Desperate Measures (31 page)
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Authors: Sara Craven
- She grimaced slightly, knowing that she was being overdramatic. Yet wouldn't it be a kind of death to yield to Alain, to allow herself to become his plaything for a few hours, and then to see him walk away in search of other amusement when he tired of her?
- Her whole body seemed to constrict sharply and painfully. That was something she couldn't permit— couldn't even contemplate. Because for her there could be no casual giving. Once she belonged to Alain, he would have her heart and soul in his uncaring, predatory hands. And that would be total disaster.
- She lifted her chin. Well, she would not be his victim. Nor would she be his toy—to be used because he was bored with the outward respectability which marriage had forced upon him, and thought it would be entertaining to seduce his unwilling wife.
- 'Ah, Madame de Courcy, I have been looking everywhere for you.' Her hostess's smiling tones reached Philippa's ear. Smothering a sigh, she prepared for yet another introduction.
- 'May I present one of our oldest friends, Monsieur Gerard de Crecy? Unfortunately, Madame his wife has succumbed to la grippe, so he is accompanied by his daughter, who says you are already acquainted.'
- There was a trace of a musky scent in the air. As she turned obediently, her polite smile already in place, Philippa became aware of it. Recognised it.
- She hardly noticed the portly white-haired man who was bowing to her, and murmuring a courteous greeting. Her eyes were fixed on the woman at his side, clad in a clinging gown of midnight blue.
- 'Madame de Courcy.' The full lips were smiling, but the violet eyes glittered with malice. 'I hope so very much that you remember me?' said Marie-Laure de Somerville-Resnais.
- CHAPTER SIX
- Philippa'S lips parted in a soundless gasp. At the same time, the glass she was holding slipped from her grasp and shattered on the flagstones at her feet, splashing its contents on to her cream brocade skirt as it did so.
- Her hostess, exclaiming in distress, waved away Philippa's confused apologies, decreeing that the skirt must be sponged before the crime de cassis in the drink stained it irretrievably. She would summon her housekeeper, who was a treasure, and would know the correct way to achieve this.
- The last thing Philippa was aware of as she was led away by the housekeeper was Marie-Laure's smile, feline and triumphant. And, as she passed him in the doorway, Alain's thunderous expression.
- Waiting in a cotton wrap, while her skirt was attended to, she fumed inwardly at her own gaucherie. She'd behaved like an idiot, as Alain would undoubtedly tell her later. All she'd needed to do was smile coolly in acknowledgement of the other woman's presence, then ignore her.
- At the same time she acquitted their hosts, Monsieur and Madame le Gres, of engineering another confrontation between Marie-Laure and herself. They were kindly souls, friends of Alain's late parents, as well as business colleagues, and heavily involved in charity work. They probably didn't even know that there was any involvement between Alain and Marie-Laure. And, of course, the Baronne's father was quite
- within his rights to ask his daughter to accompany him to a formal dinner if his wife was ill.
- No, it was just one of those unfortunate coincidences, and now her stupidly over-the-top reaction to Marie-Laure's presence could easily have set all the tongues wagging again, she thought miserably.
- Her skirt was eventually returned to her, miraculously restored, if a little damp in places, and she was able to join the rest of the party as they went into the dining-room. She was immediately besieged by concern and goodwill.
- Her husband had explained the terrible incident that had befallen her earlier that day. To be robbed in the open street—quelle horreurl Such lawlessness! It was no wonder that she was affreusement nerveuse. But how was it that she should be in the street alone?
- 'I was just leaving my painting class,' Philippa explained lamely. 'I work at a studio every day. I wasn't expecting anything to happen.'
- 'Ah, yes, your little career as an artist.' Marie-Laure leaned forward, her expression solicitous. 'It still continues? You have not yet wearied of it?'
- 'I'm not likely to do that,' Philippa said crisply. 'It's too important to me.'
- Marie-Laure shrugged creamy shoulders. 'You mean there is some lack in your life, for which you seek compensation?' Her brows rose in simulated amazement. 'How can it be possible? I hope that our dear Alain is not failing in his duties as a husband.'
- There was a sudden shocked silence, and a number of eyebrows were raised in earnest. Madame le Gres hurried to fill the breach with a description of the plans the local community were formulating to
- celebrate Bastille Day, and conversation became general again.
- Philippa sat back in her chair, her heart thumping. Alain was at the opposite end of the dining-table, and she did not dare look at him. What on earth was the Baronne trying to do? she asked herself in bewilderment. Her remarks had been indiscreet to say the least. It was almost as if she was deliberately trying to make trouble, stir up more gossip. Yet, surely, it was in her interests too that there shouldn't be any more scandal. So what was going on?
- She had to force herself to eat her dinner and chat brightly to her neighbours, behaving as if everything was perfectly normal. With any luck, Marie-Laure's comments would be simply written off as a sample of female spite, and not attended to too closely, she told herself without particular conviction.
- Afterwards, in the salon, coffee was served, and music was played, as a background to conversation. Philippa made sure she was always one of a group well away from Marie-Laure's vicinity.
- Although I'm being perfectly ridiculous, she told herself. By avoiding her like this, I'm putting myself on the defensive, and giving her an advantage. I should let her see that I'm indifferent to her—and impervious to her little poisoned darts. The trouble is, I keep remembering that woman's remark that I'm 'no match for Marie-Laure' and believing it.
- It seemed a very long evening, and she was too on edge to really enjoy talking to the people around her, although they couldn't have been kinder. But they still wanted to hear about the attempted robbery, and she would have preferred to forget about it. She felt suddenly oppressed by the noise of laughter and chatter,
- and stifled by the cigarette smoke mingled with expensive perfume which filled the room.
- She needed to be on her own for a few moments, preferably in fresh air. The doors on to the terrace had been closed during dinner, but one of them was slightly ajar, and Philippa slipped unobtrusively through it into the darkness beyond.
- She stood perfectly still for a moment, drawing deep, grateful breaths of the cool, flower-scented air into her lungs. She realised almost at once that she wasn't alone. From the other end of the terrace she glimpsed movement in the shadows and heard the mutter of lowered voices.
- With a faint grimace, she half turned to go back indoors.
- 'Alain.' The name came to her on a throaty, seductive whisper, impossible to ignore or forget. Philippa's head came round sharply, and she peered through the gloom to the far corner of the terrace where a trellis network interwoven with climbing plants provided a screen. Then, almost as if it had been summoned, the moon emerged from behind a cloud and she saw them, standing locked together, Marie-Laure's arms round his neck, her body straining passionately against his.
- 'Alain, mon amour.'
- She didn't want to see any more—hear any more. Only a few hours earlier that might have been herself, she thought, pain slashing at her, as she turned, fumbling her way blindly back into the salon. At least she'd been spared that, if nothing else.
- Perhaps it wasn't just a coincidence that Marie-Laure was here tonight. Perhaps she and Alain had planned it that way, so that they could meet, snatch
- a few illicit moments together. They'd been clever about it. She hadn't noticed either of them leave the room, and nor, she could swear, had anyone else. It was a pleasant evening, and a good party. They were all too involved, too interested in their own conversations, which was what the lovers had probably relied on.
- And this time, contrary to popular belief, the wife had been the first—indeed, the only one, to find out.
- Not that it was strictly true, because she'd always known. That was why Alain had married her, for God's sake. She was—camouflage. Only—seeing them together had made it all too real somehow. Had fixed her with an image of desire, of passion and sheer sensual urgency that she would never be able to forget.
- A maid approached, offering more coffee, and she took a cup, swallowing a mouthful of the powerful black brew, feeling it scald against her aching throat.
- 'Philippa.' She jumped as Alain appeared suddenly at her side, his hand closing on her arm.
- His face was grim as he looked down at her. 'It was you—just now on the terrace?' As she nodded mutely, he said harshly, half under his breath, 'I thought so.' He glanced round him. 'We need to talk, you and I. I'll find Madame le Gres and tell her that we're leaving.'
- 'No, thank you.' She freed herself, gently and with dignity. 'I don't want to leave yet. I—I'm enjoying myself,' she added defiantly. 'And I have no intention of spilling another drink, or making a fool of myself in any way, so please don't worry about me.'
- 'Do you think I care about that?' he said harshly. 'I have to talk to you in private—to explain.'
- 'You explained when we met.' Philippa stared down at her coffee cup as if it was the most amazing and imaginative artefact known to the world of man. 'It's all right, Alain. You're paying me very generously to provide a cover-up, and turn a blind eye to your— diversions. That's what I'll go on doing.' She swallowed past the lump in her throat. 'But I will not— not provide one of those diversions myself. In future I'd like my bedroom door to be provided with a lock and a key.'
- The silence between them tingled in her brain, beat on her eardrums.
- Eventually Alain said coolly and courteously, 'D'accord, madame. It shall be exactly as you wish.'
- 'And there's one more thing.' She continued to look down at her coffee. 'I don't think anyone here noticed you were missing—but it isn't very wise to take chances like this, particularly when Madame de Somerville-Resnais focused attention on us all once this evening already.'
- 'I am grateful for your advice, madame.' His tone was frozen silk. 'But, under the circumstances, Madame de Somerville-Resnais, and my relationship with her, need no longer be any concern of yours.'
- 'I understand,' Philippa said, and turned away.
- But it wasn't true. The realisation that she didn't understand—didn't accept—struck her with all the force of a thunderbolt. Brought her to a standstill, coffee-cup in hand.
- In fact, she understood only that she wanted to burst into tears, to scream and stamp her feet, and howl her misery to the four winds. She wanted to hurl the remains of her coffee over Alain's immaculate
- dress shirt, and scratch her nails down his face until she drew blood.
- And then she wanted to find Marie-Laure and... She drew a shuddering breath. It was better to stop right there.
- The power, the enormity of everything she was feeling almost overwhelmed her. As did the implications of it all.
- Jealousy, she thought. That's what I'm feeling. I'm jealous. But I can't be, because that would mean that I wanted Alain for myself. Maybe, even, that I'd fallen in love with him. And that's impossible. It can't be true.
- Because if it is true, what can I do? How can I bear it?
- She squared her shoulders. She thought forcefully, I won't let it be true.
- 'Pardon, madame?' The look of smiling incomprehension from someone standing near her told her that she had inadvertently made that last avowal aloud.
- Like an automaton, Philippa laughed, apologised, let herself be drawn into the conversation, absorbed into the group.
- And all the time, pounding in her head like a steam hammer, came the silent despairing plea, Dear God, don't let it be true. Don't let me love Alain. Please don't let me love him.
- She could only hope, forlornly, that her prayer would be answered.
- 'What the hell's the matter with you today?' Zak demanded in exasperation. He pointed at Philippa's drawing board. 'The assignment was meant to be a
- simple one. I wanted you to draw the lady on the dais—just a representation of the nude human form. Since when have you decided to go in for Cubism?'
- Philippa flushed. 'I haven't. It's just—well, life-drawing has never been my strong point.'
- 'You can say that again!' Zak stared at her drawing and groaned. 'According to this, Jeannine looks as if she has about ten major bone deformities. It's probably actionable.' He turned to the model who was stretching cramped muscles and reaching for her wrap. 'You don't want to see this, cherie. It will only upset you.'
- Jeannine smiled placidly, and went away to change with a wave of her hand.
- Zak gave Philippa a measuring look. 'So what's the problem? Yesterday's wallet hijack? They say lightning never strikes twice in the same place.'
- Philippa smiled stiltedly. 'I hope not. No, I just have things on my mind.'
- 'Gavin, I suppose. Honey, what can I say? You've just got to trust the doctors. You won't improve his condition in New York by fretting over it in Paris.'
- 'I know.' Philippa was guiltily, miserably aware that she hadn't given her father a thought in twenty-four hours. 'I'm sorry, Zak. Today's been rather a waste of time, hasn't it?'
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