Family Interrupted
By
Linda Barrett
Copyright © 2013 by Linda Barrett
These stories are works of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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Cover art by KD Designs, Kim Van Meter
Story Editing by Meredith Efken
Copy Editing by Amy Knupp
E-book formatting by Web Crafters
Dedicated to my Houston Writing Buddies, Pat Kay and Pat O’Dea Rosen. Thanks for the tough critiques.
Guilt and blame.
Shaken by tragedy, the Barnes family has fractured. Mother. Father. Son. Each dealing with the pain separately and alone. Holding fast to guilt and blame. Real or imagined.
Claire, an artist who finally follows her dream and encounters a nightmare. Jack, a home builder who thinks he can fix anything—except what matters most. And Ian, a teenage son to be proud of. Until he moves out. Fifty miles away from the darkness at home.
On the verge of divorce when their son’s new life goes terribly awry, Claire and Jack are forced to re-examine their lives in order to save their marriage and heal a family that, according to Ian, “has gone to hell.” Can they find the road back?
“Thou are thy mother’s glass and she in thee
Calls back the lovely April of her prime.”
-Wm. Shakespeare,
Sonnet Three
CLAIRE BARNES
Houston, Texas
September
“
Bellisima! Brava!
Your best work yet, Signora Barnes. Maybe you give Leonardo some competition?”
I rolled my eyes and grinned at my instructor. “Leonardo can rest easy.”
Dr. Colombo teased, exhorted, or flirted with his students on a regular basis, especially the talented ones, but comparing my work to the
Mona Lisa
was going too far, even for this powerhouse.
I stepped away from my easel and focused on a portrait of a young girl peeking sideways under half-closed lids. I’d called it
Girl with Secrets
. The child held secrets I wanted to know.
“Your daughter, yes?” Colombo asked, his voice a deep rumble.
DNA didn’t lie. I nodded and said, “On the outside, Kayla’s mine, brown eyes and blonde hair, but inside, she’s her dad, an unquenchable extrovert. Sometimes my daughter’s surrounded by more friends than my house can hold.” My pride in Kayla overrode the mock complaint. “She’s twelve-and-a-half, almost a teenager—almost grown up, as she likes to remind me.”
“Ahh.” He sighed as if he understood. “I have two daughters, Signora, and I know how they too much wanted to be women but were not ready,
never
ready in the eyes of their mama.”
The man had nailed it, nailed my heart. I wasn’t ready for Kayla to grow up and fly away, especially with her brother applying for college this year. I wasn’t ready to let either of my children go.
“This portrait of your daughter.... It is...is...” Colombo waved his arm this way and that as he searched his English vocabulary. “Exceptional!” His voice rang out, eyes shone. The young student at the next easel walked over and stared.
“Holy Toledo, Claire,” she whispered. “Your kid could step right into the room. How’d you do that?”
Surprised and uncomfortable—I was just a student like the others—I wondered how to respond. Capturing Kayla’s image had come easily. I knew every smile, nuance, and angle of her face. I knew how she looked when she was happy or sad or puzzled. The work hadn’t been
that
difficult to execute.
“I’m her mom,” I finally said as if that explained everything. To me, it did. A few of the students nodded. Others seemed to be waiting for more, which I guess was not surprising. I was old enough to be their moms!
“I know all Kayla’s moods and expressions,” I said. “I can picture her rolling her eyes at her dad’s bad jokes. And I’ve seen those dark eyes shine when he walks through the door each night.”
My classmates seemed glued to my words, so on I went. “And her hair...it’s so thick and long, she still needs my help combing it after a shampoo.” I thought about how I could never resist kissing her neck and laughing when she groaned, “Ooh, Mom.”
Pointing to Kayla’s hair in the painting, I said, “See the rich auburn color here? In the summer sun, it glows like a banked fire. Maybe next time, I’ll paint her outdoors.”
I finally shut up, and in the quiet room, I felt the other students’ eyes on me and forced myself not to squirm. Being the center of attention was Jack’s specialty, not mine.
“Don’t be too impressed,” I quickly added. “I’ve sketched her hundreds of times. Maybe thousands.” I was trying to be modest for the sake of my classmates, but dang, I found it hard not to celebrate.
See, Jack? I told you I had talent! And the validation feels damn good.
My endless drawings through the years had meant less to him than the bottom line of our construction company. But when I turned forty-five last year, I knew I couldn’t keep waiting for Jack’s promise of “one day.” I’d seized my own moment and enrolled in the University of Houston’s MFA program.
I was a second-year student now, and whatever artistic gifts I possessed were being revealed under the guidance of a marvelous staff. No instructor, however, could match the gusto and intuition of Professor Colombo. Like the original explorer, this Colombo also led his crew on a voyage of discovery.
Create like Michelangelo! Find the heart, the soul of the stone, and chip away the rest
.
Fall in love with your subject, and it will show.
The teacher had a point. I certainly loved
my
subject.
“So, Signora, we will spotlight
Girl with Secrets
in the
galleria
next month, at the exhibition.”
I pivoted toward the man so sharply I almost tripped. “Exhibit? But I’m not ready.” Was I? Sure I was living my dream, learning and improving, but didn’t I need more experience and confidence before showing my work in public? If I’d spent the past twenty years painting instead of decorating model homes for Barnes Construction, I would have been more than willing to exhibit.
“With respect, Signora Barnes, you do not decide who is ready.” Colombo swept away my protest with no hesitation.“I, myself, handpicked the twelve artists in this class. I studied the portfolios from last year. You are more than good enough. Art is to be shared and enjoyed. To touch the soul. Claire—or Clara, I may call you Clara? Good. Let me tell you something else, a secret between us.”
He glanced around the room while I stood alert, heart racing at being the focus of his pointed attention. Handpicked for his class? I’d had no idea. When he turned to me again, his gaze holding mine, a frisson of electricity danced down my back. His index finger covered his mouth for a moment, reminding me that this was a private conversation.
“You are my most promising student in a long time,” he began. “Your hands transform what your heart feels and your eyes see.” He tapped his chest. “The emotions here, inside, are on the canvas too! Do you think everyone can do that?”
I took the question seriously. “Well, not the man on the street, but the other students...?”
“You are not listening, Clara! Am I speaking with the ‘other students’?”
As his words began to sink in, my excitement soared. My attention focused exclusively on Colombo, and my classmates seemed to disappear, leaving the professor and me in our own private world. The man was implying I was extra special, wasn’t he? Oh, Lordy, I hoped so. And then I’d tell Jack. And maybe we could hire a decorator, someone to replace me at work. If that happened, I could finally devote more of my time to art and less to business. Could the day get any better?
“Thank you. Thank you.” I’d finally found my voice. “I appreciate everything you’ve said and done. I know I’ve improved as an artist because of you.”
Take a breath. Calm down
. I turned my attention back to my painting of Kayla. Despite all the compliments, evaluating my own stuff was difficult, especially at this professional level. Sometimes I was too critical, sometimes too soft.
“All right, Professor. I’ll agree with you. It’s pretty good.”
“Very good, Clara. Excellent.”
During the past month, I’d started trusting Colombo’s judgment despite him being a showman. His own work had impressed me—his use of light and shadow in particular—and the Art Department had been delighted to attract this visiting professor. Now I felt lucky to be studying with him. Even privileged. I knew my talented classmates felt the same. But to be called his best student in a long time?
I scanned the room for glimpses of the others’ work and realized my fellow students had already put away their easels and were leaving the studio.
Quickly checking the wall clock, I felt my stomach tighten. “Oh, God, I’ll be late. And Kayla has a dental appointment.” Forgetting about my schedule and kids was unlike me. Had I encouraged the professor’s compliments? Our lingering after class?
Pushing those thoughts aside, I quickly became a focused mom again. I carried Kayla’s portrait to my private studio space, threw my smock on a chair, and shouted a goodbye to the professor while running toward the staircase. Down, down, down, until I exited the building to the parking lot, digging for my car keys at the same time. Finally, I thrust myself into the driver’s seat and revved the engine. Back to reality. Back to Jack, the kids, my domestic life, and my working life. Tomorrow was soon enough to face Colombo and his compliments. A handsome Colombo with his dark mane of hair touched by wings of silver. I wondered how many art students, both in Italy and America, had produced his portrait while studying with him. My fingers reached for a phantom pencil.
#
I followed the restrained campus speed limit but hit the gas as soon as I reached the interstate. Twenty-four miles stood between the University of Houston and home. I gave myself fifteen minutes. The miles disappeared until sirens blared and lights flashed in my rearview mirror. Damn, damn, damn. I slowed down, pulled over, and prepared to smile my widest. Jack always said my smile was my secret weapon. I didn’t necessarily agree but was prepared to give it a try if it meant getting Kayla to her appointment on time.
I rolled down my window and beamed.
“License and registration, ma’am.” No twinkle, no smile, no sense of humor. Pure cop face.
I handed over the documents and used my cell as I waited for Houston’s Finest to check out my identity. I had to leave a message at the house but wasn’t really surprised. If Ian had to watch his sister, he’d be sure they shot hoops in the driveway or kicked a soccer ball on the lawn. God forbid he’d set a good example by doing homework right away. So irresponsible. I sighed a frustrated sigh. A mother’s sigh.