Read For My Lady's Heart Online
Authors: Laura Kinsale
He smiled. Forgive me. Im an impudent fellowbut how shall I not be
anxious to have you to myself? The door hasp clanked shut like the bolt on
a prison. For a long moment he sat with his wine cup in his hands, gazing at
her. My life has been a joyless desert without you.
Come, Gianwere alone. You neednt exert yourself to love-talk now.
He rubbed his thumb over the rim, looking down at it. Its no exertion,
he said softly.
She realized that he wished to play at love-amour. She thought of his
perfumed kiss, and a terrible loathing of the course she must take came over
her. He was no Ligurio, to leave her in peace in her bedchamber, but the man
who had made sure by murder that she took no lovers. He had waited for
herwithout a legitimate heir, for his own enigmatic reasons, for a logic
she had never plumbed, nor ever would.
It would be exertion for me, she said. I am too weary now to trade
compliments.
His eyes lifted. He smiled and drank. Then Ill waste none upon you,
without my fair share in return. Tell me of your dread adventure, if you
cannot praise my manly beauty.
Nay, I should not like to disappoint you, if it is compliments you
desire, she said. Shall I say that your own son could not flatter that
elegant garment better?
He did not move, but the pleasure seemed to flow through him, from a
slight twitch of his spiked slipper to a deeper expansion of his chest when
he inhaled. Do not say it, my dear lady, if it would tire you too much.
I am weary in truth, Gian. She nibbled idly at a cake. I really dont
wish to hold a long conversation.
He rose abruptly, walking to the oratory, her fathers little chapel
where light from a narrow window of stained glass dyed the altar and rood.
He was handsome enough, in his own wayolder than Melanthe by near a score
of years and yet lithe as a youthan Allegreto with the sureness of age and
power on him. Gluttonous indulgence was not his vice; he lived austere as a
monk but for the fashions in clothing that he liked to set. For their
interview he had abandoned the staid floor-length robes in favor of the
single color of Navona: white hose and a short white houpelande. Often he
embellished the milky ground with gold alone, but now he was embroidered in
spring flowers, his voluminous sleeves longer than his hem. It showed the
lean legs of an asceticand his masculinityvery well.
Concede me just a little description of your ordeal, my love. He
smiled. Your escort comes from an abbey, they tell me. Have you been safe
all along in a religious house, then, while our Allegreto tore his hair?
Why, yeshas he not recounted to you?
He seems to have become shy. Gian leaned against the carved arcade of
the oratory. Gone to earth somewhere, like your English foxes.
She did not know whether to bless Allegreto for his forethought, or fear
that Gian had indeed questioned him and now wished to compare their stories.
He has a great fear of your displeasure, she said, a description so
patently inferior to the actuality that she found herself returning Gians
smile with a wry curl of her own mouth.
Still, a son should not hide from his fathers just wrath. Or the world
would become a wicked place indeed, dont you think?
She gave him a surprised look. Wrath? But what has he done?
Failed me, my dearest lady. Failed me entirely, when he allowed this
calamity to befall you. And acted beyond himself in another small matter,
not worth mentioning. If you should come across his burrow, you would not be
amiss to tell my little fox that delaying the chase only puts the hunter out
of temper.
If you mean that he failed in my protectionsurely you did not expect
him to take on a pack of murdering bandits?
Ah, we come now to the bandits. He examined a painted and gilded
angels face carved at the base of the arch. Was it a large body of
outlaws?
She shrugged. I think it must have been. I was woken out of a sound
sleep to flee.
Youre very easy about it, my lady! Were you not dismayed?
She made a sound of impatience. Indeed no, I was so delighted that I
stayed to offer them wine and cakes! Truly, I am not eager to live the
experience again only for your entertainment.
He bowed. I must ask your pardon. But these outlaws should be brought to
justice.
That has been taken care of, you may believe.
He raised his brows. Melanthe looked back at him coolly, daring him to
put her to an inquisition, or hint that she did not rule here in her own
lands.
Alas, I arrive too late to rescue you, and now I cannot even take your
revenge. A paltry fellow! He drained his wine. Hardly the equal of this
mysterious green captain of yours, I fear.
She leaned back in her chair and gave him a dry smile. Verily, not half
as holy.
Holy? I was told he is a knight of some strength and repute.
Certainly he is. I retain only the best for my protection.
But where is he now, this paragon?
Melanthe turned her palms up. I know not. I believe a great hand comes
down from heaven and lifts him up to sit among the clouds. Haps he prays and
parleys with angels, which is as well, for his conversation is too pure to
be borne on earth, I assure you.
Even when he shares a bed with you, as Im told?
A bed! She stared, and then laughed. Ah, yesa bed. At that delightful
manor house, you mean. But how come you to hear of that farce? Most notably
holy when he shared a bed with me. She grimaced. My ears rang with his
prayers.
He observed her a moment and then chuckled. My poor sweet, you have had
a hard time of it, havent you?
Worse than you know! I fell from the rump of his repellent horse and
broke my cannal-bone. Three months have I sojourned in the most contemptible
little priory, among nuns! The prioress could barely speak French and did
naught but pray for me. She and my knight got along excellently.
He laughed aloud. But I must meet him, this knight. And the prioress,
too. Such intercessions might save me a little time in Purgatory.
Gian, do not flatter yourself. Prayers are wasted on you, as they are on
me. I told her so, but she was relentless. God is weary of hearing my name,
I quite assure you.
He strolled back to her chair, standing near. Surely, though, some gift
or reward should be
She turned an angry eye on him. Do not forget that I am mistress here. I
do not require your advice or your assistance in it.
Of course not, sweet. But I thinkhearing of your trials and
adventuresthat I do not like you riding about the country on the rump of
some nameless knights horse. Or falling off of it. Or sharing a chamber
with him, however holy he might be. You have had your way, and paid respects
to Ligurio and your king, and seen to your estates. His hand skimmed her
cheek. I think, my dear love, that it is time and past for our betrothal.
She stared at the colored window in the oratory. Yes, Gian. She kept
her breathing slow and even. It is time.
His finger pulled back the silken scarf, tracing her jaw and the telling
pulse at her throat.
If he touched you in desire, fair child, he murmured, he is dead.
Melanthe rose, moving away from him. She locked her hands and stretched
her arms out before her. If the man ever felt desire, I warrant it would
kill him. Now indulge me, Gian, I want to rest. My shoulder pains me. She
smiled at him. And do leave poor Allegreto alone if you love me, my lord. I
want to dance with him at our wedding.
They hunted with ladies hawks, summer birds, a blithe company passing
through the meadows with laughter and elegant disport. Melanthe wore a
garland that Gian had presented her. The sparrowhawk she carried felt no
heavier than one of the blossoms from the spray, tiny and fierce, pouncing
upon thrushes and woodcock and returning with them to the glove, a delicate
court lady with savage yellow eyes.
Melanthe rode beside Gian, tame as the sparrowhawk returned to hand.
Their time at Windsor drew near to a close. He had completed the contracts
and assignments; the kings license was sealed at the price of only two of
her five castles, the quitclaim to Monteverde purchased back from Edward for
a proper princely ransom. They hawked today; in three days the betrothal
feast began, a week more of such pleasures; of gifts and minstrelsythen
Italy, and their wedding. Gian was not eager to wait.
He chafed at their separate residences, but Melanthe had held adamant on
that point and his proper behavior beforehand. He laughed and cajoled her,
but knew her better than to believe she would give anything away for
nothing. That was what he thought and said of her, not knowing that she
would give everything away for nothing. For the nunnery, as the only place
she could avoid fornicating with him.
When she lay awake at night, as she did every night now, she laughed
silently until she wept at the mockery of it all. The place she had walked
through wilderness and fire to avoid, the abominable nunnery. She did not
dare attempt to evade him in England again. Once they were back in Italy,
she could fly to the abbey that she and Ligurio had endowed. She had
Allegretos promise that he would help her. And vows upon vows, lies upon
lies, until she forgot who she was, if she had ever known.
Amongst the betrothal gifts there were already three mirrors, carved
ivory and sandalwood and ebony, all buried as deep in her chests as she
could bury them, so that she would not chance to look into the glass and see
no one there.
Its a great shame that your gyr is still in mew, my lady, the young
Earl of Pembroke said, while the others complimented a fine flight for
Gians hawk on a blackbird. What a day she might have given us!
T
is a lighter weight to carry,
this! Melanthe held up her little bird. And only think how fat Gryngolet
will be, come autumn.
Laughter rippled over the company. The spaniels put up a bevy of quails,
and two ladies cast off. Courteous clapping and a discussion of the full
bags and prospects for a sparviters pie of partridge and larks and
wheatears followed their success. Turning away from the late afternoon sun,
they allowed the horses to ramble toward Windsor and the castle, its highest
banners just barely visible over the far trees.
The shade of a narrow lane spread the party out, with Melanthe and Gian
paired at the head as if by design. You look a mere maiden in your
blossoms, he said to her, smiling. Flowers become you.
Do they? she asked lightly. Nay, I think you suppose to flatter me,
sir, so that when I ask for diamonds you can satisfy me with daisies.
She expected some smooth wit in response to hers, but instead he tilted
his head. Never do you consent to a tribute to your beauty, my lady. Is it
the compliments or the complimenter?
Neither, but myself. A maiden, Gian? Daisies? I fear I am too shrewd to
believe such pleasant fancies.
I think you should believe them, my lady, for they are true.
She slanted a look at him. The leaf dapple passed over his white velvet
shoulders and turban hat. Why, Gian. Can this be love?
He returned her look steadily, speaking barely above his breath. Is it
possible that you dont know it?
She felt a flush rise in her throat. He did not take the easy tone of
gallantry.
Why, then of course the betrothal must be off, she said. Love will not
do, if we are to be wed. People will think us a pair of burghers!
Ah. But this is a puzzle. If love is not acceptable in marriage, does it
follow you have no love for me now, since we are betrothed?
You must go to the Greeks for logic, she said.
And to a lady for love. Do you not love me, my dear one?
She pricked her horse to a trot. Inquire of Cupid, my lord, for the
answer to that! she called gaily over her shoulder.
She straightened about in the saddle. The shaded lane curved, descending
to a ford. Sunlight glistened on water through the treesglinted on
something more. She dragged her horse to a jerking halt.
On the far side of the stream a pale destrier waited, caparisoned all in
green, the rider armored, his sword drawn, emerald and silver like a dream
in the glowing yellow light of afternoon.
The black eyeslits watched her silently. Gian came up behind her. She
heard the others, the thud of hooves and the sudden stifle of easy talk.
The knight shoved his faceplate up. Melanthe felt Gian beside her, felt a
helpless frenzy.
My lady wife. Rucks hard voice rang across the stream that divided
them. I would have let thee live separate and alone. I would not have
abashed thee, if thou hadst only wished to deny me for cause of pride and
place. But thou art my wife, Melantheand fore God, I will not let thee
forlie with another man, nor live together with him in dishonor of us both.
She thought of laughing. She thought of screaming. She thought of
disclaiming any knowledge of him; all those things came to her at once, but
she said, Dont approach him. He has gone mad.
In her dismay the words held utter conviction. She felt Gians eyes
shift.
Ruck did not move. It may please thee to claim so, my lady, he said
coldly. But you know as I that it is not true. I bid thee now to honor thy
word and obey me. Leave this place, and this company, and come with me.
He is mad, Melanthe repeated stupidly.
Make way, fool, Gian said.
He started to press his horse forward, but she seized his sleeve. Gian!
Hes dangerous.
She thought it sounded convincing: Gian paused, and Rucks mouth lifted
in contempt.
Only in defense of thy virtue, madam. Sunlight slipped down his bare
blade. I will not endure thee to whore with him.
One of the ladies behind her gasped. Gian pulled his sleeve from
Melanthes hand. Thou harlot, Ill kill thee for that, mad or no.
Gladly I'll fight, Ruck said.
Gian spit on the ground. Baseborn churl, he said with deadly softness,
I would not soil my hands. Thou wert born upon a dung heap. Out of the way.
madman, and run far.
The destrier turned on its haunches, making room in the road between the
thick hedgerows. You may pass, if you will. And the rest, but for my wife.
Gian reached out and caught the bridle of her horse. He spurred into the
stream, pulling her along. At the sloped bank, the white courser moved
before them, blocking passage. Rucks sword came down between their horses,
the blade suspended over Gians arm.
Unhand her, he said quietly.
Gian made a move to go around. Hawk kicked out with a vicious force that
sent Gians mount shying back. He lost his hold on her bridle as his horse
slipped and stumbled at the edge of the stream. His sparrowhawk fluttered
free. At the same moment the Earl of Pembroke came splashing through the
water.
My lady! he shouted, slapping her horses rump. Go now!
Her rouncy jumped forward, colliding with Pembrokes as he passed, but
the destrier held the narrow road. Ruck fended off the young earls dagger
with an armored elbow, keeping his own sword clear. The war-horse backed
hard against Pembrokes bewildered mount, shoving him beyond knife reach.
Pass. Ruck swept his blade point upward, allowing a slim opening to the
earl. I have no quarrel with you, but you may not take my wife.
Thou staring madman, shes no such thing! Pembroke exclaimed. How dare
thee say it?
Ask her, Ruck said.
Melanthe felt their all attention fix. It was high disport, this; a play
to themexcept for Gian, who had silent savagery in his eyes. He had
suspected; she knew he had suspected, but she had lulled him and beguiled
him, and now he knew. Not the marriage, no, for that was too fantastic for
credencebut jealousy burned behind his calculating stare. He would not bear
It.
Am I thy true husband? Ruck held the destrier in taut check, staring at
Melanthe. Tell them, my lady.
She looked up into his eyes, his green cold eyes, and saw the last
slender flame of trust still there. He asked her for the truth, because he
did not conceive of dishonor. He did not know the depths of
treacherystanding armed and armored, and defenseless against it.
She shook her head, with a small disbelieving laugh. Thou art a silly
simple, she said. Thou art not even a man, I think, save by hap in thy
dreams!
In the slight flicker of his lashes it died, the last tattered rag of
faith. He smiled, a baring of his teeth. Thou dost not answer my question,
lady.
Then let me make my words clear to thy fevered brain! she exclaimed. I
am not thy wife!
I say that you are, but that you dare not speak according to conscience
or the pleasure of God, for fear evil might be done you. He spoke with an
even force. I say that we were in the manor of Torbec at the end of
Hilarytide, in the solar chamber above the hall, and thou said thou took me
there and then as thy wedded husband if I willed it, to have and to hold, at
bed and at board, for better and for worse, in sickness and health, till
death us departand of this thou gave me thy faith. And I said that I willed
it, and plighted thee my troth the same, and more, for I dowed thee with all
that is mine, which thou didst not do for me in return, nor did I ask or
wish for it. I had no ring nor garland for you, but swore all this by my
right hand. And we had company and use of each other in the same bed where
we spoke, to seal our vows, and afterward I wept.
A vivid dream indeed! Melanthe said.
No dream, Ruck answered her, but what passed between us in truth. We
lived as man and wife, and the last time lay together ere you left me for
Bowland on the day before the May.
It was working upon their witnesses as he meant it to, a detailed and
rational list of circumstances, no madmans vision. She saw Pembrokes
expression change from disbelief to wondersaw him look at Gian to measure
his response.
You lie! Gians shout rocked off the water and the trees. Whoreson,
who paid you to say this?
Rucks gaze went instantly to him, like a wolf that had sighted its prey
at last. His sword made a singing sweep into guard. I do not lie, nor speak
for gain. I am no son of a whore, but Ill be pleased to kill thee for thy
slander.
No. The earl held out his arm. Nay, sirDan Gian is not armed.
Without hesitation Ruck reversed his sword, offering it to Pembroke. As
the earl grasped the hilt, Hawk lifted his great hooves, treading sideways,
shouldering into Gians horse. Gian didnt flinchhe made a murderous stab
toward Rucks eye with his poison-dagger. For an instant they grappled
together, and then Ruck had Gians wrist in his grip, the horses splashing
and circling.
Hawk sidestepped against Gians mount, shoving, his bulk compelling the
other horse to scramble for footing as Ruck forced Gians arm overhead. Like
a slow ram, the destrier impelled the lighter horse to move, to lurch and
falter in the stream. Gian wrenched free and threw himself toward Ruck,
driving the dagger at his face as the rouncy went down with a floundering
splash.
Heavy drops sprayed over Melanthe as her mount shied back. The ladies
screamed, clinging to their reins and their bating hawks. Amid a flail of
hooves and water Gian was half-trapped, his leg beneath the horse, but the
animal rolled and heaved forward, struggling upright in a glistening sheet.
Frantically she scanned Rucks face, dreading to see a poisoned scratch
within the shadow of his helmet. But there was no blood, only the forbidding
set of his mouth as he met her eyes.
It was this he had wanted from the start, she saw. Not his command to her
to go with himbut Gian, dripping and humiliated beyond human bearing,
shamed into challenge and combat.
She is my wife, he said, looking on Gian as the downed man groped to
his feet in the middle of the stream. Thou wilt not touch her or see her
again.
Thou art an open liar and false knave. Gians leg gave beneath him, and
he went to one knee, but even his soaked velvet did not diminish the proud
savagery of his response. Ill have thy contemptible life.
Name the occasion. And come armed.
Gian drove himself to his feet. Thou wilt receive my messenger.
I await him. The Ospridge at Colnbrook. Ruck tossed Gians dagger into
the water. He turned Hawk, reining the destrier up onto the bank, and halted
beside Melanthe. For courtesy, I do not compel my ladys grace to attend me
at a common inn.
Mary, I would not attend thee at Westminster Palace, thou poor deluded
churl. Her rouncy pirouetted. Begone thee. Gian, your little sperverhawk
has taken a stand in that oak She spurred her horse, gesturing urgently at
the sparviters who had held the spaniels and gaped all through the scene.
Come quickly, we must retrieve her ere she escapes us!
* * *
All the towns and villages about Windsor Castle were full while the king
was in residence. For a fortnight Ruck had sat in taverns and listened to
the talk of clerks and squires, of knights in waiting. Hed heard it allhow
this Italian lord would wed her, what terms he bought and how he bought them
in his dealings with the kings ravenous mistress and her favorites, where
he resorted, and how often he attended the Lady Melanthe at her bury hall of
Merlesden.