Dystopyum (The D-ot Hexalogy Book 1) (30 page)

Jason quickly forgot his butterflies on the way to the podium. He
paused, took it all in with a deep breath. As he took his place at the
podium, he looked at the audience, and overflowed with a tremendous
surge of love for them. He had been Guild-trained, and this was habit by
now. Jason did not appreciate how aware he was of that state as compared
to others. It extended into them and he could feel them returning it. It felt
good. It always did. He took another deep breath.
Thank you.
Jason began to speak. “Where do I begin? Well, I believe this mission will be a challenging one. With challenges come opportunities.” He
paused for a moment. “You will need to practice your faith every day, for
everyone around you.” Jason continued, “I have reason to believe that the
soul-types we will be receiving will be beyond the genetic harmonics you
carry. I don’t want to alarm you, but we need to be prepared for the
arrival of very violent and difficult newborns.”
“What do you mean?” A member of the audience blurted out.
Someone else yelled, “I never heard of this!” The room was now alive
with motion and murmurs.
Alarmed by the audience’s reaction to Jason’s words, the social director stood up and addressed him, “Dr. Ata, please excuse me. I have heard
about your team’s research into the dissociative soul-mind. Does that
have something to do with this?”
Dr. Ata looked at her, unmoved by the sudden onset of fear in her
eyes. He was not unmoved because he didn’t care. He was unmoved
because his mind was always focused on one thing:
Stay connected.
Connection with the tranquil Source was habitually fixed in Jason’s mind.
Social Director Hay waited, continuing to stare at him. She became
placated by his quiet confidence, and she relaxed some.
Looking at Social Director Hay, he softly said, “In our world, the
Guild trains parents trying to conceive a baby to ‘call’ to the soul-type
they believe they can help in the world. As you know, we accomplish this
with specific meditations and prayer. When the baby is born, my
department’s job is to analyze the baby for its soul-type, and fashion the
best guidance we can for the development of that particular soul. A soul is
categorized as one of three primary types. A Type I baby is easy to raise
and love. Type I babies are very responsive to love, and when loved, they
return the love. They learn to use love, and it blends in with most of their
efforts as they grow and mature.”
Jason accepted a drink of water brought to him, and then continued.
“Type II children have a tendency to
repress
love. They don’t respond as
well to love, and do not return it as easily. However, they can recognize
love and respond, if they are in the mood. These ones will need more
love, because they as they grow older they don’t recognize or appreciate
love, and they waste it. They waver in their ability to grow love intentionally until they are past their teens. Much depends on the skill and love of
the parents. Eventually, we can guide Type II babies to give and receive
love as well as Type Is can. Type II babies are the largest category, and
most of us were primarily Type II babies, with both Type I and Type III
characteristics in varying degrees.”
Jason continued, “The III babies are those souls that have completely
dissociated
love from their awareness, resembling someone with the split
personality variety of schizophrenia. One side does not know what the
other side is doing. These are the most difficult to overcome. They cannot
recognize love. They have a defense mechanism in their subconscious
that actively
avoids and rejects
any recognition of love. This is hidden in
a part of the invisible soul-mind — the ‘blind spot’, if you will. It hides a
savage distrust and hate of love. If conscious recognition of love comes to
the surface, they will mentally ‘run’ in the opposite direction. They will
shrink from love, or, if they cannot escape, attack the source of the love
— covertly, or overtly. Whereas a Type II child may use love, and
manipulate a parent’s love to the child’s advantage, a Type III child
would not think to use love for anything, love being taboo. As adults, they
can learn to develop a social persona, but behind it is something very
cold.”
The audience was getting confused with these classifications, and
Jason could tell that his description of Type IIIs was not getting through
well enough, so he plainly said, “Type IIIs are where sociopathic killers
originate.”
The group before him seemed to get that, so, going on, he said, “Although a pure Type III baby is rare, we are all a blend of the three types.
That is where we try to narrow down the soul-typing of the baby. We do
this in order to provide customized training to overcome the negatives,
and grow on the positives each child has.”
Jason paused, and looked down at the lightly stained natural oak grain
on the podium.
Should I?
He asked silently.
Tread lightly
, the voice said.
Jason took another deep breath, and went on speaking, “I am a specialist
in what some others call “devils”. These children are always Type III.
They usually have a background of childhood trauma, but a surprising
number do not. When we eliminate genetic, nutritional, and environmental factors as causes, we are left with one conclusion — these are some
seriously retarded souls, and all effort must be made to avoid irritation of
these souls, from childbirth on.”
Jason gave an example, “Think about a puppy or a kitten. We tell our
children, ‘don’t play rough’ with them, because the pet will start biting or
scratching too easily. That ‘button’ can be ‘turned on’ in older pet, even
though years of gentleness have kept the pet peaceful. They will become
‘bitey’, or ‘scratchy’, when simply trying to pet them. That is how it is
with Type IIIs, except that they can wait to bite. They rarely appear these
days, and my team has developed our own classifications of them. The
wheels of research turn slowly. Although these theoretical ideas have not
yet been fully embraced, I obviously believe that we may be correct in our
hypothesis. I am actually here because my superiors want me to prove
these theories or shut up about them. In any case, since this is a lifetime
mission, they won’t have to face me anymore if they don’t want to.”
Jason gave a wry grin, “Perhaps they chose me for this mission, if only
for that reason.”
He paused.
No laughter. Nothing.
“I have a very strong feeling that we will need to use these theories on
this planet, if we are to be successful. It will also help us to refine our
guidance of these dissociative souls, and broaden our understanding of
our own souls as well.”
“I don’t understand your reason for negativity,” another person in the
audience complained.
“Please let me explain further,” said Jason. “Everything about this
planet is unkind. It is like a very nasty jungle, without the jungle. The
humanoids that lived here before must have had those predatory traits.
God only knows what kind of lives they lived there. The souls still there
have been bound to that planet for thousands of years, held as if by
gravity, exactly like the other dead planets we have colonized. They are
burning with the desire to do something to move on — but are imprisoned. When we arrive, I believe the hungriest souls will force their way
into our newborns, regardless of the parent’s genetic phenotypical passive
harmonics. Our first generation of offspring will be their first avenue for
incarnation in one hundred thousand years.”
Jason continued, “Please look to the screen to my left. There you can
see anatomic illustrations of the D’ot8 humanoids, generated after medicrobotic dissection of one of two well-preserved bodies recently discovered. These bodies were found inside recently discovered suspended
animation containers. The containers were still powered, after all these
millennia, and I find that amazing.”
The audience started talking among themselves. This was the first
they had seen of the anatomy of the D’otians
.
Jason went on, “You see that they had scales, and also had bodies
similar in shape to ours, but about fifty percent larger and heavier. Their
faces were amazingly humanoid, considering their reptilian roots. This
specimen was almost nine feet tall. They have what appears to be a nuchal
crest on the tops of their heads, similar to our lizards. The two we’ve seen
in suspended animation had different colors of nuchal crests.
“We have found some remarkable things in our robotic dissections of
one of the bodies. To understand what I am about to say, please look to
the diagrams on the screen.” He showed a picture of something that
looked like three vertical tubes, side by side, each with a bulge in the
center. “These are diagrams of three brainstems. The first one on the left,
with a small bump in the middle is a lizard brainstem, a reptile. The
second one, the one in the middle, is a dog’s brainstem. It has another
layer over the bump in the center, making it thicker. This is what is
associated with a mammal’s ability to fear and love, and it is what allows
a mammal behave differently from a reptile. A reptile is only interested in
basic body functions, but it does understand pecking order, and can
follow certain animal behaviors we would call ‘ritualistic.’ It follows
‘routines’. What the reptile does not understand are emotions like fear or
love. If you were to call someone cold-blooded, you are saying that he or
she is emotionally cold like a reptile.” Jason took a Freudian glance at
North, who was looking in Jason’s direction with a blank face.
Jason went on, “Let us go on to the third brainstem on the far right. It
is a human brainstem. It has another layer making the central bulge even
bigger. It also has a more complex limbic system, and a huge cortex,
compared to the first two illustrations. We have studied the medical
illustrations of the D’otians’ central nervous system anatomy. We can see
in this next illustration that they had the roughly the same size cortex as
humans. However, the thicker, emotional layer of the brainstem is very
thin, compared to ours.”
He stopped.
What’s the best way to say this?
He went on, “I have
consulted with a number of anatomical experts, and they agree that their
limbic system appears to be vestigial. What they mean is that these
humanoids once had a well-developed, human-like brain stem, limbic
system and neo-cortex. Something happened over a long period of time to
cause some sort of devolution. Not only did their limbic systems regress
to something more like the reptilian brainstem, their female breasts had
become vestigial as well, and ceased to function. This probably happened
because although they were mammals, they retained many reptile-like
characteristics, such as their scales, nuchal crests, and their tails, which
also had caudal crests.”
He looked at their blank faces.
I’ve lost them.
Jason elaborated, saying, “Form follows function. Evolution follows function, and so does
devolution. If you don’t use it, you lose it. We believe the growth of that
middle bulge on the brainstem in humans is a
result
, not a cause. It is a
result of their growth in channeling love over many millennia.”
Now that he had completely bewildered most of the listeners, Jason
nonetheless continued to make his case. “What I am trying to say is that I
believe that it looks like the D’otians’ brainstems regressed because they
stopped using love — love ‘left’ their society. They devolved emotionally. We know from the library records that constant warring among
themselves eventually caused their extinction. I fear that these are the
souls we will be receiving on D’ot8, and I need to get you be prepared,
for this mission to succeed.
“Your mission is my mission: To spend the rest of our lives organizing the recycling of the souls bound to this planet so that they may help us
re-inhabit the planet, bringing it back to life for humanoid souls. We
provide avenues for their minds to evolve and remember their soul’s
purpose, just as we are doing for ourselves.
“Our section of the universe will have another world to love and learn
from, trade with, and according to the teaching of the Guild, bring more
balance and harmony to the dimension of time. History has shown that the
salvaging of a dead planet brings good fortune to not only the colonists
there, but to our home planet as well.
“In psychology, classic dissociation happens when a person has a part
of their mind split off. This dissociated part is unknown by the conscious
mind, yet is given a will, and operates from the subconscious.
“The Guild postulates that we have all dissociated from love, and that
is why we need to ‘swim’ towards love. When we swim towards love, we
swim towards our deepest eternal home, which is invisible to those who
find their soul drawn to the dimension of time.
“Our team takes it a step further: All soul-types, including myself,
must dissociate, split, if you will, from awareness of part of our spiritual
minds in order to find ourselves in the dimension of time. Time is a nonreal temporary arena for souls to learn that ‘one thing’. You all know that
the Guild professes that the dimension of time was allowed to be made, or
better, temporarily exist, by our eternal Author, the Source. The Author
did allow this because souls have the free will to direct their attention as
they please. There is a safety control here, based on free will. We are free
to wander, although that is not our creative purpose. However, you cannot
walk away from the light without walking into the dark. Eventually, the
dark becomes so painful and fearful that we turn around. Unfortunately,
the deeper one is in time, the less they can see or hear the light of spiritual
sanity. Our spiritual minds become blinded by the physical senses. It can
take thousands of years and many lifetimes to for the prodigal son to get a
solid footing on his way home.”
Jason paused, and took a drink of water.
They are listening.
He continued, “That is where we come in. Even though we are learning our way
back, we are also the brothers to those who are more lost, but can
communicate with us. They learn our ways, and we speak to them of the
Author of life, peace, happiness and love. By doing so, we perfect the
lesson ourselves.”