Gut Instinct (20 page)

“Fucking hurt you, what the fuck do you think you did to me when I gave birth to you, how hurt do you think I am, that I was given such a useless lump for a son.

How fucking hurt
do
you think I feel that you have lost me any opportunity I could have had with a bloke. 

How fucking hurt do you
think
I am that I am sat here day after day, lonely with just a deformed idiot to pass my days with. 

How fucking hurt
do
you......................”

At that point I turned, picked up my bags and left never to hear her voice again, never to see her face again
.

I left the only home I had ever known, the home that was my prison for sixteen miserable years...........
but
not without its eradication, not without doing the one thing that I had always wanted to do.

I eliminated her from my life in just the way she deserved.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

My second elimination was my penis.

Chapter T
hirty

Tuesday 29
th
April

Paul was stinking mad
again;
he had been
humiliated
and undermined once again
by his boss.

Stephen had called a briefing at two o’clock today. 

T
he
y had discussed the
murders
and any leads to date which were very few.  The murders had
been on a fortnight
ly
basis,
therefore
the consensus in the homicide division was that he
would strike again this Friday, and that his victim would
almost certainly be at Jason’s. 

So Stephen
had told them all to cancel any plans they had for Friday night as they were going undercover.

About time Paul had thought, he’d been going down there undercover off his own back anyway and had been since the second murder, unbeknown to them lot. 

There had been nothing notable, however
he had given things some thought and recognised that
he
had
n’t know
n on these occasions what he had been
looking for and neither did they, so Paul had asked if he should put together a profile of what the killer might look like, so that they had some idea what they might be
on the lookout for
. Well he shou
ld have known fucking better!  Steph
e
n
had
retorted
:

“No thanks Paul, the team will manage on their gut instincts like they’ve been trained to do.  If I needed a criminal profiler I would have acquired one externally, with far more
experience than you have, so just get your glad
rags
on, on Friday and learn from this team how we do things around here”

That was it, put in his place and subject closed, and that wasn’t
the worst.  Stephen couldn
’t go obviously because there is a chance that the perpetrator knows him, given the message he left at the last scene, so the imbecile Roberts has put John flipping
Waterstone
in charge,
who
couldn’t organise a piss up in a brewery.

This was going to be chaos he just knew it, felt it in
his
gut and in his head. 

So, instead of getting mad, he had a plan
. He was not going to roll a joint tonight, he needed to stay focused.

These murders were happening at an unbelievable frequency, they had left the community on edge, and someone had to do something and the only one that could was him he felt.

“I will do a criminal profile in my own time and at least one of us will know what we might be looking for” he’d decided and so he sat down with a pad and pen and made a start.

Okay he thought what
do
I
know about serial killers, he knew that
:

M
ost of them were organized
and nonsocial. Most of them also follow some other basic patterns.

More than 80 percent of serial killers are male, Caucasian and in their 20s or 30s.

They are generally intelligent, and they usually kill Caucasian women. There's no way to "tell" a serial killer simply by his appearance -- most of them look like everyone else.

Often, serial killers exhibited three behaviors in childhoo
d:
bed-wetting, arson and cruelty to animals. They are also likely to have come from broken homes and been abused or neglected.

Although some are shy and introverted, others are gregarious and outgoing but actually feel very isolated.

Many theorists point to the troubled childhoods of serial killers as a possible reason for their actions.

He began swiftly jotting down all the information they had on the girls that had been murdered
:

Jane
             
             
Lizzie
             
             
             
Floss

             
All had been to Jason’s

             
All single - Two were single parents

All in their 30’s

             
All spiked with date rape drug

             
All suffocated with their own pillow

No DNA

No forced entry

No trace evidence left of
Rohanol

So what did this lead him to hypothesize?
  He began to build a profile, matching the information they had with a serial killers pattern which he wrote in bold.
  Underlining what he felt was the most probable of the facts.

The perpetrator frequented this
nightclub
often.  Did he have some sort of a grudge with the nightclub or was he just an
opportunist, knew the type of girl that frequented the place.

Serial killers seek out their victim, by focusing on those venues he is most likely to find the type of person he has chosen to prey on.

He didn’t like
single parents
, so maybe he was an estranged partner of a single parent didn’t see his kids or
he was the child of a single mother who abused him in some way.

The killer’s thought process when looking for his victim involved looking around for someone on who to lay the blame for his/her anger and hatred.

He may have been mentally fighting a dominant woman in his life, perhaps his mother. Theorists maintained that most serial killers had experienced emotional problems in their own childhoods.

All
the girls were
spiked with a date rape drug however none of them appeared to have been raped. Vera was probably right on that one
he didn’t feel that he could overpower them
. So he is possibly slight in build.

However this guy had
no sexual motivation
at all in his crimes, this was unusual, there was generally some form of sex act performed even if it was to cut the sexual areas of the body. The girls were fully clothed, so no sexual curiosity either.

Could have an
insight into police procedures
and know that if the girl put up a struggle then there could be DNA in her fingernails.
He’d met his match with Floss though and she had put up a fight
, he
possibly
hadn’t expected this.

All
suffocated with a pillow
,
didn’t need to carry a weapon
with him, most homes have a pillow, was this just in case he was caught
before he killed them,
perhaps.

None of them were violent crimes, which was atypical in itself.
(
with
the exception again of Floss, but this may have been due to the
R
ohypnol not having the usual effect).

Most serial killers were violent and characteristically they would get more adventurous, more violent at each occurrence, they would get more courageous too, making mistakes, this was how they usually got caught.

These had all been soft murders, gentle murders, someone effeminate perhaps. 
A girl/
A
woman
?

There were exceptions to the rule he thought.

There had been female serial killers, serial killers who began murdering during childhood.

There was no forced entry on all the scenes. 
The
women knew him or
her
,
the women trusted him or her. 
Most women will let a woman in late at night
but not a man?

Most serial killers once they have identified their victim-to-be, then try to win his/her confidence.

He underlined all the main p
oints that he had hunches about, and racked his brain for more information on the sequence of
serial
killers behaviour.  Then he remembered:

The moment of actually causing the victims death, is normally the emotional high for most confessed seri
al killers.

The serial killer’s feeling of triumph normally fades rapidly once the victim is dead, so to prolong his/her pleasure, he/she will often remove and take a souvenir or totem associated with the victim.

No evidence so far of him taking a souvenir, he thought. 
This was the only thing that
struck him as
odd and that
threw
him off
course.
  Most of the serial killers that he had read about took some sort of souvenir.

He moved on to
to look at the
rest of the evidence:

All were left messages:

Jane:
“Guess who?”

Lizzie:
“Another one bites the dust!”

Floss:
“
Stephen,
gives every bird a worm, but he does not throw it into the nest”

Now that last one is interesting
, it is Stephen
he is taunting.

F
irst th
ing in the morning he made a note to himself to ask Vera, who had already been allocated the job of
look
ing
up
all the arrests that Stephen had
made over the years
, for her list
and see if any of them match his
profile.

Stephen gives every bird a worm, but does not throw it into the
nest,
he repeated what the bloody hell does that mean?

He hadn’t got a clue.  He then started to look at building a profile with the limited material that he had.

The perpetrator is:

Someone who visited Jason’s regularly

Was a child of an abusive single
mother,

Was slight in build

Was not sexually motivated by the crimes,

Didn’t like violence

Possibly effeminate – A girl or woman?

Possibly knew the ins and outs of police investigative work.

Knew the girls or was someone they could trust.

Something was missing, something did not add up, he went into the kitchen to make himself a cup of tea and then he had the brainwave, the revelation
, the CUPS! 

He kept the cups or glasses that he spiked; they belonged to
each of
the girls,
that’s
why they couldn’t find them.

“I’m clever” he boasted “Far too clever for them”

And that’s not all he mused.

After a killer causes a death, ‘post-homicidal depression’ sets in and triggers the cycle of steps to beginning all over again.

This is why a serial killer kills more than once and isn’t known to stop killing until he/she is caught or dies.

And I am going to be the one to catch him. 

Then we will see the look on Stephen Roberts face!
He gloated.

Chapter T
hirty-One

Friday 02
nd
May