Read Going Where It's Dark Online
Authors: Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
T
he old fool!
Buck was thinking as he pedaled home.
Serves him right to spend the rest of his life alone with his anger.
Buck had a notion not to show up for the next session. Now that the carnival had moved on, he was determined to go back in the Hole again whether he had the headlamp or not. Also, there were two movies showing at the Palace on Saturday, and he and Nat, and probably Katie and Colby, would be going. He'd tell Jacob his dad needed him to crate up the last of the vegetables for market, which was also true.
He spent the rest of Friday morning packing lima beans, a pound to a plastic bag, and placing them in a box. Then the last of the pole beans, and finally carrots.
“How'd we do this year, DDDDad?” he asked as he lifted a heavy box to make room for another.
“Better than last year,” Don Anderson said. “Be nice to have a job that pays year-round, but then it's nice to have some time off too. Not that I get much time off at the mill.”
Buck found his dad giving him a sideways glance. “How was
your
summer? You know, Buckâ¦seems to me yourâ¦stuttering'sâ¦well, better. Have you seen a difference yourself?”
“Yeah, it doesn't bother me like it used tttto,” said Buck. “I justâ¦lllllllllet it come,” and he purposely stuttered on the
L
and grinned at how easily he could do it.
His dad returned a quizzical smile. “Whatever works,” he said.
And that afternoon, after a big ham sandwich and one of Katie's homemade milk shakes, Buck walked down to the mailbox, the early autumn wind whipping his hair, making goose bumps on his arms, and found that the headlamp had come. And because he had Joel's permission to open the package, he raced back to the house and up to his room to rip the package open.
He stood in front of his mirror and slipped the harness over his headâone strap going around the front like a headband, the other strap beginning at the lamp in front, then going backward over the top of his head and connecting with the strap around in back. It was loose now, but would be nice and snug over his bicycle helmet.
Then, his shoulders erect, eyes on the mirror, he flipped the switch.
Nothing happened. No light.
How could this be? After weeks of waitingâ¦! Yanking off the harness, Buck checked the little folded slip of instructions and found that batteries were not included. He realized that it was the more expensive headlamp he'd wanted first that came with batteries, but not this cheaper model.
No problem. He still had money from his work that summer. He grabbed his jacket, took money from his top drawer, and stuffed it in one zipper pocket. Then, unable to let the headlamp out of his sight, he folded it up the way it had come and stuffed it in the other pocket, zipping it closed.
“Want some?”
Buck jumped at the sound of Katie's voice in the doorway, and turned to see her holding out a giant bag of M&Ms, in tiny chocolate-colored packages.
“Sure,” he said, and took a handful. “Halloween already?”
She giggled. “My favorite holiday. Where you going?”
“To BBBBBealls',” he said nonchalantly. “Want anything?”
“No. We just got a ton of groceries yesterday,” she said, and went on down the hall to her room. Then, “Close the door when you go out, will you? Dad doesn't have the furnace running yet, and it's freezing in here.”
“Sure,” Buck said.
He whisked up the wrapping paper and went downstairs, careful to close the back door after him, stuffing the wrapper in the trash can by the side of the house so there would be no questions from Mom or Dad or Mel:
What the dickens do you need a headlamp for? You shouldn't be out on your bike after dark, and you know it.
And then, fastening his helmet under his chin, he was riding his bike to Bealls', the afternoon shadows lengthening on the dirt lane before him.
He needed two double A batteries, and for one brief moment he imagined Mr. Beall saying, “Well, dang it, Buck! I was sure we'd ordered some more, but I don't see them around here.”
Don't even go there,
he told himself.
You worry like David.
There were few people in the store, and the Bealls were using the free time to restock their shelves.
“Hi there, Buck. Be with you in a moment,” Mr. Beall called from a rolling ladder suspended from a rail that ran all along one wall under the ceiling. He had carefully rearranged some large packages of paper towels to make room for others. “Now what can I do for you?” he asked, climbing down, one scuffed brown shoe following the other.
“I'd like a ppppackage of double A batteries,” Buck said.
“Sure thing.” Mr. Beall turned and faced the battery case, running his finger along each tiny row. His fingernail had dark vertical lines on it. “A two-pack, four-pack, or six?”
“Uhâ¦make it four,” said Buck.
“There you go.” Mr. Beall placed them on the counter, and Buck's heart did the little pleasure jump. As he rang up the sale, the man said, “You seem to be doing all right these days, Buck. Glad to see it.”
Buck gave him a puzzled smile, then realized he meant the stuttering. Weird that people didn't come right out and say the word, like it might be catching or something.
“Yeah,” he said, and then, mischievously, “I'm dddddddoing okkkkkkkkay.”
He pedaled along the road, wild to get home and try it outâin some really dark place, and he wasn't about to wait until evening. A closet, maybe. Or the basement. Yeah, that was it. In the old windowless coal bin that hadn't been used for maybe eighty years.
Was it really as powerful as the advertisement said? Would it shine light eighty yards out in front of him? Think what the inside of the Hole would look like if he came to an opening in the rock and could really see all around him. It hadn't rained now for over a week. So, tomorrow? Could he possibly sneak off tomorrow? Mel was coming home, but that shouldn't matter. And maybe Dad would be at the sawmill helping Gramps and Joel. It might workâ¦.And Jacob? To heck with Jacob.
He was riding down the long stretch of pavement bordered by tall pines on either side, making it seem as though evening had come already, when he heard an engine noise from behind. He edged over to the right, carefully steering his way along the narrow strip between the white line and the edge of the paving, waiting for the vehicle to pass.
But it didn't.
Buck could tell by the sound that it was slowing as it came alongside him, and suddenly it was so close that he struggled to steady his bike.
He glanced over to see who was driving and saw Pete Ketterman at the wheel of his dad's Nissan pickup, an old 1990 model. The next thing he knew, his bike was bumping and bouncing along the shoulder of the road, and then he was tumbling down into the gulley, his bike on top of him.
“Oh, gee, looks like you had a little accident!” Pete called, getting out and coming around. “And here we are, ready to help.” Then, looking quickly up and down the deserted road, he said to the others, who had climbed out too, “Get him in the truck, guys, and throw the bike in back. We'll give him a ride.”
“No, I cccccan get home myself,” said Buck, his leg entangled in the frame of his bike, one pedal still spinning.
“Hey, what are friends for?” Pete said, and to the others, “C'mon, hurry.”
“Where are we supposed to put him?” asked Rod. “In the cab?”
“Where else? Sit on him, if you have to. Hurry.”
And suddenly four sets of hands were grasping Buck's arms and legs. “Get
away
from me!” Buck yelled, kicking. But with eight hands on him, yanking him up out of the weeds and carrying him to the truck, it was no use.
He was wrestled to the small floor space between the back of the front seats and the two jump seats in the rear of the cab. Buck heard the clunk of his bicycle as it was tossed in the bed of the pickup, and then he felt knees and feet stepping on and over him as Rod and Isaac worked their way into the jump seats.
He heard Pete climb back into the truck, heard Ethan's laughter coming from the passenger seat, and he lay facedown, scrunched into an awkward position, legs bent backward at the knees, feet over his rump.
The engine started up, but the pickup didn't move, waiting for another car to pass, and then it shot forward with a squeal of tires and headed up the road.
“So, where we going?” asked Isaac above the truck's rumble.
“I'm thinking,” said Pete, and drove on. And then, in a falsely cheery note, he called to Buck, “Hey, Buck-o, we're your
friends,
remember? The nice guys whose duck blind you demolished? Just going to help you out, buddy. One good turn deserves another, right? Going to give you a little spâ¦spâ¦spâ¦spâ¦speech lesson, that's all.”
Frightened as he was, and smushed beneath two pairs of dirty sneakers, Buck managed to say, “Wasn't your plywood.”
“Yeah? Wasn't your land either. You know how long it took us to make that duck blind?”
Buck could have made a comment about how it sure didn't look like a duck blind to him and Mel, and did they have hunting licenses, but he didn't.
“Eleven weeks! Yup! Eleven weeks of hard labor, all torn down in one afternoon, by El Creepo and his big bad thug of an uncle.”
How did Pete manage to be driving his dad's pickup?
Buck wondered.
And with all his friends onboard?
You couldn't get a driver's license in Virginia until you were sixteen, but you could get a learner's permit at fifteen and a half. Most kids entering high school were thirteen or fourteen, but if you'd been held back a year somewhere along the way, usually kindergarten if your birthday didn't quite make the cutoff for first grade, you could end up the oldest, strongest, tallest, and possibly brightest kid in class from then on. Buck didn't know about smartest, but Pukeman was probably one of the bigger, stronger boys going into high school. Still, he wasn't just running a quick errand for his dad. He had all his friends on board.
He wondered about his bike, if anything was broken. Where
were
they going? They sure weren't taking him home because they'd have reached his road by now, and he had felt the truck making no right turns.
There was no point in wrestling with them. No way he could reach the windows to signal for help, and he could yell all he liked, but no one would hear.
They were probably going to pour beer down him again, and leave him way out in the country to make his way home, royally drunk. What if he refused to swallow, and just let the beer pour down his chin? Could they
force
someone to swallow? He didn't think they'd beat him up. Not even Pukeman would stoop so low as to put one guy up against four. But one at a time?
Another stab of fear coursed through him, and his breath came in short hurried gasps, keeping time, it seemed, with every other beat of his heart. He inhaled the dust and dirt on the floor, the smell of Isaac's sneakers.
“Where we going, Pete?” Rod called after five minutes or so of winding around and around. If they had skipped the turnoff to the Andersons' place, then they must have missed the turnoff to the Kettermans' as well, and were heading out into more rocky terrain. Every bump in the road made Buck's forehead bounce. He turned his head occasionally to work out the crick in his neck, but it didn't help. There were Hostess cupcake wrappers on the floor, and an empty pop can that rolled and lodged against his face from time to time.
“Yeah, where we heading? The boondocks?” said Ethan.
“Got an idea,” Pete told them. “A
really
good idea. Little Buck-o's going to get a super-duper lesson. Heck, we might even cure this guy in a single afternoon. Now wouldn't
that
be something? He
might
even learn something about not messing with other people's stuff.” Over his shoulder, he asked, “Did anyone notice if there was rope back there along with the other stuff we picked up for my dad?”