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Authors: Marthe Jocelyn

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were bare, some were wrapped in newspapers or rags; some wore shoes of a sort, but none with laces and none with hose. James was tempted to peel off his own stockings and toss them down, just to see if the urchins would know what to use them for.

The two in front were playacting: the littlest boy began crying at a nod from his partner. He belched out such a boohooing that he drowned out "Savory pies!"

The old man leaned over to him, maybe tender or maybe just to shut his noise, but those other scamps scooted in from behind and snatched pies right out of the basket! Pie Peter hollered and swung his cap as if it were a stick that could strike the villains down.

James laughed so hard he nearly slipped off the branch. He climbed down, still hearing the small boy's shout, "We was hungry 'n' you gots pies!"

James lay in his bed that night, surrounded by the familiar night sounds: Walter wheezing, Frederick snoring in squeaky huffs, Adam Bernard whimpering as always, as if he were dreaming about greedy rats crawling over his mattress, Michael Angelo grinding his teeth like he'd got the hardest of boiled sweets between his molars.

James propped himself up on an elbow, looking around in the dark until it didn't seem quite so black.

"Hey!" he whispered at Frederick's cot. "You awake?"

"Shht!" shushed someone, but it was a boy hiss, not a matron hiss.

Frederick rolled over. "What?" he grumbled.

"I've got an idea," said James.

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"Save it for morning."

"It's about food," said James. "Aren't you hungry?"

James could feel Frederick sitting up. He glanced toward the west end of the dormitory, thirty cots away, where the matron had a tiny room. There was no light.

"She's on rounds," whispered James. "Old Aldercott."

"Full-of-Snot," mumbled Frederick.

"Come on." James slid off the bed. His nerve was up; he had to stop himself from running across the floor. Frederick would surely follow. He tiptoed away from Matron's closet to the east stairwell. A scuffling behind him, a grunt and curse. Not just Frederick but Walter, too, Frederick trying to stop him. James snapped his fingers, then swiped one finger across his throat. At the top of the stairs, James pressed them both against the wall.

"There's no messing things up," he whispered. "Quit yapping or go back to bed."

Nods from both plus a salute from Walter.

The kitchens were locked. Of course they would be, in the middle of the night.

"All this way for nothing," Frederick complained. "You think you're so clever."

James would prove how clever.

"We aren't here for the kitchen," he said. "That's next time. Follow me."

The masters had a separate dining room, not so fancy as the one where the governors gathered, and not so plain as the boys' refectory. There must be something in there worth having? James crept along next to the wall,

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Frederick and Walter bumbling behind him. His team needed training if they were to match the Pie Peter raiders.

Ahh
, the door handle clicked neatly open and his chilled feet stepped onto a carpet.

"Cor," said Frederick.

"Shhh."

Moonlight shone faintly through the window, striping the table in the middle of the room and illuminating a silver tray on a lace cloth. There sat a sugar bowl, a pitcher for cream, and--oh glory!--a jam pot with a spoon poking up through the hole in its lid.

James reached across the table to pull the cloth toward them. Frederick lunged for the sugar bowl, but James smacked his arm away.

"Ow!"

"We're not pirates," said James. "We'll take turns."

"Who says?"

"I say." James had a hand on each precious vessel, one covering the sugar, the other holding the jam pot. "You obey the rules, Frederick, or you won't come next time."

"Who says?"

"I say." James handed the bowl to Walter, who pinched up sugar between thumb and fingers and drizzled it onto his tongue with a sigh of rapture. James flipped off the jam pot lid to find marmalade! He scooped a spoonful into his mouth.
Ah!
The slightly bitter burst of orange seemed as bright as sunshine for the moment that it lasted. Walter passed the sugar bowl to Frederick. James handed the

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jam pot and spoon to Walter. On the next trade, James could hardly taste the sprinkle of sugar over the lively bitter sweetness of the marmalade. Frederick must have found the same thing because at his turn he tipped the bowl and poured a stream of sugar into his open mouth.

"Hey!" cried Walter.

"Pig!" cursed James, joggling Frederick's arm. Sugar sprayed across the table and floor, but Frederick wouldn't let go of the bowl.

"What did you go and do that for?" Frederick glared at them. "You spilled it, stupid!"

Walter was already pressing moist palms against the snowfall on the tabletop, licking them off and pressing again, picking up every last speck.

"You forfeit marmalade," said James. "For being a pig with the sugar."

"Nasty stuff, anyway." Frederick retreated to a corner and quietly finished off the whole bowl of sugar by himself. James and Walter passed the spoon back and forth until the jam pot was empty.

Sneaking back up, Walter murmured, "This was the best night of my life, ever."

"Since we came here," said James.

He spent all of prayers next morning thinking about how that marmalade had tasted on his tongue, from the first lick to the very last sliver of orange nibbled off his lips. It was hard to think of Jesus Christ under such circumstances, He who likely never had jam in all His life.

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MARY 1877 Telling About Christmas

I woke up blinking dizzy, with some quick and wily rodent darting about my belly. It brought my innards rushing to my mouth as I sat up.
Ohh
, I didn't like that, not one bit. No time to pull on shoes, my bare feet stumbled me down four flights, lickety-split, across the yard to the servants' privy.

Eliza were waiting when I came back up, eyeing me like a market fish she weren't likely to put in her basket.

"What got you moving so fast this morning?"

"Not well," I mumbled, sloshing water from the jug over my wrists. But then, with the knot of doom tightening itself around my throat, I produced a sunny smile.

"All better now!"

And weren't I then as strong and fast as two? The way I collected the boots for polishing, and hustled room to

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room, sweeping the grates, carting down the ashes, lighting the fires ... like I were ablaze myself.

I wasted no time a-trying to trick myself. I knew full well that I were knapped and having a baby. My life were over at the same instant it had just begun. Every bit of me trembled; in love, in a panic to keep it hid, and sure too that I would die the way Mam had, birthing Nan. And what would I do, anyway, without Mam? That was what set me to whimpering, pretending it were a cinder in my eye, not all the other terrible true things that occurred to me in those few minutes, but only not having me mam to tell--or not tell, however I might choose.

I scuttled to the cellar with the ash bucket to finish choking and sniffling. Lordy, I were sick of crying. I sat there still as stone for a bit, the cold air clearing the heat and damp from my face, soothing me even.

Finally I thought of Caden and got a blow of hope through me, like when you think there's only gray ash in the grate, but with a few strong puffs you've got sparks like scarlet dust and then, wouldn't you know it? Day after day, the fire lights up after all, from one tiny, fiery ember straight to having enough water hot for Lady's bath, and the tea, and the washing up, and oh, if it's Monday, the laundry.

So I kept Caden's cheeky smile right there in my mind, to get me back up the stairs and doing what had to be done to pass the hours--how many would it be?--days, maybe ... until I'd touch that smile with my own chapped fingers.

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OLIVER 1888 Kings

The boy could rattle off the kings and queens of England right from the beginning, from Egbert in 828 AD, long before William the Conqueror, right up to Queen Victoria, including the dates of all their reigns. He was keen, all right. Oliver liked to think of tasks for him. Little mental challenges. It wasn't right to favor him, Oliver knew that, but what was a teacher to do with a bright boy? He was naturally inclined to lists, so let him proceed....

"Mr. Chester, I've learned what you suggested. Shall I tell you the kings whose names began with the letter
E
?"

"If you can recite while you clean the slates, boy, I'll listen."

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James cheerfully dipped a cloth into the bucket of murky water and began. "Egbert, Ethelwulf, Ethelbald, Ethelbert, Ethelred. All those Ethels were Ethelwulf's sons, and so was Alfred, who came next, but he's not an
E
. Then Edward the Elder, Ethelstan, Edmund the Magnificent, Eadred, Eadwig the All-Fair--"

"Watch it, Nelligan, you're splashing the floor. How many are there, anyway?"

"Edgar the Peaceable, Edward the Martyr ... I think there are twenty, sir, but does Elizabeth count? She'd make it twenty-one."

"And why wouldn't she count?"

"She's not a king, sir, is she?"

"Then you'll have to rename your category if you want to include her."

"All right then,
monarchs
whose names--"

"Hey, I asked for clean slates, not lakes, boy!"

"I'll mop the floor after, sir. Sir?"

"Yes, Nelligan."

"We both have brown hair, don't we? And we both think gruel is foul."

"Indeed we do."

"We both like knowing things about kings."

"You've got quite a list!"

"And football! We both love football!"

"Better than anything."

"Don't you think that's a lot of things the same?" James wrung out the cloth and spread it neatly on the edge of

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the bucket before looking straight into Oliver's eyes. "What if you're my father?"

Oliver caught his breath. "Oh, my dear boy ... I'm afraid that's not possible ... I ... I'm nobody's father." It pinched him to say it. "And nobody's son."

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MARY 1878 Telling About Telling

Telling Caden one simple sentence were an act of fierce bravery, and took some working up to.
No rush
, I'd say to myself ...
I've got time before there'll be anything to notice. Aside from feeling wobbly in the mornings, and I can do better at hiding that
. But on smarter days, time ticked like a grandfather clock between my ears, the pendulum banging away like a drum.

The worst were seeing him, my mouth and body with all the same yearnings, but thinking,
Lordy, no!
and then thinking,
Well, the horse is long gone from this barn so why not?
But then thinking it were not fair to go on without him knowing the truth, and should I not tell him? Such worry, of course, about whatever he'd say, imagining every scene; him being sick into the gutter, him giving me

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a slap, him bestowing a twist of peppermints with a promise inside ...

The day came when I swore to myself not to dally any further.
Spit it out, girl, and take whatever comes
. Hard to remember, with all that passed later, that I were clutching the irregular notion there were some romance in it.

"I've something to tell you," I said, without even a hello. He patted the bench and I shivered a little, sitting down next to him, waiting for the familiar feel of his arm slid around my shoulders, and him tucking the top of my head under his chin.

"Face as grave as a tombstone," he laughed, doing just what I'd imagined, grinding his chin into my scalp, making me squirm.

"Stop!" I said, but laughing too, letting another minute slip by, letting him kiss me, letting my heart skip one more time ...
Is this the last kiss before he knows? Is
this
? Will he shout, curse me, cry, run? Will he grin like a daddy?

"Well, what is it, then?" he said. "What's your urgent matter?"

Not knowing what I'd see in those blue blinkers at the end of my next sentence, I looked away.

"I'm ... I ... I'll be having a baby."

His arm twitched as he sat up straight. He were deadly quiet.

I said, "You're not going to faint, are you?"

He stood, and sat, and stood again.

"Mary." He knelt in front of me, his hands taking mine. "I'm ... I don't know what to say. You ... Oh Lord ... a

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