Dangerous Loves Romantic Suspense Collection (40 page)

A tense silence weighed down the air in the room.

“What did you say?” he said at long last. He turned toward her.

She grabbed his hands. “I said that I love you, Nigel.” The words came much easier now. “I love you. And there is nothing you can do to get rid of me. I can be quite stubborn, I’ll have you know. Once my mind is set there really is very little that can be done to change it.” She smiled despite her tear-dampened cheeks. “You, my dear husband, are good and stuck with me.”

He wrapped his arms around her and held her tightly against his chest as he crowned her head with a halo of gentle kisses.

“Thank you,” he whispered.

* * * *

Nigel slept late the next day. When he finally woke he felt more refreshed, more relaxed than he could ever remember feeling. Though he was alone in the chamber at this late hour, Elsbeth had once again spent the entire night in his bed, a pleasure he fully intended to repeat for as long as he lived.

After dressing and eating a quick breakfast, he grew restless. He sat alone at the breakfast table while his fingers fidgeted and the bitter scent of paints called to him.

An overwhelming urge to paint struck him hard in the chest. This wasn’t right. Years and years of training had honed his ability to push all his artistic longings into that pitiful creature Dionysus. Yet over the last few weeks, his barriers had slowly eroded away until he no longer could clearly tell where his personality ended and Dionysus’s began.

He buried his face in his hands and groaned. Elsbeth was married to a madman. She deserved better, but no matter how hard he tried, he feared he would never be able to completely destroy the demon infecting his soul.

“You are a damned dreamer, boy. A weakling.” How many times had he heard his uncle say those exact words to him? How many times had his uncle failed to beat the demon from him?

With a silent curse, he returned to the dank cellar, back to his personal hell.

But when he got there he saw that the door to his workshop stood open.

He ran halfway down the steps to find that the room had been stripped bare. Only a rough wooden table and a scattering of discarded canvases remained.

“Gainsford!” Nigel bellowed.

* * * *

Elsbeth wasn’t sure what to expect. She had left Nigel’s bed before sunrise and had set the servants immediately to work. This was something she needed to do. Her love for Nigel and Dionysus could not remain fractured.

Nigel deserved more. And so did she.

She waited for him in a bright parlor in the back of the house. The sun streamed into its windows for a goodly portion of the day. The view of the flower garden was sure to inspire.

She bit her lip and prayed she’d done the right thing. Nigel, she was discovering, had feelings as tender and fragile as her own. What she’d done, she’d done out of love.

She prayed he’d view it in the same way.

The commotion downstairs grew louder. Poor Nigel, he sounded so very upset. “Gainsford!” he cried out again. Gainsford—who’d warned her that she was making a grave mistake—must have gone into hiding.

“This isn’t a mistake,” she told herself firmly. She settled in a white brocade chair and waited. Not a minute later Nigel came rushing through the door. His face pale, he eyes wild with emotion.

“What is the meaning of this?” he demanded.

“I have done what you should have done years ago, Nigel. I—”

“
What I should have done
?” He pulled his hand through his already mussed hair. “Bloody hell,” he muttered.

With the grace of a queen, she rose and selected a paintbrush from a set neatly spread out on a table. She crossed the room and closed his fingers around its long, wooden handle.

Nigel stared at the brush.

“I have brought you into the light.” All the furniture, save for the one chair, had been removed to make room for his paints and supplies. She’d done everything she could to transform the room into a pleasant studio.

“There is no reason to hide anymore. I love you. And that love has always included Dionysus.” She caressed his cheek.

He didn’t speak, didn’t breathe. His hand tightened around the ferrule of the brush. He couldn’t seem to tear his gaze from it.

“Nigel?” She began to worry now.

He blinked.

“Please, don’t be angry. We can have it all moved back.” Perhaps Gainsford had been right. Perhaps he wasn’t ready.

Nigel wandered to the window and stared down at the flowers in the garden below. “Don’t you dare change a blessed thing, Elsbeth.”

A smile grew on his lips. “This is all rather a shock, you know.” He shook away his stricken look and drew a deep breath. “You were right, of course…to move my workshop up here, I mean. I couldn’t expect you to pose for me for hours on end in that cellar.” That hungry look flashed in his eyes. “It does get rather cold down there, love,” He grinned wolfishly and swept her into his arms.

“I love you, Elsbeth.”

Epilogue

Leaves rustled high in the trees as a gentle wind provided little relief to the warm summer air. Nigel and Elsbeth had decided to walk back to the Baneshire Estate from the quaint country church whose weathered stone walls had witnessed centuries of happy marriages between the Baneshire family and the other respected members of the
ton
. Today was no exception. The church had been filled with friends and family spilling out onto the grassy lawn in front.

“Everything was perfect, absolutely perfect,” Elsbeth said with a sigh. A smile brightened her eyes as she slipped her hand into Nigel’s.

Holding hands with Elsbeth felt natural now. It had been three months since their hasty marriage at his home in Dorset, and he was uncommonly happy. And he had Elsbeth to thank for that. Her gentle encouragement of his creative soul had healed him.

He felt secure in her love and was beginning to trust that she felt secure in his as well.

They passed over a small wooden bridge. Water gurgled in the creek below them. The Baneshire house, a modest brick manor, loomed just over the rise. Soon, they would have to join the hordes of guests. Soon, duties to family would keep them apart.

“I would like to paint a portrait of you,” he said. “Here…now.”

She tipped her head back to smile up at him from beneath the straw bonnet shading her face. “Would I be wearing anything in this portrait?” Her sapphire eyes darkened. He was beginning to learn that look. Desire.

He leaned forward and traced the outline of her lips with the pad of his finger. “Just that smile, I believe.”

She took his finger into her mouth and bit the tip gently, making his pants suddenly feel tight and uncomfortable. He searched the landscape for a secluded spot where they could escape for an hour or so. If they were careful, they could both return to the manor house unrumpled.

“There is a small hunting box not too far away,” she said. Over the past couple of months she’d blossomed into a wonderfully wicked and sensual woman. She tugged on his hand. “We won’t be missed.”

He gladly followed her lead.

“There you are,” Olivia called out from the path in front of them. “I suspected you would try and disappear. Lauretta and Severin would be vastly disappointed if you were absent for the first toast. Especially considering that you, Edgeware, just stood up with Severin while he married my sister.”

While he scowled at Olivia, Elsbeth, his gentle wife, laughed at his discomfort. “Later,” she whispered as they dutifully followed Olivia to the house.

“Have you told him?” Olivia asked.

“No, now shush,” Elsbeth answered far too quickly and then hurried on ahead.

“Told me what?” He stopped in the middle of the path.

“You should tell him. Mama says he has a right to know.” Olivia and Elsbeth continued walking on ahead as if he didn’t exist.

Elsbeth linked her arm with Olivia’s. “I am not ready. I’m terrified, if truth be known. Molly only told me yesterday. She said I should have known myself.”

The day after Sir Donald had been killed, he’d sent for Molly who had still been confined to the servant’s quarters in Dorset. He’d spoken with the feisty maid at length in the privacy of his study. Molly, a bit wary at first, had agreed to try not to shoot at him again. She’d seemed sincere enough at the time. But perhaps he’d been wrong to let her return to her former position.

What trickery was the woman up to now? Elsbeth was terrified to tell him something? He ran ahead and caught her arm. “You can tell me anything. I won’t be angry with you. You must know that by now.”

Olivia laughed. “I doubt she’s terrified of your reaction, Edgeware.”

Elsbeth fluttered her hands in the air.

“Oh, stop being such a ninny and tell him.”

His mind filled with horrible possibilities. They had only just found each other. He couldn’t lose her now. “
Please, Elsbeth
.”

“Very well.” She took her time removing her bonnet. “Molly believes I am—I am—” She turned a plaintive look toward Olivia. “It just seems impossible.”

“You are, what?” He pressed.

She’s dying
. He should have known their happiness couldn’t last.

“Molly believes I am with child,” she said with a rush.

“
With child
?” The world began to spin.

“I haven’t had my courses for at least two months. I am usually very regular, you see. And I have been ill. Just in the mornings, mind you. It is impossible, though. I’m barren.” Her nervous fingers twisted the ribbon on her bonnet, crumpling it beyond repair.

“
With child
?” He felt as if he were being smothered.

“It’s not impossible, Elly. Mama already explained all that.”

“
With child
?” A great buzzing filled his ears.

“Why does he keep asking that?” Elsbeth asked.

“He’s in shock.” Olivia gave Elsbeth a shove in his direction. “I think he’s going to faint.”

Elsbeth wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged him tightly. “Please don’t, Nigel. I need you to be strong. I, for one, am simply terrified.”

“You can count on me, Elsbeth,” He closed his eyes and breathed in her sweet fragrance. A beautiful toddler with the face of an angel danced merrily through his thoughts. “A baby…
your
baby.”

He wrapped his arms around her, amazed at how astonishing the world could be.

For the strong women I've been lucky enough to know and, sadly, the world has since lost. I have been forever changed.

Without them, I would have never had the courage to write. God bless you.

Acknowledgements

I'd like to give a special thanks to Tracey West and Luisa Pugliano for helping this book finally make its way into publication.

And to Judy Ashley for helping revise this book and giving me the encouragement to stick with it!

Chapter One

Vega Brookes sighed and let her head sink deep into Butch Polsen’s pillow. She couldn’t think of a better way to spend the afternoon.

Butch was a hulk of a man with edges rougher than shattered glass, but damn, he knew how to touch a woman’s body. Stripped nude, he balanced on top of her with his battered, leather cowboy hat sitting at a crooked angle on top of his blond head. His blue eyes sparkled. He liked to be on top. It was a power thing for him.

Today, she wanted him on top, too. She’d spent most of the previous night chasing a drug pusher with an arsenal of guns who got his jollies putting nasty holes in people and didn’t think bothering to show up for his own jury trial important. The slushy Detroit alleyways she’d chased him through had nearly ruined her favorite lace-up boots. And they weren’t cheap.

So when Butch pushed her onto his bed and climbed on top, she didn’t complain. Let him do all the work, she was tired.

At the moment, he was tracing a line with that hot tongue of his around her breasts until her nipples turned hard before working his way up her neck.

“Butch,” she whispered on a weighty breath, “do that thing with your fingers. That thing that makes me crazy.”

He raised his head and smiled. He had that look in his eyes, that sharp, assessing stare. Vega knew what it meant.

“Let me tie you up.” His hot breath caressed her neck.

“Butch—” The shrill chirp of her digital phone cut everything short, including her need to lose herself with him no matter how rough he liked to make things. With a push, she rolled him off her and slipped from the bed.

“Ignore it,” he growled.

“Can’t. Told Jack I’d be available.” She pulled her leather jacket from the chair, and her phone from its inside pocket.

“Jack!” Butch punched the bed.

“Yep?” she said into the phone. Standing in the middle of Butch’s one-room apartment not worrying about the uncovered windows or her lack of clothes, she scribbled a barely legible name and court date into her small notebook. “He’ll be easy to get. This is what, the third time I’ve had to bring him to court? I feel like a freaking nanny or something.”

But as long as the money was good, she’d happily bring in Lionel every day.

Lionel Wahl, aka “The Great Wall” because of his massive size, followed a rigid routine, including his attempts to give the law the slip. If she worked quickly, his pickup would bring her an easy paycheck. She uttered a quick goodbye to Jack—the owner of the bail enforcement agency that signed her paycheck—before snapping the tiny silver phone shut and jamming it back into her jacket pocket.