Dark Advent (15 page)

“Mind if I ask what drove you down here for this?” Larry asked.

Jason took a big sip of beer, held it, swallowed. “Haven’t you noticed anything? Haven’t you had any friends get sick, quit showing up one day?
Die?
”

Larry sat in an unevenly balanced easy chair, his eyes never leaving Jason’s. To first look at him, you’d think him steady as a rock. Then you’d notice his Adam’s apple jittering. Then the tiny gleam of panic in his eyes…and denial. Then stark balls-out fear.

He’s noticed everything,
Jason thought.
He just doesn’t want to admit it. Does not compute.

“Aw shit, Jason,” he moaned.

Jason nodded. “That’s what I thought. We get little trickles of BS from the news, but that’s it. I don’t buy it. Isolated outbreaks hell, I’m betting it’s everywhere. I don’t know how they’ve managed to hush it up so well, but—”

“Wouldn’t be so hard,” Larry cut in. “The newspapers, the little radio stations…what do they rely on for their news? The wire services, AP, UPI. Those places are centralized, computer-based. Take ’em over and you can control what goes out to everyone. Take over the network headquarters—CBS, NBC, ABC, Mutual Radio—and you got a pretty effective blanket on everything. It wouldn’t be
that
hard.”

Jason smiled thinly. “So I was wondering if there was a way to bypass all that crap, get around it. And I thought of you.”

Larry stared at the wall, his eyes moist and hazy, and he thought for a long while. “First I thought we could send something out on a bulletin board system I’m patched into. But that’d take too long. I think what’d work best is this system called BITNET. All the computers of major universities are linked up with it. Only college hackers would know about it or have access to it, but it’s international, and it’s instantaneous. That’s our best shot.”

“Go for it.”

Larry shifted over into a chair before his Atari 520ST terminal and keyboard and printer and the rest of his system linked together in one corner. Jason noticed a flat pushbutton phone receiver lying beside the printer and a thin metal rectangle.

“Don’t you need one of those two-holed cradles for the phone?” Jason asked.

“Oh, be serious,” Larry said, not even bothering to look at him. “Those went out years ago.” He babbled on while he logged himself into the university computer. “We’ve gotten away with murder using this BITNET system. Hackers can pretty well talk to wherever they want. And the best thing is it doesn’t register on our phone lines. It gets charged to the university. ’Course they frown on that, and they get pissed off if they know you’re screwing around with it, but you can always get around that. What do
they
care if they get an extra thousand bucks a month in unaccountable phone charges, huh? Just write it off as a miscellaneous business expense.”

“Whatever,” Jason said. He usually found it best not to intrude too deeply on people lost in their own little worlds. Jason peered over at the green text on the Atari’s screen, an almost incomprehensible flow of commands and numbers. Then:

YOUR FIRST NAME: Davy

YOUR LAST NAME: Crockett

DAVY CROCKETT, RIGHT?

(Y,N): y

WAIT

………………

“Davy Crockett?” Jason said.

Larry grinned back over his shoulder. “My alias.”

WAIT………………

PASSWORD: Well-Hung

Jason burst into unexpected laughter. Larry flushed but said nothing. The computer’s screen flickered momentarily, as if making up its mind. At last:

***WELCOME TO BITNET!!!***

LOGON NODE 11/3742 AT 4 AUG 87 13:43:55

“Shazam,” Larry said nonchalantly. “We’re in.”

KILL MSG AFTER SENDING? (Y,N): n

TO: All North America

PRIVATE? (Y,N): n

ATTACH FILES: (Y,N): n

WAIT……………….

RSCS MSG SEND THROUGH NODE(S) SIU, UI, UIC, UND

The terminal flashed more and more of the cryptic initials, and Larry sat calmly watching their progress, his fingers poised over the keyboard.

“What’s it doing now?” Jason asked.

“Picking out the route for our message. It leaves from here, then goes along the network between here and the U of I, then to U of I’s Chicago campus, then across to Notre Dame…all the way to New York. New York’s the hub. And then…all points beyond.”

ENTER MESSAGE DAVY CROCKETT: How is everybody feeling out there? I think u know what I mean.

Larry hesitated a moment, as if he wasn’t sure he wanted an answer. Then he stabbed a finger onto the Enter key, and there was no turning back.

And they waited, the screen flickering its pale luminescent green. Jason tapped the Rhinelander bottle against his knee, barely aware of doing so.

“How long do we wait?” he finally asked.

“Depends.” Larry shrugged. “It’ll have to wait until the others finish whatever they’re doing before they read ours. Shouldn’t take too long to get ’em started, though.”

They watched, waited.

“Well-Hung?” Jason said, remembering the password.

Larry glanced back over his shoulder. “No brag, just fact.”

The screen began its readout:

INCOMING MSG AT 4 AUG 87 13:46:31

FROM NODE 11/1039 GREEN BAY, WIS

RESPONSE MSG: Feeling under the weather these days.

We’re dropping like flies. This isn’t going away.

“Jesus,” Jason said under his breath.

INCOMING MSG AT 4 AUG 87 13:46:54

FROM NODE 102/90125 SAN DIEGO, CAL

RESPONSE MSG: It’s the last days. My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?

Larry’s breath caught in his throat, and when he gripped the sides of the keyboard console, his knuckles were white.

FROM NODE 118/2112 BIRMINGHAM, ALA

RESPONSE MSG: Sick as a dog today, worse than yesterday. No one gets any better. Suicide is painless, they say.

FROM NODE 17/357 WINNIPEG, MANITOBA

RESPONSE MSG: I’m the sole survivor now! I’m king of the hill! I’m A#l!

“Fucking nut case,” Larry said, his voice turning thin and reedy.

FROM NODE 18/391 ATLANTA, GA

RESPONSE MSG: I work 4 US Centers 4 Disease Control. Patched in through ARPANET. Don’t believe the whitewash. Not isolated outbreaks. No vaccine. No hope. This is it. I think we’re history.

“Was that for
real
?”
Jason whispered.

Larry glanced over his shoulder again. “I think so. ARPANET is the system all the government computers are linked with. Jason, that was legitimate.”

The responses were coming in too quickly to read as they arrived. Larry kept his thumb on the Page Up key and scrolled the readout. Soon it became unnecessary to even read them. They all said basically the same thing.
I
think u know what I mean.
Oh yeah, they sure did. I catch your drift. Wink, nudge, say no more.

Larry took to scrolling the readout as soon as they knew where the message had originated from. Denver. Toronto. Kansas City. Boston. Chapel Hill, North Carolina. Bangor, Maine. Athens, Georgia. Tucson. Anchorage. They poured in and in, on and on.

Larry broke down and started to weep. Couldn’t keep his head thrust into the sand anymore, Jason thought. Welcome to the real world. It’s not exactly the same place you left, but it’s sure not boring.

“It’s everywhere, isn’t it?” Larry croaked, transfixed by the rapidly changing screen. Billings, Montana. Seattle…

Jason stared over Larry’s shoulder at the screen. It was like watching the fall of a line of dominos in that green glow. And how many lives went with each domino?

I bet in a month or so this town will be a memory,
Kelly had said. He hadn’t been far off.
Get out of town. Get off in the country.

Maybe that wasn’t a bad idea at all. Because now, more than ever, it was finally time to start living on instinct.

3

Erika Jennings was still two months away from meeting Jason Hart, but she was already gaining a remarkable empathy for the turmoil he’d undergone the previous summer. For she, too, had become the sole survivor of her family.

The auto accident a month ago had put her in the hospital for nearly two weeks, with a concussion and several broken ribs and a sprained knee and wrist topped off by a wealth of cuts and scrapes. She’d floated in and out of a fevered delirium for the first couple days, alternately babbling about a burning, windswept highway and then as if she were rotting from the inside out. It was the latter which struck home with the nurses. By this time, the other rooms were rapidly filling up with people doing very nearly just that. An incoming tide without an end in sight, dizzy and sweating and swelling and hacking blood into little pans. And in the midst of it, untouched by it, Erika rambled on like some uncannily accurate prophetess from a Greek tragedy.

“What’s going on around here?” she later asked a day nurse who had come to deliver pills. Curious and fearing the worst, yes she was, but Erika was also hopeful for a little conversation. Her mom and dad and Cal had ceased their near-continuous bedside vigil once she looked as though she would pull through with flying, though bruised, colors. And her roommate, an octogenarian with a broken hip, slept a lot, unless
Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous
came on TV. “It sounds like Grand Central Station out there.”

The question lanced through the nurse’s facade. She recovered almost instantaneously, but not before Erika saw the flicker of discomfort. “Nothing to concern yourself with,” she said brightly, a plastic smile fixed in place. “Now take your medicine like a good girl.”

“Please don’t patronize me,” Erika said. She held her water in one hand and tiny pill-cup in the other, making no move to empty either into her mouth. “Sometimes it keeps me awake at night.”

“It’s a busy time for us, that’s all,” evaded the nurse. “We have our up periods and down periods just like anybody.”

“Oh. Right.” Erika resigned herself to popping the pills, knowing that trying to get a straight answer would be like beating her head against the wall. And her head had taken enough beatings lately. Her right cheek and eye socket were especially colorful, with lovely pastel reds and purples.

The nurse moved on to old, old Mrs. Geiselman in the next bed, and Erika grimaced as she leaned back into her pillows. It had been days since she’d been able to wash her hair, and her scalp felt as if it were crawling. Ugh.

I
want to run,
she thought.
I
want to swim. I want to do anything but sit in this damn bed.

With precious little to do but think.

But since it was all she had, Erika tried piecing things together on her own, no thanks to the nurse who neatly sidestepped her questions. Twirling an oily lock of hair around her finger, she tried to pinpoint the night she’d first been hit with the notion that St. Louis was in for something rough. A Tuesday night, it had been, June…twenty-third? Followed by the movie, Vincent Price and his entourage of partying fools playing host to the Red Death. She felt a morbid urge to see some of the newly arrived patients, their outer symptoms. Although she knew what she’d likely find…
purplish blotches massing on face and arms.

“A
plague,” she said quietly to herself.

Think…it was two-and-a-half weeks later. Was that enough time for an epidemic to snowball into full force?

Hell yes.
She’d nearly overlooked one huge contributing factor. St. Louis was just days out of their biggest Veiled Prophet Fair yet. Hundreds of thousands of people jammed onto the riverfront, sweating and laughing and eating and drinking together. Throw one Typhoid Mary into the midst of that and you’d have infections occurring in a geometric progression that would make even Mexico’s birth rate look tame by comparison.

As she lowered her bed so she was reclining, Erika realized that for once she wasn’t crying over whatever lay ahead. But the prospective body count seemed too distant, like the cold statistics of the Ethiopian famine had seemed two or three years back, before they started showing the pictures to bring it all home.

Don’t I care anymore?
she asked herself.
Or are there just too many emotional calluses built up?

And of the two,
she then thought,
which is worse?

* *

Early evening brought
Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous,
during which Mrs. Geiselman roused and went rapt with attention. When it ended, she dropped off into softly muttering sleep again, leaving Erika to decide the fate of the local news. Erika left it on for company.

Five minutes in, they showed her a face out of a waking nightmare. A face to match a name that had all of St. Louis talking.

“…grand jury hearing today for Travis Lane,” the anchorwoman was saying over the footage of a swarm of people outside the Municipal Courts Building. “Travis Lane is facing five charges of first-degree murder in one of the city’s most notorious multiple homicides, the burning deaths of five neighbors in their home…”

Erika’s breath caught in her throat at the sight of the man. She had, of course, heard the name, read accounts of the atrocity he’d committed. But this was the first time she’d gotten a real look at his face, alive with motion.

She wished she hadn’t. Because the feeling it brought on was the last thing she needed. Not here, not now…

She had spent the bulk of her life as a too-sensitive girl. Someone who, by virtue of the fact that she could sometimes tap into events present and future, could also look into a face and occasionally get very clear vibes about what lay ahead of them. Not specific events, nothing that distinct. No, it was more in the manner of generalities, tendencies, trends. And
such
an aura of violence lingered around Travis Lane.

Erika knew she was going to lose her dinner. The only thing at issue was whether she should get it over with now, or wait until she’d had a little more time to contemplate that hateful face.

Because as bad as it was to sit there and look at him and know what he’d done, she couldn’t shake the feeling that he hadn’t even begun to touch her life yet.

* *

Maybe she
had
had emotional calluses, as she’d wondered about a couple days ago. Not anymore, though. They’d all been ripped away by the news from her mom and Cal that Frank Jennings had come down with a strong dose of whatever was going around.

Finally this was real, no more dream stuff that pertained to someone else. This was
her
life getting the shit stomped out of it now. Just as the pictures of those babies with starvation-swollen bellies had done for Africa a few years back, this news had brought it all home in living color.

And after Frank died, it was like a high, massive wall had collapsed atop her, leaving room for nothing else. No light, no air, no rest.

She fell apart.

She was out of the hospital when Cal followed three days later. She was back in the real world again, and as bleak as it sometimes had looked before her spill in the car had taken her away for a while, she’d had a paradise then and hadn’t even known it. Dad. Cal. She’d never be happy again. Never smile, never laugh at stupid things, just because it felt good. This all-encompassing ache would live with her forever, a parasite eating away at her mind until she escaped in a few hours of sleep each night, and the first thing to look forward to each morning. Forever was a long time, but if pain had anything, it had staying power.

The only thing that pulled her back into functioning reality again was the fact that her mother needed her now. As a nurse.

“Please let me take you to the hospital, Mom,” she said, sitting by the bed in a chair dragged in from the kitchen.
“Please.”

“I’ll be fine here,” she whispered back, then swallowed with difficulty. Her complexion looked so pale, nearly translucent. But here and there lingered blotchy traces of sickly color.

Erika held her mother’s sticklike fingers with her own. Wiped away a pair of tears with her free hand. “Mom, I don’t wanna lose you too, not after…after…”

Gloria’s eyes roved about at random. “Don’t you worry. I’ll be juuust fiiine.” She gave a parody of a smile then, crazed and burning with the heat of fever.

She never changes,
Erika thought.
It doesn’t matter
what
it is, if she doesn’t want to face it, she won’t.

Erika gently swabbed a damp cloth over her mother’s forehead. Gloria closed her eyes; it improved the smile tremendously.

But then, wasn’t she being just as skilled as her mom in the denial of all things dark and terrible? This bionic plague, as she’d heard it called, wasn’t anything that could be taken care of in a hospital. So why her insistence on getting Gloria there anyway?

So I won’t feel as guilty when Mom finally goes? How’s
that
for selfish?

Erika took a deep, shaky breath. If there was one thing she now felt she had to accomplish, it was to see that her mother’s last days were as comfortable as possible.

* *

The rest of that first day wasn’t too bad. The second day was rougher, but manageable.

The third day was hell.

Gloria lingered in a delirium more than she left it. She raved, she swore, she accused Erika of trying to kill her. She clawed her cheeks until blood welled up in the ragged furrows. She retched red phlegm into a plastic pail that Erika held in trembling hands. Gloria’s later conversation was peppered with references to people who weren’t there, although Erika was familiar with some of the names. She’d heard them now and again over the years. Her mother was carrying on conversations with childhood friends.

And after day became night and night became dawn, after Erika and her mother had sweated and wept and wrestled their way into the next day and only one was left to tell the tale, Erika could feel only a numb sense of relief. She looked dully at her mom, now lying motionless on the bed. Her hand still clutched over her heart as she had done moments before dying, and her face was a fright-mask that served as a mute testament to the past three days. There was no final illusion of peace here, not on this face.

Erika wearily wished for another chance at the last twenty-two years. No, not that many. It wouldn’t take that long to rework the unbreached chasm that had so often separated them. Maybe the last eight would do. Go back to the time it became apparent that something had touched Erika and made her different, and try
to get that something to touch her mother as well…instill within her the capacity to understand it. Or at least accept it, instead of treating it like a bastard child.

“It’s a shame this didn’t happen in a movie,” Erika said to Gloria, whose ravaged features were becoming more blatant in the strengthening dawn. “We would’ve worked it all out in time. You? You would’ve said you were sorry for all the times you shut me out. And me, I would’ve said it was all right, and forgiven you.”

Too bad.

Erika pushed her limp, oily hair behind her ears. “I forgive you anyway.”

* *

Sometime in the afternoon Erika wandered outside and found herself at the pond a few blocks away. Sunlight glimmered off the rippling water as she sat by its edge, still in the same clothing she’d worn for the past three days. She smelled awful, and knew it. But didn’t care.

The water beckoned. What would it feel like to wade in, deeper, deeper, letting it slip over her waist, her shoulders, her head? Sealing over with only a soft burst of bubbles to mark her presence? Come on in, the water’s fine.

I
could do it, too,
she thought.
If I wanted to.

She stayed until the sun went down behind her, watching her shadow stretch out over the water, reminiscent of a pirate’s plank.

I
could do it if I wanted to.

But not now.

Instead, she went home, feet scuffing wearily on the ground, then the sidewalks. She passed a house where people were emptying everything into a giant U-Haul truck. A couch had hung up in the doorway and was giving them fits.

Ahead, abandoned toys sat in yards as grass grew around and over them. She thought of pictures she’d seen of planes that had crashed into the jungle, interwoven with vines and now a permanent part of the landscape.

A car missing a rear wheel sat in a driveway, still precariously perched on a bumper jack. Hadn’t she seen it like that a week ago, coming home from the hospital?

Nearing home now. And up ahead, a big green army truck sat in the street, so big it nearly dwarfed all the figures in white that flocked around it. They brought bags to the truck and heaved them into the back, as if to appease it.

Erika stumbled, caught herself before falling face-first into the sidewalk, staggered ahead. Someone was leaving her house, she saw then. Bearing a package for the insatiable truck.

“No,” Erika murmured.

I don’t want to go on the truck,
her mother was saying.

They carried her onward like just another limp sack of potatoes.

“MOM!” Erika screamed. “LEAVE HER ALONE, YOU ASSHOLES!”

She ran, arms and legs flailing because she barely had the coordination left to control them, and reached a half-dozen of the ghouls in white as they tossed her mother into the truck. She aimed a wild fist at the nearest one. He easily slipped it, and before she could try again, one of them had her from behind. When they spoke to her, their voices sounded metallic. She tilted her head back, strained at their arms, screamed.

Then she looked into the faceplate of the one before her. Behind the Plexiglas his eyes were red, runny. Miserable. He looked as though he were about to say something. And then he sneezed, thick blood spurting across the inside as if fired from a gun. He staggered backward, then the other men grabbed him and held firm.