Diana in Search of Herself (80 page)

38
   “trivial, like mosquitoes”: WO, 4/9/88

39
   “Someone said to me recently”: Sun, 6/9/89

40
   “ingratitude”: Sun, 9/10/91

41
   “Diana doesn’t understand”: To, 3/30/92; Sun, 9/10/91

42
   “I love people for”: DM, 5/20/97

43
   they might not communicate: DEx, 6/6/88

44
   “It was not an easy”: Interview with Richard Kay

45
   “I don’t understand why I have”: SuEx, 10/11/92

46
   “a close friend … she told friends”: B-AM1, p. 136

47
   “There were 4,000 of her words”: Interview with Andrew Morton

48
   “made a number of alterations”: B-AM1, p. 19

49
   “presumably out of deference”: Ibid.

50
   “the man she longed to marry”: Ibid., p. 11

51
   When Angela Serota called: Ibid., p. 174

52
   “extraordinary … grieving family”: DM, 8/24/91

53
   “Diana’s tears flowed”: Sun, 8/30/91

54
   “What do you suppose”:
Independent
, 11/30/91

55
   “more positive and balanced”: B-AM1, p. 176

56
   “second honeymoon … lovebirds”: DS, 8/13/91

57
   “happier and closer”: Sun, 8/13/91

58
   Meanwhile, the Waleses: B-JD, p. 579

59
   “Their lives are spent”: B-AM1, p. 182

60
   “While the caring princess”: DEx, 9/23/91

61
   “actually very healthy”: B-JD, p. 585

62
   “the greatest year of her life”:
Good Housekeeping
(British edition),10/91

63
   “wistful solitude”: DM, 2/12/92

64
   “poignant reminder of the royal wish”: Mi, 2/12/92

65
   “The marriage was indeed”: B-JD, p. 592

66
   Diana was well aware: Ibid., p. 591

67
   “all eyes will be on them”: ES, 2/12/92

68
   placing the blame for: Mi, 2/14/92

69
   “It was she who seemed”: ST, 2/16/92

70
   “Here she was again”: ST, 5/17/92

71
   “tabloid mauling”: B-JD, pp. 579–80

72
   they arrived and departed: B-AM1, pp. 180–81

73
   “leaving Diana to attend”: DM, 4/2/92

74
   “I asked, ‘Are you aware’ ”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

75
   she was visibly shaking: Interview with David Puttnam

76
   “It was a hard-boiled crowd”: Interview with Andrew Knight

77
   “suddenly she started”: Interview with David Puttnam

78
   “I think it would be better off”: Neil, p. 262

79
   “effectively … too fantastical”: Ibid., p. 261

80
   “He started going through”: Interview with Andrew Neil

81
   “gushing prose”: Interview with Sue Douglas

82
   “We have something serious”: Ibid.

83
   “I was able to say”: Interview with Andrew Knight

84
   “I never had any doubt”: Interview with Andrew Neil

85
   
The Sunday Times
upped: Neil, p. 263

86
   “there were large chunks”: Interview with Sue Douglas

87
   “Treat that book”: Interview with Stuart Higgins

88
   “It is believed”: DEx, 5/9/92

89
   “I still see myself”: ST, 5/17/92

90
   “The Princess hoped by putting”: Interview with Robert Hardman

1
   “She thinks he is a bad”: B-AM1, p. 184

2
   “her own privacy”: DT, 1/13/93

3
   “There was no commercial”: Interview with Max Hastings

4
   “coming under strong pressure”: Sun, 6/4/92

5
   Fealty to his sovereign:
The Spectator
, 1/23/99

6
   The first
Sunday Times
excerpt: ST, 6/7/92

7
   
“I HAVE NOT COOPERATED”:
Mi, 6/8/92

8
   “odious exhibition”: B-JD, p. 583

9
   McGregor checked once more: Gua, 1/12/93 (Lord McGregor letter12/11/92 to Sir David Calcutt)

10
   Prince Charles first read: B-WB, p. 165

11
   “Diana and Charles agreed”: B-AM2, p. 29

12
   “pompous”: Interview with Andrew Knight

13
   “she was making his life unbearable”: B-AM2, p. 30

14
   “Are you really telling me”: Interview with Andrew Knight

15
   “This was Diana’s elaborate way”: Ibid.

16
   “She was under huge pressure”: Interview with Andrew Neil

17
   Fellowes knew at once: B-JD, p. 584

18
   “embarrassed the commission”: McGregor letter, 12/11/92

19
   “the thought that the Princess”: B-JD, p. 587

20
   He changed his mind: Ibid., p. 586

21
   When Charles learned: Ibid., p. 588

22
   “if she tried to manipulate”: B-AM2, p. 31

23
   That afternoon, Diana burst: Sun, 6/12/92

24
   “rallied to the Prince”: B-JD, p. 588

25
   “shocked and horrified”: Pano, p. 18

26
   Two days earlier: B-JD, p. 588; ST, 6/28/92

27
   “was led to believe”: ST, 6/28/92

28
   “Left her shaken rigid”: B-AM2, p. 34

29
   “Diana said, ‘When I came’ ”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

30
   by writing Diana a series: ST, 12/13/92

31
   Diana reacted defensively: B-AM2, p. 35

32
   “stinging … irate”: B-AM1, p. 217

33
   “caring and compassionate”: Sun, 6/8/92

34
   “was very upset”: Interview with Andrew Knight

35
   Although their views informed: Interviews with Sue Douglas, Andrew Neil

36
   “dignified silence”: ST, 6/28/92

37
   “campaign of derision”: B-AM2, p. 40

38
   when transcripts of the Squidgy: MOS, 1/18/93

39
   “was done to harm me”: Pano, p. 22

40
   “had enjoyed a ‘physical’ ”: Sun, 9/1/92

41
   while he never took: ES, 9/3/92, 12/3/93

42
   “destroyed”: B-AM1, p. 221

43
   “flowering of [her] true”: Ibid., p. 21

44
   “growing sense of self-belief”: Ibid., p. 27

45
   “emotional roller coaster”: Ibid.

46
   “She dropped most”: Interview with Richard Kay

47
   “incensed … at what she perceived”: DM, 5/6/93

48
   “unpaid adviser”: DT, 10/7/97

49
   “James Colthurst was still my”: Interview with Andrew Morton

50
   “What had been hidden”: Pano, p. 18

51
   each consulting lawyers: B-AM2, p. 48; B-WB, p. 166

52
   “openly talking about”: B-JD, p. 589

53
   “Mrs. Walsh”: DM, 12/10/92

54
   being “exiled”: B-AM1, p. 222

55
   during the Balmoral holiday: B-JD, p. 592

56
   
WHY CHARLES AND DIANA ARE BACK TOGETHER:
B-JW, p. 129

57
   “often distraught”: B-JD, p. 593

58
   “The Glums”: B-JW, p. 130

59
   “The strain is immense”: Ibid., pp. 593–94 (PC letter 11/8/92 to unnamed recipient)

60
   Diana had been on the phone: Ibid., p. 593

61
   “recent wave of misleading”: Ibid., pp. 139–40

62
   Within days, the tabloids: Mi, 1/17/93; Sun, 1/17/93

63
   the tape of this conversation: DS, 11/14/92; MOS, 1/17/93

64
   “I’ll just live inside”: Mi, 1/17/93

65
   prompted questions: DM, 11/14/92

66
   “snapped”: B-JD, p. 595; B-WB, pp. 169–70

67
   “Unable to see any future”: B-JD, p. 595

68
   “not at all”: Pano, p. 19

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   to tell them the news: Ibid., p. 20

70
   “heard it on the radio”: Ibid., p. 19

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   “carefree, glossy”: DM, 12/11/92

72
   “Diana sounded flat”: B-AP, p. 297

73
   “The media did not mismatch”: DM, 12/10/92

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   “report the truth”: ES, 12/10/92

75
   “royal magic … on his judgment”: DM, 12/10/92

1
   “She lived her life in so many”: VF, 10/97

2
   “to discuss the things”: Interview with Roberto Devorick

3
   “She liked to be the one”: Interview with Marguerite Littman

4
   “She needed to be liked”: Interview with Mark Lloyd

5
   “It was totally one-to-one”: Interview with Cosima Somerset

6
   She retreated: B-RK, p. 108

7
   “I said, ‘When you do’ ”: Interview with David Puttnam

8
   “They are perfect”: Interview with Nicholas Haslam

9
   “Why are you sending”: Ibid.

10
   “She was very clever to give”: Ibid.

11
   “I was not on the same social”: B-SS, p. 18

12
   giving Diana “prophecies”: B-AM1, pp. 130, 163

13
   “the mother I would have liked”: DM, 1/14/98

14
   “the essential ingredient of our relationship”: DM, 9/4/97

15
   The family was also decidedly: VF, 5/97

16
   “At lunch at Annabel’s”: Interview with Cosima Somerset

17
   “She liked my way of living”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

18
   “To be her friend was difficult”: Ibid.

19
   Like Elsa, Hayat was: ES, 6/2/95; DM, 5/9/98

20
   “glass stump”: B-JD, p. 546

21
   “Peter took the approach”: Interview with Nigel Dempster

22
   
PALACE DENIES SPIRITUAL CRISIS:
Ti, 4/28/93

23
   “her sulky public behavior”: SuTel, 9/7/97

24
   “simply cry [until she was] totally drained”: Ibid.

25
   “compassionate and practical”: Ibid.

26
   The Louisiana-born: NYT, 4/4/99

27
   “I would have loved to”: Interview with Marguerite Littman

28
   “I deliberately didn’t get”: Ibid.

29
   since she had trained as: DM, 5/6/93

30
   “like a brother to her”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

31
   “By 1989, [Andrew and I] were sharing”: B-SF, p. 163

32
   The first was Steve Wyatt: Ibid., pp. 191–92, 198–200

33
   “financial adviser”:
Esquire
, 6/95

34
   While hiding in some nearby: Ibid.; B-SF, pp. 6–10; B-JW, pp. 112–13

35
   “potent confederacy”: B-SF, p. 187

36
   “its level best to isolate”: Ibid., p. 224

37
   “She’s the only person I know”: B-RK, p. 157

38
   “Palladian jewel”: Spencer, p. 55

39
   after the royal security: DEx, 5/18/93

40
   “brief but bitter silence”: Spencer, p. 55

41
   “I hate you so much”: B-AM1, p. 29

42
   Diana and Raine had met: DM, 5/12/93

43
   As word of their friendship: Mi, 7/13/98

44
   “she felt remorse”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

1
   “I never found her strong”: DM, 9/1/97

2
   “I was a problem.… busy stopping me”: Pano, pp. 20–21

3
   “Parents sometimes desert”: Ti, 9/12/91

4
   As expected, the press saw: DT, 12/4/93

5
   
THE REAL PAIN OF A BROKEN MARRIAGE:
To, 11/18/92

6
   
DIANA: THE PAIN OF BEING UNLOVED:
DM, 11/18/92

7
   “children are not … every household”: Ibid.

8
   “lecture on good parenting”: Ibid.

9
   “astonishing”: To, 11/18/92

10
   “extraordinary”: DM, 11/18/92

11
   She had sixty sessions: DM, 5/26/93

12
   “that didn’t actually say”: ITV-Doc

13
   “I have it on very good”: DM, 4/28/93

14
   “the ‘authority’ was herself”: Ibid.

15
   “astonishing”: DM, 5/26/93

16
   “showed she had beaten”: To, 4/28/93

17
   “dieting, bingeing, and self-hatred”: Susie Orbach,
Fat Is a Feminist Issue
(1988), p. 13

18
   “the body as the personification.… wrested away from her”: Susie Orbach speech “Protest and Defiance: Surrender and Complicity: Eating Problems in the 90’s” (1993)

19
   “someone who had learned”: DEx, 4/28/93

20
   “
not
about lack of self-control”: Orbach,
Fat Is a Feminist Issue
, p. 28

21
   By 1993, she had been taking: B-SS, p. 93; DM, 2/24/98; B-AM2, p. 108

22
   “haze of loneliness”: DM, 6/2/93

23
   a poll in
Today:
Gua, 12/23/93

24
   “Bad Witch … Good Witch”: B-SF, pp. 187, 196

25
   Foreign Secretary Douglas Hurd: B-JD, p. 653

26
   Diana’s celebrity even eclipsed: Ti, 12/5/96

27
   
THE TRIUMPH OF DIANA:
Ibid.

28
   “Nepal,” he was told: DT, 3/23/93

29
   “addicted to the limelight”: B-AM2, p. 80

30
   “relentless”: DM, 7/13/93

31
   a
Mirror
poll: Gua, 12/23/93