Authors: Phyllis Gotlieb
:This is free enough for me. Did you have sexual relations with him, Skerow?:
:Never. He did not like me.:
:Really? I am not surprised. He never cared for me or the children either. He was impotent except for the first few times that were necessary to get that brood of seventeen
â
his Lineage. After that he stopped being a man. I have been burning for forty-seven years.:
She paused, then:
:You have not much to say to that, I suppose.:
Skerow was trembling.
:Forgive me, Thasse. I envied you.:
“Eeyik!” sang Fasethi, sounding very much like Eskat.
. . .
yes then
lover clung in despair to lover
as the minds above them clouded
darkly in bitter vengeance, dark
as the spears whose black moon-shadows poised
above them in the silence, the red silence
those adversaries
sworn enemies of centuries, of millennia
shot the lightning of their spears, and of their mind
bolts
on the innocence of lovers, caught
in the greenblack waterweeds
in that one immortal River
.
Skerow joined halfheartedly in the applause for this poem, which she considered rather silly stuff; small prizes had been offered for some of the best recitals, and she was sure this version of the Epic would win one in this Equatorial land. In spite of these feelings Skerow had always admired the River poets for their enthusiasm and vitality, and indeed the Epics were vastly popular everywhereâmainly,
she thought, because their double-diastolic rhythms echoed so closely the beating of Khagodi hearts.
Tonight Thasse had spoiled her pleasure. When she advanced into the center of the circle to recite her poems she felt so alien, so seized by homeward longing, that she forgot her text and dropped the daybook with her notes in it, and Eskat jumped off her shoulder and onto someone else's head. Desperate and beside herself, she cried out:
“O
this desert
I drown in moonlight!”
She stopped in horror, voice drowned in her own passion, as the audience directed its attention to her in a still moment broken only by the chattering river and the whisper of the fragrant wind. These calmed her, the indigo dusk hid her trembling, and she continued voicelessly with the cycle she had vowed to show no one:
where
ice ages
folded the seas under
and
wave-crests are
combs of ancient salt
. . .
and, whispering:
I
drown and burn
there in its white light
shocking herself once again, for these words had come out without her conscious intentâand realizing with a satisfaction that came from another part of her mind entirely, that she had both combined two dissonant elements, and played them off against each other, to express the fullness of her spirit.
There was a moment of intensity in which this feeling swept out through and back from her circle of fellow poets, a double beat; then she found her notes and continued with her recital as planned.
When awards were given out, Fasethi was, as expected, winner of the first prize; afterward, the participants snacked on roasted
lekk
pods and sweetcomb nectar in tiny alabaster cups, and engaged in a lively discussion about the next day's main topic:
The Etiology of Fourteenth Era Riparian Metaphor Derived in Terms of Post-Fluvial Ideation
. With her mind too full of her poems, and Thasse as well, to concentrate on this, Skerow let herself be drawn into a less serious conversation going on near her, yet still rather hovered around it than entered into it.
. . .
saying good-bye to Thasse? gone home already? no, not home surely, she came from, lives in, moved to, away from, the Isthmuses, to the Deltas, only yesterday, last thirtyday, half a year ago, after that awful thing happened, the Deltas is where she lives, but here she's staying with, very well fixed for herself, playing the great lady with, Fasethi, him? that silly fellow, that minor talent, that never deserved the prize, you voted for, no! certainly not I, no one thinks much of his
talent with women?
and after she wears him out, next two off-moons with, with one of the wealthy Nohl families
,
indeed?
then who voted for Fasethi in the first place?
Skerow had turned very still and cold. Eskat squeaked and crept down under her arm.
When I get hold of that Nohl there is not one scrap left that the dung-fish chew on
.
She would never understand what made her mind work so quickly then. “Nohl families? . . . I understood that they lived in the Isthmus provinces near the gold fields. I've never heard the name anywhere else.” Not quite a lie.
The gossiper was flustered. “Surely you're joking, Skerow! No one speaks very much of the Isthmus branch of the family . . . they are as good as banished to that estate in the gold fields.”
Perceptions still colored by Thord's betrayal and death, Skerow could not tell whether the conversation had become actively malicious or only that it seemed that way to her.
:POETS AND SINGERS!:
said a very loud mindvoice.
:IS EVERYTHING OVER WHEN I HAVE ONLY JUST ARRIVED?:
The group retreated, a last wisp of thought drifted and eddied away:
: . . . eh, yes, there were rumors they'd sold it, with its Titles of Ancestry and everything, to a consortium!:
Everyone cried aloud, “Threyha! How good to see you!”
Threyha was a newly retired Sector Coordinator who had been based on Fthel IV and V, and was living now on the other side of the world in a West Ocean country.
“Why are you so late, Threyha?”
“I was held up at Port Manganese, where the shuttle could not lift me!”
There was laughter, but Threyha was not joking. She was three meters tall and weighed six hundred kilos: her voice was a well-controlled baritone with a lot of resonance, but it occasionally veered off into the falsetto when she was out of wind. After a few more pleasantries, she turned the beam of her attention. “Hello Skerow, my girl!”
Skerow had not seen her old friend and former colleague
in the flesh for twenty years, but Threyha was strong and hearty. Her topaz eyes still burned in the ancient face that glistened with
kerm
oil. “Not quite a girl, Threyha.” She was delighted to have a friend with her.
“Less than half my age, that's a girl to me! Dear child, you left no forwarding address. I had to trace you.”
“I needed a few days to myself.” Skerow looked away. “I suppose you have heard a deal of gossip.”
“I learned the news about Thordh. I know that he was not your friend, butâworking so closelyâyou must have been affected.”
“Yes . . .” She longed to tell Threyha everything:
I was nearly murdered, I nearly killed another person, I learned horrible things!
But all of that belonged to a case yet to go through the courts. Yet . . . she had sworn to help Kobai, a woman she had known for hardly one tick of a stad. “Do you know of the Nohl family who have the estate in the Isthmus gold fields?”
“A branch of the Deltas family, you mean?”
“I was told so. I'd never in my life heard of the name before.”
“Yes, the gossip. The name's common enough in that district. The Isthmus Nohl is one who married an infertile woman for her wealth: he had none of his own. They sold the estate to the Brokerage Consortium, though they still live on it.”
Skerow said, half to herself, “There was someone who needed help when I could not give it, whom I promised . . .”
Threyha watched her shrewdly. “Nohl's disgrace made a huge scandal at the time, and though it was hushed up it is common knowledge in some parts. Not here. You know how often we tell ourselves it is so rare for Khagodi to do such things.”
Skerow bowed her head. She had been just so naive.
“And of course we cannot discuss it as a caseâbut you are not the sitting judge! All this information is available in records and archives: Nohl was accusedâbut not convictedâof dealings, like giving shelter and laundering money, with major crime figures of several worlds. These people were slave traders, and were murdered before they could come to trial; there was no trial. Nohl faced a lesser charge, but was let off. It happened thirty years ago, and many people who do not live as long as we have forgotten about it.”
Skerow felt the same icy stillness that the name
Nohl
had given her earlier. She said to herself,
And I said that she was a gold picker from the Isthmuses. I forgot that machines pick gold for honest dealers, but slaves may pick gold for
. . . And to Threyha, “You did say slavery?”
“I did.”
“And have you known about this all along?”
“Only vaguely, that Nohl had been in some trouble. I was working far away from home then, and of course I know everything in the Galaxy except what goes on here in this world. The old memories stirred when I heard of Thordh's death, and I knew he was your workmate, so I looked up the records.”
“And Nohl got off.”
“Yes. After that fracas he decided he had no head for business. Wisely, I think.” Threyha drew down her upper lip in the reptilian smile that had her sweetness of character in it. “You can find the details in any good data base, including the name of the presiding judge.”
Good neighbors, Nohl and Thordh
. “I don't think that name will surprise me,” said Skerow.
The conversations had dissolved around them. The tropic sky was very clear now, very black, and the stars rushed
blazing forward out of the flare of the Galaxy. The group fell silent: even with their dim eyes they felt the starlight crashing down on them.
I cannot see them distinctly
, Skerow was thinking,
but Fthel and the Twelveworlds are in that group of stars southeast just above the horizon, and just beyond the horizon east of them are the Lesser Archipelagoes and the Isthmuses. Thordh and Nohl, neighbors of a sort. And fellow aristocrats in the shadows. I could not help Kobai, and I was too befogged in myself to see that Thordh was corrupt. No, I am being too harsh on myself. I can think of something to do. Now
,
sleep
is waiting under
swooning stars
â
tik! that is bad poetry, but even though slaves exist, and on this world, I am alive, I have a good friend with me, and this is a magnificent night in a beautiful land
.
FOURÂ Â
Shen IV:
In Zamos's Palace of Knossos
Zella raked Sweet down the side of the jaw with the chebok and when he raised his buckler ducked underneath and got him in the belly. She laughed as he backed one foot out of the practice-circle. “You're rashers!”
If the chebok had been a proper one with spikes of steel instead of polythene, he would have been well sliced. He mumbled, “I wasn't really trying,” and grinned. His teeth were pearly, ceramyx mother-of-pearl, and one of the front incisors had a diamond set in it. He simply could not see Zella as deadly.
She was a white-blonde with very pale eyes and corn-silk hair tightly braided and wound in spirals on the back of her head; the hair shaded into a darker ash in the depth of the plaits. She had coral lips and milk-white skin: there were pink exertion spots on her cheeks.
The half score of hungover spectators in the small arena applauded halfheartedly as they rose and began to file out; there was no blood at Zella's practice sessions.
Sweet made a complicated performer's bow, and Zella repeated it in parody, then she laughed again, shadow-boxing, zipping around him like a hummingbird, one circle of hopping and grinning before she pulled the weapon off her fist and flung it in the tackle box. Just as it landed a spyhawk whipped out of a pneumatic tube in the wall and fluttered round her head. “
Awk!
Sztoyko,” it cawed. “Front Office asap!”
She flapped it away with her arms, always afraid one of them would land on her head. “What could they want? I've never been called down before.”
“Gonna give you a fucking promotion.”
She made a face. âYeah, sure. I've been here one whole half of a year. Got to run.” And shrugged a shoulder in annoyance, because asap meant sooner than possible here; no time to change out of the grubby sweats.
Sunlight was lying along the grey scrubbed gym floors in brilliant planes; the huge waterfall windows were deeply tinted, but still the light was intense under the white sun Shen that so passionately kissed its fourth world. As Zella rode the walkway she could see to the left the port of the Palace of Knossos, stretches of whiteness curving around the purple blue aquamarine of the sea; to the right hundreds of cubicles stretched out on the level below the railing snaking under her hand. Some were open practice rings or small arenas where spectators were free to watch and usually made small bets. Others were capped with plasmix bubbles, and under them dark figures armored in bone or metal fought through swirling clouds of their own strange atmospheres, or swam like whips with knives in their world's waters.