Flight Into Darkness (3 page)

“But you were just a boy when we last…” How long had he been sick?

“I'm nearly eighteen,” Oranir said stiffly, with the slightest hint of offended pride. “Old enough to become an Emissary.”

The age I was when I first met Imri.
Only then did the realization strike him—that he was almost double Oranir's age and had spent most the young mage's lifetime traveling alone, forced to act as the Arkhan's Emissary, to protect dead Imri's immortal soul.

“Let me see my face.” His fingertips tentatively moved upward over his right cheekbone. Oranir hesitated.
“Show me.”
The skin felt puckered and tender; even touching it made Rieuk squeamish. He had to see for himself. He had to know the worst. Teeth gritted with the effort of pushing himself up from the pillows, he took the little round mirror Oranir gave him and forced himself to look at his reflection.

They had skillfully sewn the eyelids together to cover the void behind, leaving a jagged scar where his eye had been. The burned skin was still an angry shade of red.

“Magister Aqil says that the scarring will slowly fade, but never disappear.” Oranir spoke without expression.

“My eye…” The words came out on a whispered sob; Rieuk had known that his sight was impaired, but not until that moment just how serious the wound had been.

“Magister Aqil tried to save it. But it had become infected and the infection was poisoning your body. If he hadn't operated, you would have died.”

Rieuk said nothing. The knowledge that he was disfigured and half-blind was difficult enough to assimilate, but there was another deeper concern.

If one eye is gone, then have half my mage powers gone too?

“Ormas?” Rieuk called to his shadow hawk. Ormas had fallen into a deep trance after Azilis's attack and Rieuk had begun to fear that he would never recover.

“Master… ?
” For the first time in many weeks he heard a faint answer to his call. His heart swelled with fresh hope.

“How is it with you, Ormas?” His voice shook. Ormas had been his only companion in his long years of wandering, and the last weeks of silence had proved almost too great a burden to endure.

“
I'm sorry, Master. I failed you.
”

Rieuk placed one hand over his breast where Ormas's image was tattooed, seeking for the beating of the hawk's heart. “Let there be no talk of failure.” There it was, a thrumming, weak but steady—a confirmation of Ormas's presence.
“She
was too strong for us.”

He felt a sudden convulsive shiver within his body and Ormas emerged, fluttering down to perch on his outstretched arm. The smoke hawk lowered his head, swiveling it to one side to regard him with one bright amber eye. But Rieuk saw with shame that Ormas's other eye was burned away. His beautiful Emissary was maimed and half-blind too.

Rieuk woke in the night to the sound of music—the same sweet, plaintive air he had heard before in his fevered dreams, plucked from the darkly deep, resonant strings of an aludh. He sat up. The dry, sweet scent of the desert night perfumed the air. His turret room was silvered with fragile moonlight; out on the balcony he could see a man seated, his back against the parapet wall, his head tilted to one side as he leaned over the instrument, placing each note with infinite care.

Rieuk swung his legs over the side of the bed and attempted a few shaky steps toward him. The player stopped and looked around. It was Oranir.

“Don't stop.”

“I'm not very good.” Was there a hint of a blush in Oranir's words?

“It sounded fine to my ears.” Rieuk reached the balcony and eased himself down to sit beside Oranir. “I've heard you playing that song before, haven't I?”

“I didn't mean to disturb you.”

“So it was you.” Rieuk was touched. “You were watching over me while I was ill.”

Oranir laid the aludh down. “I—I've been watching over you for a long time.” He turned suddenly to Rieuk. “Make me your apprentice. Please, Magister.” His voice was low and urgent. “I'll do anything you want. Anything. I'll—”

“Stop. You don't want to get involved with me.” Rieuk pushed Oranir away, holding him at arm's length. “I'm an assassin. I've blood on my hands.”

“Do you think I'm not aware of that?” Oranir's eyes burned into his. “I'm not a child. Why don't you let me make up my own mind? Or do you think I'm not worthy?”

“I'm bad luck, Oranir.” Rieuk forced a laugh. “I seem to bring misfortune on all those I care about. Why do you think I've worked alone for all these years?”

“It's him, isn't it? You're still in thrall to your dead master, Imri Boldiszar. He must have been a remarkable man for you still to be in love with him after so many years.”

“Imri?” Rieuk's hands dropped to his sides. He tried to speak and found that the words were choked in his throat.

“I heard you calling his name when you were feverish.”

“I was dreaming about him, that was all… Wait!” But Oranir got to his feet and pushed past him, hurrying away before Rieuk could stop him.

I've been watching over you for a long time.
Had there been an unspoken confession in Oranir's words? There was no denying the fact that Rieuk felt attracted to the young magus. If he had not checked Oranir then, there was no telling where things might have led.

Rieuk drew in a shuddering breath.
So many years.
Of course it seemed an eternity to Oranir; Imri had died before he was born. Rieuk gazed up at the blue brilliance of the stars overhead.

“I have to move on. And I can't move on unless I know that you're at peace, Imri,” he said softly to the night.
I've been alone too long.

“I've altered the lenses in your spectacles to improve the acuity of your remaining eye.” Aqil leaned forward to adjust the fit and Rieuk tried his best not to shy away. He still could not bear anyone's touching his face. His instincts had become so sensitive since he was injured that even the slightest movement close by made him flinch.

“Is there nothing else you can do?” He had lain awake night after night, unable to sleep for the constant pain, obsessed with one thought:
Surely the Magi of Ondhessar will be able to heal me.
Yet not until now had he dared to ask the question. Perhaps he didn't want to know the answer. Perhaps he didn't want the dream that had first brought him to Ondhessar at seventeen to be shattered.

“We did what we could. But by the time you reached us, it was too late,” Aqil said bluntly. “The infection was so advanced that it was all I could do to save your life.”

Rieuk gazed at his reflection. It was a face to frighten children. The spectacles did nothing to hide the scar. If anything they made it look more grotesque.

“What's the point?” he said aloud, tearing them off and hurling them to the floor. “Wearing a blank lens on the right side, when everyone can see that I'm disfigured?” He sat down on the bed and covered his face in his hands. He was shaking with rage. Why had he been so confident that Aqil could restore his sight?

He heard someone enter the room and raised his head to see Oranir picking up his discarded spectacles. He turned his face away, not wanting Oranir to know how volatile his feelings were. Oranir came closer, holding out the spectacles.

Rieuk pushed his hand away. “It won't make any difference. I'm disfigured. Damaged goods.”

“Do you think you're the only one who's damaged?” Oranir's voice burned, low and furious. “What gives you the right to tell
me
how it feels?” He tore open his loose shirt, baring his lean upper body. Beneath the dark, delicate-feathered tattoo of his Emissary, Zophas, Rieuk saw the seams of old scars marring the smooth sheen of his olive skin.

“Turn around,” Rieuk ordered.

Mutely, Oranir obeyed. More scars, like serrated stripes, were flayed into his back.

“Who did this to you?” The words caught at the back of Rieuk's throat.

Still Oranir said nothing. But his defiant stance, the stiffness of his shoulders, the shoulder blades, told Rieuk more than any explanation.

Before Rieuk was fully aware of what he was doing, he had reached out and drifted his fingertips down Oranir's back, parting the long locks of glossy black hair to trace the seamed skin. He half expected Oranir to flinch at his touch, to strike his hand away. But Oranir just stood there unmoving.

“The mage blood is a hard burden to be born with.” Rieuk was still angry, but no longer just at his own disfigurement. He could not bear to think that Oranir had suffered so much pain and rejection when he was a child. Yet as his fingertips grazed Oranir's skin, he felt a slow, dark heat begin to burn within him.

What was he doing? His hand had come to a halt over the small of Oranir's back. What was this feeling? It was as fierce and intense as anger, and it had come to him as swiftly. But it was not anger. It was desire. And, unlike anger, he was not so sure that he could control it. Or even that he wanted to.

“Rieuk.” Oranir turned to gaze at him, his face so much closer, a look at once vulnerable yet provocative smoldering in his eyes. So close that if Rieuk exerted the slightest pressure through the hand that rested on Oranir's back, their bodies would touch and their mouths would meet. Even as an ache of longing swept through him, Rieuk let his hand drop away and took a step back. This was all happening too quickly. His body had reacted before his mind had had time to assess the risks involved.

“Rieuk,” said Oranir again, his voice low, urgent.
“Rieuk…
” It was as if he were conjuring a spell of binding, saying his name hypnotically again and again, and Rieuk could feel his willpower weakening.

“No,” he heard himself saying. Another step back.
I can't do this to him. Or to myself. I can't afford to get involved with anyone again. Especially someone as vulnerable as Oranir…
He could see the look of blank incomprehension in Oranir's eyes. “I—I'm sorry, Oranir. Forgive me.” And he turned and fled.

CHAPTER 2

“So you're up and about at last, Rieuk.” Lord Estael nodded to him absently. He seemed preoccupied, scarcely glancing up from the ancient document he was studying. “You're stronger than you look; we feared at first that you might be past saving.”

“But my right eye is gone. I'm half-blind.” Rieuk leaned on Estael's desk. “Tell me the truth, my lord. Does this mean that I've lost half my powers as well?”

“The eyes are merely the outward manifestation of a magus's gifts.” Estael gazed calmly back at him. “I have no way of telling if your innate powers have been affected as well. It seems, though, that you're well enough to resume your duties as the Arkhan's Emissary.”

Rieuk drew back. That was not what he wanted to hear at all. “What use am I to the Arkhan in this condition?” The thought of having to carry out any more of Sardion's missions sickened him.

“He still has Imri's soul glass,” said Estael bluntly. “How much do you care about saving Imri's immortal soul?”

Rieuk brought his fist crashing down on Estael's desk. “How can you let that madman take control of such a precious thing? Your own apprentice's soul? Don't you care about anything anymore, Lord Estael?”

Estael shrugged. “He is the Arkhan.”

“Perhaps he's been Arkhan too long,” said Rieuk darkly.

“Treasonable words, Rieuk.” Estael's head was bent over the manuscript again. “It's lucky for you that only I heard them.”

“I'd hoped for more from you, my lord.” Rieuk could see that
Estael was not prepared to give him even the slightest support. As he left Estael's study, he knew that he would have to act alone. “I'm coming to pay you a visit, Lord Arkhan,” he said under his breath. “But not quite in the way that you're expecting.”

Rieuk, his face half-concealed by his burnous, settled himself in the shade of a tamarind tree outside the palace walls. Ormas perched on his forearm. In the merciless brightness of the late-afternoon sun, the smoke hawk's form was so faint as to be almost invisible, as though sketched on the burning air.

“Ormas, be careful,” Rieuk murmured. “You'll have to penetrate the most secret places of the palace, where only the Arkhan himself goes. There may be traps or wards. The only thing that's certain is that Imri's soul glass is locked away somewhere obscure, where he thinks I'll never be able to find it.”

“I'll do my best, Master.
”

It was perilous to be employing the very methods he'd used to carry out Sardion's missions on his royal master. But as he leaned back against the tree trunk, concentrating on seeing through Ormas's one good eye, he didn't care any longer. Deep within his heart he knew that he was doing something that he should have dared a long time ago.

Ormas fluttered from one palace window to the next. Ornate grilles and thick gauzes protected the rooms inside from the worst of the day's heat but were difficult to see through. Through Ormas, Rieuk caught glimpses of the daily life of Sardion's servants: thickset guards slowly patrolling the corridors; secretaries toiling with ink and paper; veiled women carrying trays of food.

“Go farther in,” Rieuk ordered. Ormas skimmed over the inner courtyards, where the Arkhys sat in a shady summerhouse, drinking mint tea with her ladies-in-waiting, and darted into the inner palace. As Ormas flitted onward from room to room, Rieuk recognized the Arkhan's private apartments from the gilded decorations on the walls: a motif of lotus flowers and palm leaves. Soon Rieuk saw the Arkhan conferring with his ministers. As Ormas silently passed overhead, Sardion glanced upward as though he had sensed the hawk's presence, but Ormas continued onward. Rieuk saw the Arkhan's bedchamber—an austerely furnished room, dominated by a portrait of his dead son, Prince Alarion. Then Ormas penetrated the Arkhan's
library, going from shelf to shelf of exquisite leather-bound volumes, all tooled in silver and gold.