Authors: Sandra Brown
The next day, she brought him twenty one-hundred-dollar bills. "I took them out of my account at the bank. It's Christmas and birthday money that I've been saving for years."
"It's too much. I can't accept this, Mary Catherine."
"Of course you can," she said, pressing the bills back into his hands when he tried to return them. "I'm going to be your wife. What's mine is yours. It's for us. For our baby. For God's ministry."
They planned their elopement to take place three nights from then. "Why so long? Why not tomorrow?"
"I've got to make arrangements," he explained. "You don't get married without a bunch of red tape, you know."
"Oh," she said with disappointment. She hadn't known that. "Well, I'll leave all the legalities to you, Jack."
They kissed good-night, lingering over it, dreading the hours of separation. Mary Catherine went home, locked herself in her room, and wrote several pages in her diary. Later, unable to sleep due to a slight case of indigestion brought on by pregnancy and excitement, she went to her closet and planned what she would wear when she went to meet her groom.
Chapter 30
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f course when she went to meet him he wasn't there."
The shadows on the kitchen walls of Aunt Laurel's house were long. They stretched across the round table where Claire and Cassidy sat across from each other over cups of orange-flavored tea that had grown cold.
Claire spoke in a distant voice; her expression was melancholy. "At first Mama thought that in the excitement of the moment, she had mistaken the time and place of their rendezvous. She went to his apartment building, but he had cleared out. He'd left no forwarding address with the building manager. Or any mention of where God might send him next," she added sarcastically. "When a week went by and Mama received no word from him, she realized that he'd stolen her money and abandoned her." She glanced up at Cassidy. "Would you care for more tea?"
"No, thanks," he replied gruffly.
Claire continued her story. "Wild Jack Collins played his hand extremely well. When Mama told him she was pregnant, he could have bolted. But he was too smart. Undoubtedly, he had discovered that the Laurents were well connected. For all he knew, Mama could have sicced the sheriff on him. He saw the advisability of proposing marriage instead. He made it all sound very romantic. Elopement. Running away together on a mission for the Lord. Remember, Mama was a devout Christian and believed in saving the lost. But she was also incredibly naïve."
Her expression turned remote and cold. "To the day he died—to the day I killed him—Wild Jack must have still been laughing at her and patting himself on the back for being such a clever chap. If he even remembered her, that is. It's anyone's guess how many other young women he left with illegitimate children in those early years of his traveling ministry."
Cassidy scooted aside his teacup and saucer and rested his elbows on the table. "How did you learn about all this, Claire?"
"In Mama's diaries. They meticulously documented everything from that Saturday morning when her daddy took her to Café du Monde for breakfast and she saw Jack Collins preaching in the square. I found the diaries after Aunt Laurel died. She had continued the journal when Mama was no longer capable."
"So she knew all along who your father was?"
Claire nodded. "But only Aunt Laurel. When it became obvious to my mother that she'd been jilted, she confronted her parents and told them she was pregnant."
"Did they make an attempt to apprehend Jack Collins?"
"No. Remember, she never identified her lover, but led my grandparents to believe that he was among their elite circle of acquaintances. The only person who knew the truth was Aunt Laurel. Mama had confided in her. So when Wild Jack Collins emerged years later as the televangelist Jackson Wilde—and his name change is doubtless due to the many tracks he had to cover—Aunt Laurel began to chronicle his rise to fame.
"Apparently he wooed Josh's mother the way he did mine. Her family was Protestant, which made him slightly more acceptable to them than to staunch Catholics. They were also much wealthier than the Laurents. He saw a good thing and seized it. In her writings, Aunt Laurel surmised that he used his in-laws" money to expand his ministry into radio and television."
"This makes Josh—"
"My half-brother," she interrupted with a gentle smile.
"That's why you arranged to meet him."
"I wanted to see if he was like our father, or a man of integrity. He's weak, but, based on that one brief meeting, I think he's a respectable individual."
"Not too respectable. He was sleeping with his father's wife."
She didn't appreciate the mild rebuke and rushed to her step-brother's defense. "Josh was another victim of Jackson Wilde's emotional abuse. Having an affair with Ariel was his way of retaliating."
"And yours was to kill him."
"I did the world a service, Cassidy. Ariel pretends to be a grieving widow, but she's gotten out of Jackson's death what she wanted—the celebrity previously held by him. Josh has been released from his tormentor."
"Isn't that exaggerating it a bit? Wilde didn't keep Josh on a ball and chain."
"On an emotional level he did., Josh wanted to be a concert pianist. Wild Jack had other plans. He wanted a musician identifiable exclusively to his ministry, so he scoffed at Josh's ambition and disparaged his talent until Josh's self-confidence was in tatters. In the long run, he became what his father wanted him to be."
"Josh told you all this?"
"He told me that since Ariel has disassociated him from the ministry, he wants to resume his study of classical music, his first love. I filled in the blanks."
"What about your mother?"
"What about her?"
"Did she ever connect Jackson Wilde to Wild Jack Collins?"
"No. Thank God. His appearance must have changed over the last thirty years. You know she can't hold a thought for long, so even if recognition flickered, it didn't register."
Cassidy frowned, his eyes squinting with skepticism. "Claire, I strongly advise you not to say anything more without an attorney present."
"I'm waiving my right to an attorney, Cassidy. I've made a public confession and a crowd of people witnessed it. I don't intend to retract it. I'll tell you anything you want to know. Although," she added, "you've already guessed most of it."
"What do you mean?"
"You guessed how I got into Jackson Wilde's room. Remember when we walked through the French Quarter, retracing the route I took the night of the murder?"
"You're about to tell me that that was an exercise in futility."
"Actually I did go for a walk that night. Afterward. It was when I returned to French Silk from my walk that I discovered Mama was gone."
"By a bizarre coincidence, she had wandered to the Fairmont Hotel that night."
"Yes."
"That's quite a hike for her."
"She might have taken a bus."
Cassidy declined to comment. "Go on," he said. "You were about to tell me how you got into Wilde's suite. Andre to the rescue?"
"No. Never," she said with an adamant shake of her head. "He's entirely innocent. I never lied about that. No one knew what I intended to do."
"Yasmine?"
"Not even her. I did this on my own. I would never compromise a friend."
"Heaven forbid. But you'd murder a man in cold blood."
"Do you want to hear this or not?"
Cassidy shot from his chair, rattling teacups. "What the hell do you think? Hell no, I don't want to hear it," he shouted. "And if you had an ounce of sense, you would call an attorney, who would insist that you not say "God bless" if I sneezed."
He had removed his suit jacket when they came into the house, before the windows they'd opened had had a chance to air it out and cool it down. Gray suspenders criss-crossed his back. His shirtsleeves had been rolled to his elbows. Now, he loosened his tie.
Claire watched his nimble fingers working at the Windsor knot, knowing that she would never feel his touch on her skin again. The reminder created an ache in her lower body, a painful, gaping void. Rather than dwell on that yearning, she focused on his anger and used it to make him her adversary.
"While we were at Café du Monde," she said, "you guessed that the killer was waiting for Wilde when he returned to his suite. You were right."
"Don't tell me this, Claire."
Disregarding his advice, she continued. "I waited in an adjacent hallway. When the maid went in to turn down the beds, I sneaked into Wilde's suite and hid in a closet. I was there almost an hour before he came in.
"Alone?"
"Without Ariel, yes. He watched TV for a while. I could hear it from the closet. He showered, then went to bed. When I heard him snoring, I crept out and tiptoed into his bedroom. I shot him three times."
"Did you ever speak to him?"
"No. I was tempted to wake him. I wanted to see fear in his eyes. I would have liked him to know that he was going to die at the hand of his own child. I would have liked to speak Mama's name to see if it would elicit any response from him, trigger any memory at all. But he was a large man. I was afraid to wake him up. He could have overpowered me and taken the gun.
"But I stood at the foot of his bed for a long time. I stared down at him, hating him, hating the abuse he had inflicted on people who had loved him. Mama. Josh. Ariel. I did it for all of us.
"He lay there, sleeping so complacently, in a luxurious suite paid for by people who couldn't afford to send him offerings, but did so because they believed in him. There was a Rolex wristwatch lying on top of his Bible on the nightstand. The symbolism of that made me sick to my stomach. He profited from what martyrs through the centuries had died for, what they're still dying for."
Cassidy eagerly returned to his seat across from her. "You shot him three times. Why, Claire? Why three?"
"In the head for the way he deliberately distorted Christianity to serve his own purposes. In the heart to atone for all those he'd broken. In his manhood for the unconscionable way he seduced and then deserted a wholesome young woman who deserved to be loved."
"You blew him away, Claire."
"Yes." She swallowed hard. "It was messy. I didn't expect… When I saw all the blood, I ran."
"How'd you get out of the hotel?"
"The same way I got in. No one saw me on that floor because the only people registered to the rooms there were the Wildes. I took the elevator down to the lobby and walked out the University Street exit." She moistened her lips and glanced at him nervously. "And to help conceal my identity, in case I'd left clues, I dressed like Mama."
"You did what?"
"I wore one of her dresses, and her elopement hat, and carried her suitcase."
"Very clever. Later if a witness was asked who they'd seen in the hotel at that time of night, they would describe Mary Catherine. Then she would be immediately dismissed because she's known to behave strangely, and the hotel staff is accustomed to seeing her wandering through there, dressed that way, carrying a suitcase."
"Precisely. What I didn't count on was Mama actually going there that night."
"Without her hat and suitcase?"
The question threw her off for a moment. "Naturally she had them."
"I thought you said you had them."
"I did. But I returned home and changed clothes before going on my walk. That's when she went out."
"I'm not sure al that corresponds with the time of Wilde's death," Cassidy said, frowning. "If I were your defense attorney, I'd use those time discrepancies to establish reasonable doubt with the jury."
"There won't be a jury because there won't be a trial. I've confessed. Once I'm sentenced, that'll be the end to it."
"You sound as though you look forward to it," he said angrily. "Are you that eager to go to prison for the rest of your life? For the rest of my life?"
She looked away. "I just want to get it over with."
Swearing lavishly, he combed his fingers through his hair. "Why didn't you dispose of the gun. Claire? Why didn't you toss it in the river that night while you were on your walk?"
"I wish I had," she said miserably. "I never expected it to wind up in a police lab."
"The only fingerprints on that revolver were Yasmine's."
"I had on Mama's gloves."
"Which we can test for powder burns."
"I destroyed them and bought her new ones. You won't find anything."
"You're real smart, aren't you?"
"Well, my first choice would have been to get away with it!" she snapped. "But you're so damned persistent."
He ignored that and asked, "When did you sneak the gun out of Yasmine's purse?"
"The week before I used it. She came down for a quick overnight trip. She was so flighty and often careless with her possessions, I knew that when her gun turned up missing she'd shrug it off. I replaced it a few days later—after you'd questioned me about the weapon. Just as I expected, Yasmine passed it off as an oversight."