Authors: Charlotte Carter
“Well, guess I'm just a beautiful human being,” he said wryly.
“No, don't get me wrong. I'm not attacking you for trying to be Mister Wonderful.”
“What are you attacking me for?”
“Look, Danâthe thing is, when you're all things to all people, who are you really?”
His face went tight. “This is your roundabout way of telling me I'm a phony asshole. Is that it?”
I shrugged. “You're right, I am beating around the bush. Are you a phony? Who knows? The word I really mean is âliar.'”
It was a relief, actually, when his temper flared for the first time. Dan Hinton was too even, too unflappable for his own good.
“Enough of this shit, lady. Why don't you just tell me what you're talking about?”
I faced him squarely. “You fucked Felice Sanders.”
There. The words were out.
It was fairly dark out on the deck, just the candles for light. I couldn't say for sure that his face was burning, but what I could see was the trapped expression in his eyes.
“You did, didn't you? You lied to me, didn't you, Dan?”
He reached for his wineglass. Well, that sealed it. Guilty as charged.
He heaved an ugly grunt. “My, my. Look who's turning puritan on me. I thought you were a sophisticated black woman. What about all your casual fuckingâyour little encounters all over the globe? Or was that just posturing bullshit?”
“Oh, look, buddy, I don't even want to hear that. This is not about how many women you've been with, and you know it.”
“What is it about thenâFelice being half my age? Are you that provincial?”
“No! And stop stalling! What this is aboutâas you very well knowâis Felice being a kidâa student of yours, or a patient, or whatever you want to call itâbut a kid who was all messed up. And you knew it and you fucked her and you lied about it.”
No reply to that. He just sucked his top lip under his front teeth.
“Tell me, Dan. Please. She could be in real danger now. The police are involved. Just tell me.”
He looked at me, exasperated, angry, and afraid.
“Please!” I said, feeling those same things. “I told you, I don't care what you and Felice did together. And I wouldn't even think about telling my father. Ever.”
“All right. But first I want it to be clear, I don't know where she is. I didn't do anything to harm her and I do not know where she is.”
I nodded. “Go on.”
“There's a place,” he began. “An apartment whereâAh, shit, you know what kind of kids go to Stephens. Worldly. Bright. Precocious. A lot of them from money. A lot of them with parents who don't look out for them the way they should. One of the boys has folks who spend half the year in Europe, so he lives with relatives. But he has the key to the parents' apartment in the Village. SometimesâIâsome of the students, the older kidsâgo there once in a while.”
Ah. A house to play house in. Every teenager's dream. No groping at the movies for my pop's students.
“And you,” I said, “you went there once in a while too. With Felice.”
“Okay, okay,” Dan said, knocking back the remaining wine in his glass and then refilling it. “I know it wasn't the smart thing to do. And I regretted it. Butâ”
“How often?”
“Twoâthree times.”
“Before or after Black Hat died?”
He clammed up.
“Come on, Dan. You may as well tell me. The truth's out now.”
“A couple of times after, in that apartment. A couple of times before, not in the apartment.”
“Where then? Did you bring her here for the funky cheese and moonlight treatment?”
“No, of course not. It wasâ”
“Where?”
“At school. At school, okay?”
“Oh Christ. While you were tutoring her for the SATs, right?”
“Fuck you, Nan. That isn't fair.”
“I'm sorry. Go on.”
“There isn't much more to tell. I lied about sleeping with her, but not about anything else. She was depressed and needy. We'd had a couple of nice times together while she was at Stephens; it wasn't a serious thing for me and it wasn't a serious thing for her. It was just ⦠just ⦠sex.”
I rolled my eyes.
“Look, it's a complicated thing when you deal with young people. Especially smart, good-looking ones. They're looking for approval, looking to seduce you, looking for a fatherâ”
“Forget that, man. Just get on with it.”
“All right. After Black Hat died, she was lonely and wanted to be close that way again. Just to be comforted. Why can't you understand that?”
“When was the last time? When did you last see her?”
“A good three or four weeks ago.”
“But you spoke after that.”
“Yes. She called me and she was so off the wall I tried to get her to meet me for coffee or somethingâjust so I could calm her down, try to get her to a shrink maybe. But it was no good. She hung up without even telling me where she was currently living. All she said was that she had an older man in her life and things weren't going well. She said she thought she could trust him when she first met him, but even he had let her down.”
I shook my head in disgust. Of course Dan thought it was more censure from me. It wasn't that, though. I was just trying to comb through the tangled threads of lies and double-talkâDan's, Dr. Benson's, Mrs. Benson's, Ida Williams'sâthe whole cast of characters.
But then, that was nothing like the whole cast. It was only a partial listing of the credits.
“Are you listening to me at all, Nan?”
“What?”
“I said, I don't care what you think about the stupid thing I did with FeliceâI mean, I do care, but that's not the important thing now. I want you to believe that I haven't been bullshitting you, playing with you. Or your father. I like and respect Eddie. And I want a chance to be with you. Can you hear that?”
“Yeah. Fine. But you've got it wrong. That's not the important thing now. The important thing is getting over to that apartment.”
“What? What are you talking about? Now?”
“Yes. Now.”
“But why? What do you want to go there for? What differenceâ”
“I don't want to get into all that now. Maybe I should have told you from the very beginning what the deal was with trying to find Felice Sandersâhow I happened to be looking for her. See, I'm no stranger to lying either. I do it constantly, damn me. But there's lyingâand there's lying. Anyway, forget that for now. How do I get in that fuck pad of yours?”
He winced at my vulgar language.
“Now, Dan!”
“I'd have to call Rob MacLachlin
at home
. He's the student whose parents' place it is.”
“Do it.”
“But I'd have toâI mean, suppose hisâIt might get him into terrible trouble.”
“Yeah, I know. He's going to think you're really uncool. Move it, buster. Call him.”
He walked into the apartment and over to the telephone, dragging like a condemned prisoner in leg irons. I watched him as he rustled through the pages of his phone book and then picked up the receiver.
There was some toadying exchange with what I took to be the kid's guardian, then Dan began to talk to the boy himself in hushed, urgent tones:
“Rob, listen, it's Dan Hinton ⦠Yeah, how are you ⦠Good ⦠Look, I know about your parents' place on Greenwich ⦠No, forget about that ⦠I know ⦠It doesn't matter now, Rob. You lent the key to Felice Sanders a couple of times, didn't you ⦠and gave her the code to the street door ⦠Never mind how I knowâI know ⦠Just listen. The last time she was up there, IâI had to go up and talk to her. I left some important papers behind and I've got to have them. I have to have them now, understand? You've got to get me the key. I have to have that key.”
His hand cupped over the mouthpiece, he began to relay what Rob MacLachlin was saying to him:
“He's scared. He doesn't want to give me the key. He says he can't give it to anybody. He's scared he'll get cracked. Some neighbors reported seeing a young girl and an old black man coming and going in the building. Sounds like it was Felice. But he doesn't understand how that could be. He got the key back from her and stopped letting the kids use the place weeks ago.”
“I don't care how scared he is,” I told Dan. “Get the key and the code. Tell him if he doesn't cooperate, he's going to be a lot scareder than that. Threaten him a little, Dan.”
Yes, I spat those commands out like a top sergeant, very sure of myself, but to be honest I had gone a little numb in the head. Felice had an elderly black gentleman caller. What was the deal with that? There were two older black men floating around in this messâJacob Benson and the man from Ida's past, Miller. Three, if you counted my father. Which I didn'tâcouldn't.
But I couldn't see either Benson or Miller with Felice. Not only was the good doctor the aged father of her dead boyfriend, it sounded like he and Felice hated each other. And as for Ida's ex-partner, Millerâhe and Felice Sanders fit together like I'd fit at a Hell's Angels barbecue.
Something else was bothering me. Dan had told me earlier about an older man, but he never said he was black. Why hadn't he supplied that detail? Maybe because Felice had never mentioned the man's color. I didn't know. Anyway, the main thing now was to get into that apartment.
Dan gave me a gruesome smile, hand still over the mouthpiece. “Okay. It's on.”
The taxi fare from Brooklyn Heights to Beekman Place was steep indeed. Out of guilt, no doubt, Dan refused to let me pay my half.
Young Rob MacLachlin, a towhead on the beefy side, was waiting for us on the street. God knows what he told Auntie and Uncle to get out of the apartment. Very likely he'd thought up a Nanette-size whopper to accomplish it.
I stepped aside to give Dan and the kid a minute's privacy. I don't know which of them looked more abashed. The boy soon handed over the key along with a slip of paper, and we left him standing on the sidewalk.
The MacLachlin place was on Greenwich Streetânot busy, touristy Greenwich Avenue, but Greenwich Street, two short blocks from the waterfrontâin a renovated manufacturing loft building.
Dan consulted the slip of paper in his hand and then tapped in the numbers for the code box on the street door. We caught the elevator and went up to seven.
“Be funny,” he grumbled, “if all this was just your way of trying to find out where Harvey Keitel lives.”
On another day that would have been funny. I knew what he meant, though. All the New York film people were down in the far West Village/Tribeca nabe now, driving already high prices up into the stratosphere. Here and there on the streets were limos with big-shouldered drivers snoozing behind the wheel.
Even while he turned the key in the lock, Dan was still protesting my strong-arm methods, and our whole mission, which he thought was stupid. I shushed him violently and pushed him through the door.
The MacLachlins had the kind of apartment most of us Manhattanites can only dream of. Endless space and skylights and peace and quiet; a brief walk away from the Hudson; and a bevy of cutting edge, if budget-busting restaurants just around the corner.
I called out a timid hello. No answer.
But there was a big purple tote bag in the middle of the floor. It was overflowing with clothes: jeans, T-shirts, filmy blouses, leg warmers, and leotards.
“Do they look like they might belong to Felice?” I asked.
He seemed transfixed by the bag. But at last he nodded yes.
“I don't understand,” he mumbled.
“Understand what?”
“Rob took the key back. He wasn't letting anybody use the place. He swore.”
“He was telling the truth, most likely. How hard would it be for Felice to make a key without telling him? She knows the downstairs code, doesn't she?”
“Yeah. That makes sense.”
“You check the bedrooms,” I said. “I guess you know right where they are.”
He gave me a dirty look.
“I didn't mean it that way. Just go.”
Dan headed off down the corridor. I turned into the kitchen area.
I didn't scream. I know I didn't. But the gasp I let out was obviously loud enough for him to hear it all the way down the hall.
He came running.
One wall of the white-tiled kitchen was slathered with dried blood. The same substance streaked the countertop like cartoon lightning bolts. I looked down then and saw the splotches on the linoleum as well. It was as if the MacLachlins were in the hog-slaughtering business rather than imported leather goods or computer chips or architectureâor whatever clean thing it was they did for a living.
I kept my mouth covered with my hands, willing myself not to cry out. Dan looked sick to his stomach.
“Don't touch anything!” I warned him, backing us out of the space. “What did you find back there?”
“Nothing. Nothing. It's empty.”
“No signs of blood anywhere else?”
“No.”
We made a quick survey of the bathroom and all the bedrooms, including their closets, careful to open the doors using our coat sleeves.
He was right. Nothing else out of place. Only the bloody wall and counter in the kitchen.
“What are you going to do?” Dan asked.
“Call the police. What do you think?”
He began to shake his head as if palsied. No need to wonder why: he was seeing his career swirling down the toilet.
“Take it easy. I won't call from here. We're getting out of here now. But I have to notify somebody I know in the department.”
“
You
have friends in the department?”
“That doesn't matter now, Dan. Let's go. Oh, wait! You didn't really leave anything in this place when you saw Felice up here, did you?”
“No, nothing.”