Read Diana in Search of Herself Online
Authors: Sally Bedell Smith
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“adored”: B-AM1, p.26
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“She was overtaken by the busyness”: B-PJ1, p. 68
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“a teacher’s dream”: Ibid., p. 64
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“I was very naughty”: B-AM1, p. 26
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“Diana has been outstandingly”: DM, 7/2/98
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“I wasn’t university material”: WO, 4/8/78
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“wary of adults, often prickly”: Ruth Rudge,
West Heath Magazine
, no.85, p. 26
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“She was wary of people”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“ghastly … calm and sorted out”: B-AM1, p. 27
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“she must try to be less emotional”: DT, 8/29/98
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“She was a very strong character”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“I didn’t think you had it”: B-AM1, p. 27
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“I would have been involved”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“buoyant and noisy”: B-AM1, p. 87
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“I was always looking for”: Ibid., p. 28
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“The compassion and caring”: Ruth Rudge,
West Heath Magazine
, p. 26
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“for anyone who has done things”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“She had a very caring heart”: Interview with Violet Allen
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“Mostly it was a traumatic time”: Ibid.
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“Most of the girls from”: Ibid.
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“was always very controlled”: B-PJ1, p. 65
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“A terrible terrible wrench”: B-AM1, p. 28
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“a difficult phase”: Ti, 10/17/98
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“a chilling time warp”: Spencer, p. 2
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“never grew to be fond”: B-PJ1, p. 82
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a controversial image: Ibid.
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one of her cousins: SuMi, 5/18/80
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“When I met Johnnie”: DEx, 11/30/81
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By the time Johnnie brought Raine: B-AM1, pp. 91–92; B-PJ1, p. 82
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“In the beginning I was very”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“used to … pour us”: B-AM1, p. 28
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Diana enlisted a friend: B-AM1, p. 92
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Diana’s mistrust of Raine hardened: ST, 10/17/98
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“resented”: DEx, 11/30/81
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“intense love affair”: WO, 4/8/78; B-AM1, pp. 90, 96
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“domestic upheavals concerning my family…. bring it up again”: WO,4/8/78
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“I sought a lot of medical help”: I-FSK
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“like something out of.… I wouldn’t admit it”: WO, 4/8/78
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Sarah later acknowledged: Ibid.
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“Bulimia” comes from the Greek:
Handbook of Treatment for Eating Disorders
, second edition (1997), edited by David M. Garner, Ph.D., and Paul E. Garfinkel, M.D., p. 13
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Although bulimia nervosa was not: Ibid., p. 11
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“inappropriate compensatory behaviors”: Ibid., p. 25
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“It started because Sarah”: Mi, 5/8/97
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“I don’t think I have”: I-FSK
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“She was often seen lurking”: Ruth Rudge,
West Heath Magazine
, p. 26
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“midnight feasts”: ITV-Doc
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“loved food”: B-PJ1, p. 72
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“I ate and ate”: B-AM1, p. 27
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She recalled sneaking: Ibid., p. 27
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As the movers were packing up: B-PJ1, p. 81
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From a very early age: Ibid., p. 50
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“was always washing or tidying”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“I would go in sometimes”: Interview with Violet Allen
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“Diana had strong”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft
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“just came out of the pen”: B-AM1, p. 88
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“always released tremendous”: Ibid., p. 28
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“I didn’t allow best friends”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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On one hand, she recalled liking: B-AM1, p. 28
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but she was easily distracted: Ibid., p. 26
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wrote a lot: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“Any child from a broken home”: Ibid.
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“At the age of fourteen”: B-AM1, p. 24
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she “froze”: Ibid., p. 88
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“exams made her panic”: B-PJ1, p. 71
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“I never remember walking”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“something special”: B-PT, p. 31
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“winding road”: B-AM1, p. 68
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“going somewhere different”: Ibid., p. 24
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to marry a prominent man: Ibid.
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“it was well known”: B-RK, p. 44
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“according to Diana”: B-PT, p. 32
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“never had her marked down”: WO, 4/9/88
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“something like one hundred twenty letters”: B-AM1, p. 30
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Violet Allen couldn’t help: Interview with Violet Allen
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“If Diana was in a safe and secure environment”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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couldn’t wait to go to London: B-AM1, p. 30
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“By the late seventies”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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But Diana felt overwhelmed: B-PJ1, p. 99
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“all the tendons”: B-AM1, p. 102
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injuring her leg “slightly”: B-PJ1, p. 100
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“She did not hang about”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“velvet hairbands”: B-AM1, p. 31
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“When it came to children, [Diana] had”: ITV-Doc
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“Diana was pure state-of-the-art”:
Newsweek
, 10/26/85
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“the new school of born-again”: VF, 10/85
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“loner by inclination and habit”: B-AM1, p. 99
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“I kept myself to myself”: Ibid., p. 31
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“You always felt that”: Ibid., p. 105
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“Diana didn’t enjoy parties”: B-PJ1, p. 106
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“sexually attractive”: B-AM1, p. 105
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“Lady Diana’s life in London”: DT, 9/1/97; interviews with William Deedes, George Plumptre
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Diana explained that she: B-AM1, p. 28
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“I had never had a boyfriend”: Ibid., pp. 33–34
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“tuck into a good-sized”: B-PJ1, p. 99
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“got terribly fat”: B-AM1, p. 31
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Her friend Rory Scott vividly remembered: Ibid., p. 127
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“Do you have anorexia? … just common sense”: WO, 4/8/78
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“Bulimia ranges from fad”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft
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“touching side to this friendship”: DEx, 7/18/77
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“He makes me laugh”: Sun, 11/8/77
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“I never thought there was”: B-SB, p. 182
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“His closest friends began to”: B-JD, p. 315
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“When she was twelve”:
Time
, 9/8/97
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“After the investiture”: Interview with Ruth Rudge
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“His first impression”: B-JD, p. 337
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“The first impact was ‘God, what a sad man.’… He was charm itself”: B-AM1, p.31
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“were seen walking around the corridors”: DEx, 1/17/78
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several weekends later: DM, 2/2/78
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“show [her] grandchildren one day”: Interview with James Whitaker
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“a romantic who falls in love”: Sun, 2/18/78
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“I’m not in love with Prince Charles”: DM, 2/18/78
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“This is the first time”: DM, 2/18/78
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“What a girl!”: NOTW, 2/19/78
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one of his six pseudonyms: B-DK, p. 88
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“panicky perspiring figure”: DEx, (“William Hickey” column, written by Peter McKay), 4/5/78
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“thousands of boyfriends”: WO, 4/8/78
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“You’ve just done something”: Interview with James Whitaker
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“by foul means”: DM, 4/4/78
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“My sister Sarah spoke to the press”: B-MR, p. 40
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“I know who you are”: Interview with James Whitaker
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“He was a complete bachelor”: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“I’ve fallen in love with”: B-DK, p. 213
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By pushing himself to the limit: B-JD, p. 184
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As a young boy: Biographical material on Prince Charles was drawn primarily from
The Prince of Wales
, the authorized biography by Jonathan Dimbleby, which is the most reliable source.
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“deep if inarticulate love”: B-JD, p. 59
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“she was not indifferent”: Ibid.
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“the most intimate of the Prince’s”: Ibid., p. 19
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“I simply dread going to bed”: Ibid., p. 76 (PC letter 2/9/63 to unnamed recipient)
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“I’m not a gregarious person”: Ibid., p. 44
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“sensitive musician”: Ibid., p. 88
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“surrogate elder brother”: Ibid., p. 102
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“to find himself”: Ibid., p. 107
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“sow his wild oats”: Ibid., p. 220
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“just the girl”: Ibid.
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“with a searching look”: PE, “Grovel” column, 7/3/81
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“dashed [emphatically] accurate”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
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“With all the intensity of first love”: B-JD, p. 221
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“live inside [her] trousers”: SuMi, 1/17/93
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Parker Bowles was a ladies’ man: B-PJ2, pp. 47–49
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By mid-1972 Charles and Camilla had struck: B-JD, p. 232 (PC letter 4/27/73 to unnamed recipient)
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In Camilla’s company, Charles became: Ibid., p. 222
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“the last time I shall see her”: Ibid. (PC letter 12/72 to Mountbatten)
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“such a blissful, peaceful”: Ibid., p. 232 (PC letter 4/27/73 to unnamed recipient)
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“I must say, Amanda really”: Ibid., p. 230 (PC letter 4/25/73 to Mountbatten)
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“Perhaps being away”: Ibid., pp. 248–49 (PC letter 3/74 to Mountbatten)
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“Our editor said … ‘We want”: R&R-Doc, Part I, p. 21
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“You’ve got to remember”: BBC/ITV interview with Brian Connell,6/26/69
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“His bride needed to have”:
Harper’s & Queen
, 4/90
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“choose a suitable”: B-JD, p. 248 (Mountbatten letter 2/74 to PC)
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“A woman not only marries a man”:
The Observer
, 6/9/74
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“My marriage has to be forever”: ES, 1/7/75
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“a secure family unit”: WO, 2/75
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“You must get married at once”: Colin Clark,
Younger Brother, Younger Son: A Memoir
(1997), p. 154
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“beginning on the downward slope”: B-JD, p. 316 (Mountbatten letter undated, 1978, to PC)
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“I must say I am becoming”: Ibid., pp. 317–18 (PC letter 4/15/79 to unnamed recipient)
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Clearly he admired and respected her: Ibid., p. 249
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She grasped all too well: Ibid., p. 322
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Charles had recently renewed: B-JD, p. 335; B-RK, p. 91; B-PJ2, pp.48–49
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“warmth, her lack of ambition”: B-JD, p. 335
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when Andrew left that year: DM, 1/14/93; PE, 1/4/80
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“began to suppose that they”: B-JD, p. 335
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Yet the Queen, in her customary: DT, 10/20/98
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“The surgeons didn’t want to operate”: WO, 4/9/88
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“I was the first person”: Ibid.
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They felt that Raine kept them: B-AM1, p. 29
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Detecting signals that Diana hadn’t “twigged … amazing place”: Ibid., p. 32
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“that weekend was the beginning”: B-PJ1, p. 97
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“They were shooting pheasants”: Interview with James Whitaker
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“Charles probably didn’t see”: B-PJ1, p. 97
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“Charles found himself strangely”: Ibid., pp. 113–14
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“quite a lot”: Ibid.
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“He would ring up Cadogan”: Ibid., p. 97
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“no one ever took much notice”: Ibid., p. 103
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“She could have been amongst”: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“disorganized about arrangements”: B-SB, p. 111
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After her customary visit: B-PJ1, pp. 101, 116
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“I have lost someone infinitely special”: B-JD, p. 324
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The daughter of a millionaire: B-PJ1, p. 117
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“caviar queen”:
Sunday Times Magazine
, 12/22/85
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“Whiplash Wallace”: Mi, 8/22/80
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“There is a risqué picture”: DM, 6/10/80
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“enormously attracted”: B-SB, p. 171
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In February 1980, she traveled: B-PJ1, p. 117
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“Can you see me swanning”: B-AM1, p. 105
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“perfect English skin”: B-MR, p. 15
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“casual encounters”: B-JD, p. 337
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“began to think seriously”: Ibid., p. 338
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“You’re a young blood”: B-AM1, p. 32
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tabloid veteran James Whitaker: Interview with James Whitaker
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“He was all over me”: B-AM1, p. 32
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“how she had sensed his loneliness”: B-JD, p. 337
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“It was to Lady Susan”: B-SB, p. 184
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“he had met the girl he intended to marry”: B-JD, p. 337