Cypress Point (36 page)

Lisbeth closed her eyes. “So that's how you found out I was
alive, and Alan found out he'd lost his wife.” She turned her head to the side, crying again. “Oh, Carly.”

Gabriel smoothed his hand over her hair, and she could feel the tension in his fingers.

“You can have her life, Liz. Not her husband, though.”

She heard the hint of a smile in his voice and turned to look at him. He
was
smiling at her. They were not feeling the same thing right now. Gabe had already moved past the grief that was weighing her down.

“Alan
would
be your husband in public, of course,” Gabriel said, “but you would be mine when we're alone. Then, in all other ways, you can have Carlynn's life. The mansion at Cypress Point will one day be yours. And you can live there forever. With me. Money will never, ever be a problem for any of us or for the center.”

Cypress Point,
Lisbeth thought. She could live there, share it with Gabe.

“What would Carlynn want me to do?” she asked.

“What do you think?” Gabriel asked her.

“She'd want me to have everything she did,” she said, knowing that was the truth. “But not this way.”

“Is there another way?” Gabriel asked.

“It's insane, though,” she said. “I can't heal anyone. I'm not a doctor.”

“It doesn't matter,” Gabriel said. “Alan and I will work out the details. We just need the world—and your mother—to think that Carlynn Shire is still alive. We can always say that the accident somehow altered your healing ability. It doesn't matter. The center is really about research,” he said. “And we can change the shape of that research. We can attract other known healers to the center, and they can become subjects for study.”

The door opened, and a nurse walked in followed by Alan,
who looked nothing short of panic-stricken at being unable to keep the woman out of the room a moment longer. The air vibrated with tension as the nurse took Lisbeth's blood pressure and pulse and slipped the thermometer beneath her tongue.

“Do you know where you are?” she asked Lisbeth once she'd removed the thermometer.

“The hospital,” Lisbeth said.

“And do you know what year it is?”

Lisbeth had to think for a moment. “Nineteen sixty-seven?” she asked, not completely certain.

“Very good,” the nurse said. “And you know these gentlemen? Which one is your hubby?”

Lisbeth swallowed hard.
Carly, Carly, Carly. What do you want me to do?
She glanced at Gabriel, then turned her face toward Alan.

“That one,” she said.

L
iam would have stayed with Joelle while they examined her, but he was being treated in another curtained-off cubicle of the E.R. himself. He'd broken the index finger on his right hand, and Bart was now injecting something into his jaw to numb it, so that he could stitch the jagged cut Liam had no memory of receiving.

He'd never hit another human being in his entire life. Not even as a kid. But, it had felt so natural to him. So right. He wanted to beat that bastard to a pulp. The image of him kicking Joelle into the wall was imbedded in his mind forever.

He knew where she was. Three cubicles down from him. For a while, he could hear her crying. The police had been questioning him at that time, and he'd asked them to let him go to her, but they said she was being well cared for.

“And you're bleeding all over the place, besides,” one of the cops had added.

“Do you know how Joelle is?” he asked Bart now, as the doctor sat down next to him and began working on the laceration on his jaw.

“They've taken her to the Women's Wing,” he said.

That's why he was no longer hearing her cry, Liam thought. “Is she okay?” he asked.

“She's in premature labor.”

“Oh, no,” he said. “She's only…what…thirty weeks?”

“Stop talking, Liam,” Bart said. “I think that's what I heard. Thirty weeks. It's going to be rough if she has that baby now.”

It was happening again: another pregnancy, another child of his, being born into tragedy. And he cared—he truly did—about that baby. But just then, he cared far more what happened to Joelle.

“Is Joelle okay, though?” he asked again. “I mean…besides the labor?”

“She has a couple of cracked ribs, I think,” Bart said, leaning back from his work. “And if you keep talking, Liam, this will take all day.”

After Bart had finished stitching his jaw, Liam threw away the bloody shirt and pants he'd had on and borrowed a pair of blue scrubs to wear for the rest of the day. He left the E.R. and headed toward the Women's Wing, but stopped off in the men's room to see what had been done to his face. His image in the mirror shocked him. The cut on his chin was bandaged, as was his splinted aching finger, but there were bruises on his face that he could not remember receiving. He'd told the police he'd done all the hitting, yet that was obviously not the case, and he imagined the cops probably had a good laugh at his expense after they'd finished questioning him. Suddenly, he was very tired. He leaned against the tiled wall in the rest room and closed his eyes.

Joelle had to be terrified, he thought. She knew too much about what could go wrong with a pregnancy. Just like Mara did.

He felt a little sick to his stomach as he walked out of the men's room and down the corridor. He would visit Joelle as her fellow social worker, her friend, the guy who'd also been involved in the altercation that caused her injury. No one would think anything of it.

He found Serena Marquez at the nurses' station in the Women's Wing.

“How's Joelle?” he asked.

“Oh my God,” Serena said, when she saw him. “I heard you beat up the guy that kicked Joelle. It looks like it was the other way around.”

“How's Joelle?” he repeated, not in any mood for banter.

“Rebecca's trying to stop her labor,” Serena said.

“Can she?” he asked. “I mean, how is it going?”

“Don't know yet,” Serena said. “But her membranes have ruptured, so that's not great.”

“Can I see her?” he asked.

Serena looked at the clock. “Give her about twenty minutes or so,” she said. “Rebecca's examining her. She's starting her on some betamethasome and antibiotics.”

“What's the beta…whatever for?”

“To mature the baby's lungs in case her labor can't be stopped. Without it—and even with it—a thirty-weeker could have some pretty serious problems.” She picked up a chart and started to leave the nurses' station. “She's in room twenty,” she said, over her shoulder.

He sat down at the counter and reached for the phone. Pulling the phone book from the shelf under the counter, he looked up the number for the Shire Mind and Body Center and dialed it. A young-sounding woman answered the phone.

“Hello,” he said. “I need to get in touch with Carlynn Shire
and I don't have her home number. Can you tell me how I can reach her? It's urgent.”

“What is this regarding?” the woman asked.

“It's about a friend of hers. Joelle D'Angelo. She's in labor, and I wanted to see if Carlynn could come over here, to Silas Memorial, to be with her.”

“I'll get that message to her.”

“Right away?” he asked.

“I'll call her, and if she's there, she'll get it. If not, I can't say when.”

“Try to find her, please. And ask her to call me. Liam Sommers.” He gave her the hospital number. “Have her ask the operator to page me.”

His pager buzzed exactly twenty minutes later, when he was getting up his courage to walk down the hall to room twenty. He picked up the phone.

“It's Carlynn, Liam,” she said. “I received your message and got a ride to the hospital. I'm in the lobby. Is Joelle all right?”

“I'll be right over,” he said. “We can talk there.”

She was sitting in the lobby near the windows, balancing her hands on the top of her cane. He sat down in the chair next to hers.

“Thanks for coming,” he said.

“What happened?” she asked. “And what on earth happened to you?”

“Joelle was interviewing a battered woman in the emergency room, and the woman's boyfriend broke into the room and kicked her in the stomach.”

Carlynn's hand flew to her mouth. “Oh, no,” she said. “Is she all right?”

He shook his head. “She has some cracked ribs and she's in premature labor,” he said.

“Oh, that's not good,” Carlynn said. “Not this early. And your face? Your finger?”

“I punched the daylights out of the guy who kicked her,” he said. “And I'm paying for it now.” He held up his throbbing hand.

“Good for you!” Carlynn looked pleased with him. “What's the prognosis on Joelle, do you know?”

“They're trying to stop the labor,” he said. “I thought it might help her to have you with her.”

“Why not you?” she asked.

“I'm not a healer.”

Carlynn looked down at her hands where they rested on the top of her cane. “I believe that, right now, you can probably do more for her than I could.”

He felt annoyed. She was always trying to push the two of them together as though Mara didn't exist. “Do you understand my dilemma, Carlynn?” he asked.

“I understand that you and Joelle are willing to sacrifice your own happiness for someone who doesn't need you to make those sacrifices,” Carlynn said, and he recoiled from her suddenly forceful tone. “And I'm willing to bet,” she continued, “that if Mara could talk, from all you and Joelle have told me about her, she wouldn't want you to make them, either. She'd want Joelle to take care of you and Sam the way only a woman who adores you both can do.”

“I thought you were supposedly trying to heal Mara,” he said. “Or have you just been playing with Joelle? Playing with both of us?”

“I've been working very hard,” Carlynn said. “But you're right. It hasn't been Mara that I've been attempting to heal. She doesn't need my help, Liam, I've known that from the start. It's you and Joelle who need healing. Look at Mara. She's always smiling. Have you ever seen her appear to be suffering?”

He didn't respond. They both knew the answer to her question.

He stared out the window, collecting his thoughts. “If I give in to my feelings for Joelle,” he said, “it feels like I'm betraying my wife.”

“You're not abandoning Mara, dear.” Carlynn's tone softened. “You and Joelle can't possibly hurt her by loving each other, and you don't need to be divorced, for you and Joelle to be married in your hearts. The happier you are, the more strength you'll have to give to Mara. And to your little boy. I believe you have a responsibility to your child…to your children…to live a full and happy life.”

“Children.” He repeated the word more to himself than to her.

“Right now,” Carlynn leaned forward, her arms folded on the table, “you have a choice. You can go be with Mara, who feels very, very little, and who will be smiling whether you're there or not. Or you can go and be with Joelle, who still feels everything—fear and love and worry—and who is feeling all those things right now as she prays to hold on to your child. You decide who needs you more.”

“Will you go see her?” he asked.

“Yes, of course I will. But I can't take your place, Liam. Not at her side, and not in her heart.”

He left the lobby, but he did not go near the Women's Wing for fear that someone would corner him to tell him that Joelle was asking for him. There was someplace else he needed to go first.

 

Mara was sleeping when he went into her room at the nursing home. He closed the door behind him, wanting privacy with his wife.

“Mara?”

Lowering the railing on her bed, he sat next to her as she
opened her eyes. She smiled at him, let out her squeal, and he leaned forward to kiss her.

“I need to talk with you, honey,” he said. He reached across her body for her right hand, the hand that would feel his presence. “I'm struggling, Mara,” he said. “I love you. I'd give anything to make you whole again. You've been so wonderful for me. You've given me so much joy.” He ran his free hand over her too-long hair. “And a beautiful son,” he said. “The years we spent together were truly the best years of my life. But they're over now, and I need to let go of them.” He smiled sadly. “You've already done that, in your own way, haven't you?”

She was staring at him, her eyes huge and riveting, but her smile had not changed.

“I've fallen in love with Joelle, Mara,” he said. “We have one really huge thing in common, and that's you. We both love you. We both want to take care of you. And I want you to know that I'll always be here for you. I'll never stop visiting you, no matter what else happens in my life.”

He ran his thumb over the back of her hand. “But I'm having a hard time letting go of you,” he said. “I don't want to feel as though I'm betraying you. I love you so much.” He looked hard into her eyes. “Oh, Mara,” he said. “I wish you could give me a sign, somehow. Squeeze my hand. Blink your eyes. Let me know it's okay for me to move on.”

He studied her, and she smiled at him with the same vacuous smile that meant nothing other than the corners of her mouth were upturned. It was the only sign she was able to give him, and the only sign he needed.

Letting go of her hand, he brushed a strand of her hair back from her face. “Thanks, honey,” he said. Then he leaned forward to kiss her goodbye.