we’ve been friends all this time and now out of nowhere you’re telling me you love me. What the hell am I supposed to think?”

Taking in a deep breath, I run my fingers through my hair. I don’t want to be a dick. I care about Jo, but apparently not the way she cares about me.

I look back into her tear filled eyes and can see the hurt that I am causing her.

“I don’t know, Linc, I guess I just assumed you felt the same way.”

“What the hell would give you that idea? I thought we were on the same page here, Jo. I mean, come on, we’ve never had more than just a physical relationship in the past.”

She shakes her head and hides her face in her hands.

This whole situation is just fucking messed up. If I had any inclination that she felt like this, I could’ve prevented the broken heart that I’ve now caused.

“I know, Linc, really I do. I guess I just got caught up in the idea that we could make something between us work. I get it now—you don’t feel the same way about me and it’s fine. I’ll be fine. It’s not like this has never happened to me before,” she says, letting out a heavy sigh.

“It’s
not
fine, damn it. This changes everything for us. I can’t go back to the way we were knowing that I’ve hurt you. You can’t go from fuck buddies to breaking a girl’s heart back to fuck buddies. It just doesn’t work that way, Jo. I can’t hurt you like that.”

She chews at the corner of her mouth and stares down at the floor. As much as I want to fix this so that we can go back to the way we were, I know it isn’t possible.

“You’re right, it
does
change everything. I’m so sorry, Linc. I don’t know what I was thinking. I just couldn’t keep it a secret any longer, I had to tell you. ”

Fucking hell, I don’t want to lose her. She’s given me the strength I need to get through some of the hardest nights of my life. Even if she has no clue what’s in my past, she’s still been helping to heal me in a way that no one else ever has.

“Don’t be sorry, Jo. It’s not like any of this is your fault.”

She looks up at me with her red-rimmed eyes. So much hope pours out of her expression.

“Can you just hold me for one more night? After tonight, I’ll be gone.”

She pauses for a second and looks around the room. Her eyes find mine and she sticks out her bottom lip in a pout.

The memories of those lips and how they’ve touched me sink to the pit of my stomach. I’m about to ruin something that could have been a possibility because I’m broken.

“Don’t ask questions and don’t fight me on this, Linc. Just say that I can spend one last night with you.”