Authors: Sara Craven
worse than death?'
'I don't understand.'
'Don't you? Carlos understood. While he
was grovelling to me, he apologised for
laying his hands upon my woman.'
She said in a voice like cracked ice, 'But
I am—not your woman.'
'Not yet,' he said softly. 'But you will be,
chica.
Because that is the price I require
for taking you to Diablo to find your
brother.'
There was a long silence. His words
seemed to whirl round and round in her
head, making no sense at all. She said at
last,
'You—you're not serious!'
'I was never more serious in my life,' he
said lazily. 'Why should you doubt it? I
may have called you a child, but you're
woman enough to know that I want you.
You knew that back in Asuncion.'
'I—didn't,' she said lamely, and he threw
back his head and laughed.
'I thought you were an actress,' he
mocked. 'I hope you play your stage
roles with more conviction,
querida.
Imagine, if you wish, that you have just
been offered a new and challenging one
—as my leading lady.'
'Leading no doubt to the shortest run in
the history of the theatre,' she said
stonily. 'Thank you, but I'm not
interested.'
He gave a slight shrug. 'As you wish.
Then we return to Bogota in the
morning.'
'You may go where you like.' Her
breathing was uneven. 'I'm going on to
Diablo—alone if necessary.'
'Oh, you won't be alone for long,
chica
,'
he said drily. 'You may even catch up
with Carlos. I'm sure he would be
willing
to
come
to
some
new
arrangement with you.'
'You bastard!' Her voice quivered.
'Bravo,
Raquel. You delivered that line
with real feeling. But if you mean to
shame me into escorting you to Diablo
without payment, then your luck has run
out,
querida.
I have stated my terms.
Now the choice is yours.'
'You're mad!' She hugged her knees with
her arms, her body as tense as a coiled
wire. 'You must be. After all, you don't
need to do this. You—you're very
attractive.'
He inclined his head ironically.
'Muchas
gracias, senorita.'
'You could probably get any woman you
wanted,' she went on wildly. 'So why do
this? All you'll achieve if you force me
is to make me hate you forever.'
'What force have I used?' That eye-patch
made him look satanic. 'I haven't even
touched you. It is all in your mind, like
this hatred of yours. But when the time
comes, I'll teach you not to hate me, I
promise you.'
'Perhaps hatred is too strong a word.'
She forced her voice to steadiness. 'It's
my indifference you'll have to overcome.
I don't think it will please you, Senor de
Mendoza, to find yourself in bed with a
woman who won't kiss you or respond to
you in any way.'
'Is that a challenge,
querida
?' He gave a
soft laugh. 'If so, I accept it. English ice
against Spanish fire. But will the fire be
quenched, or will it melt the ice, I
wonder?'
'I've already told you the answer to that.'
She drew a deep breath. 'Very well,
senor,
I accept your unspeakable terms.
You will take me to Diablo to find my
brother for— what? One night, two
nights?'
He said with sensual mockery, 'As long
as it takes,
chica.
And don't delude
yourself that my better nature will
triumph, or that I'll permit you to vanish
before your debt is paid. It won't, and I
shall not.'
Rachel looked away, refusing to meet
the intensity of his gaze. The beat of her
heart seemed suddenly slow and
suffocating as all the implications of his
incredible demands came home to her.
She had been wanted by men before; she
wasn't blind to her own attractions. But
there had never been a situation she
wasn't able to handle—except for Leigh,
of course. She sank her teeth into her
bottom
lip,
remembering
that
unattractive little episode, and how
close she had come to making an utter
fool of herself. Was that to be her fate,
she wondered sombrely, to be regarded
by men simply as a sex object? Would
she never meet anyone who would love
her as a person in her own right, rather
than as a body to be desired? In spite of
the hurt Leigh's Ice Maiden story had
caused her, she had sometimes hoped
that one day she would find a man
sufficiently caring and interested in the
girl behind the image to discover the''
truth.
She pulled herself together with a start,
mentally giving herself a little shake.
What strange byways her thoughts
seemed to be taking her down! How
could the consideration of Vitas' cynical
proposition have led on to thoughts of
love? His sole concern was with the
satisfaction of his appetites, she thought
angrily, and she would not have the
slightest compunction in leading him up
the garden path. If he imagined for one
moment that she would keep to this
immoral bargain with him once she was
safely reunited with Mark, then he was
not only an egotist but a fool as well,
and fully deserving of the slap in the
face that was coming his way.
His voice cut across the oddly
disappointing tenor of her thoughts. It's
time we got some sleep. We shall be
making an early start in the morning.'
She gave him a swift startled look. The
mocking intimacy had vanished from his
voice. He sounded cool and practical,
and probably that was how he would be
until they reached their destination, and
she would worry about what happened
next when they arrived there.
'You seem surprised,' he remarked
tauntingly, getting to his feet in one swift
supple movement. He walked round the
fire and stood looking down at her. 'Did
you expect me to demand part of my
payment in advance?'
'No, of course not.' She tore her eyes
away from his dark face with an effort.
He laughed and reaching down gripped
her arms, pulling her up on to her feet.
'You're too trusting,
chiquita
,' he jibed.
'Haven't your experiences tonight taught
you that at least? But you don't have to
worry. That's the only lesson you'll be
called on to learn—for the time being.
When our time comes, you see, I want
your undivided attention, unclouded by
past fears and alarms, and thanks to
friend Carlos I don't think you could give
me that tonight.'
She was rigid under his hands. She said
very quietly, 'Let's get one thing straight,
senor.
I'm—giving you nothing, either
tonight or any night. And now if you'd be
good enough to let go of me, I'd like to
fetch something out of one of the saddle
packs.'
A faint smile twisted the corner of his
mouth. 'What do you need,
querida
? A
gun, perhaps, to defend your honour —or
shoot me with?'
She lifted her eyebrows. 'I may be an
actress,
senor,
but I have little taste for
bad melodrama. No, I need something
far more prosaic—a fresh shirt to
replace the one your— predecessor
tore.' She shrugged the concealing
blanket away from her shoulders and let
it drop to the ground. Some men would
regard that as a provocation, she knew,
but he would not. He would know that
she was simply demonstrating her utter
and total indifference to him, and she
hoped that his masculine pride would be
dented a little if not bruised. Besides, if
she was honest, she knew that he'd seen
more of her when he'd stood over her as
she lay asleep in her room at Asuncion.
That was another humiliation that she
hoped to repay with interest before she
had finished.
She went on with studied insolence, 'Just
tell me when you've seen enough,
senor.'
She allowed her eyes to widen as if
something had just occurred to her. 'Or
perhaps you'd prefer me not to change
this shirt. Perhaps it would suit your
machismo
better to have me ride into
Diablo behind you with my clothes half
torn off?' She lifted her eyes, innocently
questioning, to his face, and saw just for
one satisfied second the reaction she had
hoped for—the flash of cold anger,
instantly controlled, although his fingers
tightened momentarily, bruisingly on the
soft flesh of her arms.
'It's a beguiling thought, I admit,
querida
,' he said almost lightly. 'But I
think you are mistaken in my image.' His
dark gaze matched her own insolence as
it lingered on her, frankly appreciating
the glimpse of her white skin that the
torn shirt afforded. 'Why rip a woman's
clothes, when to remove them slowly—
between kisses—can be so much more
rewarding?' He studied with amused
interest the hot wave of colour suffusing
her face that his words had induced.
'Don't you agree?'
'I wouldn't know,' Rachel snapped,
wrenching herself free and walking
towards the tent where Carlos had
deposited her personal belongings—a
lifetime ago, it seemed.
She was furious to find her hands were
shaking as she searched through the
pack, choosing a spare shirt at random
and shaking it to rid it of the inevitable
creases.
She closed the flap on the tent and
changed swiftly in the darkness, rolling
her discarded garments into a tight ball.
It was the first time she had ever put
clothes on to go to bed in, she thought,
but this entire trip was beginning to
contain altogether too many first times
for her liking.
In the morning she would, throw her torn
clothes away or burn them, but there was
no way in which she was going to leave
the frail security of the tent again that
night, although she believed Vitas de
Mendoza when he told her that she had
nothing to worry about that night at least.
But even that had not been prompted by
any sense of consideration for her, she
reminded herself indignantly. He was
merely concerned that her experience
with Carlos might have proved too much
of a turn-off for her to give him the
satisfaction he expected.
Oh God, she thought, clenching her
hands into fists, I'm going to make him so
sorry! At least I know he's not
invulnerable. That crack about his
machismo
really got to him.
Smiling to herself, she wriggled with
care into the sleeping bag of blankets.
Oh, she would lead him along nicely.
She might even let him think she was
resigned to the inevitable, but at the
same time, whenever she got the
opportunity she would plant little barbs
—barbs he would remember when she
finally gave him the slip under Mark's
protection.
Still smiling, she closed her eyes
determinedly, trying to shut out a small
persistent inner voice that wanted to
inconveniently remind her that the last
time she had made Vitas de Mendoza
really angry, the only vulnerability
exposed had been her own, and with
well-nigh disastrous consequences.
She shifted uneasily in the darkness.
That was something she did not want to
think about. Nor did she want to ask
herself the disturbing question if her
motives for provoking his anger once
again were quite as simple as she
wanted to believe.
It was the smell of cooking that woke her
—a
delicious,
beguiling
smell
intermingled with woodsmoke that had
her sitting up, her nose twitching in