Authors: Learning to Kill: Stories
Tags: #Fiction, #General, #Mystery & Detective, #Short Stories (Single Author), #Fantasy, #Mystery Fiction, #Short Stories, #Detective and Mystery Stories; American
If he had not been wearing the jacket, he would not have been stabbed. The knife had not been plunged in hatred of Andy. The knife hated only the purple jacket. The jacket was a stupid meaningless thing that was robbing him of his life. He wanted the jacket off his back. With an enormous loathing, he wanted the jacket off his back.
He lay struggling with the shiny wet material. His arms were heavy, and pain ripped fire across his body whenever he moved. But he squirmed and fought and twisted until one arm was free and then the other, and then he rolled away from the jacket and lay quite still, breathing heavily, listening to the sound of his breathing and the sound of the rain and thinking,
Rain is sweet, I'm Andy.
She found him in the alleyway a minute past midnight. She left the dance to look for him, and when she found him she knelt beside him and said, "Andy, it's me, Laura." He did not answer her. She backed away from him, tears springing into her eyes, and then she ran from the alley hysterically and did not stop running until she found the cop. And now, standing with the cop, she looked down at him, and the cop rose and said, "He's dead," and all the crying was out of her now. She stood in the rain and said nothing, looking at the dead boy on the pavement, and looking at the purple jacket that rested a foot away from his body. The cop picked up the jacket and turned it over in his hands.
"A Royal, huh?" he said.
The rain seemed to beat more steadily now, more fiercely.
She looked at the cop and, very quietly, she said, "His name is Andy."
The cop slung the jacket over his arm. He took out his black pad, and he flipped it open to a blank page.
"A Royal," he said.
Then he began writing.
T
HE BOY SITTING OPPOSITE HIM WAS HIS ENEMY.
The boy sitting opposite him was called Tigo, and he wore a green silk jacket with an orange stripe on each sleeve. The jacket told Dave that Tigo was his enemy. The jacket shrieked, "Enemy, enemy!"
"This is a good piece," Tigo said, indicating the gun on the table. "This runs you close to forty-five bucks, you try to buy it in a store. That's a lot of money."
The gun on the table was a Smith & Wesson .38 Police Special.
It rested exactly in the center of the table, its sawed-off, two-inch barrel abruptly terminating the otherwise lethal grace of the weapon. There was a checked walnut stock on the gun, and the gun was finished in a flat blue. Alongside the gun were three .38 Special cartridges.
Dave looked at the gun disinterestedly. He was nervous and apprehensive, but he kept tight control of his face. He could not show Tigo what he was feeling. Tigo was the enemy, and so he presented a mask to the enemy, cocking one eyebrow and saying, "I seen pieces before. There's nothing special about this one."
"Except what we got to do with it," Tigo said.
Tigo was studying him with large brown eyes. The eyes were moist-looking. He was not a bad-looking kid, Tigo, with thick black hair and maybe a nose that was too long, but his mouth and chin were good. You could usually tell a cat by his mouth and his chin. Tigo would not turkey out of this particular rumble. Of that, Dave was sure.
"Why don't we start?" Dave asked. He wet his lips and looked across at Tigo.
"You understand," Tigo said, "I got no bad blood for you."
"I understand."
"This is what the club said. This is how the club said we should settle it. Without a big street diddlebop, you dig? But I want you to know I don't know you from a hole in the wallâexcept you wear a blue and gold jacket."
"And you wear a green and orange one," Dave said, "and that's enough for me."
"Sure, but what I was tryin to say..."
"We going to sit and talk all night, or we going to get this thing rolling?" Dave asked.
"What I'm tryin to say..." Tigo went on, "is that I just happened to be picked for this, you know? Like to settle this thing that's between the two clubs. I mean, you got to admit your boys shouldn't have come in our territory last night."
"I got to admit nothing," Dave said flatly.
"Well, anyway, they shot at the candy store. That wasn't right. There's supposed to be a truce on."
"Okay, okay," Dave said.
"So like ... like this is the way we agreed to settle it. I mean, one of us and ... and one of you. Fair and square. Without any street boppin', and without any law trouble."
"Let's get on with it," Dave said.
"I'm tryin to say, I never even seen you on the street before this. So. this ain't nothin personal with me. Whichever way it turns out, like..."
"I never seen you neither," Dave said.
Tigo stared at him for a long time. "That's 'cause you're new around here. Where you from originally?"
"My people come down from the Bronx."
"You got a big family?"
"A sister and two brothers, that's all."
"Yeah, I only got a sister." Tigo shrugged. "Well." He sighed. "So." He sighed again. "Let's make it, huh?"
"I'm waitin," Dave said.
Tigo picked up the gun, and then he took one of the cartridges from the tabletop. He broke open the gun, slid the cartridge into the cylinder, and then snapped the gun shut and twirled the cylinder.
"Round and round she goes," he said, "and where she stops, nobody knows. There's six chambers in the cylinder and only one cartridge. That makes the odds five-to-one that the cartridge won't be in firing position when the cylinder stops whirling. You dig?"
"I dig."
"I'll go first," Tigo said.
Dave looked at him suspiciously.
"Why?"
"You want to go first?"
"I don't know."
"I'm giving you a break." Tigo grinned. "I may blow my head off first time out."
"Why you giving me a break?" Dave asked.
Tigo shrugged. "What the hell's the difference?" He gave the cylinder a fast twirl.
"The Russians invented this, huh?" Dave asked.
"Yeah."
"I always said they was crazy bastards."
"Yeah, I always..."
Tigo stopped talking. The cylinder was stopped now. He took a deep breath, put the barrel of the .38 to his temple, and then squeezed the trigger. The firing pin clicked on an empty chamber.
"Well, that was easy, wasn't it?" he asked. He shoved the gun across the table. "Your turn, Dave."
Dave reached for the gun. It was cold in the basement room, but he was sweating now. He pulled the gun toward him, then left it on the table while he dried his palms on his trousers. He picked up the gun then and stared at it.
"It's a nifty piece," Tigo said. "I like a good piece."
"Yeah, I do, too," Dave said. "You can tell a good piece just by the way it feels in your hand."
Tigo looked surprised. "I mentioned that to one of the guys yesterday, and he thought I was nuts."
"Lots of guys don't know about pieces," Dave said, shrugging.
"I was thinking," Tigo said, "when I get old enough, I'll join the Army, you know? I'd like to work around pieces."
"I thought of that, too. I'd join now, only my old lady won't give me permission. She's got to sign if I join now."
"Yeah, they're all the same," Tigo said, smiling. "Your old lady born here or the old country?"
"The old country," Dave said.
"Yeah, well you know they got these old-fashioned ideas."
"I better spin," Dave said.
"Yeah," Tigo agreed.
Dave slapped the cylinder with his left hand. The cylinder whirled, whirled, and then stopped. Slowly, Dave put the gun to his head. He wanted to close his eyes, but he didn't dare. Tigo, the enemy, was watching him. He returned Tigo's stare, and then he squeezed the trigger. His heart skipped a beat, and then over the roar of his blood he heard the empty click. Hastily he put the gun down on the table.
"Makes you sweat, don't it?" Tigo said.
Dave nodded, saying nothing. He watched Tigo. Tigo was looking at the gun.
"Me now, huh?" Tigo said. He took a deep breath, then picked up the .38. He twirled the cylinder, waited for it to stop, and then put the gun to his head.
"Bang!" Tigo said, and then he squeezed the trigger. Again the firing pin clicked on an empty chamber. Tigo let out his breath and put the gun down.
"I thought I was dead that time," he said.
"I could hear the harps," Dave said.
"This is a good way to lose weight, you know that?" Tigo laughed nervously, and then his laugh became honest when he saw Dave was laughing with him.
"Ain't it the truth? You could lose ten pounds this way."
"My old lady's like a house," Dave said laughing. "She ought to try this kind of a diet." He laughed at his own humor, pleased when Tigo joined him.
"That's the trouble," Tigo said. "You see a nice deb in the street, you think it's crazy, you know? Then they get to be our people's age, and they turn to fat." He shook his head.
"You got a chick?" Dave asked.
"Yeah, I got one."
"What's her name?"
"Aw, you don't know her."
"Maybe I do," Dave said.
"Her name is Juana." Tigo watched him. "She's about five-two, got these brown eyes..."
"I think I know her," Dave said. He nodded. "Yeah, I think I know her."
"She's nice, ain't she?" Tigo asked. He leaned forward, as if Dave's answer was of great importance to him.
"Yeah, she's nice," Dave said.
"The guys rib me about her. You know, all they're after-well, you knowâthey don't understand something like Juana."
"I got a chick, too," Dave said.
"Yeah? Hey, maybe sometime we could..." Tigo cut himself short. He looked down at the gun, and his sudden enthusiasm seemed to ebb completely. "It's your turn," he said.
"Here goes nothing," Dave said. He twirled the cylinder, sucked in his breath, and then fired.
The empty click was loud in the stillness of the room.
"Man!" Dave said.
"We're pretty lucky, you know?" Tigo said.
"So far."
"We better lower the odds. The boys won't like it if we..." He stopped himself again, and then reached for one of the cartridges on the table. He broke open the gun again, and slipped the second cartridge into the cylinder. "Now we got two cartridges in here," he said. "Two cartridges, six chambers. That's four-to-two. Divide it, and you get two-to-one." He paused. "You game?"
"That's ... that's what we're here for, ain't it?"
"Sure."
"Okay then."
"Gone," Tigo said, nodding his head. "You got courage, Dave."
"You're the one needs the courage," Dave said gently. "It's your spin."
Tigo lifted the gun. Idly, he began spinning the cylinder.
"You live on the next block, don't you?" Dave asked.
"Yeah." Tigo kept slapping the cylinder. It spun with a gently whirring sound.
"That's how come we never crossed paths, I guess. Also, I'm new on the scene."
"Yeah, well you know, you get hooked up with one club, that's the way it is."
"You like the guys in your club?" Dave asked, wondering why he was asking such a stupid question, listening to the whirring of the cylinder at the same time.
"They're okay." Tigo shrugged. "None of them really send me, but that's the club on my block, so what're you gonna do, huh?" His hand left the cylinder. It stopped spinning. He put the gun to his head.
"Wait!" Dave said.
Tigo looked puzzled. "What's the matter?"
"Nothin. I just wanted to say ... I mean..." Dave frowned. "I don't dig too many of the guys in my club, either."
Tigo nodded. For a moment, their eyes locked. Then Tigo shrugged, and fired. The empty click filled the basement room.
"Phew," Tigo said.
"Man, you can say that again."
Tigo slid the gun across the table. Dave hesitated an instant. He did not want to pick up the gun. He felt sure that this time the firing pin would strike the percussion cap of one of the cartridges. He was sure that this time he would shoot himself.
"Sometimes I think I'm turkey," he said to Tigo, surprised that his thoughts had found voice.
"I feel that way sometimes, too," Tigo said.
"I never told that to nobody," Dave said. "The guys in my club would laugh at me, I ever told them that."
"Some things you got to keep to yourself. There ain't nobody you can trust in this world."
"There should be somebody you can trust," Dave said. "Hell, you can't tell nothing to your people. They don't understand."
Tigo laughed. "That's an old story. But that's the way things are. What're you gonna do?"
"Yeah. Still, sometimes I think I'm turkey."
"Sure, sure," Tigo said. "But it ain't only that, though. Like sometimes ... well, don't you wonder what you're doing stomping some guy in the street? Like ... you know what I mean? Like ... who's the guy to you? What you got to beat him up for? 'Cause he messed with somebody else's girl?" Tigo shook his head. "It gets complicated sometimes."
"Yeah, but..." Dave frowned again. "You got to stick with the club. Don't you?"
"Sure, sure ... no question."
Again, their eyes locked.
"Well, here goes," Dave said. He lifted the gun. "It's just..." He shook his head, and then twirled the cylinder. The cylinder spun, and then stopped. He studied the gun, wondering if one of the cartridges would roar from the barrel when he squeezed the trigger.
Then he fired.
Click
"I didn't think you was going through with it," Tigo said.
"I didn't neither."
"You got heart, Dave," Tigo said. He looked at the gun. He picked it up and broke it open.
"What you doing?" Dave asked.
"Another cartridge," Tigo said. "Six chambers, three cartridges. That makes it even money. You game?"
"You?"
"The boys said..." Tigo stopped talking. "Yeah, I'm game," he added, his voice curiously low.
"It's your turn, you know."
"I know."
Dave watched as Tigo picked up the gun.
"You ever been rowboating on the lake?"
Tigo looked across the table at Dave, his eyes wide. "Once," he said. "I went with Juana."
"Is it ... is it any kicks?"
"Yeah. Yeah, it's grand kicks. You mean you never been?"