From Darkness Comes: The Horror Box Set (161 page)

The light from the bridge pushed back the darkness, and they moved closer.

“Come to me, Freeman,” she triptrapped.

Freeman focused on the image of her face, and that brought her more fully into him, and he tasted her past and walked through her pain and knelt with her as she forced herself to vomit. He absorbed the simultaneous emotions of love and hatred of her father, the man she wanted so desperately to please that she was willing to make herself disappear.

As he felt that soul-deep sorrow, the bridge dimmed, and she faded back into the darkness at the far end. He was losing her. She’d wanted to disappear, and this was her chance.

“No, that’s wrong,” he said.

“Don’t tell me what to feel.”

“You don’t have to go away. It’s not your fault. And you’re not fat.”

“Freeman Mills, you’re starting to sound like a shrink.”

“I know what I’m talking about. Hold on.”

“But it would be so easy. Nothing but nice, safe dark. Just slip under like a stupid old whale and let all the problems be gone. Instant weight-loss.”

“Remember when you gave me hell about feeling sorry for myself? Well, that’s what you’re doing now. You’re being selfish. Believe me. I’ve been there.”

And he triptrapped a memory toward her, the one where he found the razor in the bathroom at Durham Academy, left there by a careless counselor, and he twisted the blade free and put it to his wrist without a single thought except escape.

And he felt her shudder as the metal sliced and the blood spurted, as Freeman looked down at the wound and realized this wasn’t the way he wanted to go, not as the edges of the world went gray and his thoughts slipped to the floor, not this way, not like Mom—

And he froze, his thoughts hanging like icicles. Because he’d opened that dark space under the bridge, the place where he’d hidden the bad things.

But Vicky had seen a glimpse through that brief crack, and now she probed, her curiosity making the connection stronger.

“‘Not like Mom’ what?” she asked.

“Don’t even think about it,” he said. “Don’t even try.”

“Look, a second ago, or whatever passes for time in here, you were wanting me to share everything, get inside, do the one-mind thing. You get my blubber and I get your scars. And now, when things get a little too personal, you back off. What’s it going to be, boy?”

The bridge grew dimmer. He was losing her, shutting her off, crawling back inside himself. Where he would be alone.

With the memories.

Then he knew what hell was like. It wasn’t a hot place where a pointy-tailed beast poked you with a pitchfork. Hell was inside your own head, where the doors were closed, where hope never knocked, where darkness and pain and self-pity were the only companions. Forever.

And, as the crazy dead folks could tell him, forever lasted a long time.

He reached for her again, triptrapped until his brain burned, rode the up, and this time the glow radiated from his head and through his nervous system, warming him, bringing him more fully alive than he’d ever been.

He
wanted
this.

More than he’d ever wanted anything.

“This must be faith,” he said. “Believing in something. No wonder Starlene gets so high off this stuff.”

“Believe in me, Freeman. Believe in
us
.”

The bridge flickered to life, grew strong, cut a long golden ribbon through the black deadscape. Vicky was closer now, so near Freeman could reach out and touch, even though his flesh was lost and left behind. This was a touching of the soul.

Her thoughts flooded him, her love seeping into him like warm and gentle electricity, a power of life and yearning. They probed each other’s dark spaces, threw out their fears and regrets as if they were old clothes in an attic trunk, opened the doors inside and walked together into strange rooms.

The bridge was heaven-white now, shining, the gap closing, the triptrap taking on something beyond mere mystery.

And he let some of that light into the dark place under the bridge, the place that no one was allowed to see, a memory from the day that Dad took over his head and made him kill Mom. Six years fell away like nothing in the land where time had no meaning.

Vicky was with him as Dad juiced him and triptrapped him, filled his brain with thoughts, an experiment of Dad’s mind control theory, just another day at the office for the world’s most daring pioneer, and Freeman had no choice but to leave the closet in Dad’s lab and walk through the kitchen and take the knife from the drawer and go down the hall, Dad working his legs, commanding his muscles, making Freeman
want
to do this, reminding him that Mom demanded perfection even more than Dad did, with her “no-second-chances” philosophy, convincing him that Mom was the enemy,
she
was the one who deserved to be punished for bringing Freeman into this sorry world and for letting Dad inflict all those cruel tortures on him.

Vicky opened the bathroom door with him, Mom never locked it because everybody knew that soaking time was her private time, and everyone needed a place to escape now and then, especially when Kenneth Mills was playing mind games, and the knife was in his hand and the steam on his face and Mom had her eyes closed as she lay in the tub, the soap wreathing her neck, her body beneath the bubbles, and just as he lifted the knife, she opened her eyes and smiled and the smile stayed frozen there as Dad ordered him to bring the knife down and the water turned red and she tried to say something, but he brought the knife down again and the blood trickled from her lips and Vicky screamed with him, screamed from the outside in, and Dad laughed in awe of his own power, because if he could make other people murder the ones they loved, then the world was his.

Vicky stayed with Freeman as he brought the knife down again and again, and even when his arm was tired, he couldn’t stop, Dad made him do it some more, and the tears ran down his face along with the spattered blood, and the soap bubbles cast their rainbows in red, and Dad was all over his brain, whispering things, putting sick thoughts in there, promising him that this was only the beginning, no one could stop them now that Dad knew the way in, and the Trust didn’t matter, the Trust wouldn’t understand, this type of control belonged only to those who knew how to use it.

Vicky stood with him when the knife finally clattered to the tiles and Dad came into the bathroom, and for the first time ever Dad was proud of his son, proud because he could make his son just like
him
, and Dad picked up the knife and wiped it clean on a towel and then the guys from the Trust came by and took away all of Dad’s machines and made an anonymous phone call to the police and the rest was almost history except history not only repeated itself, it never went away.

Freeman expected Vicky to draw back now that she knew. He deserved to be alone. That type of monster should be thrown to the darkness, not pitied or mourned or loved. Such a monster should be condemned to the black, cold world beneath the bridge, where it could wallow in its own hate until it drowned.

“I . . . I didn’t know,” Vicky said. And the bridge dimmed.

“Go away.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Get out of my head, damn you.”

And the bridge faded, falling to threads, dissipated like a ghost that had died a second time.

“No,” she said.

The light swelled. The link grew stronger as she came on again, sent herself out to him, grabbed with all the hunger for things Freeman called hope.

She opened herself to him, offering everything, pouring into him, and he had no shield for this, because he didn’t expect it, and had never known such a force could exist.

The bridge was as hot as the sun, even more blinding than the surrounding darkness, but Freeman could see clearly, their souls had substance, they walked toward each other across the bridge, slow motion, every step a miracle, and Freeman made himself stare straight ahead, to not look over the side of the bridge where the darkness ran like rivers in every direction and dead things flitted.

“It’s not your fault,” she said. “I understand.”

He’d heard that before. It wasn’t his fault. He was the perfect victim. He just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, his soul trapped in a body born to a man who wanted the power that only God should have.

The power to shape the souls of others. To crush them and burn them and ruin them.

The power to inflict the worst kind of pain.

“It wasn’t . . . I didn’t mean to,” he said.

Vicky’s image approached. “It will be okay, as long as we’re together.”

“I don’t think we’re coming back. To the real world, I mean. I think Dad is killing us. Back there in the real world.”

“I’m not afraid anymore.”

“Me, either.”

“Touch me.”

And they closed that final distance, the tug of their souls exerting spiritual gravity, so close, so hopeful, desperately close, a flicker and heartbeat away from joining in a union stronger than that of atoms.

Then the troll appeared.

Dad stood between them, with his black soul and his twisted brain and his sharp teeth, ready to gobble them up.

Starlene huddled in the dark cell, her arms around Dipes and Isaac. The walls quivered, the metal doors clanged in the corridors, and bits of ancient plaster fell from the ceiling. Whatever Kracowski and Mills were doing, it was tearing the building apart.

“What’s happening, Dipes?” Isaac said. “I mean, what’s
about
to happen?”

“It keeps changing,” Dipes said. “First everybody was dead and wandering around, then we were standing outside the fence, looking back at the building.”

“All of us were outside?” Starlene asked.

“No. Not Freeman and Vicky.”

“That’s what I was afraid of.” Starlene wasn’t sure that God would want people to know the future, because they might try to change it. But maybe God’s plan included taking responsibility for the future. God didn’t send you anything you couldn’t handle, even telepathy and clairvoyance and precognition.

She wondered if God would want her to reach out with her mind, to triptrap like Freeman and Vicky. Surely He wouldn’t stop her if it was His will. But, if He didn’t approve, would He blame her for trying? It might be a sin that had never come under consideration. She offered a quick prayer, linked with God in that strange and powerful way that was the biggest mind trip of all.

She asked her question and the answer came. Her heart was clear. Her soul was pure enough. She called on the memory of that brief moment in Thirteen, when she could read the thoughts of those around her.

Nothing.

Isaac peeked out the cell door. “That new doctor’s doing something to the machines.”

Starlene closed her eyes and concentrated. All she heard were her own panicked thoughts and the vibration of the building roaring in her ears. Powder poured from the crumbling masonry. She hugged the boys even more tightly.

“We’ll be okay,” she said. “God told me so.”

Isaac said to Dipes, “What did God tell
you
?”

“God’s not talking to me,” Dipes said.

Starlene tried one more time, asking God for strength if it be His will, and the voice came to her from the rear of the cell. She turned to the dark corners and saw the Miracle Woman, ethereal, whole, smiling.

“I, too, prayed to God,” the Miracle Woman said. “Every night. Even after the doctors gave me injections and I was out of my mind.”

“You died here, didn’t you? In Wendover?” she said aloud, even though the Miracle Woman’s words came into her head without the benefit of sound.

“Who are you talking to?” Isaac said. “One of your ghosts?”

The Miracle Woman grew more solid, radiant. Clothed in what looked to be a gown of sheer silver.

Isaac gasped. “I
see
her.”

“Have a little faith, Isaac,” the Miracle Woman said. “Miracles happen every day.”

“Are . . . are you an angel?” Dipes asked.

She smiled. “Whatever you believe. Someday you’ll understand, but not too soon, I hope.”

“You’re here to help us,” Starlene said.

“I’m here to help
us
,” she said, her voice hollow yet soothing. “The ones who have been disturbed from our rest.”

“What do we do now?” Starlene said.

The Miracle Woman smiled again, her eyes kind, suffused with a strange light that reminded Starlene of a candle behind smoked glass. “Look inside. Then you’ll know. And, Edmund, the answer is at your fingertips.”

The Miracle Woman faded back into darkness.

“A lot of help that was,” Isaac said. “Like some sappy line from ‘Touched By An Angel,’ where your problems get solved just in time for the commercial break. And nobody’s hair even gets messed up.”

Starlene looked out the cell door at Mills feverishly working the computer keyboard, punching in commands. The chaotic wisps of spirits swirled around him, a maelstrom of scattered soul-threads. Kracowski, his lower lip swollen and his scalp bleeding, crawled to McDonald. The utility lights above the holding tanks pulsed unevenly, as if the drain on the electrical grid was threatening a meltdown.

Then Dipes said, “Hey, look what I found,” and pressed something into her hand.

A pistol.

“You little bastard, you never did appreciate what I gave you,” Dad said.

Freeman shivered, the deadscape beyond the bridge more tempting than ever. He could drown in that lightlessness and not care. He could face dying, he didn’t mind going into the dark, as long as he was with Vicky. But not with Dad hanging around, smart or crazy enough to split himself, keep one half back there in the real world and the other here in the deadscape.

“So you think you’re going to take this little sack of vomit with you?” Dad triptrapped them both. He turned toward Vicky, his soul sharp around the edges, his form ten feet tall, his fingers ready to rip into anything that smacked of unity.

“Leave her alone,” Freeman triptrapped.

“Ah, finally growing some balls, Trooper? You were so easy to control, you pathetic little puke. I tried it on other people, even your mother, but nobody rolled over like you did. You opened up your mind and invited me in, dared me to play with it.”