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Once his shift was over we headed back to the staff breakroom and hung up the long black aprons we had to wear over our uniform. “You’re going to be brilliant, Blaire. The men love you and the women are impressed by you. No offense sugar, but girls with hair as platinum blond as yours normally can’t walk a straight line without giggling.”

             
I smiled at him. “Is that so? I take offense to that comment.”

             
Jimmy rolled his eyes and reached out to pat my head. “No, you don’t. You know you’re one badass blond bombshell.”

             
“Already making a move on the new server, Jim?” Woods’ familiar voice asked. Jimmy gave him a cocky grin.

             
“You know better than that. I got a specific taste,” he let his voice drop to a sexy whisper as he trailed his eyes down Woods’ body.

             
I glanced back at Woods who was scowling uncomfortably and I couldn’t help but laugh. Jimmy joined me. “Love making the straight boys squirm,” he whispered in my ear, then slapped my butt and walked out the door.

             
Woods rolled his eyes and walked further into the room once Jimmy was gone. Apparently, he was aware of Jimmy’s sexual preference. 

             
“Did you enjoy your day?” he asked politely.

             
I had enjoyed my day. Immensely. It was a much easier job than sweating it out in the heat dealing with leering old men all day.  “Yes. It was great. Thank you for making it possible for me to work in here.”

             
Woods nodded. “You’re welcome. Now, how about we go celebrate your promotion with the best Mexican food on the coast?”
              He was asking me out again. I should go. He would be a distraction. He wasn’t exactly the working class type I was looking for but who said I was going to marry him and have his babies?

             
An image of Rush flashed in my mind and the tortured expression he’d had last night. I couldn’t bring myself to date someone he knew. If he really meant what he said then I needed to keep his world at arm’s length. I didn’t belong in that world.

             
“Can I take a rain check? I didn’t sleep well last night and I’m exhausted.”

             
Woods’ face fell some but I knew he would have no problem finding someone to take my place.

             
“There is a party tonight at Rush’s, but I guess you knew that,” Woods said, watching me closely for my reaction. I didn’t know about the party but then Rush never warned me about them.

             
“I can sleep through it. I’ve gotten used to them.” That was a lie. I wouldn’t go to sleep until the last person stomped up the stairs.

             
“What if I come? Could you spend a little time with me before you go to bed?”

             
Woods was determined. I would give him that. I started to tell him no when it dawned on me that Rush would be screwing some girl tonight. He’d take her up to his bed and make her feel things he would never allow me to feel. I did need a distraction. He’d probably already have her in his lap by the time I got home.

             
“You and Rush don’t seem very close. Maybe we could hang out a bit outside down by the beach? I don’t know if it’s a good idea for you to be in the house where he can see you.”

             
Woods nodded. “Okay. I’m good with that. But I have one question, Blaire,” he said watching me closely. I waited. “Why is that? Until the other night at his house, Rush and I have been friends. We’ve grown up together. The same circles. Never had an ounce of trouble. What set him off? Is there something going on between the two of you?”

             
How did I answer that? No because he won’t allow it and it is safer for my heart if we keep it only friends?

             
“We’re friends. He’s protective.”

             
Woods nodded slowly but I could tell he didn’t believe me.

             
“I don’t mind the competition. I just like to know what I’m up against.”

             
He wasn’t up against anything because all he and I would ever be was friends. I wasn’t looking for a guy in his crowd. “I’m not and will never be part of your crowd. I don’t intend to seriously date anyone that is a part of your elite circle.”

             
I didn’t wait for him to argue. Instead, I walked around him and out the door. I needed to get home before the party got too wild. I did not want to see Rush wrapped up with some girl.

 

             
It wasn’t a wild ragger. It was just about twenty people. I walked past several of them on my way to the pantry. A couple of them were in the kitchen fixing drinks and I smiled at them before stepping into the pantry and then my backroom.

             
If his friends hadn’t known I slept under the stairs they did now. I changed out of my uniform and pulled out an ice blue sundress to slip on. My feet hurt from being on them all day so I was going barefoot. I shoved my suitcase back under the stairs and stepped into the pantry to come face to face with Rush. He was leaning against the door leading into the kitchen with his arms crossed over his chest and a frown on his face.

             
“Rush? What’s wrong?” I asked when he didn’t say anything.

             
“Woods is here,” he replied.

             
“Last time I checked he was a friend of yours.”

             
Rush shook his head and his eyes quickly scanned my body. “No. He isn’t here for me. He came for someone else.”

             
I crossed my arms under my breasts and took the same defensive pose. “Maybe he is. Do you have a problem with your friends being interested in me?”

             
“He isn’t good enough. He’s a sorry ass fucker. He shouldn’t get to touch you,” Rush said in a hard angry tone.

             
Maybe he was those things. I doubted it but maybe he was. It didn’t matter. I wasn’t going to let Woods touch me. His nearness didn’t make my stomach do flips and the ache between my legs start up.

             
“I’m not interested in Woods that way. He is my boss and possibly a friend. That’s all.”

             
Rush ran his hand over his head and the silver flat ring on his thumb caught my eye. I hadn’t seen him wear it before. Who had given it to him?

             
“I can’t sleep while people are going up and down the stairs. It keeps me up. Instead of sitting in my room alone wondering who you’re upstairs screwing tonight, I thought I’d talk to Woods out on the beach. Have a conversation with someone. I need friends.”

             
Rush flinched like I’d hit him. “I don’t want you outside with Woods talking.”

             
This was ridiculous. “Well, maybe I don’t want you screwing some girl but you will.”

             
Rush pushed off from the door and came toward me backing me into my small room until we were both inside. One more inch and I would be falling back onto my bed. “I don’t want to fuck anyone tonight,” he paused then smirked, “that isn’t exactly true. Let me clarify, I don’t want to fuck anyone outside of this room. Stay here and talk to me. I’ll talk. I said we could be friends. You don’t need Woods as a friend.”

             
I put both my hands on his chest to push him back but I couldn’t make myself do it once I had my hands on him. “You never talk to me. I ask the wrong question and you stalk away.”

             
Rush shook his head. “Not now. We’re friends. I’ll talk and I won’t leave. Just please, stay in here with me.”

             
I looked around the small rectangle that barely had room for my bed. “There isn’t a lot of room in here,” I said, glancing back at him and forcing my hands to stay flat on his chest and not fist his snug fitting shirt into my hands and pull him closer.

             
“We can sit on the bed. We won’t touch. Just talk. Like friends,” he assured me.

             
I let out a sigh and nodded. I wasn’t going to be able to turn him down. Besides, there was so much I wanted to know about him.

             
I sank down onto the bed against the headboard and leaned back. I crossed my legs underneath me.

             
“Then we’ll talk.” I said with a smile.

             
Rush sat down onto the bed and leaned back against the wall. A deep chuckle came from his chest and I watched as a real smile broke out on his face. “I can’t believe I just begged a female to sit and talk to me.”

             
In all honesty, I couldn’t either.

             
“What are we going to talk about?” I asked, wanting him to start this. I didn’t want him to feel as if this was the Spanish Inquisition. I had so many questions whirling around in my head that I knew I could overwhelm him with my curiosity.

             
“How about how the hell you’re still a virgin at nineteen?” he said, turning his silver pools toward me.

             
I’d never told him I was a virgin. He had called me innocent the other night. Was it that obvious? “Who said I’m a virgin?” I asked in the most annoyed tone I could muster.

             
Rush smirked, “I know a virgin when I kiss one.”

             
I didn’t even want to argue about this. It would only make the fact I was a virgin all the more obvious.

             
“I was in love. His name is Cain. He was my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first make-out session, however tame it may have been. He said he loved me and claimed I was the only one for him. Then my mom got sick. I no longer had time to go on dates and spend time with Cain on the weekends. He needed out. He needed freedom to get that kind of relationship from someone else. So, I let him go. After Cain I didn’t have time to date anyone else.”

             
Rush frowned. “He didn’t stick by you when your mom was sick?”

             
I didn’t like this conversation. If someone else pointed out what I already knew it would be hard not to have angry feelings about Cain. I’d forgiven him a long time ago. I’d accepted it. I didn’t need bitterness toward him to creep in now. What good would that do?

             
“We were young. He didn’t love me. He just thought he did. Simple as that.”

             
Rush sighed, “You’re still young.”

             
I wasn’t sure I liked the tone in his voice when he said that. “I’m nineteen, Rush. I’ve taken care of my mother for three years and buried her without any help from my father. Trust me, I feel forty most days.”

             
Rush reached his hand across the bed and covered mine with his. “You shouldn’t have had to do that alone.”

             
No, I shouldn’t but I didn’t have any other options. I loved my mom. She deserved so much more than she got. The only thing that eased the ache was reminding myself that Mom and Valerie were together now. They had each other. I didn’t want to talk about my story anymore. I wanted to know something about Rush.

             
“Do you have a job?” I asked.

             
Rush chuckled and squeezed my hand but didn’t let go. “Do you believe everyone must have a job once out of college?”

             
I shrugged. I had always thought people worked at something. He had to have some purpose. Even if he didn’t need the money.

             
“When I graduated college I had enough money in the bank to live the rest of my life without a job, thanks to my dad.” He looked over at me with those sexy eyes hooded by thick black lashes. “After a few weeks of doing nothing but partying I realized I needed a life. So I began playing around with the stock market. Turns out, I’m pretty damn good at it. Numbers were always my thing. I also donate financial support for Habitat for Humanity. A couple months out of the year I’m more hands-on and I go work on site. Summers I take off from everything that I can and come here and relax.”

             
I hadn’t been expecting that.

             
“The surprise on your face is a little insulting,” Rush said with a teasing lilt to his voice.

             
“I just didn’t expect that answer,” I replied honestly.

             
Rush shrugged and moved his hand back to his side of the bed. I wanted to reach over and grab it and hold onto it but I didn’t. He was done touching me.

             
“How old are you?” I asked

             
Rush grinned, “Too old to be in this room with you and way too damn old for the thoughts I have of you.”

             
He was in his early twenties. He had to be. He didn’t look any older. “I will remind you that I am nineteen. I’ll be twenty in six months. I’m not a baby.”

             
“No sweet Blaire, you are definitely not a baby. I’m twenty-four and jaded. My life hasn’t been normal and because of it I have some serious screwed up shit. I’ve told you there are things you don’t know. Allowing myself to touch you would be wrong.”

             
He was only five years older than me. That wasn’t so bad. He gave money to Habitat for Humanity and even did onsite labor? How bad could he be? He had a heart. He had let me live here when he had wanted nothing more than to send me packing.

             
“I think you underestimate yourself. What I see in you is special.”

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