Darden's Pursuit of Happiness: Darden and Willow (8 page)

“Now you are asking for it!” Darden’s began working like a piston. Deep even strokes were being doled out. Willow’s moans deepened and her hips were moving in a tight circular motion. Darden could hardly handle what she was doing to him.  But he was determined to not reach his release until he was good and ready.

Whatever rhythm Darden set, she met it.  Darden filled his hands with her hips and drove deep then he locked down on her and ground his mound against her clitoris. By his last count she had had two orgasms since intercourse had begun.  She was writhing under him and he knew she was close to a big orgasmic wave of delight. Wave after wave struck and he wouldn’t let up and made sure he stayed high in the saddle and increased the pressure on the elusive G-Spot.  Hell, he was hitting all the letters before G as well. She screamed so loudly he thought he would hear sirens at any moment.

That last scream drove him over the edge.  He feared that he had emptied his sacs so completely that he had overflowed his condom.  Yes, he wanted to do this the right way. But he didn’t give a damn if this was the moment she conceived. He would be thrilled.  Especially, to be given the chance to watch her belly grow with his baby inside.  He would be one proud husband and papa.

Darden held Willow for a half hour and then slipped out of bed to dispose of the condom and warm a washcloth for Willow.  While he was in the bathroom he thought he should draw Willow a hot bath.  He knew she would be sore as their lovemaking had been a lot more vigorous than he initially wanted it to be. She had driven him to utter madness. But, in many ways he was proud of her she had overcome her fears. Although, they both knew they had a long ways to go.  She had taken the crucial big step.

            
 
Darden and Willow worked together in the kitchen to create late breakfast.  They worked alongside each other but didn’t talk. Was she too embarrassed to discuss what happen between them earlier this morning? He had planned for a day of exploration of each other’s bodies but not intercourse. Her body didn’t need him that way, when the time was right he would explain to her why that was the case.  Darden felt through all his research about women who had been brutally raped that a few of the steps on the road to recovery is gain some sort of control. 

              Willow had taken control by initiating the sex act this morning.  And when he thought they should stop she plodded on further. Selfishly, he was glad she had.  Making love to someone you are in love with is somehow so much better than he ever anticipated.  He had heard that, but he thought it was just something that people said. Now he can honestly say it was a fact and not just something people say. No other woman could drive him over the edge the way she had.

              He hadn’t even planned to get into the bathtub with her but he did after she asked him not to leave her alone.  He eased himself into the tub, sitting behind her.  He was suddenly glad he had invested money in redoing the master bath before he moved in to enlarge it and make room for a resort style Jacuzzi tub complete with waterfall. They fit comfortably and he could stretch out his long legs. It felt good to sit in the tub. Especially with Willow in his arms, he felt like this was so right.   He could imagine doing this once a week.  They would make time for this. He couldn’t wait to make love to her in the water. Here they talked about nothing. He scrubbed her back and caressed her arms.  He placed a few kisses on her shoulder. They relaxed in the tub until the water became lukewarm. Darden helped her out of the tub and made sure she was wrapped securely in the towel.  He kissed her in a way that she should have known he desired her. He asked her to get dressed and meet him in the kitchen.

              Darden turned on the stereo and selected a few well-appointed CDs. He loved a wide variety of music. He loved everything except Country.  The kitchen filled with music. He decided they would have omelets and crepes.  He had made the crepe batter and put it in the freezer to cool down faster and set the timer for 30 minutes.   He shredded the cheese and Willow had walked into the room.  Darden told her where the vegetables were and she set to work on them. 

              Willow began to set the table and still neither of them had spoken to each other.  But someone had to break the ice.  The food was ready and they sat down to eat. “Is it alright if we talk?”

              “Sure.”

              “I would like to talk about last night and this morning?”

              “Okay”

              “We have always been very straight forward with each other. We have always stated what was exactly on our minds to each other.  Good bad or indifferent.  Do you agree with that?”

              “Yes.”

              “Are you embarrassed about what happened between us?”

              “No of course not, are you?”

              “No” Darden didn’t think this was going well at all.

              “Are you hurting at all?”

              “No I am fine, the bath helped tremendously and I am glad you recommended it.”

              “Then what is going on? Are you disappointed?  Is it not what you expected it to be?”

              “Darden I have been wondering if you were disappointed. I am not experienced. And frankly, I didn’t have a clue as to what I was doing.  If I am embarrassed about anything it is about my lack of experience.” Willow bit her lip and put her fork down. “Suffice it to say you have been my only partner. I fear you won’t want to be with me ever again because I did so poorly pleasing you.”

              Darden squinted.  “You think you did poorly? If you had done any better I would probably be in ICU right now. You were fabulous.  By the way, where did where did you learn some of your moves?”

              “I came across some information when I was researching a paper.  And I grew interested and continued researching on my own. Where did you learn your moves?”

              “I spent six weeks in Southeast Asia and my father hired someone to teach me how to please a woman. Most of which, I will try out on you for the first time. Just so you know I haven’t tried it with anyone else.  I want it to be with you and only you.”

              Willow was surprised. “So the way you kiss me is only for me?’

              “Yes the kiss is specifically for you.  I wasn’t really all that into kissing women when I was dating. I, typically, was after fulfilment and they were too.  They knew it wasn’t about a relationship. It was usually one and done.  Never did I do repeats.  Because I knew who I wanted.”

              “Why me, why not someone more like yourself?

              “Because, I love you, it is just that simple.  I have dated many and none of them electrified me the way you do.  None of them drove me to distraction.  None of them did I fantasize about before or after. None of them had my heart, only you.”

              “But, I may not be able to provide you children.”

              “And we talked about that already.  I don’t care about that. I want you.  If we are able to have children then fine if not, I will be more than happy to purchase them.”

              “Darden!”

              “I just want you to know how serious I am about this, how serious I am about you.”

              Darden stood and went to a drawer in the desk and pulled out a blue box with a white ribbon.  He brought it back to the table.  “I am prepared if you wanted to get married today.  We can fly to Las Vegas.”

              Willow’s eyes were huge. “Darden, I . . . I don’t know what to say.”

              “You can easily say yes to the engagement and we can wait a bit for the wedding, maybe until after you graduate.  You can still go to grad school. Or you can start a career. All that matters to me is you will be my wife.” Darden’s eyes were a very vibrant blue.  It was an indication that he was excited and happy.

              “I need to think about this.  This is just so overwhelming.” Willow started to tear up. The tears started streaming down her face. Willow got up abruptly and practically ran upstairs to the room where her things were and quietly closed the door. It was all happening to fast.  She needed to get out of here. She was panicking again.  She tried to talk herself into calming down. It wasn’t working. 

How could he feel so strongly?  How could he have orchestrated all of this?  How long has he had the ring? I didn’t even look at the ring.  Did I insult him?  He knows me better than that.  I am just so unsure about this.  What if things are good now and Darden turns out to be just like Dade?  She didn’t want to find herself trapped in a relationship or marriage for that matter with someone who was abusive. Was Darden like Dade last night or this morning? Darden was patient.  He never pushed her and never manipulated her? He wanted the decision to be hers.  Darden was simply proving to her that he was ready whenever she was.  Why did you get so upset?  He wanted her to know that it was meaningful. You know the answer, it is exactly the same, and he loves you.  He had shown her in so many different ways.  Why was she so scared? You’re scared because you fear disappointing him.  But he has already told you, you will never disappoint him. Why couldn’t she just believe in him? Was it because he looked too much like her rapist? Where did that thought come from? Willow lie on the bed and closed her eyes.

Darden had cleaned up the kitchen.  There wasn’t much to do.  Willow liked to clean as they cooked. As he cleaned, he thought, she didn’t even open the box. Any other woman would have screamed out their joy and wanted to open the box but, not her. This is another reason he loved her.  She wasn’t about material things. She kept it simple. With her time was the key.  He would give her all the time she needed.  He wouldn’t lie to himself, his heart ached. He wanted her to stay with him. He wanted her willing to spend the rest of her life with him. Willow was the ultimate key to his happiness.  He was happier when they were arguing than he was when they were apart. He just needed to give her time. Darden grabbed the box and took it up to his bedroom.  He knew from looking to the right she wasn’t in his bedroom. She either didn’t want to be there or didn’t think she had the right to be there. After this morning how could she think that? He placed the box in a drawer out of sight. Then he walked down the hall to where Willow was.  He placed his hand on the door. Darden stood for a moment and prayed.  It was the second time in two days he had prayed before entering a room to see her. He had to admit to himself he couldn’t stand to be apart from her.

Darden knocked on the door lightly.  Deep down inside, he wanted to knock the damn door down. “Willow, may I come in?

Willow opened the door.  It broke his heart to know that the tears were still flowing.  He offered his hand to her and to his surprised she pulled him into the room.  Willow immediately placed her hands on his chest and stared into his eyes. “Why do you want someone that has so many doubts and is such a mess inside?” Willow’s voice was unsteady. But it was clear she was trying to pull herself together.

“You don’t need to doubt anything about us, just think positively.” Darden was stunned by her question.  Does she doubt my love for her? No, that isn’t it, well, not exactly.  She doesn’t value herself as highly as I value her, she must think she isn’t worthy of my love.  “Is it that you don’t think you are worthy of my attention or my love? Because, you are more than worthy, you mean everything to me.  In many ways, it is I who isn’t worthy of your love.”

              “How could you ever think that?” Willow thought something was terribly wrong with that idea. Darden was very intelligent, with a sometimes wicked sense of humor and yes, sexy as hell with a voice to match. When he walked into any room, he turned heads. He had a quiet masculinity that overwhelmed you before you knew it.

              “Well, you have run away from me twice, albeit not very far but still you ran.  But if you could have, you would have left the house already. You weren’t even the slightest bit interested to see what was inside the box. But, I know you. You aren’t all about material things. I know you love me.  And I know you need time to sort through this. For me this isn’t happening fast enough and for you it is a tornado of events. You probably have a lot of questions and when you are ready we will discuss it.  But right now, all I want to do, is hold you in my arms. I am willing to keep telling you and showing you that I love you and only you, until you believe it as well as accept it.”

              “I know you love me but . . . “

              “There are no buts in this relationship.  It is obvious you need some time to figure this all out for yourself.  I am willing to wait for you to get it. Believe me when I tell you I know what I am getting myself into. And after this morning, I can’t wait to get back into it.”  Darden winked at her. Darden pulled her closer to the fit of him.  Willow’s body seemed to meld perfectly to his.  He loved every moment of it. He could feel her breasts pressed against his chest and immediately thought what it would be like to go horseback riding with her breasts pressed against his back or maybe a motorcycle ride? The horseback ride required less concentration.  I would to make love to her on a horse or a motorcycle across beach sand. The vibration of the right motorcycle could herald an amazing orgasm for both of us. Losing my focus on the motorcycle could be deadly.  Alright time to get focused.  Darden lowered his head and kissed her lightly on the lips. Then, he licked a trail of her tears. Her tears were salty and sweet at the same time, very unusual. She was perfect in every way.  Tears are supposed to be salty but, hers had a sweetness. He kissed her mouth again and this time he was hungry for her.

              Before Willow realized it the door behind him was opened and he had scooped her up and was carrying her down the hall. “Darden what are you doing? Put me down!” Darden seemed to hesitate but then he moved a little faster.

              “I will put you down once we are in my bedroom.” 

              “What was wrong with where we were?”

              “I want you on my bed. Not the bed reserved for guests.”

              “And what if I referred to it as my bed, Darden Pierson, what then?”

              Darden tossed Willow onto the bed and then climbed ono the bed. “I want my woman on my bed, period end of story.” Darden practically growled the words. He brought both her hands above her head and told her to keep them there. He kissed her this time deepening the kiss and sweeping her mouth with his tongue.  He initiated a game of hide and seek with his tongue. He was struck by how fast she caught on to the game and then she made the game morph into tag. Darden broke the kiss, “I want you to consider that this bed,
is
your bed and this is where you belong.”

              Willow loved how he took charge and then released his control to her. Only their mouths were touching.  He wasn’t touching her with his hands. She couldn’t help herself she had to defy him.  She slowly cradled his head as they kissed.  The both moaned and groaned at the intensity of the kiss. Willow’s body suddenly jerked and tried to swallow a scream that was building in her throat.  Darden smiled and then resumed the kiss.  He knew full well what had happened.  Willow had had a mini orgasm. He rolled onto his back pulling her body over his. He brought his hands low to her waist. Just above the being of the rise of her ass.