Eight Months on Ghazzah Street

I need not remind anyone of this week’s tragic events involving Turadup employees. In order to safeguard the company’s position in these very difficult times, I must request all staff and families about to depart on leave to behave as follows:

a.
Refrain from talking to the press—whatever your holiday destination.

b.
Refrain from public speculation about the recent deaths—remember that the matter is still under investigation by the Saudi police and Her Majesty’s representatives.

c.
Exercise the utmost caution in personal conduct between now and your departure—dispose (carefully) of
all items or substances which could attract the interest of the police, and do not leave your compound without your documents.

I feel sure that if these precautions are observed, we may expect a continuance of good relations with the Saudi authorities, and a smooth passage into the next Five-Year Plan.

May I take this opportunity to wish you, on behalf of Daphne and myself, a pleasant vacation and a safe return to the Kingdom after Haj. Sincerely—

Eric Parsons

September 1984

IN FLIGHT

“Would you like champagne?”

This was the beginning; an hour or so out from Heathrow. Already it felt further; watches moved on, a day in a life condensed to a scramble at a check-in desk, a walk to a departure gate; a day cut short and eclipsed, hurtling on into advancing night. And now the steward leaned over her, putting this question.

“I don’t think so.” They had already eaten; dinner, she supposed. So much smoked salmon is consumed on aircraft that it is a wonder there is any left to eat at ground level. The steward had just now whisked her tray from under her nose. “You could give me some brandy,” she said.

“Two to get you started?” Hand hovering over the trolley, he seemed to approve her choice; as if what lay ahead were something to brace yourself for, not to celebrate.

“And one of those nice plastic glasses,” Frances Shore said. “Please.”

Across the aisle grown men were getting drunk on Cointreau. One of them cocked an eyebrow at the steward. He leaned over them; his face, pale and seamy under the late-night lights, showed a kind of patient disgust. Drinks were free of course, but on the Saudi run this standard airline ploy had the status of charity work. His
fingers, dispensing the miniature bottles, were as clean and careful as a bishop’s.

The businessmen had done their talking earlier; passed sales charts to each other. “I wonder how Fairfax is doing in Kowloon?” one of them asked.

His companion dug his plastic fork into a mille-feuille, and made no reply. “How long now?” he asked after a while.

“Three hours.”

“Keep the drinks going then.”

“Enjoy it, gentlemen,” the steward said. The woman held up her coffee cup. He swayed toward her with the pot. “Nondairy creamer, madam?”

“I always wonder about this stuff,” she said, accepting the foil packet. “It says what it isn’t, but not what it is.”

“That’s life,” the steward said. He moved away again. Dull clunk of ice cubes against plastic. Flimsy cushions flatten under head and back. Onward. The man with the tough mille-feuille stares at the dial of his watch, as if he could make the time go faster. Or hold it back.

Left alone, she closed her eyes. She was apprehensive, yes. She turned over the steward’s comment in her mind, because she was not one to let flippancies go unexamined; it paid to examine them, as there was so little, she always thought, in what people said when they were trying to be serious. You could only describe the future by exclusion; say what will not occur. Say what you will not be: an ice dancer, a cosmonaut, a mother of twelve. Much less easy to make a single positive prediction even for the coming week; much less easy to say what, in a month’s time, you will have become.

Andrew’s letters had been short, practical. They told her to bring flat sandals, British postage stamps, a bottle of Bovril. His voice on the phone had been hesitant. There had been the odd, expensive silence. He didn’t know how to describe Jeddah. She must, he said, see for herself.

She picked up the half cup of coffee: black, and almost cold now. When she moved her legs, newsprint rustled, a paperback slid
from her lap onto the seat. She felt stiff, uncomfortable. She began to think of lurching along to the lavatory, braving the bleary stares.

When the steward came back she said to him, “There aren’t many women on this flight.”

“It’s not the time of year. Christmas and Easter, the wives fly out.”

“Why don’t they stay?”

“They can’t stick it. More coffee?” She shook her head. “It must be your first trip. Got a husband out there?”

She nodded.

“Visa all in order?”

“I hope so. But I don’t read Arabic.”

“Be waiting for you, will he?”

Again: “I hope so.”

“Been out there long?”

“Six weeks.”

“Quick work,” the steward said. “To get you out so soon.”

“It’s the company who organized it. He says it’s not that easy, but they’ve been in Saudi for a while and they know how things are done.”

“We all know how things are done,” the steward said; he rubbed finger and thumb together, rustling an imaginary wad of notes. “What’s his line of country?”

“He’s a civil engineer. They’re putting up a big new building for one of the ministries.”

“Likes it all right, does he?”

“I don’t really know.” During those phone calls (direct dial, good clear line) she’d not inquired of Andrew, Are you happy? It would have meant another expensive silence, because he did not deal in that sort of question. He’d have found it strange from three paces, never mind three thousand miles. Could the man be right, she wondered, had someone been bribed on her behalf? It seemed such a small thing, obtaining a visa for one unimportant woman to join her unimportant husband, but she had once been assured, by a man called Jeff Pollard, who understood these things, that when
corruption took root in a country it spread in no time at all from monarchs to tea boys, from ministers to filing clerks. She believed him, but did not feel herself a better person for the belief. She had been round and about southern Africa for five years, in regions where, by and large, the possibilities of corruption had not been fully explored. Andrew thought that, once, someone might have offered him a bribe; but through the other party’s ineptitude and poor English, and Andrew’s naivete, the occasion had passed without profit.

As this occasion will pass, she thought; and in time, this flight. “More brandy?” the steward inquired.

“No thanks.”

“Lived abroad before?”

“Yes.” He had a boring job, she supposed, and a right to people’s life stories. “Zambia for a bit, then Botswana.”

“Oh, sweet Jesus,” said the steward, animated now, but not impressed. “I’ve been to Botswana, the Holiday Inn, Gaborone. It’s a hole, Botswana. I went in the coffee shop and asked them for a toasted cheese sandwich, and do you know what they said?”

“‘Cheese it is finished’?”

“Right on. You must have been there.”

“Of course I’ve been there.”

“But no cheese in the whole place? I ask you. They could have sent out for some.”

“Look,” Frances said, “there are two kinds of cheese in Botswana, cheddar and sweetmilk. They are imported from South Africa, which makes any number of kinds of cheese, but they only import two; they realize that people must have cheese, but to have too much of it might seem to condone apartheid. You’re with me?”

“Not exactly.”

“Never mind. So what kind of sandwich did you have?”

“I had ham.”

“Lucky you.”

“Where would the ham be from?”

“Zimbabwe,” she said. “Was it called that when you were there?”

“I think it was still Rhodesia. They had sanctions.”

“But the ham got through.”

“Well, I take your word for it. But still, what a hole it is, Gaborone. Bunch of tarts sitting in the dust outside selling woolly hats. Sit by the pool, play the fruit machines, bugger all else to do.” He paused, the tirade halted by a scruple of politeness. “Was that where you lived?”

“Well no, actually, we lived in a much smaller place. We used to go up to Gaborone for a bit of excitement.”

“You poor things, that’s all I can say. And you were in Zambia too? I’ve been to Lusaka, done a couple of stopovers. They’re thieves in Lusaka. They’ll take the wheels off your hire-car as soon as look at you. This friend of mine went into a pharmacy for a drop of penicillin, he was planning, you know, on being a bit naughty that night, and he believed in dosing himself first; and he came out, and no bloody wheels.”

She smiled. “My friend wasn’t amused,” the steward said.

“No, I’m sure. It was very trying when they took your wheels off. It was quite common though. You could never plan on being anywhere by a set time.”

“And there was never any sugar. I take sugar, in coffee.”

“It’s true, there were a lot of shortages.”

“I’ve not been out that way for a while. They tell me it’s worse now.

“Oh, Africa’s always worse.”

“Quite the cynic.”

“No, not really,” she said. “I think I was just there for too long. I liked it, in a way. At least, I’m glad I went there. I wouldn’t have missed it.”

“I expect you’ll find your Saudi lifestyle very different.”

“Yes, I expect I will.”

He was hovering, waiting to tell her some horror stories. There were always stories out of the Middle East, and no doubt Jeff Pollard would have told her some, if he had not been so anxious to recruit Andrew for his building project. But her tone wrapped up the conversation. “Sure on that brandy?” the steward said; and moved
away. The slightest encouragement, and he would have asked, “Do you remember that Helen Smith case?”

A dozen people had raised the question, in her two-month stay in England. It was strange how it had stuck in people’s minds, considering how little they usually remembered of what they read in the newspapers: young north-country girl, a nurse, found dead after an all-night party; nurse’s father, dogged ex-policeman, off out there to get at the truth. And then the inquests, and the coroner’s reports, and the hints of diplomatic cover-ups, and skulduggery in high places; the pleasures of moral censure, the frisson of violent death in faraway places. The press reports had left an image in people’s minds: of lazy, glitzy, transient lives, of hard liquor and easy money, of amoral people turned scared and sour. So now when you were off to Jeddah, people said, “Don’t fall off any balconies, will you?” It became monotonous. And their talk had left an image in her mind—which she did not like but could not now eradicate—the image of the broken body, still in its mortuary drawer.

A part of her, now, thought the persistence of the image sinister; a part of her said, things happen everywhere, and after all, she said, comforting herself, there’s only the world. Travel ends and routine begins and old habits which you thought you had left behind in one country catch up with you in the next, and old problems resurface, but if you are lucky you carry as part of your baggage the means of solving those problems and accommodating those habits, and you take with you an open mind, and discretion, and common sense; if you have those with you, you can manage anywhere. I make large claims for myself, she thought. She pushed up the window shade and looked out, into featureless darkness. There was no sensation of movement, no intimation that they were in flight. She closed her eyes. Sleep now, she coaxed herself. Tomorrow I will have people to meet and there will be a good deal to do. How pleased I will be, to do it; and to be there, at last.

It was at the Holiday Inn, Gaborone—but in the bar, not in the coffee shop—that Andrew had met Jeff Pollard. They had run into
him once before, in Lusaka, and not liked him particularly; but now Pollard was offering a job, and Andrew needed one. His contract in Botswana was a month away from its termination date, and they were already packing and selling things off. The UK building trade had slumped into what seemed chronic recession; they didn’t know what they were going to do. They didn’t want to stay in Botswana, even if there had been the option. With the advent of the blacktop road across the South African border, life had changed for the worse, their severe small-town isolation ended, the single street full of new faces. It was true that you could go as far as Johannesburg now without steeling yourself for the journey over dirt roads; it ought to have been an advantage, but in fact it made life too easy. They were a direct connection on the string of dorps that ran across the Transvaal and over the frontier; the day would come soon when they would feel like a suburb.

At this point—one morning over breakfast—Andrew had said, “What about the Middle East?”

“Oh no,” she said. “I’d have to go around with a headscarf on all day. I couldn’t put up with that.”

“Fran,” he said, “we have to make some money. We haven’t made any here. I thought we would, but it’s not worked out. We have to get something behind us.”

“Yes. I suppose so.”

She had known he was serious; because he addressed her by her name. It had not escaped her notice that women were always using men’s Christian names, but that men only did it when there was something in the offing: a rebuke, a plea. Andrew had never been communicative, so it had been necessary to notice these things. He was a silent man, who never asked for anything, or set arrangements in train, or egged life on; instead he waited for what he wanted, with a powerful, active patience which seemed to surround him, like an aura: an aura of forbearance, of self-control. His patience was not like other people’s, a rather feeble virtue, which had, by its nature, to be its own reward; it was a virtue like a strong
magnet, which drew solutions to problems. And now drew Jeff Pollard.

Jeff Pollard was a sometime employee of Turadup, William and Schaper, a firm known throughout the construction business as Throw’em Up, Bill’em and Scarper. Since the European Development Fund had decided to finance the building of the blacktop road, he had been in and out of southern Africa, weighing up prospects and buying people drinks. He was a man of thirty-five, unmarried, with a loose and dusty appearance and shifting eyes; he had a gray-white skin, but the back of his neck was at all times mysteriously and painfully sunburned. He had an unsparing fund of anecdote, a knowing, dirty laugh; a British passport, and a vaguely Australian accent. He wore his shirt open, and around his neck on a chain a small block of gold incised with the legend CREDIT SUISSE. When the Shores were leaving Africa there had been a lot of people like Jeff around, doing their recruiting in golf-club bars. They were cowboys, headhunters, entrepreneurs; anywhere they hung their hat was their domicile, for fiscal purposes.

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