Cyber Rogues (83 page)

And then, as he fastened his tie and put on his jacket, he thought about Evelyn. Again, as if he were really reaching back over years, he remembered distantly how he had acted, and all of a sudden it made him feel shabby. He no longer felt any of the anger or resentment that had raged so violently in him only a week or two before. He could understand how she felt, see the bitterness he had caused, feel her hurt. And God, she had tried. . . . Why had he been so incapable of seeing all this before? Could a dream bring about such changes?

Before leaving, he went back to the den and retrieved Judy’s message again in order to call Ed Meechum. But then he realized that he had no idea what the figures from F & F were all about. He would have to wait until he got to the office and reminded himself, he decided.

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

For a dream, it was having the strangest effects. In it, he had not driven a car at all during his recovery and rehabilitation process, and later his therapists had discouraged him from acquiring one. By that time he had become used to not owning a vehicle, and living close to the city in Oakland had given no cause for change. But now, on the way in from Fox Chapel in his Mercedes, he felt as if he really hadn’t driven for years. He was clumsy on lane changes, getting blared at a couple of times, and found himself uncertain about what should have been a familiar route that he had been taking every day since the move from Blawnox to Southside. Coming in on Route 28, he forgot that he had to exit onto East Ohio Street to get to 279 South, and instead carried on over the Veterans Bridge into the crosstown tangle, where he took a wrong ramp again and ended up in the early-morning downtown pileup, from which it took him fifteen minutes to extricate himself. The main problem was that the city he still remembered himself as living in for the past twelve years had changed more than he’d realized, and he had difficulty recalling the real one. However, he did remember his reserved parking slot at Xylog, found it, and after leaving his car, went up to the sixth floor.

“Good morning, Mr. Corrigan,” the receptionist greeted, smiling, as he came through the glass divider from the elevator hall on the sixth floor.

“Good morning . . .” He couldn’t remember her name. Nodding an awkward smile, he went on toward his office. Judy was at her post outside, looking relaxed but professional as usual.

“Good morning, Joe. I thought you said you’d be in first thing today. I was here extra early.”

“Oh, yes. . . . Sorry about that. I got stuck in traffic.”

“Did you get my message about the figures for Meechum?”

“Yes, thanks.”

“Called him yet?”

“Not yet. I just wanted to check through them with you first. Remind me what they were about, would you?”

Judy looked at him strangely for an instant, but turned to her keyboard, tapped in a code, and brought a file up onto one of her screens. “It’s the statistical correlations that Borth had done for the tests that we ran last week,” she said.

Ah, yes, it came back to him now. To impress one of Feller & Faber’s moneyed clients, Borth had commissioned a marketing analyst to massage the data from some test runs of “proto-animations” (i.e., primitive creations that had not evolved inside a full simulation yet) in such a way as to suggest that the buying patterns of real supermarket customers were already discernible. It was mainly fiction and wishful thinking, but the client was happy. Also, it would be good publicity material to slip into the interview with Meechum.

His memory refreshed, Corrigan asked Judy to get ahold of Meechum and went into his office. Inside, he stopped and looked around at the walnut-topped desk with its onyx penholders, shelves of reference books and reports that he liked to keep handy, diplomas and pictures framed on the wall. . . . Already, the sights of familiar things were triggering more memories and associations. The dream was beginning to fade at last; he could get back to being himself, and on with the important business at hand. There was a memo board with some cartoons and other clippings that, on the whole as he looked at them, struck him as somewhat immature and slightly silly for the office of a prospective technical director in this kind of operation. He made a mental note to get rid of them that morning. Also, on a shelf of a wall unit close by, was the figurine of an Irish leprechaun that cousin Jeff had given to Corrigan and Evelyn as a wedding gift during their honeymoon visit to Ireland. He frowned at it, puzzled. He was certain that Evelyn had put it on the window ledge in the den back at the house. What was it doing here?

Then the call tone sounded from the comm unit on one side of the desk. “I’ve got Ed Meechum,” Judy’s voice called through the open doorway.

“Okay.” Corrigan activated the screen, then hesitated, confused by the display of icons and options that it presented. After a few seconds Judy turned and leaned across to peer in at him.

“Aren’t you going to take it?”

“Er . . . I’m having a block today. What do I do?”

“Just hit Enter. It’s on Auto Accept.” She said it in the same tone that she might have used to tell him that turning the wheel steered the car.

“Oh, right. . . . Ed, hi.”

Meechum’s features appeared on the screen: lean, toothy, and with thinning hair, but at the same time healthy and vigorous, with a pink-skinned, open-air complexion. “How’s it going, Joe? Got some news for me?”

“Yes. We’ve got the figures. Want me to copy them through?” The eerie thing was that he remembered saying something like this before. How could the “dream” explain that? . . . Unless he had somehow projected it into the dream in anticipation, because he knew he was due to call Meechum. How could one stupid dream have gotten him feeling as rattled and confused as this?

“Great,” Meechum said. “How do they look?”

“Oh . . . I haven’t really had a chance to go through them closely, Ed. But from what Borth says, they look like what you wanted.”

“Me? Hell, it’s you who’s been pushing them on me, Joe.”

“Oh, yes. Right.”

“I’ve had Frank Tyron on me as well this morning, wanting to get a plug in about the new version of the interface hardware,” Meechum went on. He winked conspiratorially. “But I remembered what we agreed yesterday.” Corrigan had no idea who agreed what yesterday. “You’re all set for filming at four o’clock. Is that okay?”

“How long are we talking about?” Corrigan asked.

“For the interview?”

“Yes.”

“What I already told you: forty-five minutes, probably cut to around ten minutes’ air time.” Meechum looked pleased with himself, as if he were waiting for congratulations. He was saying that he was on Corrigan’s side, and they both understood how everything stacked up.

Corrigan sighed inwardly. There was serious work to do and a major project with all kinds of unknowns confronting them. Getting the job done was going to need all the talent they could muster. Suddenly, the whole business with Tyron that had been dragging on and interfering with everything forever seemed so unimportant and idiotic. Why exacerbate it any further?

“Hell, there’s time enough in that for both of us. Why don’t we simply get Frank in on it too?” Corrigan said.

Meechum stared out of the screen incredulously. “Tyron? You mean you want to let him on the show? You don’t mind? You’re saying you’ll hand him half the action?”

“Why not? He’s done a good job on the COSMOS interface. It’ll give you some good stuff.”

“Well, sure . . . if you say so.” Meechum shook his head as if this was all too much for him. “You want me to just go ahead and fix it with him, then?”

“Yes, do that.”

Meechum nodded, shook his head again, then decided to drop it. “I was thinking, Joe, afterward, we could get a cocktail someplace and have dinner. Maybe that place in the mall along by the river, the Gaucho, was it?”

That was where they had gone in the dream, Corrigan remembered. Had it been somehow prophetic, in the paranormal kind of way that he’d heard tell about but never had any time for? Could there be something to it after all? He wondered if he was tied in some inexplicable way to acting out those things that he remembered, or was he free to alter them if he chose? Try it, he told himself.

“I’ve had enough of the Gaucho, Ed,” he replied. “Let’s make it somewhere different this time. How about the Sheraton? It’s practically next door.”

“Suits me.”

Which seemed to answer that question.

“I’ll get Judy to fix it,” Corrigan said. “So we’ll see you here later.”

“Four o’clock.”

The screen cleared, and Corrigan looked up to see that Judy was waiting just inside the doorway, holding a folder and some papers. He motioned her in. She approached and placed the wad on the desk. “Gary called through while you were on the line. He’s on his way.”

“Gary?”

“Gary Quinn.”

Oh, yes. He had been one of Tom Hatcher’s software engineers, Corrigan recalled. “What for?” he asked.

“What for? To talk about the spec you wanted to change. There’s the file, with a fax that came through from Cindi in Blawnox.” Judy watched uneasily as Corrigan sat down and turned the sheets. From his actions it was clear that he wasn’t sure what he was supposed to be looking for. “Joe, you’d been here talking about it for an hour when I left last night. It’s the spec for the second-level attribute cross-linkages. It has to be approved and sent through to Keith before lunch today.”

“Oh, yes. . . . Right. I just need a minute to recap. It’s okay, Judy. You can carry on.”

But Judy stayed where she was, looking worried. “I have to ask, are you feeling all right today, Joe? You’ve been burning it at both ends for months. . . . And now this thing with Evelyn on top of it all. Let me slot you in sometime today for a check.”

“No, it’s all right. I guess I hit the bars a bit last night. Probably a reaction, eh? Everything’s still hazy.”

Judy shook her head. “What’s happening to everybody this morning? Tom Hatcher was supposed to be here too, but his secretary says he hasn’t showed up—not even a word. And the full simulation is scheduled to go live in three days’ time. It’s crazy.”

“Maybe Tom’s been feeling the strain and doing some unwinding too,” Corrigan said, forcing a grin. “Be an angel for me, would you? Fetch me a strong, hot coffee, black with nothing, and I’ll be fine.”

CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

Somehow he muddled his way through until the late morning, when Amanda Ramussienne called. She was still in New York.

“Joe, hi darling,” she crooned. “Look, I hate to do this, but I’m gonna have to break your heart. Something’s come up that I can’t do anything about, which means I’m stuck in town and can’t make it down there today. Promise you won’t hold it against me for the rest of time.”

So it appeared that lots of things were free to change: Here was one less complication to deal with. Corrigan decided he could live with that. He forced a resigned grin. “Well, too bad. Life happens, I guess.”

“And I was
so
looking forward to it! You still have that promise to keep.”

“We’ll get by.” Corrigan had no idea what she meant. “I appreciate your letting me know.”

“You’re so understanding. I’ll make it up with interest.”

“I’ll be here.”

“Well, it’s all a panic here. Have to go. You’ll do great on the interview with Ed. I wanted to be there. So sorry again, Joe.” She winked a promise; blew him a kiss, and vanished.

Corrigan sat, staring at the blank screen, wondering what had possessed him. Looking back from where he saw things now, the whole business with Amanda felt grubby and sordid. Had the phoniness and gaudiness always been that transparent? And then the full realization dawned on him that it hadn’t all happened
then
;
it was
now
. It was possible that he could straighten things out with Evelyn.

Then Judy came through to remind him that he was due to have lunch with somebody from another F & F client. The name meant nothing. “What’s it about?” Corrigan asked.

“He’s the one who thinks Oz could be used to try out an idea he’s had for using media superheroes to promote products to adults the way they do already with juveniles,” Judy said.

Corrigan remembered him. A complete flake. He had talked without stopping all through lunch, without telling Corrigan anything he didn’t already know. Corrigan couldn’t face the prospect of repeating it. “You know, maybe you’re right,” he told Judy. “Maybe I’m not feeling myself today. Can you fob him off for me? Tell him something vital has come up on the project—anything.”

“Leave it to me,” Judy said.

Corrigan went off to a coffee shop in Station Square to think and be alone.

For he was unable to avoid a conviction that had been steadily growing inside him all morning that the impressions that he had woken up with that morning of having lived years past today were not the result of some extraordinarily vivid dream or fabrication, but that it
had
happened, somehow, and now he was back at the age of thirty-two again and had lived this day before. But how could that be? Things like that simply didn’t happen.

All he could think of was that the life he remembered living after having the breakdown and Oz being canceled had, in fact, been real, but distorted in the process of his gradual recovery—in other words, exactly what he had been told it was. In that case, everything he was experiencing now was an illusion, perhaps taking place in the course of some kind of catastrophic relapse manufactured out of his stored experiences from long ago. So was he really back in Mercy Hospital or somewhere in 2022, thinking that he was back in 2010, before he had the breakdown? But if everything he was experiencing was the product of a deranged mind, then anything was possible and his situation was a total solipsism, with no possibility of his being able to prove or disprove anything by any form of investigation or experiment, one way or the other.

But then, on the other hand, would a deranged mind be capable of thinking it through this logically? In which case it was real. But since time travel didn’t happen, if it was true, it followed logically that it had to be a delusion. Unless, of course, he was only
thinking
that he was being logical. . . .