Dune Road (25 page)

She knew because there was no passion, and the only time she had felt passion, it had come with a price.

When she agreed to Jed’s plan, and realized that she could use Robert to get away from Jed, she thought she was being given a second chance. Not at happiness—that would have been too much to ask—but at a lifestyle she would never, could never have on her own.

She could have diamonds and pearls and holidays and clothes and a huge house, and be Mrs. Robert McClore!

She could go to movie premieres, and parties, and be friends with the right people, and perhaps then she would be happy, perhaps then she would fit in.

Robert McClore was offering safety. He was many things, but he was not a man who had a temper, of this she was certain. He was old school, a man who knew how to take care of a woman, who opened doors, treated women with respect, and charm. He was offering her a chance, a chance at security she didn’t think would come around again.

But sitting here tonight, at the tiny corner table lit up with candlelight and love, Tracy knows there is so much more than this.

“I love you,” she whispers.

They are words she has never volunteered before, always too frightened to say them first, and Robert’s eyes fill with tears as he leans over and gathers her in his arms.

Chapter Nineteen

“Y
ou are just totally cool,” Tory breathes, as she and Annabel sit in a booth at the old-fashioned diner, sharing a chocolate milk shake. “Seriously, I can’t believe that you’re related to my mom, and I can’t believe you’re my
aunt
!”

“Well, thank you.” Annabel pours the rest of the pitcher equally between their two tall glasses. “And I have to say
this
is totally cool. I love this place. I feel like I’ve stepped back in time to the nineteen fifties. Do you have any idea how lucky you are to live here?”

Tory shrugs. “I guess.”

“And your school! All those cute boys you get to go to school with. So which one do you like?”

Tory flushes.

“Oh come on. When we just passed that big bunch of your friends on Main Street, there were some truly good-looking boys. I’d be a disaster if I were in your place. I went to an all-girls’ school, super-strict, with uniforms, and the only boys we ever saw were the boys at UCS, and even the sight of a black and maroon striped blazer was enough to have me salivating. If they’d been in class with me I’d never have gotten anything done.”

Tory laughs.

“It’s true,” Annabel says. “I would never have done work if there’d been boys to pass notes to. I was utterly boy crazy. So, if you’re not going to tell me, I’m just going to have to guess. If I were a thirteen-year-old girl, I would probably like the boy who had the red checked shirt on. He was handsome.”

Tory blushes a bright red.

“I
knew
it! You like him.”

“No! I don’t.”

“Oh, come on. I’m your aunt. You’re supposed to tell me these things, and especially if you think I’m cool.”

“You swear you won’t tell Mom?”

Annabel grins and raises her right hand. “Brownie swear.”

“You were a Brownie?”

“God, no!” Annabel laughs. “I was far too naughty. So, go on, I’m right, aren’t I? What’s the story?”

“I do kind of like him, and then my friend Liv said he’d asked her if I was going to this bar-mitzvah party on Saturday night, and she thinks he likes me too.”

“Well, he was kind of gazing at you.”

“He was?” Her eyes light up with pleasure.

“Absolutely. So, a party on Saturday night. What are you going to wear?”

“I don’t know.” Tory’s face falls. “Mom says she can’t afford to buy me anything new, and Dad always says he will, but he forgets. I guess I’ll just wear the black dress I always wear.”

“Hmm. You know one of the jobs of an aunt?”

“What?”

“To spoil her nieces and nephews. Which means I think we should go shopping.”

“Are you serious?”

“Of course! Where should we go first?”

“Can we go to Kool Klothes? Please? It’s kind of expensive but they have a huge sale on and I love almost everything in there.”

“Okay.”

“And then can we go to Claire’s? Because they have these earrings that are totally cute and they’re only about five dollars, and they’re amazing, and Maxi and Annie and Natalie have them and I’m the only one who doesn’t and—”

“Whoa!” Annabel puts her hand up, laughing. “Slow down. The answer is yes.”

A phone starts to ring, and as Tory reaches into her backpack Annabel looks at her in surprise.

“You have a phone?”

“Yeah. Everyone has them. We use them to text, though, not for the phone. This is probably Mom or Dad.” She riffles around her backpack, eventually pulling out the phone and flipping it open.

“Hey, Dad. Guess what? I’m in the Beachside Diner with Aunt Annabel.”

Annabel hides a surreptitious smile when she hears this, the first time Tory has called her Aunt Annabel. Oh the power that shopping will give her . . .

“So she said she’s going to take me shopping, and she has Mom’s car, so you don’t have to pick me up, she can drop me at yours . . . uh huh . . . uh huh. Okay, hang on,” and she passes the phone over to Annabel.

“I hope my daughter isn’t being too demanding?” Adam’s voice is familiar, after just one meeting.

“Not at all. We’re having a gorgeous time and now I’m about to take her out and spoil her.”

“I don’t even know how to thank you, but you clearly know the way to a thirteen-year-old girl’s heart.”

“Well, I would hope so, having, once upon a time, been a thirteen-year-old girl myself.”

“Listen, why don’t you join us tonight? I was planning on taking the kids out to Gino’s. It’s a crazy Italian restaurant on the edge of town, family style, completely casual but fun. It’s the kids’ favorite place. I know they’d be thrilled if you came.”

Annabel doesn’t have to think. Tonight is the night she has been banished from the house, and all she has planned are the movies, trying to sneak early peeks at the ones that won’t be out in England for months.

“I’d love it.”

“Great! We should probably meet there. Do you need me to give you directions?”

“I don’t know. Let me ask Tory. Do you know the way to Gino’s?”

“Yes.”

“Good, because we’re going to Gino’s for dinner.”

“We are? Oh my God! This is turning into the best day ever.” Tory reaches over and grabs the phone. “Bye, Dad—we’re going shopping now and I love you
so
much!”

 

Adam laughs when he sees Annabel and Tory walk in, laden down with shopping bags.

“My God!” he says. “Did you buy
everything
in town?”

“Almost!” Tory is giddy with delight. “We even got something for you, Buckley.” And she reaches into a bag and pulls out a
Star Wars
Transformer.

“Whoa, cool!” Buckley grins.

“What do you say?”

“What?”

Adam looks sternly at Buckley. “How about ‘thank you’?”

“Um, yeah. Thank you!”

“They have a table for us in the front room,” Adam says. “I hope that’s okay. It’s kind of loud and crazy but the kids love it.”

“Yeah, the back room is totally boring,” Buckley says. “And you have to shout in the front room.”

“He’s right.” Adam stands up from the bar stool and extends an arm to guide Annabel through the restaurant. “There won’t be any getting-to-know-you soft conversation tonight.”

Tory gives her dad a strange look, then looks at Annabel, who shrugs, as if she has no idea what Adam is talking about, but she felt it too, a hint of flirtation in the comment, a frisson of . . . something.

The restaurant is mobbed, and it feels, dodging the waiters bustling around with huge trays of food held high over their heads, as if everyone sitting there is smiling, laughing, having a great time.

“This is amazing!” Annabel shouts to Tory, who is suddenly quiet. “I see why you love it.”

Tory doesn’t say anything.

“So what does ‘family style’ mean?” Annabel asks, and Adam explains they will all share from large platters of food in the center of the table.

A round, smiling brunette appears, order pad poised. “Good evening, everyone, my name is Maria and I’ll be your server for the night. What can I get you folks to drink?”

“Kids?”

“I’ll have a Coke,” Tory says.

Adam raises an eyebrow. “Oh no, you won’t. You can have seltzer.”

Tory tuts loudly, and for the first time Annabel sees a hint of teen angst, of Tory being not quite the perfect girl she had presumed.

“Fine,” she huffs. “Cranberry juice and seltzer.”

“Me too,” says Buckley.

“And how about Mom?” says Maria pleasantly, waiting for Annabel.

“She’s not our mom!” Tory says quickly, and is it Annabel’s imagination or is there a slight glare in her eye as Tory looks at her.

“Nope,” Annabel says. “I’m their aunt. That’s why there’s a family resemblance.”

“Well, I was close! So how about you, Aunt? What can I get you?”

“Cranberry juice and seltzer sounds great.”

 

The food comes, Annabel is forgiven for whatever transgression she unknowingly made, and even though she barely speaks to Adam, she knows he is watching her, can feel his eyes upon her all the time.

She is not unused to this, but not from her newfound sister’s former-and-probably-from-what-she-can-tell-shouldn’t-be ex-husband. This is one complication she doesn’t need. It’s not even as if he’s her type. He’s far too nice a guy for Annabel to be attracted to. Sure, he’s decent looking, and his body seems in pretty good shape for a guy in his early forties, but nice guys like this have been chasing Annabel for years, and she’s never been the slightest bit interested.

What he does have, however, is something Annabel has always wanted.

He has a family.

He and she and Tory and Buckley do indeed look like the perfect family. Sure, she’s a little young to be a mother to Tory, but not too young, it would seem from the waitress’s comment.

A family. As a little girl, she wanted to have a mother and a father, to have siblings; and now, as an adult, being here, she wants this.

To sit, as a perfect nuclear family, in a restaurant such as this, laughing and talking about nothing very much, even telling the children to stop fighting—this is all part of a happy family life she wants. Very, very much.

“What?” She realizes Adam is saying something to her. “I can’t hear you.”

“I said I saw a piece you’d written on how your life changes when your friends start having kids. I thought it was really interesting.”

“Oh. Right. Thanks.” Annabel is stunned. She has flitted from career to career, and for a brief while, between rehab stints, fancied herself a journalist. She met a guy at a club, one of the nice guys, who was an editor, and part of his wooing process involved commissioning Annabel to write pieces she really had no business writing.

The piece to which Adam is referring was written one night in a drug-induced haze. She recalls rambling on and on, venting her rage at one of her friends who had, she felt, abandoned her once her baby came.

It was only after her final successful stay in rehab that she was able to take responsibility, to accept that the friend had abandoned her because she couldn’t deal with Annabel’s erratic behavior and unreliability anymore.

It was a piece published years ago, in a crappy magazine in England. The only way Adam could have found it would have been online, and even then it would never be something he just stumbled across.

Which means he has been Googling her.

Which means she is right, has not imagined him gazing at her with puppy-dog eyes.

Her sister’s ex-husband has a definite crush on her.

 

Kit’s living room is once again set for seduction, and this time there will be no last-minute changes.

The plates are sitting in the sink, waiting to be stacked in the dishwasher at an opportune moment, the fire is crackling softly, and the candles are slowly burning down. The iPod playlist ran out a long time ago, and the only sounds are soft murmurs and gentle laughter, the occasional sigh of pleasure.

Steve is lying on the sofa, holding Kit in his arms and planting soft kisses on her forehead. She is closing her eyes in sheer bliss, for this is what she has missed more than anything.

Not the sex, but the affection. Affection she hadn’t had from Adam for years. Lying on a sofa and being held, being told you are beautiful,
feeling
beautiful.

When was the last time she felt beautiful?

Not for years.

Not like this.

Adam’s body had become as familiar to her as her own. There was comfort in knowing every curve, every bump, every groove, but there wasn’t the anticipation, the sheer heart-stopping thrill of discovering a new body.

Their sex life had become, as with so many married couples, routine. Quick, familiar. Kit wanted nothing more than to close her eyes and go to sleep at the end of the day. Lovely, loving, once they started, but it was the same moves, the same positions, each of them going through the motions until sleep claimed them both.

And here was Steve, so different from Adam, his skin so tan, the hair on his arms dark, his body strong and yet soft, waking her up from a deep sleep with every anticipatory stroke.

She remembers once, standing in her bathroom, peering into the mirror, her chin thrust forward, tweezers poised to seek out and kill the two stray whiskers that had shockingly appeared underneath her chin just before her thirty-fourth birthday.

“That’s sexy,” Adam said, laughing at her, as he passed the open door on the way to shave in his own bathroom.

“Could be worse,” she said, moving her face from side to side to check that no more had appeared. “I could be shaving.”