Good Intentions (Welcome to Paradise) (Volume 2) (24 page)

“I hope you don’t mind me bringing you to another place on the beach, but I heard great things about this restaurant and thought it would be nice to try,” Evan says, unsure of his choice in establishments.

“It’s heaven on earth here.”

We’re lead to table for two out on the back patio. “It’s breathtaking. Private and romantic.” As he holds my chair for me, I lean up and kiss him on the cheek. “Thank you for bringing me here, baby.”

Sitting back in the chair, I don’t worry about ordering or drinks. Evan has great taste and his fancy upbringing shines through at restaurants. I feel safe with him and know he’ll take care of me. Since he’s driving, he only has one beer to my several glasses of champagne. We enjoy the catch of the day and local vegetables, ending the meal with a homemade upside pineapple cake. I have a physical reaction when eating it, remembering what he has done to me with pineapple. He laughs because he knows my mind is in the gutter. I can’t help but savor and moan with each bite I take. It makes me wonder if I’ll ever look at a pineapple the way I used to again.

We’re walking back to the car when he stops me and kisses me in the moonlight. My body heats from his touches and my insides alight with fire for him as his hands glide down my bottom pulling me tighter to his body.

My hands graze over his length and I feel it harden beneath his shorts. He picks me up abruptly and tosses me quickly over his shoulder, and slaps my ass, hard. After setting me down, I duck into the seat, and when he gets into the car, he leans in next to my ear and says, “Don’t think you’ll get away with making me hard. You know what they say. ‘Revenge is sweet.’”

My head is thrown against the headrest as he peels out of the lot. I watch him carefully as he commands the car and the road while smiling deviously. He definitely has more than the road on his mind.

A sudden turnoff leads us on a dirt road where he parks in the dark between two sugar cane fields. His seatbelt snaps open and mine goes flying and we’re all hands and wet lips, moans, and sensations.

“I will never get enough of you, baby, not ever,” he moans against my collarbone as he stretches my collar to the side, exposing more skin.

The top is opened as our clothes come off.

We never have to wait for either of us to be in the mood or ready because when it comes to each other, we’re always in the mood. So as much as I enjoy foreplay, in times like these, it isn’t necessary. Reaching into his pocket, I pull out that familiar little packet and soon after, I’m rocking gently back and forth on top of him. Holding my hips, he closes his eyes as his lips part. His face is pure ecstasy that elicits sexual cravings that were long buried until he coaxed them to the surface. I close my eyes and get lost in the feeling as he balances between falling and bliss, then gives in wholly.

Dropping his forehead against my chest, his breathing is ragged as it races mine unsteadily and we come back to reality, to the here and now.

He finally looks up and says, “We’re in a sugar cane field.”

I shake my head, laughing with him. “Like pineapple, I’m never gonna look at sugar the same way now.”

Companionable silence fills the drive back to the airport. We’re finding ourselves in a serene quietness more often these last few days we have together. I fall asleep in the car as we leave the airport. I vaguely remember him carrying me to bed and sliding in next to me, his warm skin against mine. But I definitely remember his sweet kisses and I hear him as he whispers, “You’re my future and my everything.”

“This fucking sucks!” My anger is getting the best of me. Maybe it’s grief I’m feeling. I don’t know, but I do know this sucks.

“We knew this was coming,” she says, much calmer than me.

“I can be pissed if I want. Can you let me be pissed? Wait, you’re not? You’re just gonna accept this bullshit?”

“Evan…” Her voice instantly soothes me as my name rolls off her tongue like she’s said it for years. “I have to leave. I don’t
want
to leave, but I have to.” She tucks her head against my chest, fists my t-shirt, and loses eye contact with me as she whispers, “Don’t make me be the strong one because I can’t. I’m not. I need you to be the brave one here. Remember last night...”

I chased her down the path. Although, we got caught in another rainstorm, we laugh, both of us a bit delirious from the day. She’s about to reach for the door when I catch her.

“Not so fast, pretty girl,” I say, feeling the electricity between us.

She smiles and I die inside knowing that I won’t get to see her face every day. I’ve been spoiled by this sweet angel giving me all her days and nights. I possessively take hold of her wrists and like so many fun-loving times before, the air stills as our connection intensifies. I can’t help myself when it comes to her and I refuse not to take what I need and give her what she wants.

I kiss her.

Rain pours down harder and I wrap my arms around her, engulfing her body, her love, her soul. I shamelessly take possession of what’s mine and claim her once again.

She breaks away from me and giggles, but it’s shallow, followed by an anxious laugh, one that borders on fun and heavier emotions. The moment sinks in and she knows where this is going.

“I’m cold, let’s go inside,” she says, taking my hand. She leads me into the bathroom, our dripping clothes hanging heavy like my heart just looking at her.

Tomorrow… tomorrow… tomorrow.

She doesn’t leave until tomorrow. Make the most of today.

She starts the shower then backs up and takes her clothes off, slowly peeling them away from her rain-drenched skin. Tilting her head, she narrows her eyes busting me, sometimes feeling like she knows me better than I know myself. I’m memorizing this moment and everything that’s contained within it, needing to remember all of it. These are the memories that I’ll hold onto, when we’re apart.

“C’mon,” she whispers, her breath sending shivers against my cold body as she lifts my shirt up.

Once naked, she pulls me under the warm water and hugs her body to mine. I stroke down her slickened hair, holding my lips pressed firmly to hers, needing to feel her like this.

She lets out the smallest of moans—a moan of pleasure escaping from a smile. She doesn’t look up, but says, “Hold me.” She sounds confident in what she wants, in what she needs.

I strain to look down, lowering my head so I can see her hidden face. She smiles and I can’t help but think aloud. “You look so fucking innocent right now. No makeup, hair all wet, and stuck to your head. Tell me I didn’t corrupt you this summer. That this is what you want, baby?”

“You know I went into this with my eyes wide open.”

“No, I need to hear the words. Tell me I’m what you want, that I can actually make you happy.”

“Don’t doubt yourself. You’re all I want and I’ve wanted you since the moment I laid eyes on you.” Her eyes look up in thought and she corrects herself, “Okay, maybe not the first time I saw you because we all remember that, but you had me at the restaurant where we really talked for the first time.” She looks down. “You knew me even then. You saw beyond all the bullshit. You saw me, the real me. You had me all figured out and though I wouldn’t have admitted then, everything you said was true.”

I lift her chin up and kiss her sweetly like she deserves. “I want you. I always fucking want you and it scares the shit out of me. I don’t want to disappoint you like I have everyone else.” My heart is racing with the energy flowing between us and I close my eyes, inhaling her into me. “I want to be all that you need and this separation is really freaking me the fuck out.”

My hand gravitates toward my hair for some comfort tugging, but she grabs it and says, “No. You’re not going to do this. I can’t go there. And I’m begging you, Evan, don’t go down that road either. My heart…” She sniffles as her eyes well with tears. “Kiss me and make the world go away just for a little while, babe. Will you do that for me?”

Our eyes meet and we spend a moment looking into the others’, reading the fear and the love that mingles within. I move slowly down and kiss her forehead, her nose, her eyelids, her cheeks, and her chin before I kiss her lips again—soft and gentle, not rushed, but sensual.

“I want to make love to you tonight.” I reach behind her and turn the shower lever off.

Grabbing a towel from the hook, I wrap it around her and then wrap my own towel around myself. As we dry our bodies, our love draws us back together. We kiss, wet hair, dewy skin, high on emotions, we kiss, giving our all.

Silently following her into the bedroom, it’s quiet, almost too quiet, but we’re not sad, more reflective and grateful for the remaining hours together. We don’t want to fill the hours with nonsense or drown in the unknown of what lies ahead, so we stay quiet, settling onto the mattress. My arm goes out, welcoming her into my side. She snuggles and we lay there appreciating what seems to be the last of the calm before the storm of reality that will separate us.

We lay there, eyes open, unmoving, deepened breathing, lost in our own thoughts for hours. Several times I feel a small yawn against my side. Sometimes she smiles, but stays silent, her own thoughts making her react.

But the silence starts messing with my head. I don’t want silence. I want Mallory’s laughter, her words, her voice, and her breath to swallow me whole, to take me under, and fill my soul as she’s done for the last two months.

I roll over, needing the change in scenery, but seeing her face, eyes, lips… I have to kiss her. My more selfish side takes over and I lean forward. I run my thumb across her bottom lip before clearing the way for my own lips.

We’ve spent the entire day in one long session of foreplay building up to this moment. I push my hips, rolling her onto her back as I position myself between her legs. The look in her eyes is strong, willing, vulnerable, and sincere. I enter her. She’s soft and overwhelming, grounding me to her with every breath that she takes.

I struggle for control—one side needing to take her and to own her completely. The other side, never wanting this to end—giving into her, total surrender of heart, mind, and soul.

My mind is in overdrive as I make love to her knowing this will be the last time for a while, maybe forever. It’s hard to digest this concept that is starting to override my pleasure. I want to lose myself in her as I’ve done all summer, but I can’t. So I watch her intently as she seems to have the same struggles. For some reason, it’s a relief to see her waging her own internal battle.

Even with the warring, that familiar feeling starts spreading from my groin to my stomach and outward to all of my limbs. With barely enough sense remaining in my brain, I move to stroke her. Her battle dissolves before my eyes and under my hand.

Falling as she does, I push her hands tightly against the mattress and both of us vocalizing our release and submission to each other.

“Goodbye’s are bullshit,” I mumble, walking out the door and up the path. I throw her suitcase into the trunk and load her carry-on into the backseat. Only ten minutes left until we have to leave.

Ten minutes until she leaves.

Ten minutes.

I walk back into the house and see her anxiously shutting the top drawer of my dresser.

“Hey,” I announce, not wanting her to think I was sneaking up on her.

She turns abruptly, pressing her back against the dresser, clearly guilty of something. “Hey.” She walks over to the bed and flops down on it. “I guess that’s everything.”