Authors: Anthony Trollope
‘What; madness?’ said Mrs Robarts, quite in earnest.
‘Well; don’t you think he must have been mad when such an idea as that came into his head? But you don’t believe it; I can see that. And yet it is as true as heaven. Standing exactly here, on this spot, he said that he would persevere
till I accepted his
love. I wonder what made me specially observe that both his feet were within the lines of that division.’
‘And you would not accept his love?’
‘No; I would have nothing to say to it. Look you, I stood here, and putting my hand upon my heart, – for he bade me to do that, – I said that I could not love him.’
‘And what then?’
‘He went away, – with a look as though he were
heart-broken. He crept away slowly, saying that he was the most wretched soul alive. For a minute I believed him, and could almost have called him back. But, no, Fanny; do not think that I am over proud, or conceited about my conquest. He had not reached the gate before he was thanking God for his escape.’
‘That I do not believe.’
‘But I do; and I thought of Lady Lufton too. How could I bear
that she should scorn me, and accuse me of stealing her son’s heart? I know that it is better as it is; but tell me; is a falsehood always wrong, or can it be possible that the end should justify the means? Ought I to have told him the truth, and to have let him know that I could almost kiss the ground on which he stood?’
This was a question for the doctors which Mrs Robarts would not take upon
herself to answer. She would not make that falsehood matter of accusation, but neither would she pronounce for it any absolution. In that matter Lucy must regulate her own conscience. ‘And what shall I do next?’ said Lucy, still speaking in a tone that was half tragic and half jeering.
‘Do?’ said Mrs Robarts.
‘Yes, something must be done. If I were a man I should go to Switzerland, of course;
or, as the case is a bad one, perhaps as far as Hungary. What is it that girls do? they don’t die now-a-days, I believe.’
‘Lucy, I do not believe that you care for him one jot. If you were in love you would not speak of it like that.’
‘There, there. That’s my only hope. If I could laugh at myself till it had become incredible to you, I also, by degrees, should cease to believe that I had cared
for him. But, Fanny, it is very hard. If I were to starve, and rise before day-break, and pinch myself, or do some nasty work, – clean the pots and pans and
the candlesticks; that I think would do the most good. I have got a piece of sack-cloth, and I mean to wear that, when I have made it up.’
‘You are joking now, Lucy, I know.’
‘No, by my word; not in the spirit of what I am saying. How shall
I act upon my heart, if I do not do it through the blood and the flesh?’
‘Do you not pray that God will give you strength to bear these troubles?’
‘But how is one to word one’s prayer, or how even to word one’s wishes? I do not know what is the wrong that I have done. I say it boldly; in this matter I cannot see my own fault. I have simply found that I have been a fool.’
It was now quite dark
in the room, or would have been so to any one entering it afresh. They had remained there talking till their eyes had become accustomed to the gloom, and would still have remained, had they not suddenly been disturbed by the sound of a horse’s feet.
‘There is Mark,’ said Fanny, jumping up and running to the bell, that lights might be ready when he should enter.
‘I thought he remained in Barchester
to-night.’
‘And so did I; but he said it might be doubtful. What shall we do if he has not dined?’
That, I believe, is always the first thought in the mind of a good wife when her husband returns home. Has he had his dinner? What can I give him for dinner? Will he like his dinner? Oh dear, oh dear! there’s nothing in the house but cold mutton. But on this occasion the lord of the mansion had
dined, and came home radiant with good humour, and owing, perhaps, a little of his radiance to the dean’s claret. ‘I have told them,’ said he, ‘that they may keep possession of the house for the next two months, and they have agreed to that arrangement.’
‘That is very pleasant,’ said Mrs Robarts.
‘And I don’t think we shall have so much trouble about the dilapidations after all.’
‘I am very
glad of that,’ said Mrs Robarts. But nevertheless, she was thinking much more of Lucy than of the house in Barchester Close.
‘You won’t betray me,’ said Lucy, as she gave her sister-in-law a parting kiss at night.
‘No; not unless you give me permission.’
‘Ah; I shall never do that.’
T
HE
Duke of Omnium had notified to Mr Fothergill his wish that some arrangement should be made about the Chaldicotes mortgages, and Mr Fothergill had understood what the duke meant as well as though his instructions had been written down with all a lawyer’s verbosity. The duke’s meaning was this, that Chaldicotes was to be swept up and garnered, and made part and
parcel of the Gatherum property. It had seemed to the duke that that affair between his friend and Miss Dunstable was hanging fire, and, therefore, it would be well that Chaldicotes should be swept up and garnered. And, moreover, tidings had come into the western division of the county that young Frank Gresham of Boxall Hill was in treaty with the government for the purchase of all that Crown property
called the Chase of Chaldicotes. It had been offered to the duke, but the duke had given no definite answer. Had he got his money back from Mr Sowerby, he could have forestalled Mr Gresham; but now that did not seem to be probable, and his grace was resolved that either the one property or the other should be duly garnered. Therefore Mr Fothergill went up to town, and, therefore, Mr Sowerby
was, most unwillingly, compelled to have a business interview with Mr Fothergill. In the meantime, since last we saw him, Mr Sowerby had learned from his sister the answer which Miss Dunstable had given to his proposition, and knew that he had no further hope in that direction.
There was no further hope thence of absolute deliverance, but there had been a tender of money services. To give Mr
Sowerby his due, he had at once declared that it would be quite out of the question that he should now receive any assistance of that
sort from Miss Dunstable; but his sister had explained to him that it would be a mere business transaction; that Miss Dunstable would receive her interest; and that, if she would be content with four per cent., whereas the duke received five, and other creditors
six, seven, eight, ten, and heaven only knows how much more, it might be well for all parties. He, himself, understood, as well as Fothergill had done, what was the meaning of the duke’s message. Chaldicotes was to be gathered up and garnered, as had been done with so many another fair property lying in those regions. It was to be swallowed whole, and the master was to walk out from his old family
hall, to leave the old woods that he loved, to give up utterly to another the parks and paddocks and pleasant places which he had known from his earliest infancy, and owned from his earliest manhood.
There can be nothing more bitter to a man than such a surrender. What, compared to this, can be the loss of wealth to one who has himself made it, and brought it together, but has never actually
seen it with his bodily eyes? Such wealth has come by one chance, and goes by another: the loss of it is part of the game which the man is playing; and if he cannot lose as well as win, he is a poor, weak, cowardly creature. Such men, as a rule, do know how to bear a mind fairly equal to adversity. But to have squandered the acres which have descended from generation to generation; to be the member
of one’s family that has ruined that family; to have swallowed up in one’s own maw all that should have graced one’s children, and one’s grandchildren! It seems to me that the misfortunes of this world can hardly go beyond that!
Mr Sowerby, in spite of his recklessness and that dare-devil gaiety which he knew so well how to wear and use, felt all this as keenly as any man could feel it. It had
been absolutely his own fault. The acres had come to him all his own, and now, before his death, every one of them would have gone bodily into that greedy maw. The duke had bought up nearly all the debts which had been secured upon the property, and now could make a clean sweep of it. Sowerby, when he received that message from Mr Fothergill, knew well that this was intended; and he knew well also,
that when once he should cease to be Mr Sowerby of
Chaldicotes, he need never again hope to be returned as member for West Barsetshire. This world would for him be all over. And what must such a man feel when he reflects that this world is for him all over?
On the morning in question he went to his appointment, still bearing a cheerful countenance. Mr Fothergill, when in town on such business
as this, always had a room at his service in the house of Messrs Gumption and Gagebee, the duke’s London law agents, and it was thither that Mr Sowerby had been summoned. The house of business of Messrs Gumption and Gagebee was in South Audley Street; and it may be said that there was no spot on the whole earth which Mr Sowerby so hated as he did the gloomy, dingy back sitting-room upstairs in that
house. He had been there very often, but had never been there without annoyance. It was a horrid torture-chamber, kept for such dread purposes as these, and no doubt had been furnished, and papered, and curtained with the express object of finally breaking down the spirits of such poor country gentlemen as chanced to be involved. Everything was of a brown crimson, – of a crimson that had become
brown. Sunlight, real genial light of the sun, never made its way there, and no amount of candles could illumine the gloom of that brownness. The windows were never washed; the ceiling was of a dark brown; the old Turkey carpet was thick with dust, and brown withal. The ungainly office-table, in the middle of the room, had been covered with black leather, but that was now brown. There was a bookcase
full of dingy brown law books in a recess on one side of the fireplace, but no one had touched them for years, and over the chimney-piece hung some old legal pedigree table, black with soot. Such was the room which Mr Fothergill always used in the business house of Messrs Gumption and Gagebee, in South Audley Street, near to Park Lane.
I once heard this room spoken of by an old friend of mine,
one Mr Gresham of Greshamsbury, the father of Frank Gresham, who was now about to purchase that part of the Chase of Chaldicotes which belonged to the Crown. He also had had evil days, though now happily they were past and gone; and he, too, had sat in that room, and listened to the voice of men who were powerful
over his property, and intended to use that power. The idea which he left on my mind
was much the same as that which I had entertained, when a boy, of a certain room in the castle of Udolpho.
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There was a chair in that Udolpho room in which those who sat were dragged out limb by limb, the head one way and the legs another; the fingers were dragged off from the hands, and the teeth out from the jaws, and the hair off the head, and the flesh from the bones, and the joints from their
sockets, till there was nothing left but a lifeless trunk seated in the chair. Mr Gresham, as he told me, always sat in the same seat, and the tortures he suffered when so seated, the dislocations of his property which he was forced to discuss, the operations on his very self which he was forced to witness, made me regard that room as worse than the chamber of Udolpho. He, luckily – a rare instance
of good fortune – had lived to see all his bones and joints put together again, and flourishing soundly; but he never could speak of the room without horror.
‘No consideration on earth,’ he once said to me, very solemnly, – ‘I say none, should make me again enter that room.’ And indeed this feeling was so strong with him, that from the day when his affairs took a turn he would never even walk
down South Audley Street. On the morning in question into this torture-chamber Mr Sowerby went, and there, after some two or three minutes, he was joined by Mr Fothergill.
Mr Fothergill was, in one respect, like to his friend Sowerby. He enacted two altogether different persons on occasions which were altogether different. Generally speaking, with the world at large, he was a jolly, rollicking,
popular man, fond of eating and drinking, known to be devoted to the duke’s interests, and supposed to be somewhat unscrupulous, or at any rate hard, when they were concerned; but in other respects a good-natured fellow; and there was a report about that he had once lent somebody money, without charging him interest or taking security. On the present occasion Sowerby saw at a glance that he had
come thither with all the aptitudes and appurtenances of his business about him. He walked into the room with a short, quick step; there was no smile on his face as he shook hands with his old friend; he brought with him a box laden with papers and parchments,
and he had not been a minute in the room before he was seated in one of the old dingy chairs.
‘How long have you been in town, Fothergill?’
said Sowerby, still standing with his back against the chimney. He had resolved on only one thing – that nothing should induce him to touch, look at, or listen to any of those papers. He knew well enough that no good would come of that. He also had his own lawyer, to see that he was pilfered according to rule.
‘How long? Since the day before yesterday. I never was so busy in my life. The duke,
as usual, wants to have everything done at once.’
‘If he wants to have all that I owe him paid at once, he is like to be out in his reckoning.’
‘Ah, well; I’m glad you are ready to come quickly to business, because it’s always best. Won’t you come and sit down here?’
‘No, thank you; I’ll stand.’
‘But we shall have to go through these figures, you know.’
‘Not a figure, Fothergill. What good
would it do? None to me, and none to you either, as I take it; if there is anything wrong, Potter’s fellows will find it out. What is it the duke wants?’
‘Well; to tell the truth, he wants his money.’