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Eli had hit the nail on the head. Darin and I had just finished our salads when he followed me into the kitchen, where I bent over to check the Chicken Parmesan in the oven.

“Mmm,” he said, coming up behind me, and rubbing my ass with the palms of both hands. I straightened up, leaning back against his strong frame.

“I can see those squats have made your glutes kind of epic there, babe,” he whispered in my ear. I shivered as his lips brushed against my lobe, and then his tongue lightly flicked the outer edge.

“I’ll take that as a compliment of the highest regard,” I replied, “I have a very strict trainer, you see.”

His arms encircled me, and I felt him nuzzle the back of my neck with his nose; he nipped gently at my skin. “How about you turn the oven down and we get a little exercise before the main course?”

I smiled against him, reaching over and turning the oven dial down to nearly nothing.

Darin lifted me up, and I immediately wrapped my bare legs around his torso, allowing him to carry me off to his king-sized bed where we enjoyed an hour of play that had very few boundaries.

We had just finished dinner, and I was loading the dishwasher, when his cell rang. He looked down at it.

“Gotta take this, babe,” he said, taking several long strides out of the kitchen. I figured it was probably something with the bureau. Darin was so committed to the FBI and loved his new assignment as Intern Coordinator. He was a master of motivation; that was for damn sure.

I heard his voice raised a bit from the living room, just enough to hear him say, “I told you, Lisa, not tonight. I’m busy, babe.”

Umm…?

My ears immediately went into ‘eavesdrop’ mode, a skill I had honed growing up, as a result of all the boundaries I had crossed with my parents. They were forever disagreeing on how to handle discipline where I was concerned. I tiptoed closer to the hallway, straining to hear his side of the conversation.

“Tomorrow then, babe. Yeah, I’ve got to go now. Uh huh…Okay…miss you, too.”

What the hell?

I’m not much of a game player—with emotions, that is. I joined Darin in the living room right as he tossed his cell on the table.

“Who was that?” I asked point-blank.

He immediately looked over at me as if I had somehow crossed an arbitrary line with him.

“That was a friend of mine,” he replied, without batting an eye. “You probably know her from the program, Lisa Benedict.”

I did know her. Tall, blonde, big boobs. She was doing an internship at Quantico as well. She was another of Darin’s coachees.

“So what? Are you fucking her too?” I blurted. “I mean, I couldn’t help hearing part of your conversation,” I said, feeling my face flush.

He looked at me directly, not masking his expression. “Hey, Paige, I mean, come on here. You and me? We’re not exclusive or anything,” he said, his tone clipped. “I don’t nose into your business, and by the same token, I don’t expect you to be nosing into mine.”

I walked over to where he was standing, and made sure that my eyes met up with his.

“Huh,” I raised my shoulders and let them fall. “So you’re just my trainer who likes to keep it…physical. I get it. I mean, I kind of thought we had a little something going, but I’m so glad you took the time to clear
that
up.”

“Hey,” he replied, his hands outstretched, as if pleading his case to me. “We’ve
never
discussed exclusivity, and…I’m not at a place right now where I even
want
to consider it. Well, I mean, not with you at any rate, Paige. I mean, you’re a knock-out and all, babe, but I don’t see me getting serious with someone at the bureau…ever. It’s just not a good idea.”

Oh, I was pissed now. Royally.

“Well,” I said, nodding my head slowly. “I can see why not getting into anything serious with someone at the bureau is a good idea. However,
fucking
everyone at the bureau seems like a
great
one. God, why didn’t I think of that?” I gave him my best clueless look, “I guess I must’ve been absent the day you went over that one.”

He shrugged and nodded. “I thought you knew the score, doll. I mean, it’s not like I ever took you out on a date or anything. I figured you understood what this was about.”

Fuck you.

“Why don’t you call Lisa back, Darin? Let her know your schedule for tonight has just been freed up.”

I grabbed my purse from the sofa, and he made no move whatsoever to stop me.

“Cocksucker,” I breathed out on a harsh breath, as I pushed the door of his apartment open, taking the tattered remnants of my pride with me.

chapter 6

I was perched on the sofa in the family room, spooning the last mouthful of Ben & Jerry’s Cherry Garcia ice cream into my mouth, tossing the empty container onto the coffee table, where it joined its empty brother, ‘Chunky Monkey’ who’d gone first, when I heard Cain and Eli come in.

Shit! I just knew I was going to hear about eating up two containers of their precious ice cream. You see, I almost never indulged in that sort of thing anymore, which is why I never bought any for myself. Which is why, in crisis, I’d gotten into theirs.

You see, my boys were extremely territorial about their stuff and about my getting into it.

They had both mini-lectured me on using up their laundry detergent, borrowing their razors to shave my legs when I had run out of my disposable Lady Schicks (Cain had really been pissed about
that
one, knocking on my bedroom door with little bits of Kleenex tissue dotted with blood attached to his face, and chewing my ass out about it). So getting into their groceries was a major infraction for sure.

I braced myself for my next ass-chewing, as they came into the family room, having heard the television blaring some Lifetime flick I’d turned on. Lifetime’s movie theme just happened to be “Eating Disorder Weekend.”

And I’m not going to lie. Watching Meredith Baxter as some soccer mom with bulimia, shoveling ice cream into her mouth, as she placed her order for two large fries, a cheeseburger, a fish sandwich and two milk shakes at a drive-thru window was enough to get me into the mood for some comfort food.

They stopped short when they saw me, quickly assessing the situation.

“What happened?” Eli asked, standing in the entryway wearing nylon shorts and some kickass Nike’s. “Why are you home so early?”

I didn’t have time to even respond to his questions when Cain spoke up. “And
why
are you binge-eating Ben & Jerry’s?”

“Yeah, about that, guys. Look, I’ll replace those when I go to the grocery, I promise.”

“We’re not fucking worried about
that
,” Eli said, coming over and plopping down next to me on the sofa. “Is everything okay?”

Cain was standing there silently with his arms crossed, waiting for an answer.

“Everything’s good,” I lied. “I just don’t think that Darin and I will be seeing each other
socially
anymore. No biggie.”

“What did that fuck do?” Cain asked, a humming anger in his voice as he sat down on the other side of me.

His dark eyes seemed to get even darker as he gazed at me, waiting for some explanation that I really didn’t feel like putting out there to them. It was actually kind of embarrassing.

“It’s nothing like
that
,” I replied with a shrug. “It seems that he’s not ready for anything exclusive, which is fine. I just wasn’t aware of the rules, I guess. And now I am, so hey, it’s all good. No harm, no foul.”

“Asshat,” Eli muttered under his breath. “Are you okay, babe?” I felt his arm wrap around me, pulling me closer to him.

“I’m fine, Eli. I’m really fine. It wasn’t as if I was in love with him or anything like that.”

My words sounded empty, like maybe there was no conviction behind them. “Look, I’m gonna call it a night,” I told them, as I swept the empty ice-cream containers into one arm. “I’m still helping you with that reception tomorrow, right Cain?”

He pulled me away from Eli, forcing me to face him as he studied me. “If you don’t feel like helping with that, it’s okay, sweetie. I can get Debbie to come in.”

“Don’t be silly,” I said, leaning over and giving his handsome face a Cherry Garcia-flavored kiss. “I need the extra jack, you know? I’ve got some ice cream to replace.”

I turned from him and gave Eli a kiss on his cheek. “Night guys,” I said, heading towards the kitchen. “See y’all in the morning.”

Later in the privacy of my room, I quickly changed into my nightgown and brushed my teeth, not wanting to look at my reflection in the mirror.

The truth was that I was ashamed of myself for daring to let my guard down with a man. I very seldom had done that, maybe just once or twice before, and it had never worked out.

Why in the hell had I thought that Darin was going to be any different?

As I snuggled down under my sheets, I remembered what my last semi-boyfriend had told me when we parted. “You’re just too hard to keep up with Paige. You want it all and I’m not willing to give it all just yet. You’re not my idea of soul mate material. I’m sorry.”

That had been Ryan; a guy that I’d known all through school, but hadn’t dated until I got out of college. We had been seeing each other steadily for three months when he broke it off. He said I was getting too intense, whatever that meant. He had been the deciding factor in my coming to D.C. to find a career and, hopefully, a new beginning somewhere else.

It seemed as if my luck with men was destined to follow me wherever I went.

I didn’t really understand it, though, because I sure wasn’t big on the whole ‘Let’s get married’ or ‘Let’s live together’ thing. I was simply looking for some intimacy—a connection that was more than just good sex, something that complimented the sex, that made it more than just a physical thing, but not an ownership thing, either. Somewhere in the middle, I guess.

The best relationship I had going was the one I had with these men. How screwed up was that?

Eli and Cain were the closest thing to soul mates that I’d ever had, even though we hadn’t really been a threesome for all that long.

And the fucked-up thing about that was that they were gay and in love and devoted to one another. How could I possibly fit into that equation?

But somehow, they
did
make me feel as if I belonged with them; like they cared about me as a woman, not as baby sister like it was with Trace and Easton.

And
that
part of it was what helped me get through stuff like this. Darin the asshat…Eli was so on the mark with that one. I sighed, somehow feeling comforted by these men that I lived with.

chapter 7

Cain and I were unpacking all of the linens, china, crystal and silverware for the wedding reception that he was catering. This one happened to be in the basement underneath the church where the wedding was taking place.

“Paige, if you set up the tables, I’m going to get the coffee service going, okay?”

“Sure,” I replied, straightening out the white tablecloth at the wedding party table. “Who’s setting the bar up?”

“Dry reception,” he remarked, as he backed through the swinging door to the kitchen, waggling his eyebrows. “Sorry babe, I know you love the tips.”

That sucks.

I enjoyed working with Cain and the others at these receptions, but the most enjoyable ones were those that had a bar set up. Cain usually allowed me to work the bar and the tips were pretty substantial.

A couple of the other girls had pissed and moaned a bit because they were full-time employees, not a fill-in like I was when one of the other workers wanted a Saturday off. Cain had explained his rationale to them: He was the boss, and if they didn’t like it, then fucking go somewhere else.

Bahahaha!!

Jake and Connie came in; rolling a cart that had the wedding cake and punch bowl on it.

No expense had been spared on the cake. It was exquisitely decorated with white butter-cream frosting that had perfect fleur-de-lis trim on every layer. The decorator had done a flawless sugar-spun veil that draped from the top layer where the perfect bride and groom couple stood with arms linked and dazzling smiles painted on their faces, to where it pooled delicately around the bottom layer.

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