Dead Harvest (22 page)

  When the lights came back on, the nice driver-lady was standing over me, the knife – blade down – raised high above her head. A wicked smile warped her otherwise kind features. I tried to move. My legs weren't listening. Kate watched helpless through the car window – I willed her to run, but she just sat there, frozen.

  The blade dropped. Actually, the whole damn
woman
dropped. Just collapsed atop me like so much rubble. I rolled her off of me. The knife fell from her hand, coming to rest in the grass just beyond the curb.

  Standing just behind her former perch above me was the cop – his face swollen and bloodied, his sidearm in one hand, a small tuft of blood and hair dotting the barrel from where he'd pistol-whipped the woman. He extended his free hand to help me up. I took it.

  "That
thing
," he said, "is it unconscious, too? Or will it just grab hold of someone else?"

  I could barely hear him over the ringing in my ears. I looked down at the woman. She was out cold. "Yeah," I replied, "it's out, too – but probably not for long."

  "It was in my
head
. I mean, I was just sittin' in my cruiser, and next thing I knew, I was puking my guts out, and I wasn't in control. That's fucking nuts, right? I mean, I must be fucking nuts."

  "No," I said. "You're not nuts."

  "It wanted to
kill
you."

  "It was after the girl. I was in the way."

  "The girl – she's the one from the news? The one we've been looking for?"

  "Yeah."

  "She didn't do it, did she? Kill her family, I mean."

  "No, I don't believe she did."

  The cop glanced back toward the hospital. The entrance was a few hundred yards away; it looked like a crowd was gathering. I thought I heard sirens, although that could've been the ringing in my ears. As I stood shakily between the wrecks of the cruiser and the Volvo, our unconscious driver at my feet, it was hard to believe this whole fucking mess had gone down in a matter of seconds.

  The cop caught my glance, and no doubt he heard the sirens better than I. "They'll be here soon," he said. "The paramedics. The cops. You should go – just take the girl and leave. I'll clean up this mess."

  "There's a boy in the car. He's hurt."

  "I know. I… remember, I guess. I'll see to him. What about her?" He nodded toward the woman at our feet.

  "Long as we're gone when she wakes up, Bishop's got no reason to stick around."

  "Bishop," the cop repeated. "Is that its name?"

  "No one's left that knows his name," I replied. "Bishop's close as we can get."

  "That's not how it thinks of itself," he said.

  "No?"

  "No."

  "What, then? What does Bishop call himself?"

  "God," he said, his voice catching in his throat. "That thing believes it's God."

 
 

"Sam, what the hell are you
doing?
"

  "Just stand back."

  I peeled my blood-soaked undershirt from my frame and wrapped it tightly around my bruised and battered fist. The blood seeped between my fingers, cold and slick in the chill night air. I was painfully aware that this blood wasn't mine to shed, and the fact that Bishop had a hand in shedding it did little to assuage my guilt. Of course, if I was right about the girl, any blood shed in the cause of keeping her safe was an acceptable loss. I just couldn't help but wonder if Pinch and Anders would disagree.

  I swung my arm as hard as I could, connecting with the window of the Taurus and sending a spray of glass scattering through the cabin. I winced in anticipation of an alarm – one of the most horrid inventions of the modern age, as far as I'm concerned – but there was none. I popped open the door from the inside, and snatched the duffel bag from the back seat with my unbound hand. Very slick little smash-and-grab, I thought – smooth and professional.

  That's when I fell down.

  We were at the far end of the parking lot from the mess we'd left behind, obscured from view of the first responders by the rambling hodge-podge buildings of the medical center itself. We'd hovered at a distance long enough to watch them intubate Anders and wheel him into the ER, and then we split. They worked quickly on him, swarming like bees on a hive. I took that to be a good sign – it meant they thought they had a chance of saving him. I hoped to God they could – I'd seen enough death for one day, and damned or not, my conscience couldn't take another.

  Our driver was another story. She came to just as we'd left the scene, and her injuries appeared minor. After what she'd experienced, I was reasonably sure she wouldn't roll on us, but I couldn't swear to it. Besides, our new cop friend had his hands full explaining just what in hell went down, and when they realized his story didn't add up, you'd better believe they were gonna fan out and check the area. I didn't plan to be there when they did.

  All of which sounded nice, but there was a catch, in the form of a throbbing knife wound in my thigh. Truth is, I could barely support my own weight, and I'd lost enough blood that I was feeling pretty woozy. If I couldn't stanch the flow of blood, the whole fleeing thing was kind of out of the question. Which brought me to the car.

  Now, I'll admit, hightailing it to the ass-end of the campus on a skewered leg doesn't sound like the brightest of ideas, but I had my reasons. I'm sure I could've found what I was looking for a little more close by, in one of the Beemers, Land Rovers, and Audis that populated the doctors' spaces. Problem was, they were a little too visible for my taste, located close to major entrances as they were, and you can be damn sure they'd have alarms. So I had to settle for something a little more working-class, in a nice, little out-of-the way section of the lot that looked to be reserved for support staff – nurses and the like – with nary a Mercedes in sight.

  When I collapsed to the pavement, Kate rushed to my side, a cry of alarm escaping her lips.

  "Damn it, Kate, you've got to keep quiet!"

  She shot me a look that would have stopped a charging bull. "This from the guy who just busted in a car window. Damn thing sounded like a gunshot. What in the hell are you looking for, anyway?"

  I nodded toward the bag at my side. "The gym bag," I said. "Open it."

  She did as I asked. Inside was a set of women's gym clothes – sports bra, T-shirt, shorts, sneakers – as well as a set of street clothes and a towel. I snatched at the latter and missed.

  Kate frowned and pressed the towel into my hand. I held it tight to my bleeding thigh, clenching my eyes tight against the pain. "Sam, you're not looking so hot."

  "I'm not
feeling
so hot," I replied, shivering from cold and blood loss both. "Now hand me that belt."

  She did, and I wrapped it around the towel, cinching it down until it hurt too much to keep going. There wasn't a hole that small on the belt, so I had to force the tine through the leather to get it to stay, but it'd do the trick.

  Next, with Kate's help, I slid on the gym shirt. Lime green, and emblazoned with a faded silkscreen for a charity 10K, it was both hideous and two sizes too small for Flynn's muscular frame, but still worlds less conspicuous than the blood-soaked undershirt I'd just removed.

  "There," I said, "now help me up."

  "This is nuts – you need to rest."

  "Look, what went down back there was certain to attract some serious attention, and sooner or later, the cops are gonna talk to
somebody
who saw us leave. When that happens, they're gonna start looking for us, and we can't be here when they do. If they arrest us, you're as good as dead. I am
not
going to let that happen."

  "Then let's take this thing," she said, eyeing the Taurus. "You got that piece of shit van started; you could get this going, too – right?"

  I shook my head. "I'm in no shape to drive."

  "Then let me. You could ride shotgun and rest up while I get us out of here."

  "Do you even drive?"

  "I've got my learner's permit," she replied, defiant and sheepish in equal measure.

  Learner's permit. Jesus. "Kate, you saw how bad shit got back there once Bishop caught our scent. I'm not going to run the risk of having you behind the wheel when he catches up to us again. It's just too dangerous," I said, realizing as the words came out of my mouth how unintentionally parental they sounded. "We've just got to find someplace safe and hole up a while until things cool down," I added.

  She fell silent a moment, and made no move to help me up. "Sam, can I ask you something?"

  I rested my head on the side of the Taurus, and closed my eyes. "Sure, kid. Ask away."

  "Back there, when Bishop was coming after us, he jumped from the cop to the woman, right? I mean, just like that," she said, snapping her fingers.

  "Yeah? And?"

  "Well,
look
at you. You look like shit. Why not just leave this guy here and hitch another ride?"

  "Kate, I can't. He might tell them where we're going, and then we're fucked."

  "But
you
don't even know where we're going – how the hell could
he?
Besides, that cop Bishop ditched back there, he knew the score, and I'm betting with all he's seen, this guy'd be no different. So why, then? Why, when this guy's doing nothing but hold us up?"

  I sighed. "It's complicated, Kate."

  "Yeah? Well, we need to get out of here fast, so uncomplicate it quick."

  If I could have gotten to my feet then, I would have. If I could have lied, or deflected, or thought of anything that might've gotten us out of there without having this discussion, I would have. Truth was, I just didn't have the energy. I was out of fight, and she knew it.

  Some protector I was.

  "Kate, when we met… that vessel was not like this one. He was different."

  "Different? Different how?"

  "Well, for starters, he was dead."

  "Dead? I don't understand."

  "You understand fine. See, most of my kind, they possess the living – after all, they're plentiful enough, and they can get you wherever you need to go. Chasing down a prisoner? Just hop a ride in a guard, or better yet a cellmate. Paranoid lunatic holed up in a bunker? If he's got himself a hostage, you're good to go. The problem is, the living are noisy. They're gonna claw and scratch and fight to regain control; it takes a while and no small amount of effort to get them to quiet down. That eventual subjugation doesn't come without a cost. It chips away at whatever it is that makes us human, and forces us to act as a demon would act – to cast aside our empathy, our humanity, and treat them as nothing but a nameless
other
to be used and discarded. A means to an end. Every time we take a living vessel, we lose touch of who we are. And with each vessel we discard, we leave a little bit of what makes us who we are behind."

  "But if you only possess the dead, you get to stay human?"

  I shook my head. "Kate, you don't understand. There is no getting to
stay
anything. See, the folks who end up like me, there's always a reason. Maybe in life they stripped someone of the life that was rightfully theirs – by murder or betrayal or whatever – and it ate them up inside. Maybe they made themselves a bargain, and took what wasn't theirs to take. Problem is, there's always a price. See, fate's sort of a zero-sum game: you take what isn't yours to take, and it's gotta come from somewhere else. Which means, you make yourself a bargain, and you're stealing someone else's luck, someone else's fate."

  "So which were you? Did you strike yourself a deal? Or were your actions to blame?"

  I laughed – a cold, humorless laugh. "A bit of both, I suppose. Truth to tell, it ain't the act that's important – it's the guilt. The remorse. The way it eats you up inside. That's the one thing most Collectors have in common – at least, at first."

  "What do you mean, at first?"

  I paused a moment, unsure as to how to continue. Eventually, though, the words came. "This job – this curse – it feeds on that remorse, forcing you to relive the choices that delivered you to this fate every time you snuff out a life. Every time you tear free a soul, you see every joy, every disappointment, everything that brought that person to where you yourself once were. Every time, some small part of you relives that moment of collection, again and again, in perfect, agonizing detail. With every soul you take, you're reminded of how beautiful life once was, and how you let it slip away. Every time you steal a victim's breath, you remember that first fateful choice you made that brought you to that point, only now, you have no defenses to fall back on. Not ignorance, nor arrogance – no justifications or excuses. It's just you and your actions, stripped bare, and eventually, it's just too much to take."

  "So what happens then?" she asked. "What happens when a Collector reaches the breaking point?"

  "They go mad. They begin to enjoy the work. They delight in their role. They bury their humanity so deep, they can't even hear its screams. And eventually, their soul just withers and dies. You wanna know what's worse than being damned? Allowing your soul to be snuffed out, just erased from the record books like it never
was
. There's no greater punishment in existence, and no greater crime, than being party to your own eradication. It's as if you're admitting that all you've touched, all you've done, everything you've seen, is for nothing. To choose oblivion is to turn your back on God. There is no greater betrayal. And once you do that, all that's left of you is a monster."

  "Is that what happened to Bishop?"

  "I guess so. I don't know. If the stories they tell of him are true, he was plenty corrupted in life. In his case, his appointment as Collector may have been more compliment than punishment. Perhaps his patron demon was amused by him, and chose to take him as a pet. But either way, whatever little of him was human when he died is long gone now, warped by centuries of possession and subjugation."