Deadly Gamble (14 page)

Was I like my mother?

Was I like my dad?

Who the hell was I, anyway?

Right then, I felt about as real as Nick.

I forced myself to eat most of the food, paid the bill and left.

Still too early to leave for Tucson, and my cell phone was silent.

I scrolled back to the text message, fortified by breakfast.

U-WLL-DY.

Catchy.

Also chickenshit. Up there with sending nasty e-mails and then blocking the reply, so the flamed can't fight back.

I tossed the cell back into my purse and headed for the high school. In these post-Columbine days, a person can't just walk into the nearest institute of lower learning and snoop around, so I followed presumed protocol and stopped off at the office. The secretary had probably been around since the Reagan administration, if not longer, and she went pale when I introduced myself and added that I was Evie Larimer's daughter.

Right then, I wasn't up to claiming Ron.

“Mary Josephine?” the woman trilled, looking up from the driver's license I'd given her as ID. She had blue hair, four chins, and wore a vintage polyester pantsuit. Either she shopped on eBay, or she didn't shop at all.

“I go by Mojo,” I said. I'm not sure why I wanted to get that straight, up front, but I did. Mary Josephine Mayhugh was a stranger to me. Mojo Sheepshanks might have been a fraud, but I could recall every day of her existence.

The woman rose halfway out of her chair and promptly sank into it again. Her hand trembled as she handed back my license. “I'm sorry,” she said, with a flustered attempt at a smile. “It's something of a shock.”

I leaned on the counter. A bell rang shrilly in the background, and I was vaguely aware of kids stampeding through the halls behind me. Geoff had probably attended this school, I thought, with a jolt, at least until he was sent up for murder. I would have been a student there, too, most likely, if it hadn't been for the events of August 18, 1983.

I drew a deep breath and released it slowly. Tried to remember what I'd learned from
The Damn Fool's Guide to Zen
.

Not much, apparently.

My nerves were jumping, and the present moment sucked.

“It was awful, what happened,” the woman said. I glanced belatedly at the little sign on the countertop; it was a day for afterthoughts. Her name was Mavis Rogers, unless she was filling in for somebody. “Geoff seemed like such a nice boy.”

I didn't comment. Anything I said would have been ironic, if not scathing, and Mavis didn't deserve that. It wasn't her fault I came from a family that made the Mansons look like the cast of a holiday mayonnaise commercial.

“I was hoping I could look at some yearbooks,” I said. I hadn't been aware, until the words came out of my mouth, that I was hoping any such thing, but there you are. My subconscious mind seemed to be elbowing its way to the foreground lately. “From when my parents were in school.”

Mavis swallowed. “Well, dear,” she said, “I can certainly show you the ones with Evie's pictures in them, but Ron Mayhugh—” she lowered her voice, looked from side-to-side
“—dropped out.”

I wasn't surprised that dear old Dad never got a diploma. Clearly, he hadn't been big on focused effort toward a goal. Some of my thoughts splintered off from the main bunch and hot-trotted it for the nearest employment agency.

Give me a real job.
Any
real job
.

“We were all just
sick
when Evie married him,” Mavis confided. She got out of her chair again, but this time, she followed through and actually stayed on her feet. “I'll be right back,” she said. “Wait here.”

I leaned against the counter and studied a schedule of PTA meetings.

Then it came to me that leaning was something an undisciplined person without a real job would do, somebody with Ron Mayhugh's blood flowing through their veins, for instance, and I stood up straight.

Mavis returned, after a considerable interval of good posture on my part, and handed me four dusty yearbooks from the 1960s. Back then, evidently, students went through eight grades, at least in Cactus Bend, and then made the leap to high school.

I thanked Mavis, took the books and sat down in one of the plastic chairs nearby. Another bell rang, and the shuffle of kids moving through the halls receded to blessed silence.

My hands trembled a little as I opened the cover of the first book, a thin volume with 1963 and the school logo embossed on the cover. I found Evie Larimer, geeky-haired and grinning, with the other freshmen. Her eyes were bright with innocence—she probably hadn't gotten involved with Geoff's father yet, or mine. She hadn't given up her scholarship, and her dreams, whatever they might have been, to work rotating shifts at the Happy Trails Truck Stop. I wished she'd start moving around within the picture, Harry Potter-style, and speak to me. Explain everything.

I could have warned her then.
Take another road, Mom. Write yourself another script, because this one ends badly.

A tear plopped on the page before I realized I was crying.

I wiped it away with the tip of an index finger and studied the faces of the other students. No one looked familiar, and I didn't recognize any of the names beneath the photos.

When I turned to the sophomore class, though, my gaze went straight to one particular shot. Rod Waters. Class president. Captain of the football team.

His resemblance to Geoff was beyond uncanny.

Here he was, then. Nemesis #1. The guy who got my mother pregnant, the bearer of the Bad Seed.

The poached eggs I'd had for breakfast roiled in my stomach.

I closed the book and opened the second in the four-year sequence of my mother's high school career. All the career she was ever going to have, as it turned out.

I sniffled.

Mom made the honor society as a sophomore. She went to Girl's State, whatever that was, and made the varsity cheerleading squad. Her hair looked a little better, too. I felt an aching tenderness, flipping through those pages. It was a kind of reverse fortune-telling, like peering into a crystal ball focused on the past instead of the future. Evelyn Larimer didn't look like the kind of girl who would end up dead of a gunshot wound on the living room floor of a rented double-wide, but, then, what did that kind of girl look like?

I soldiered my way through my mother's junior and senior years. By the time her graduation picture was taken, the light had gone out of her eyes. She looked resigned. Maybe she was already carrying Geoff. She knew college was down the drain, I could see that in her face.

I wondered if anyone else had seen it.

Like my grandparents.

It came to me suddenly that I didn't know thing one about the Larimers, or the Mayhughs, for that matter.

I hadn't even thought to ask Uncle Clive for the genealogical particulars, or Boomer, either.

I'd Googled the senator and Barbara, and their progeny to boot.

And I'd stopped there, as if there had been no previous generations. As if Mom and Dad and all of the rest of them had simply sprung into being one day, fully grown.

“Holy crap,” I muttered, stunned at the scope of my oversight, slamming the last yearbook shut.

Mavis started a little, behind her counter.

I took the four volumes back to her in a stack, thanked her and left.

I drove to the library next. It was about the size of Greer's closet, but there was a computer allotted to public use. I waited, none too patiently, until the matron cruising for God-knows-what went offline and wandered away, then I grabbed the chair, bellied up to the keyboard and logged on.

There were a few newspaper pieces on the murders tucked away in various archives, and several chronicling my abduction. I'd seen them before, but I scanned them again. No mention of either Mom's parents or Dad's. I tried the senator's site and read his biography, but he too seemed to have skipped childhood and simply appeared on the planet as an adult with a political agenda.

I printed out the whole batch, paid the librarian for the copies and got back in my car.

Boomer was in the cottage at the cemetery when I walked in. He was just opening one of those old-fashioned black lunch boxes, the kind with a thermos in the lid. He paused in the act of removing the wax paper wrapping from what looked like a ham and cheese on rye and studied me with polite uncertainty.

He started to rise, and I gestured for him to stay seated.

“Did you know the Larimers and the Mayhughs?” I asked, right out. “My grandparents, I mean?”

Boomer sagged a little. He'd been a fount of information all along, but now, all of a sudden, he'd dried up.

I waited.

Boomer finally relented, but with obvious reluctance.

“Evie and Clive, they was orphaned real young,” he said. “Come from Tucson or Phoenix originally, I think. Some folks named Wilkerson took them in as foster children, brought them here to Cactus Bend. The Wilkersons is gone now, of course. Been gone a long while.”

A bleak shadow fell over my heart. “What about the Mayhughs?”

Boomer wanted to look away, I could see that, but he held my gaze. I braced myself for yet another non-Hallmark moment.

“Ron came here with his mama, when he was a little kid. She was no better than she should be, if you know what I'm sayin'. She worked at the old Bootstrap Saloon. Place burned down in 1962, along with the movie theatre. Her old man got out of jail around that time, and she lit out with him. Ron stayed behind, lived with whoever'd take him in, for however long. Dropped out of school after the eighth grade.” Boomer found a bright spot in my dismal family history. “He got his GED, though. Did it to please Evie. He might have been good with computers, too, if he'd lived. Had an old TRS-80 he picked up someplace. Used to fiddle with it all the time.”

I almost wished I hadn't asked about my grandparents.

The more I learned, the worse I felt.

I thanked Boomer, went back to my car and headed for Tucson.

Jolie wouldn't be off work for hours yet, but I needed a hole to crawl into.

I drove to her place, a garden apartment in the university district, extracted the key from the fake rock on the back patio, and let myself in through the kitchen door. I was peering into the refrigerator when a low growl sounded behind me.

The hairs on my nape went rigid.

Big dog, in deadly earnest.

When had Jolie gotten a dog?

More importantly, why hadn't she told me?

The growl deepened to a ferocious rumble.

“Don't move,” I said, talking to both myself and the dog.

Slowly,
very
slowly, I straightened and turned my head just far enough to see the fiend half-crouched in the doorway between Jolie's kitchen and living room. He looked like a cloning experiment gone terribly wrong, with his coarse brindled coat and his laid-back ears. I swear to God his eyes were yellow as candle flames, and he didn't have teeth, he had fangs.

He lunged.

I scrambled up the shelves of Jolie's refrigerator with a clatter and huddled on top, as close to the wall as I could get.

The hell-hound reared up on his hind legs and did his level best to get me, but I was maybe three inches out from his snarling, slobbering maw. When he finally exhausted himself, trying to tear off a chunk of any old part of my anatomy, he curled up in a big, quivering ball in front of the fridge.

My legs were going to sleep, so I shifted, sat Indian-style, like some kind of human cookie jar, and waited for my sister to come home.

My cell phone rang at least three separate times.

It might have been Tucker.

It might have been the nursing home, calling about Lillian.

It might have been another text-message, threatening me with death.

If I got down off that refrigerator, I thought, I would never know, because the Beast would tear me to bloody shreds before I got to my purse.

The dog snoozed, snoring like a dull buzz saw.

I considered getting down, grabbing my bag and making a dive for the back door, but it was just a fantasy to pass the time. I didn't have a chance in hell of actually making it.

I cupped my chin in one hand and waited.

The dog woke up, snuffled around in the fridge for a while, since the door was still hanging open, and helped himself to a package of bologna. Devoured it in three bites—wrapper, UPC code and all.

I tried to communicate with Jolie by telepathy. I'd never done it before, but I didn't have much to lose, and the rest of my lifespan to gain.

Nothing happened, of course.

I could muster a dead ex and a ghost cat.

I could make a slot machine pay, if the energy was right.