Driving Her Crazy (13 page)

Sadie lifted her head and looked at him, at the heat in his gaze. She felt suddenly liberated baring her all to him. Flaunting her body instead of trying to de-emphasise it.

Thankful more than he’d ever probably know that he’d rescued her from a mindset that had held her prisoner too long.

She parted her lips and gave him a Mona Lisa smile. Her heart beat a little faster as she let the leg closest to the fire flop to the side, the movement shifting deliciously through her torso. ‘What about this?’ Her underwear was laid bare to him and she watched as his gaze dropped to check it out.

Kent swallowed as she lay almost completely exposed to his view. The diamanté decorating her pink thong winked at him as his gaze fanned upwards, over the gentle rise of her belly, up to the swell of her breasts, the nipples standing hard and proud beneath his gaze.

She looked so damn perfect he wanted to eat things off her.

Twisties. He wanted to eat Twisties off her.

He ignored the direct order coming from his pants to cease and desist with the camera already and get down to business. Sadie was looking at him with power in her gaze, with pride, and he was determined to give her this moment. He picked up the camera and snapped away again, recording every delectable dip and curve.

‘You should never hide any of this, Sadie. You’re glorious. You should be proud of it. Embrace it.’

Sadie was officially turned on knowing he was watching her intently through the lens, his gravelly words soothing to an ego that had been battered and bruised for a long time. She shifted her still-bent leg until the foot was resting on his calf, then she slowly traced her big toe up to his knee and down his thigh before coming to rest on the bulge behind his zipper.

‘What about this?’ she asked, her voice husky as she idly traced her toe over the hard ridge.

Kent dropped the camera, shutting his eyes as he sucked in a breath at the erotic torture. He cracked open his eyes as he placed a stilling hand on her foot. ‘Ever done it on the roof of a car?’

Sadie smiled as she pushed the ball of her foot against the hard length of him. ‘I don’t think those swags are conducive to fooling around in and it’s getting pretty cold.’

Kent’s erection surged against the pressure. ‘Lucky for us they zip together.’

‘Really?’ Sadie smiled. She withdrew her foot and in one fluid movement got to her feet.

‘That’s a yes, then?’ He smiled, enjoying the view as he looked up at her. His shirt had never looked so damn good. It was completely open, exposing both breasts and the jut of her hard nipples. That fascinating pink gauzy patch at eye level.

‘Hurry,’ she tossed over her shoulder as she headed towards the vehicle.

Kent watched her go, firelight at her back, starlight at her front. He picked up his camera. ‘Sadie,’ he called.

Sadie half turned and smiled at him as he snapped the perfect silhouette. His shirt was half off her shoulders, the starry night an amazing backdrop.

‘I’m getting naked in ten seconds and it’s cold over here,’ she said as she continued on her way.

Kent didn’t need to be told twice.

NINE

Kent woke with a start in the middle of the night to a noise. The first thing he saw was Sadie’s concerned face looking down at him. He knew without having to ask that the noise must have come from him.

‘You okay?’ she asked. She’d gone to sleep with her head resting on Kent’s shoulder and his head thrashing had woken her a few seconds ago.

Kent raised his head, blinking a couple of times as he looked around, trying to clear the clinging debris of his recurrent bad dream.

He sometimes wondered if he’d ever be okay again.

‘Sorry.’ He grimaced, his head falling back down.

Sadie resumed her position, snuggling into his side, tucking her head into his shoulder. He smelled good—like wood smoke, soap and man. Her palm sat against his chest and she could feel the accelerated thump of his heart. She shivered as he traced his fingers up and down her bare arm.

She didn’t say anything for a while, content after their exhaustive rooftop session to lay snuggled against him under the stars.

‘You have bad dreams?’

Kent’s caress stilled momentarily before starting again. ‘Yes.’

Sadie wasn’t fooled by the evenness of his tone. His thudding heart told another story. ‘You had one that first night, too,’ she said. She waited for him to say something and when nothing was forthcoming she glanced at his profile. ‘Is it about the accident?’

‘Yes.’

Sadie gently rubbed her palm along the pillow of a sturdy pec. ‘I’m guessing you don’t talk about it much?’

‘Nope.’

‘Maybe you should talk to a professional?’ she suggested gently.

‘Nope.’

Sadie’s hand stilled on his chest and she rolled up onto her side, propping her head in her hand. ‘Oh, dear,’ she mused, watching his mouth in the moonlight. ‘Are we back to the beginning again?’

Kent dropped his hand from her shoulder and looked at her. ‘I’m not telling some strange shrink my problems.’

Sadie heard a world of pain and denial behind his vehement rejection of help. ‘So don’t,’ she said, finally giving into the urge to trace his mouth with her finger, pulling it away when he shook his head from side to side to displace it. ‘Talk to me about it instead.’

And before he could say no to her face she dropped down beside him again, placing her head on his shoulder, his hand automatically coming to rest there again.

Kent looked up at the stars, conscious of Sadie’s naked body draped all warm and pliant against his. Every breath he took was filled with a special mix of cool outback and her and immersed him in memories from their fun beneath the covers not that long ago.

There was something extraordinarily generous about Sadie Bliss. She was a giver. And that had obviously cost her in life. She’d been a very generous lover. Making him laugh, making him want, making him hope more than he had since the accident.

All he’d wanted for two years was to feel better and here on a rooftop in the middle of nowhere, under a canopy of stars, he doubted he’d
ever
felt better.

She had sat in front of his camera tonight and bared more than just her body to him. She’d been naked and vulnerable in the truest sense of the word.

Maybe he could reciprocate?

‘I hear Dwayne Johnson crying out for his mother.’

The words fell into the cold night air, stark and tinged with anguish, dragging Sadie out of a drowse. It had been quiet for so long, Sadie had assumed he’d drifted off or just wasn’t going to talk about it at all.

For a moment she wasn’t even sure what she should do or say. But then her hand automatically smoothed along his chest from one nipple to the other and she said, ‘That must be difficult.’

Kent was relieved when Sadie didn’t try to go all amateur psychologist on him. A few days ago he wouldn’t have even contemplated telling her, worried that an intrusive, chatty, stacked twenty-four-year-old would go all Freudian on him.

But he’d learned a lot about Sadie Bliss in the last couple of days. She was much more than an arachnophobic girly.

‘It’s not every night,’ he said. ‘But it’s...disturbing when it happens.’

Sadie pressed a kiss to his shoulder without conscious thought. She couldn’t even begin to imagine the trauma Kent had been through. ‘Tell me about
Mortality
.’

Kent tensed. ‘That bloody picture,’ he murmured.

‘You don’t like it?’

Kent shook his head. ‘You told me that when you saw it, in New York, you couldn’t look at it because it was too private.’ He shrugged. ‘That’s the way I feel about it too.’

‘So how’d it make the cover of
Time
?’

‘A journo friend of mine handed the camera over to my editor when I was in emergency surgery. I lost some days immediately after the crash. They operated four times in thirty-six hours and it was all a bit of a fog. The pictures were the least of my worries. When I finally came to my senses they were all over the media.’

‘Couldn’t you have them withdrawn?’

He nodded. ‘I tried, but Dwayne’s parents asked me if I would reconsider. They wanted the world to know that their son had died defending his country.’

‘Bit hard to say no to that,’ Sadie mused.

Kent chuckled at her understatement, surprised that he could laugh amidst it all. He gave her shoulder a squeeze. ‘Yes.’

Sadie lay there absorbing the information for a while. ‘At the risk of annoying you...’ she said tentatively, not wanting to kill the mood. Obviously Kent talking about this torrid time in his life was not an easy thing but something was bugging her. ‘I know you think I talk too much and—’

‘Just say it, Sadie,’ Kent interrupted on a sigh as tension crept into his belly muscles.

Sadie could feel the cosy mood evaporating but she’d come too far to back out, and if she was the only person he ever spoke to about this then maybe it was up to her to ask the difficult question. The question that had crowded into her brain when she’d first laid eyes on the photograph in that swanky New York gallery.

‘I don’t understand...how you even...took the photos in the first place?’ There was more silence from Kent so she pressed on. ‘I mean you were injured, right? Trapped in the body of a crashed helicopter, pinned by your ankle? Men you’d been embedded with for two months were dead and dying.’ She pushed herself up and looked down at him. ‘How do you stay on task when there’s chaos around you?’

Keeping his cool in a situation had never been an issue for Kent. He’d cut his teeth in war zones. It was hard for anyone who didn’t live that kind of life to understand.

He didn’t look at her as he answered.

‘It’s my job to snap pictures when all around me is going to hell.’

Sadie would have to have been deaf not to hear the defensive tone in his voice. ‘I’m not judging you, Kent. I’m just...curious.’

Kent grappled with telling her politely to mind her own damn business and the strange urge to talk to her. She’d been about the only person he’d ever met who hadn’t tried to blow smoke up his arse about
Mortality
. She’d told him how unsettling the image was and he had the feeling she might just understand.

‘I didn’t want to take the damn pictures,’ he finally muttered, looking at her. ‘I was trapped. I could smell jet fuel and smoke. I was pretty sure I was about to die in a fiery inferno or by a bullet in the head from the guys that had shot us down.’

Kent wasn’t sure if it was the last remnants of the campfire, but he swore he could still smell the smoke. How many times had he woken with the acrid stench in his nostrils?

‘My leg hurt like hell. The very last thing on my mind was to snap off some pictures.’

Sadie raised her hand and gently brushed it over his eyes, his cheeks, his mouth. ‘But you did?’

Kent nodded, remembering that day in all its Technicolor horror. ‘The pilot, Johnny Lieberman, he was also trapped up front. He asked me if I was taking pictures.’

Sadie remembered that the pilot had died a few days later in an ICU in Germany from the wounds inflicted by the crash.

‘I said no.
No, I’m not taking bloody pictures.
I couldn’t believe he was even asking. I wasn’t even sure where my camera was at and frankly I didn’t care.’

‘But you found it?’

‘Johnny was adamant that I should. In fact, he ordered me to do it. Not that he could but he did anyway. Said people should know about this part of war. That helicopters crashed, that good men died. That hearing about it on the news and seeing a burnt-out shell after everything was cleaned up was different from looking at pictures taken in the middle of hell.’

Sadie traced his lips with her finger. ‘So you took them.’

He nodded. ‘I couldn’t see a lot from my vantage point. Wreckage and desert and sky.’

‘And Dwayne Johnson.’

Kent nodded. ‘He’d been thrown clear so I had a...’ Kent shut his eyes as the young soldier’s cries played through his mind again. ‘A really clear shot of him. I could see the life ebbing from his eyes through the lens. He was calling for his mother. He was frightened and I didn’t want him to die alone. I tried to get out, to free myself.’

Sadie could only imagine how frantic Kent must have felt. ‘But you couldn’t,’ she whispered.

The stars above him suddenly blurred, developing auras as if it had been raining in heaven, and it took him a moment to realise the moisture was in
his
eyes. He blinked rapidly. ‘All I could do was take pictures.’

Sadie looked down into his face. She could just make out a shimmer of moisture in their copper-brown recesses. She kissed him lightly. What else could she do? How was someone supposed to go through such a trauma and come out the same person at the end? For some things there were no words—just comfort and consolation.

‘I’m so, so sorry,’ she murmured against his mouth. Kissing him again.

Kent kissed her back, pushing his hands into her hair as he pulled her head down onto his mouth hard and fast, all the anguish and pain and frustration he’d felt over the last two years injected into the moment. Her lips tasted sweet and he wanted to get lost in her, in her mouth, her body, her moans and her sighs.

To not think for one night about Dwayne Johnson and a photo that still haunted him.

To affirm life.

He shifted, rolled towards her, rolled her under him as she opened her mouth to him, opened her legs to him.

He plundered her mouth as his hands moved lower, feeling her buck as he skimmed a breast and stayed to rub his thumb over the rapidly ruching nipple.

‘Condom,’ she muttered as she wrapped her legs around his waist, felt the thick hard bulk of him butting against her.

Kent blindly reached for the box inside her backpack that she’d brought up with her earlier and was stashed near their heads.

Where the hell was it, damn it?

‘Hurry,’ Sadie muttered in his ear as the temptation to have him drive into her then and there beat like insect wings inside her brain. She was ready, he was ready and she wanted to take him away somewhere far removed from an Afghan desert.

Kent finally located the box, grabbed a foil packet out and quickly donned the protection. Sadie reached for him and he settled back into the cradle of her pelvis, kissing her long and hard as he pushed deep inside her.

She cried out, the sound primal in their own rooftop Eden. Her fingertips bit into the flesh of his shoulders as he ground into her, each thrust driving higher and harder, pushing her closer. His mouth left hers, seeking a nipple, sucking it into his mouth as he rocked into her.

Kent lifted his head and groaned as his building climax dug fiery fingers deep into his buttocks, his arms anchored either side of her trembling as they held him up.

‘Yes, yes, yes,’ Sadie whispered as she too felt the bubble rising inside her.

He buried his face in her neck as everything spiralled out of control. He tried to hold it back, to hold them in the moment where things hung on a precipice between pleasure and completion, but the primal call was too strong for him and he let the wave sweep him away as she tightened around him and joined him in the maelstrom.

Sadie
woke again as the sky was just starting to lighten. The stars were still out but waning as obsidian faded to velvet. Kent was sleeping, the first violet hues of dawn lying gently against his number-two stubble and beautiful mouth. She wanted to wake him but, between an insatiable sex drive and an obviously exhausting dream, his night had been disturbed enough.

She felt around her for his shirt which had been discarded somewhere in the bedding, finally locating it down by her foot. God alone knew where her thong was. She had a feeling Kent might have tossed it over the side.

The air still felt cool and she dragged the shirt on, doing up three buttons as she sat up, the sky too resplendent to miss. She reached behind her into her bag, pulling out the sketch pad and pastels she’d taken from Leo’s, inspired again as she had been the other night under the stars when she hadn’t had access to materials.

She sat with her back to Kent facing the road and the uninterrupted view in that direction. All that could be heard as the morning lightened to soft baby blues was the scratching of the pastels on the paper as Sadie sketched like a woman possessed, hurrying to capture the moment that night faded and dawn encroached before it was lost to her for ever.

She was so utterly absorbed in the process she didn’t even feel Kent stir until he was behind her, pressing a kiss into her neck, peering over her shoulder.

She shut her eyes as he rumbled, ‘Good morning,’ in her ear.

She sighed, snaking a hand behind her and anchoring it around his neck, her fingers stained with a multicoloured chalky residue. She settled against his broad naked chest as his arms encircled her waist.

She felt stiff from sitting hunched over the sketch pad and she stretched a little as she said, ‘Morning.’

Kent looked down at the sketch pad, the drawing arresting him immediately. It had captured the essence of an outback dawn with the vivid colours and swirls around the fading stars similar to those used by Van Gogh in his famous starry night painting, and yet there was something uniquely contemporary Australian about it.