Echoes From the Dead (3 page)

“Nils! I got toffees from Mum too! Lots of toffees!”

It’s his brother. Axel, three years younger than Nils and full of life. He’s carrying a knotted gray cloth in his hand.

“Look!”

Axel hurries over and stands beside the big stone, looking excitedly up at Nils, and he undoes the bundle and spreads the contents out on the piece of cloth.

There’s a little pocketknife in there and toffees, dark, shiny butter toffees.

Nils counts eight toffees. He only got five from his mother before he came out this morning, but he’s eaten them all by now, and his heart races in a sudden spurt of rage.

Axel picks up one of his toffees, looks at it, shoves it in his mouth, and gazes out over the sparkling water. He chews slowly and with satisfaction, as if not only the toffees belong to him but also the shore and the water and the sky up above them.

Nils looks away.

“I’m going for a swim,” he says, facing the water. He jumps down and pulls off his shorts and places them on the stone.

He turns his back on Axel and begins to walk out into the waves, balancing his feet on the stones, shiny with algae. Little tendrils of brown seaweed get stuck between his toes.

The water has been warmed by the sun, and foams out to

the sides as Nils throws himself in a dozen or so steps from land.

This summer he has learned to swim underwater. He takes a deep breath, dives beneath the surface, wriggles his way down toward the stony seabed, turns, and comes hurtling up into the sunshine again.

Axel is standing on the shoreline.

Nils glides around in the water, splashing it all around him, turning somersaults, the bubbles sparkling around his head. He swims a few yards further out, so far that he can no longer touch the bottom with his feet.

Out here there’s a big boulder, a block of stone lying just beneath the surface like a slumbering sea monster. Nils clambers

up onto its back, stands with his feet just below the surface of the water, then dives in. He can’t touch the bottom here. He floats, treading water, and sees Axel still standing by the water’s edge.

“Can’t you swim yet?” he yells.

He knows Axel can’t.

Axel doesn’t reply, but he drops his eyes, his expression darkening with both shame and rage beneath his bangs. He tugs off his shorts and sets them on the stone beside the toffees.

Nils swims calmly around the boulder, first on his stomach, then on his back, just to show how easy it is when you can do it. A kick with his legs, and he’s back on top of the boulder again.

“I’ll help you!” he calls to Axel, and for a moment he considers actually doing it, being a big brother and teaching Axel to swim today. But it would take too long.

He just waves.

“Come on!”

Axel takes a wobbly step into the water, feeling his way across the pebbles with his feet, his arms waving about, as if he were balancing on the edge of an abyss. Nils watches his little brother’s unsteady progress from the shore in silence.

After four paces Axel is standing there with the water up above his thighs, looking at Nils, his face rigid.

“Are you brave enough?”

A joke, he’s just having a little joke with his brother.

Axel shakes his head. Nils quickly dives off the boulder and swims toward the shore.

“It’s quite safe,” he calls. “You can touch the bottom almost all the way out.”

Axel reaches for him, leaning forward. Nils moves backwards, and his little brother takes an involuntary step forward.

“Good,” says Nils. The water is up to their waists now. “One more step.”

Axel does as he says, takes one more step, then looks up at Nils with a nervous smile. Nils smiles back and nods, and Axel takes another step.

Nils leans over, falling slowly backwards with outstretched arms, just to show how soft the water is.

“Everybody can swim, Axel,” he says. “I taught myself.”

He kicks his legs and swims slowly out toward the boulder.

Axel follows him, keeping his feet on the bottom. The water is up to his chest.

Nils jumps up onto the boulder again.

“Three more steps!” he says.

Although that isn’t quite true, it’s more like seven or eight. But Axel takes one step, two steps, three steps, has to stretch his neck upward to keep his mouth above the surface, and there are still three yards to go before he reaches the boulder.

“You have to breathe,” says Nils.

Axel takes a short, panting breath. Nils sits down on the boulder and holds his hands out calmly to Axel.

And his little brother throws himself forward. But it’s as if he quickly regrets it, because he takes a big breath and his mouth and throat are filled with cold water, he’s flailing around with his arms and staring at Nils. The boulder is just out of reach.

Nils watches Axel struggling in the water for a second or two, then quickly leans over and pulls his brother up onto the safety of the boulder.

Axel holds on tight, coughing and taking short, jerky breaths.

Nils gets to his feet beside him and says what has been in his mind the whole time: “The shore is mine.”

Then he throws himself off the boulder, diving straight as an arrow, and comes up several yards away, swimming with long, sure strokes until his hands touch the pebbles by the shore and his joke is complete. Now he can enjoy it. He shakes his head to make his ears pop and goes over to the stone where Axel unwrapped his bundle.

The little shorts Axel took off are there too. Nils picks them up, imagines he can see a flea crawling along a seam, and throws them away on the shore.

Then he bends over the bundle. The butter toffees are lying there in a pile, shining in the sun, and Nils picks one up and places it slowly in his mouth.

He hears an infuriated roar across the water, from the boulder, but takes no notice. He chews carefully, swallows, picks up another toffee.

The sound of splashing reaches him from out there. Nils looks up; his little brother has finally thrown himself off the boulder and into the water.

Nils is already beginning to dry off in the sun, and overcomes his first impulse, which is to go out to Axel. He picks up a third toffee from the cloth on the stone instead.

The splashing continues, and Nils watches. Axel can’t touch the bottom with his feet, of course, and he’s desperately trying to get back onto the boulder. But his hands keep slipping off.

Nils chews on the toffee. You have to get some speed up to get onto the boulder.

Axel has no speed, and turns to make his way back to the

shore. He’s flapping his arms wildly, the water foaming all around him, but he isn’t moving forward. He’s looking at Nils with wide, terrified eyes.

Nils looks back at him, swallows the toffee, and picks up another one.

The splashing quickly grows fainter. His brother yells something, but Nils can’t hear what it is. Then the waves close over Axel’s head.

Now Nils takes a step toward the water.

Axel’s head pops up, but not as far out of the water as before.

All Nils can actually see is wet hair. Then he sinks beneath the surface again. Air bubbles come up, but a little wave sweeps them away.

Nils is in a hurry now, he jumps into the water. His legs kick up foam and he’s fighting with his arms, his eyes fixed on the boulder.

But there’s no sign of Axel.

Nils makes his way quickly to the boulder, and when he’s

almost there he dives, but he’s not very good at keeping his eyes open underwater. He closes his eyes, feeling his way in the cold darkness, touches nothing with his hands, and comes up into the sunlight again. He grabs the boulder with his hands, coughs, and pulls himself up.

Nothing but water all around him, wherever he looks. The

sunlight sparkling on the waves hides everything that exists beneath the surface.

Axel is gone.

Nils waits and waits in the wind, but nothing happens, and in the end, when he starts to feel cold, he dives in and swims slowly back to the shore. There’s nothing else he can do. He gets out of the water, breathes out, and leans on the big stone.

Nils stands there in the sun for a long time. He’s waiting for the sound of splashing, a familiar shout from Axel, but he hears nothing.

Everything is quiet.

There are four toffees left on Axel’s cloth, and Nils looks at them.

He thinks about the questions that will be waiting for him, from his mother and others, and thinks about what he’s going to say. Then he thinks about when his father died and how gloomy everything had been during the long drawnout funeral up in Marnas church. Everybody had been dressed in black, singing hymns about death.

Nils tries a sob. That sounds good. He’ll go up to his mother and sob and tell her Axel is still down on the shore. Axel wanted to stay, but Nils wanted to go home. And when everybody starts looking for Axel, he can think about the sad organ music at his father’s funeral and cry along with his mother.

Nils will go up to the house soon; he knows what he’s going to say and what he’s not going to say when he gets there.

But first of all he finishes off Axel’s toffees.

Jerlof was sitting in his room at the residential

home for senior citizens in Mamas, watching the sun go down outside the window. The kitchen bell had just fallen silent after ringing for the first time, and it would soon be time for dinner. He would get up and walk to the dining room. His life wasn’t over.

If he’d still been living in the fishing village he came from, Stenvik, he could have sat by the shore watching the sun sink slowly into Kalmar Sound. But Mamas was on the east coast, which meant that each evening he watched the sun disappear behind a grove of birch trees, between the residential home and Marnas church in the west. At this time of year, in October, the branches of the birch trees were almost completely bare, and looked like slender arms reaching out toward the orange disc of the sinking sun.

The twilight hour had arrivedthe time for bloodcurdling stories.

When

he had been a child in Stenvik, this had been the time

when the work in the fields and around the boathouses was over for the day. Everyone would gather in the cottages as the evening drew in, but the paraffin lamps wouldn’t be lit just yet. The older people would sit there in the twilight hour, discussing what had been achieved during the day and what had happened elsewhere in the village. And from time to time they would tell the children a story.

Gerlof always thought the scariest stories were the best. Tales of ghosts, dire warnings, trolls, and evil deeds in the Oland wilderness.

Or tales of how ships were driven toward the shore along the stony coastline and smashed to pieces against the rocks.

The kitchen bell rang for the second time.

A boat captain who had been caught up in the storm and

drifted too close to the shore would sooner or later hear the rocks on the seabed scraping against his keel, louder and louder, and that was the beginning of the end. Sometimes he might be skillful enough and fortunate enough to drop an anchor and slowly haul himself against the wind back into clear water again, but most boats couldn’t move once they’d gone aground. Usually the captains had to abandon their vessels quickly in order to save themselves and their crews, trying to make their way onto dry land through the crashing waves; then they would stand there on the shore, soaking wet and frozen to the marrow, watching the storm drive their boats harder and harder aground until the waves began to smash them to pieces.

A small cargo boat that had run aground was like a battered

coffin.

The kitchen bell rang for the last time, and Gerlof grabbed

the edge of the wooden desk and pulled himself up. He could feel Sjogren coming to life in his limbs. He could feel it, and it was painful. He considered the wheelchair standing at the foot of his bed, but he had never used it indoors, and he had no intention of doing so now. But he picked up his cane in his right hand, gripping it tightly as he made his way toward the hallway, where his outdoor clothes hung on their hangers and his shoes were neatly arranged. He stopped, leaned on the cane, then opened the door to the corridor. He went out and looked around.

He could hear shuffling steps along the corridor, and saw

them coming along one after the other: his fellow residents. They came slowly, with the help of canes or walkers. The residents of the Marnas senior center gathering to eat.

Some of them greeted each other quietly; others kept their

eyes fixed on the floor the whole time.

So much knowledge moving along this corridor, thought

Gerlof as he joined the tired stream on its way into the dining room.

“Good evening, lovely to see you all!” said Boel, who was in charge of their section, smiling among the food trolleys outside the kitchen.

Everybody sat down carefully in their usual places around the tables.

So much knowledge. Around Gerlof sat a shoemaker, a

churchwarden, and a farmer, all with experience and knowledge that nobody was interested in anymore. And then there was Gerlof himself; he could still tie a bowline knot with his eyes closed in just a few seconds, to no purpose whatsoever.

“Could be a frost tonight, Gerlof,” said Maja Nyman.

“Yes, the wind’s coming from the north,” agreed Gerlof.

Maja was sitting next to him, tiny and wrinkled and skinny,

but brighter than anyone else in there. She smiled at Gerlof, and he smiled back. She was one of the few who could pronounce his name correctly, Yairloff.

Maja came from Stenvik but had married a farmer and gone

to live northeast of Marnas in the 1950s; Gerlof himself had moved to Borgholm when he became a boat captain. Before he and Maja met up again in the residential home, they hadn’t seen each other for almost forty years.

Gerlof picked up a piece of crispbread and began to eat, and as usual he was grateful that he could still chew. No hair, poor eyesight, no strength, and aching musclesbut at least he still had his own teeth.

The aroma of cabbage was spreading from the kitchen. There