Read Darkness Surrendered (Primal Heat Trilogy #3) (Order of the Blade) Online
Authors: Stephanie` Rowe
Ezekiel pressed deeper into her mind, trying to make her so terrified she would call out an illusion and doom Elijah.
I need you, sheva. Don’t lock me out.
“Help me, Elijah.” Ana stared desperately into his green eyes, focusing on him, and still she couldn’t fight the pull of Ezekiel’s presence. She felt his pain, his loneliness, his need for her to heal his soul.
“Ana! No! Stay with me!” Elijah’s warmth flooded her mind, his caring, his fierce desire to protect her, sliding in alongside Ezekiel’s darkness, both males raw with need for her, calling to her. Two men, both needing so much from her, both demanding her response so potently.
She wanted them both. Needed them both. Couldn’t separate them in her mind. She stumbled back, pressing her hands to her head. “Stop!”
“No.” Elijah pulled her close to him, his gaze so intense. “I’m your mate, Ana. Accept no other.”
Elijah
was
her mate. She could feel her soul pulsing with the truth of that statement. But Ezekiel was pulling her, too...he was so strong...his need so great...his pain so virulent... Her forearms burned, brands pulsing in response to his call...to his unbearable need for her...he could protect her from Nate...from the beatings...the wind became faster and stronger...the illusion gained strength in its quest to protect her... “Elijah.” She gasped, terrified that she was losing, that she was falling into a chasm she’d never escape.
He tightened his grip on her “Stay with me—”
“I can’t—” Ezekiel’s voice rang in her mind.
Tell me your darkest secret, Ana. Give me the power to destroy you. Trust me with your life.
“Trust is one of the stages,” Elijah snapped. “Don’t talk to him!”
“I know!” She could feel Ezekiel pressing at her mind, and felt her rising urge to confess—
“Ana—”
I’m a dark Illusionist, Ezekiel
. The thought tumbled before she could stop it.
I’m so terrified I’m going to become like the Illusionists of old, thrive on torture and death because when those dark illusions rise, they feel so right. Like I’ve finally found my place, and it scares the hell out of me
.
My illusions would kill me if they got out of control
— Damn it! She’d trusted him with the truth that could endanger her life!
Ezekiel’s laugh echoed through her mind, and her forearm burned as the trust stage was sealed.
Danger is coming, my dear. Use my weapons to defend yourself.
She stared at Elijah, dread welling in her chest. “The bond,” she whispered. “He’s going to make me call out his weapon!”
“Oh, shit.” Elijah whirled around as the bolt on the basement door was thrown open and Calydons charged into the room. “Get the hell away from her!” Elijah attacked, taking out assailants left and right, as he’d done before. While he was occupied, others dodged him and raced toward Ana, her death gleaming in their eyes.
Ana tried to run, but there was nowhere to go. Walls were all around her. She couldn’t call Elijah’s weapon and leave him defenseless, but without it, she had no way to protect herself. “You bastard!” She screamed with frustration as a Calydon swung his sword toward her throat, and she threw up her arm to block it—
A knife appeared in her palm. Ezekiel’s weapon had claimed her.
Horror assailed her, and she nearly cried in dismay as she instinctively swung the knife upward in self-defense. It sank deep into the gut of the warrior. He clutched his stomach, yanked out the knife and flung it aside. Then he reared back with his sword to strike her again, oblivious to the blood flowing from his wound.
“Oh,
no
.” She scrambled backwards as Elijah’s throwing star sliced through the Calydon’s throat, cutting him down in a spray of blood that coated her face. Oh, dear God.
It was the same as when she’d been working for Nate. Another warrior dead because of her. Stumbling, she gaped at the body, and suddenly her mind saw the dead warrior as Elijah. Her beautiful, wonderful mate, as he’d fallen at her feet at the Gun Rack, covered in blood—
“Come on, Ana. Stay with me, sweetheart.” Elijah grabbed her arm and hauled her to her feet as he took down another Calydon, his throwing star humming through the air. “Let’s go. Party’s getting crowded.”
She couldn’t take her eyes off the dead man as Elijah pulled her across the floor. “He’s dead. Again. My fault.”
“Ana! Focus on me!”
The urgency in Elijah’s voice burst through the horror coating her mind, and she finally pried her gaze off the body. She looked up to see Elijah was dragging them to the door, straight into the mass of oncoming Calydons. As fast as Elijah killed them, more kept streaming in the door, and still he kept moving forward toward the exit they were obstructing. His weapons were flying, so fast they were a blur, as he held off so many assailants, so vastly outnumbered, but never outmatched.
Not now, but he couldn’t keep it up forever, and more and more were coming...
They weren’t going for her anymore. They were targeting Elijah now. Was Ezekiel going to have him killed right there? “Elijah—”
Kane flashed into the room suddenly, right in the midst of the Calydons. He had the entire Order with him, including a male Ana didn’t recognize.
Relief rushed through her at the appearance of his team, and she felt like hugging them all. They had a chance!
“Nice of you to make it,” Elijah shouted. “How about a little help on this side of the room, eh?”
Kane saluted him, disappeared, and then appeared beside them. “Nice odds you two have going here.” He called out his double spiked flails and hurled them, taking out the two front Calydons as Elijah cut down two others. The rest of the Order attacked from the rear. Weapons were flying, blades were flashing, and this time, the odds were no longer against the Order. “Time for a vacation for the bad guys,” Kane said cheerfully.
With the entire Order on the assault, Ezekiel’s Calydons were struck down in a matter of minutes. The last ones were just falling when Ezekiel appeared in the doorway. Ana jerked her gaze to him, realizing that no one else had seen him.
He was wearing a pair of black pants, a loose white cotton shirt and his dark hair was slicked back, a man on his way to a cocktail party, not a battle. He met Ana’s eyes over the battle, and a longing pulsed deep in her belly for him.
She took a step toward Ezekiel, then Elijah shouted her name and grabbed her around the waist, yanking her against him. Ezekiel’s gaze flicked to Elijah, and a triumphant smile flashed across his face. Elijah raised his throwing star to hurl it at Ezekiel, and then the ancient Calydon vanished, still smiling.
He’d dematerialized, but he’d left the door open for them.
It was then that Ana realized he had intentionally set her and Elijah up to call in the Order. He’d set the trap and they’d played their part to perfection. He’d wanted the Order there, and he’d left the door open for a reason.
It was exactly as Elijah had said.
Ezekiel was playing them, and the burning of his brands as they seared her forearms with the new marks told her who was winning.
***
Ana stumbled on the body of a Calydon as she backed away from the door, and Elijah caught her as she fell. She leaned against him, focusing on his scent, on the rhythm of his breathing, on the familiar feel of his body against hers as his arms held her tight. She was so desperate to reconnect with Elijah, to have him resonating in her soul cleansing Ezekiel’s darkness.
She wrapped her arms around his neck and held on, pressing her face against him. Together, they called on the power of their connection while she tried to overcome her need to go after Ezekiel and Elijah fought to regain his mental control.
For a long moment, neither of them moved, just holding each other, and drawing strength from their connection. She was vaguely aware of the low murmurs of the other Order members, but she didn’t look up.
Elijah’s body was damp with sweat, and there was blood trickling from a wound on his shoulder. She could feel the stress in his mind. The demons had started to rise when Ezekiel had been trying to force the illusion from her before the Order had appeared.
But in Elijah’s arms, she was safe. She knew she was, and without a threat to her safety and well-being, there was no need for an illusion to rise. The adrenaline faded, and she began to tremble.
Elijah pressed his lips to her forehead, then peeled her hand from around his neck. He brought her arm down where they could both see it.
Superimposed on Elijah’s throwing star was a dagger. The entire outline was complete, and part of the design on the handle was finished. Elijah swore and covered the dagger with his hand. “He got a stage and a half in that scenario. Half the trust stage and his weapons recognizing you. All that’s left is the other half of the trust stage and for you to satisfy your half of the death stage.”
The latter was the only stage she had left to do with Elijah. So close with both of them, so terrifyingly close. “He set it up perfectly. He raised our stress levels so our defenses were down, then hit us both hard before we could recover.” She bit her lip and stared at the double marks on her arms. “I look at his mark, and it feels right.” She tried to rub it off, but of course, it didn’t move. And she didn’t want it to. “Damn it, Elijah!”
He caught her chin, dragging her attention from the graffiti on her arm. “Ana.”
As she looked into his intense eyes, Ana forgot about Ezekiel. Elijah was who mattered. It was Elijah. “I feel like I’m losing my mind,” she whispered.
He snorted softly and rubbed his thumb over her chin. “I know I am.”
“You guys okay?” Quinn walked up to them, sporting only a few minor injuries.
Elijah thudded Quinn on the shoulder. “That was damn impressive, connecting with Ana through your
sheva
bond with Grace so you could find us.”
Quinn smiled back, his eyes lightening with relief to hear Elijah sounding sane. “Thought you’d be jealous that I connected with her and want to kill me.”
“Hell, no. I owe you now. And trust me, you’re no threat to her.” Elijah grabbed Ana’s hand and tugged her close. “We’ve got issues.” He glanced around him, and she knew he was wondering when Ezekiel would reappear or launch the next part of his trap.
“Yeah, but at least we’re in his home now,” Quinn said. “We have access to him.”
“Which is where he wants us.” Elijah glanced again at the open door. “He’s got us all where he wants us.”
Quinn looked at him. “You think he’s planning to take down the entire Order at once?”
Elijah ground his jaw. “I think he’s planning to force
me
to take it down, actually.”
Quinn’s eyebrows went up, and the rest of the Order fell silent. “What are you talking about?”
“I can’t kill him.” Elijah lifted his chin, finally admitting the secret he’d kept from the team for so long. “He’s been manipulating me through our blood bond. I feel...” He swore. “Sympathetic toward him.”
Tears burned in Ana’s eyes at Elijah’s confession, at the strength he was summoning to be honest with them. He was finally trusting that they would still have faith in him no matter what. Maybe Elijah was beginning to see himself as she did: as a warrior worth admiring and honoring, no matter what.
“Even when he’s trying to steal your
sheva?
” Quinn sounded shocked, but Ana could tell it hadn’t even occurred to him to strike out at Elijah and shut him down for being vulnerable to the ancient Calydon.
Elijah snorted. “In the moment, hell, no.” Then he sobered, looking warily at his teammates, as if still expecting them to leap on him for his revelation. “But once the intensity is gone...hell...I don’t know. I’d have to kill him in the heat of the moment. Otherwise, I won’t be able to.”
Of course, not a single one saw it as a weakness, but simply as another piece of information in their puzzle. God, she loved these warriors. Their commitment to each other was so powerful, it was amazing. This was the kind of family she wanted, to be surrounded by people who cared so much that their faith was unyielding. And she saw from the emotions of wonder and disbelief playing across Elijah’s face that he was feeling the same.
“Then maybe this’ll help motivate you to hate him.” Gideon was canvassing the room, checking to ensure all of Ezekiel’s Calydons were truly dead. Thano and Ryland were standing guard in the hall, making sure no one was coming. “When Lily was trying to figure out why you’re so special, she discovered you’re the only surviving descendant of Caleb. All the others died in Illusionist pits, tortured to such insanity that they killed themselves trying to escape from demons that didn’t exist.”
Elijah looked like he’d been kicked in the gut. “Illusionists exterminated my entire family?”
Ana stiffened, but to her surprise, Elijah didn’t loosen his grip on her at all. It didn’t seem as if he was associating her with the Illusionists who had tortured him and his ancestors so severely. But why not? That’s who she was.
No, it’s not.
His voice was fierce in her head.
You’re not like them.
But you know I am—
Fuck that, Ana. You’re a beacon of shining light in my life. Accept it.
Warmth spread through her, the most beautiful and amazing sense of peace and belonging. Her history and her race were no longer between them. Just as she saw him only as Elijah, a man of such amazing courage and strength, he simply saw her as Ana, not a monster.
How can you forgive me for who I am?
I don’t forgive anything. I see exactly who you are, and it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve seen in my life.
Ana closed her eyes, fighting against the swell of emotion trying to overtake her.
Damn you, Elijah. I don’t have time to turn into some mushy female right now. Don’t say things like that.
His laughter was an affectionate balm as it touched her mind.
Fine. I’ll save it for after we kick Ezekiel’s ass. Okay?
She opened her eyes to look at him, hope leaping in her heart.
You think we’re going to win?
Did he believe? Had he started to believe?
But Gideon didn’t give Elijah a chance to answer. “No, it wasn’t the Illusionists who you need to blame,” Gideon said. “It was Ezekiel.”