Devices and Desires (77 page)

It was hard to read anything, because of the dust. Each time one of the engine-stones bashed against the outside wall, a sprinkle
floated down from the ceiling, where the two-hundred-year-old plaster moldings had cracked and were slowly being shaken apart.
Dust covered the maps laid out on the long table, the dispatches and summaries and schedules. Orsea’s mouth was full of it,
and he kept licking his lips, like a cat.

The first bombardment had been all horror; ten minutes when he couldn’t think because of the noise and the terrible shaking.
But it had ended, and Jarnac had assured him that the walls had shrugged it off; the Mezentine engines hadn’t done their job,
he’d said; it was a miracle, he hadn’t added, but there was no need. Quite unaccountably and contrary to all expectations,
their invincible enemy had failed.

The second bombardment, he reckoned, was probably mostly just spite. The tempo was quite different. The engines were loosing
their shots slowly, taking great pains to be accurate, to land each ball on precisely the same spot as its predecessor. Each
time there’d be that unique, extraordinary swishing, humming whistle, followed by the thump you could feel in every part of
your body, and then the little cloud of dust would shake out of the plaster and float down through the air. Then the interval,
nearly a full minute; then, just when you were beginning to think that they’d given up and stopped, the whistle again.

“They’re spinning it out,” one of the councillors said, “making it last as long as they can.”

“Let them,” someone else said. “The chief mason says they can bash away at the towers till the snows come and they won’t hurt
anything. He reckons the stone those balls are made of is too soft; they’re splitting and breaking up on impact, he says,
and that’s taking all the sting out of them. If that’s the best they can do, we haven’t got a lot to be worried about. They
can’t keep it up for too long, they’ll run out of things to throw at us; and they can’t sit down there and wait for fresh
supplies, they haven’t brought enough food with them. The plain fact is, they got it wrong, and they haven’t got time to put
it right.”

“Even so,” another voice said mildly, “it’ll be nice when it stops. That row’s making my teeth hurt.”

Some people laughed; Orsea forced a smile, to show solidarity. It wasn’t the thump, he’d realized, it was the whistle. He’d
timed it by counting; one-two-three-four-five-
six
. When it came, he had no choice in the matter; his mind went blank and he counted. Anything else was blotted out, and once
the thump came he had to start again from scratch. The constant jarring had given him a headache, which wasn’t helping, either.
He’d have given anything to be able to hit back, but he knew that was impossible. If he launched a sortie, just to shut the
bloody things up, it could cost him the war, and the Eremians their lives. It was like being taunted by a bully; it kills
you slowly, but you know that as soon as you respond, you’ve lost. Quite simply, there was nothing to be done. And here he
was, doing it.

“Where’s Jarnac?” someone asked.

“Went out to have a look,” someone else replied. “I think he gets antsy, just sitting around. You know, man of action.”

Scattered laughter; everybody knew Jarnac Ducas, of course. By the same token, everybody in the room was determinedly not
looking at the vacant space where Miel Ducas should have been. They’d been not looking for hours. The strain was worse than
the bombardment.

“How about a night sortie?” someone said. Silence. It wasn’t the first time the suggestion had been made, and there was no
reason to suppose that the many valid reasons against it had ceased to apply. “I was thinking of a small force, no more than
a hundred men…”

Whoever it was bleated on for a minute or so, then shut up. Nobody could be bothered to say anything. They were waiting for
the whistle; and when it came, they counted.

“The Duke’s compliments,” the man said, “and if it’s convenient, we’ve got orders to move you to the ground floor.”

Miel looked at him as though he was mad. “The ground floor?” he repeated.

The man nodded. “On account of the bombardment,” he said. “The Duke felt that if they were to bring engines round the side
of the city, you might be in danger up here. Much better off on the ground floor.”

Miel wanted to laugh. “That’s very thoughtful,” he said. “When would he like me out by?”

“As soon as you’re ready,” the man said. “No tearing hurry.”

There were all manner of things that Miel wanted to ask, or say; but the man wouldn’t know the answers to the questions, and
it wouldn’t do for him to hear the comments. “Send my valet up and we’ll start packing,” he said, with a faint smile. “Thank
you.”

Strange; the tower had become home. At least, it had become his customary environment, like a hawk’s mews, a place where he
perched and waited, hooded, until he was needed, or until someone came to pull his neck because he was no longer of any use.
He wasn’t sure he’d be able to cope as well, down at ground level.

It took a long time to put the proper state of the Ducas into bags and boxes (how can I have gathered so much
stuff
in such a short time? Miel wondered, as two more men staggered away down the stairs with their arms full). Eventually he
was alone in a bare stone room, waiting for his keeper to take him down. Since he was on his honor (he was always on his honor),
he hadn’t even considered trying to slip away, bolt down the stairs while everyone was preoccupied with moving his possessions,
try and run away. There was, after all, nowhere for him to go; he was the Ducas, everybody knew him by sight, and if he ran
he’d have to leave being himself behind. That made him think, very briefly, of Ziani Vaatzes, who’d done just that. What on
earth would that have felt like; jumping out of a window, he seemed to recall, and running like a doe or a boar flushed out
of cover. And didn’t he have a wife and children? I couldn’t do that, Miel decided, I’d rather have stayed put and let them
kill me.

The captain of the guard came to collect him; stood to one side to let him go first (due deference or a security precaution?
Both, Miel decided; a happy coincidence of protocols). The tight coil of the spiral staircase made him feel slightly dizzy
— always worse going down — and he had to stop for a moment and put his hand on the wall before they reached the bottom.

Just briefly they passed out into the open air. Miel stopped and looked up at the sky, then apologized for holding things
up. It was time for his afternoon letter to Orsea.

“Can you tell me what’s going on out there?” he asked the guard.

“Bombardment stopped about an hour ago,” the captain replied. “We don’t know yet if they’ve got any more stones to chuck at
us, but it doesn’t matter if they do. They just break up, like clods of dirt.”

At that moment Miel felt a stab of bewilderment, as though he’d suddenly woken up in a strange place. If the city was being
attacked, he ought to be on the wall or in the council room, doing whatever he could to help. It seemed ludicrous that he
should be blinking in the sunlight on the wrong side of the city, dull-witted from prolonged idleness, about to settle down
in another cozy, enclosed room with nothing useful to do. He tried to remember what it was that he’d done wrong, but he couldn’t.
This is silly,
he thought.
I’ll write a quick note to Orsea, he’ll sort it all out.
Then he remembered; he’d already done that, many times, and for some reason it didn’t seem to have worked. He turned to the
captain, who seemed a decent enough sort.

“Excuse me,” he said (because the Ducas is always polite). “Can I ask you something?”

The captain frowned, then nodded. “Of course.”

“This sounds silly,” Miel said, “but you wouldn’t happen to know, would you, what it is I’m supposed to have done?”

The expression on the captain’s face was hard to interpret. Surprise, definitely; incredulity, perhaps, or shock. “You mean…”
he started to say, then hesitated for a moment. “You mean to say you don’t know?”

“That’s right,” Miel said. “I mean, they arrested me and brought me here, but nobody seemed to want to tell me why. I’ve written
to the Duke and everybody else I can think of, but they haven’t seen fit…” He paused. The Ducas doesn’t criticize the Duke.
“I just wondered if you’d heard anything,” he said.

“That’s —” Again, the captain stopped himself. “If you haven’t been told,” he said, “it’s got to be because there’s a good
reason. I’m sorry.”

Miel looked at him. “So there is a reason?” he said. “You know what it is, but you won’t tell me.”

“I can’t,” the captain said.

Miel thought for a moment. “Let me ask you something,” he said. “You know what it is I’m supposed to have done. Yes?”

The captain nodded slowly.

“Fine,” Miel said. “And I suppose it must be something pretty bloody dreadful, if I’ve got to be locked up in here for it.
So; do you think I’m guilty?”

The captain looked away. “It’s not —”

“Do you think I did it or don’t you?”

“Yes,” the captain said. “Everybody knows about it, there was a letter —”

“A letter.” Miel closed his eyes, just for an instant. “Right, thank you. I think I see now.”

The captain was looking at him. “So it’s true, then?” he said.

He tried not to, but he couldn’t help laughing. “I don’t bloody know, do I?” he said. “You won’t tell me what the charges
are.”

There was an edge of anger to the captain’s voice. “You were conspiring with the Vadani,” he said. “You were plotting to get
the Duke to escape, bugger off and leave us. You and —”

“That’s not true,” Miel said angrily. “What the hell have the Vadani got to do with it?” he added, because for a moment he’d
forgotten who the letter had been from. He remembered as the captain replied.

“You’re saying it’s not true?” he said.

“I’d rather not discuss it,” Miel said. “But for your information, because you’re stuck with me and I don’t want you thinking
you’re guarding some kind of evil monster, I’ve never had any dealings with the Vadani except as an accredited diplomat; I
don’t know Duke Valens, I’ve never talked to him or written him a letter or had a letter from him. If this is about what I
think it is, then it’s just a private thing between Duke Orsea and me.” He paused. “Do you believe me?”

The captain stared at him. “I don’t know,” he said.

“Oh come on,” Miel said impatiently. “Either you do or you don’t.”

“You’ve got to go inside now,” the captain said.

Miel breathed out slowly. “In case you’re worried,” he said, “I won’t tell anybody about what you’ve just told me. If it comes
up and they ask me how I knew, I’ll say it was just some rumor my barber told me about. All right?”

The captain nodded gratefully. Evidently he was prepared to take the word of the Ducas. “All I know is what people have been
saying,” he said. “They found a letter hidden in your house, and apparently it links you to a conspiracy to lure the Duke
out of the city; they’re saying the idea was to persuade him to escape to the Vadani, and then Valens would hand him over
to the Mezentines.”

Miel nodded. “I see,” he said. “Because the Vadani are really still our enemies.”

“Partly. And partly…” The captain looked past him, as if the stairs they’d just come down were impossibly fascinating. “They
say the Duchess is having an affair with Valens, and this is how they planned on getting Orsea out of the way.”

Miel was silent for a moment. Then he said: “I think you’d better lock me up now. If you really believe all that, the least
you can do is chain me to the wall. If I were you, I’d cut my throat right now.”

Not surprisingly, the captain didn’t reply. He led the way into the ground-floor apartment, which had already been furnished
with the Ducas furniture and effects. The book he’d been reading was on the lectern, open at the right place.
The Perfect Mirror of the Chase;
Jarnac’s choice, from his own library. Right now, Miel decided, he really wasn’t in the mood. He flipped it shut and sat
down in the window-seat, with his back to the world and the war. On the table there was a stack of paper, his inkwell, pen,
penknife, sand-shaker, seal and candle; they knew his routine.

Instead, he drew his knees up under his chin and stared at the wall. There was a tapestry there; he’d been staring at it for
some time before he noticed it, because it was exactly where it should be, where it always had been in relation to where he
was likely to be sitting. It was the tapestry that always hung on the back wall of his writing-room, back at the Ducas house.
He smiled, though its presence hurt him, and for the first time in twenty years he took a moment to look at it.

He’d grown up with it, of course, because everything in the Ducas house had always been there, certainly as long as he could
remember. It was relatively recent by Ducas standards, certainly no more than eighty years old; Neo-Classical Primitive, if
you insisted on being technical, which meant the figures were lean and angular, their elbows and knees bent and pointed, their
heads in profile, their lips curled in a frozen smile, their hands and feet unnaturally small. In the center, a unicorn was
kneeling at the feet of a girl (she was flat-chested and her neck was freakishly long, which was the Neo-Classical Primitive
way of telling you she was supposed to be pretty), while behind a nearby bush, half a dozen men lurked with spears and drawn
bows. They weren’t actually looking at the unicorn, because of artistic conventions, but it was pretty obvious what was going
to happen next. Above and below the main scene ran borders crowded with running hounds — tiny heads, little stubby legs, stupidly
long, thin bodies — in between exuberant growths of twisted, distorted flowers. He’d never really looked at it before, because
if he had he’d have seen how terrifying it was, with its hideous, misshapen creatures and its message of treachery and death.
It was supposed to be an allegory of courtly seduction; in Neo-Classicism, most things were. He wondered: which one is me,
the girl or the hunters? The unicorn is Orsea, of course (it looked like a long, thin goat with a spike stuck in its head);
I suppose I must be the girl, and the hunters in the bush are whoever’s behind all this…