Authors: Helen Frost
But I like to listen
to their stories.
I know if I try,
I can learn to
understand
them.
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Grandpa
gets up first
and makes a hot
birch fire in the stove.
When the house is warm
Grandma makes a pot of coffee
and cooks pancakes.
Grandma,
I ask,
can I move out here and live with you?
I give her all my reasons. Well, most of them.
She looks down at her sewing.
I do
know what
you mean, Willow. We'd like to
have
you here.
I'm surprised! I was expecting
some
argument
about my family, or all the
friends
she thinks
I have at school. Then she goes on:
Could
you and your dad take care of all
those dogs if you're here and
he's there? Maybe you
shouldn't split up
a dog team like
that, Willow.
Those dogs
get used
to each
other.
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Early
evening,
snow starts
falling, burying my
tracks from the trail up to
the dog yard and into the house.
Snow covers all the yellow circles
the dogs have made around their houses,
and half buries the firewood stacked outside.
Grandma stands beside me; we're looking out
the window, and she tilts her head the way she does
when she's thinking of a riddle:
Look
, I see something â¦
She squints her eyes a little.
Someone
outside
is wearing
a sheepskin coat.
I look around
and
figure out what
Grandma means:
Over thereâI
see
snow piled
on top of an old stump.
Inside
her warm
kitchen, Grandma nods. She
smiles a little.
That's
right, Willow,
that's
it.
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Sunday
morning, the
snow is deep, but
not so much that I can't
make it home. Grandpa and Dad
go out on snowmachines, meeting halfway
to pack the trail. It's time to leave. If I start now, I'll
have plenty of time to get home before dark. I feed the dogs
a little extra, and
Grandma
says,
Hereâput this in your pack.
Smoked salmon!
Looks like
she's feeding me a little extra, too.
Then she gives
me
the mittens she just finished, beaded
flowers on her home-tanned moose skin, beaver fur
around the cuffs. She could sell them for a lot
of money, and she's giving them to me
when it's not even my birthday.
I put them on, put my
hands on her face.
We both
smile.
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It's
warm
today,
almost
up to zero. I
see something:
White clouds blow
across the sky.
Too bad
I'm out here alone, with
no one but that spruce hen
to tell my riddle to. (It's the dogs'
breath I see, white puffs going out behind
them as they run.) Here comes the halfway point,
where Grandpa met Dad
this
morning. They warned me
about this part of the trail; this
will be
the stretch to watch,
this bumpy part coming up.
Take it
easy
there,
Grandpa said.
Okay, slow down, Roxy.
Good, we're past that rough spot,
now we can go as fast as we want. And I love to go fast!
So does Roxy. She looks back at me and I swear
I see her grin.
Let's go!
we tell each other.
Cora and Magoo perk up their ears
as if to say,
Okay with us!
I knew I could do this.
Hike, Roxy!
Haw!
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Jean, Willow's great-great-great grandmother (Spruce Hen)
Oh, my land! Look at this child flying down the trail!
She comes from people who like to keep movingâmy family moved across an ocean when I was about Willow's age; her grandfather hitchhiked across Canada the summer he turned twenty; her father came north on the Alcan Highwayâon a motorcycle. Now lookâwhen Willow and Roxy get moving together, I don't see any way to stop them.
Usually, I wouldn't want to stop them, or even slow them down. I fly faster than that myself.
But I've seen what's ahead. At the bottom of this hill, just around the curve, a dead tree fell across the trail, not too long after Willow's father went past this morning. Broken limbs are sticking out all over it.
If she were coming from the other direction, she'd see it in time to stop. But from this direction, at the speed she's going, Willow won't have time to stop her dogs.
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The
dogs love
going fast as much
as I do. When we come to
the curve at the bottom of the hill
I'll slow them down a little. But not yetâ
this is too much fun! Here's the curve.
What?
Whoa! Easy, Roxy!
I brake hard, the dogs stopâ
but not fast enough. Roxy's howl cuts through me.
I set the snow hook, run to herâas fast as I can
through the deep snow. I stumble; a branch
jabs into my leg.
Oww!
It's my
own
voice I hear, like the
fault
line
of an earthquake, with
everything breaking
around it. Roxy
sticks her face
in the snow.
The snow
turns
red.
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Roxy,
look at me.
I hold her head
and stare at her face.
She's bleeding from her eyes
and she won't stop yelping.
I
pull the
tarp off the sledâoh, I
don't
believe this!
I kept saying,
Dad, I
know
I have everything!
But I didn't bring
the first
aid kit! I don't have
any bandages, or any
thing
like a dog bag to carry
Roxy in the sled. I'm
about
two hours from home.
It's too far to turn back.
This
is serious.
Hush, Roxy.
I'll think of something. My shirt. It's clean enough.
No one's around, and I won't freeze to death while I
take it off and put my sweater and jacket back on.
Okay. I think I can do this. I have to.
Roxy,
just let me hold this on your eyes. Please
trust me. Thank you, Roxy. Good dog.
There, I finally stopped the bleeding.
Now, I have to get her in the sled.
I can lift her. But how can I
keep her from shivering
in this bitter
wind?
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I
kick the
side of the sled.
How could I be so
stupid? Dad will kill
me!
Calm down, my dear.
Weirdâit seemed like I heard
those words. I look around: Who
said that? All I see is a spruce hen
sitting on a low branch just ahead,
quietly preening her feathers. I watch
her for a minute,
take
a few long, deep
breaths, let my
heart
slow down a little,
and then it comes to me:
Feathersâuse
my down sleeping bag.
I manage to get
Roxy into it and strap her to the sled.
I give the dogs some of my smoked
salmon and eat some myself.
(Thank you, Grandma!)
Coraâyou'll have to
lead us home. I'm
counting on
you.
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Jean, Willow's great-great-great grandmother (Spruce Hen)
By the time they pull into the yard, the sun has set behind the mountains. Willow's mother and her father and her sister, Zanna, all run out to meet her. Her mother is all smiles; Zanna's jumping up and down.
Her father looks at Roxy in the sled.
Before he has a chance to say a word, Willow's mother takes her daughter in her arms and pulls her close.
Willow's shoulders start to shake. Her mother makes a gesture to her father:
You take care of Roxy. I'll take care of her.
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My
leg is
bruised
pretty badly.
Mom says it's lucky
I didn't get hurt worse.
We
shouldn't
have let you go.
At least,
someone
should have gone out
this afternoon to
be
sure you were okay.
It sounds
like Mom is
mad at
Dad or herself, but not sure which.
She fusses over
me
, covering me with a warm blanket,
making me hot chocolate, telling Zanna to turn
down the TV so I can rest. She doesn't
say a word about Roxy. When Dad
comes in, they go into their
bedroom to talk. I want
to hear what Dad
has to say, but
he doesn't
seem to
want
me
to.
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Roxy's
eyes have
always been so
beautifulâdeep,
clear brown. Intelligent.
I call it dog-love, that way
she looks at us. Now her eyes
are crusted withâwith
what
? They're
all bandaged, and when I lift
a
corner of the
bandage, I see a bloody
mess
. When Dad took her
to the vet, he didn't even ask me to go along! And now
he hasn't told me what she said. He was silent when he
brought Roxy in and made her bed beside the stove.
Dad's not exactly accusing me out loud, but
everything he does says,
Willow,
how could you? I trusted you!
Roxy was our best dog.
You knew that.
Yes, Dadâ
I knew
that.
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I
don't
get up early
like I usually do.
I stay in bed when Dad
gets up to feed the dogs. Mom
comes in to see how I'm doing, and
I say,
Mom, I think I better stay home
from school today.
I can't
walk
too well.
Her
face
tells me
she'll tell
Dad
for me,
but she's not sure
I'm telling
the entire
truth.
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Dad
changes
Roxy's bandage and
makes sure she's comfortable
before he goes to work. After he's gone,
I go in to see her. She can't see me, of course,
but she whimpers when
she
hears me coming, so I
kneel down beside her. I
might
cry, and I don't want her
to hear me do that. I'll try to
be
as brave as she is.
Oh, Roxy,