Authors: Helen Macdonald
Tags: #Birdwatching Guides, #Animals, #Personal Memoirs, #Nature, #Biography & Autobiography, #Birds
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A headlong dive of rage – The Goshawk
, p. 15.
2
Your eye must see a composition
– Henri Cartier Bresson, 1957, in Adam Bernstein, ‘The Acknowledged Master of the Moment’,
The Washington Post,
Thursday 5 August, 2004, p. A01.
1
Days of attack
–
The Goshawk,
p. 36.
2
I had only just escaped
– T. H. White, in Sylvia Townsend Warner,
T. H. White: A Biography
, p. 90.
3
I had been a schoolmaster
– T. H. White, unpublished manuscript ‘A Sort of Mania’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
4
patient excursion into the fields
–
The Goshawk
, p. 27.
5
dropped out of the curious . . . monastic boy
– T. H. White, entry for 20 January 1938 in unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Horse’
,
Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
6
a velvet stoole
– Edmund Bert,
An Approved Treatise of Hawkes and Hawking.
1619, repr. Thames Valley Press, Maidenhead, 1972, p. 22.
7
I had a sort of schoolgirlish ‘pash’
– T. H. White, unpublished manuscript ‘A Sort of Mania’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
8
The old hawk masters had invented a means
–
The Goshawk
, p. 16.
9
Man against bird
–
ibid
, p. 28.
10
but the tragedy had to be kept out
–
ibid
, p. 64.
1
tolerate a loss of self
– A. D. Hutter, ‘Poetry in psychoanalysis: Hopkins, Rossetti, Winnicott’,
International Review of PsychoAnalysis
, vol. 9, 1982, pp. 303–16, p. 305. See: John Keats, letter to Richard Woodhouse, 27 October 1818, in John Keats,
Selected Letters
, Oxford University Press, Oxford, 2002, pp. 147–9.
1
6.15–6.45 walked round + round Gos
– T. H. White, unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Flying Supplement’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
2
It was not that one drank enough
–
The Goshawk
, p. 68.
3
The key to her management
– Gilbert Blaine,
Falconry,
Philip Allan, 1936
,
p. 181.
4
the grand secret of discipline
– Edward Michell,
The Art and Practice of Hawking,
Methuen, 1900, p. 83.
5
her eye doth still behold
. . .
acquainted with any thing
– Edmund Bert,
An Approved Treatise of Hawkes and Hawking
, p. 16.
1
For the goshawk, the necessity
–
The Goshawk
, p. 52.
2
all the family . . . He bates repeatedly on these trips
– T. H. White, entry for Thursday 30 July, unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Flying Supplement’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
3
He had to learn to stand that bustle –
The Goshawk
, p. 101.
4
the red moon . . . had seen to sink as a yellow one at dawn
–
ibid
, p. 53.
5
On the pastoral craze as cultural salvage, see Jed Esty,
A Shrinking Island: Modernism and National Culture in England
, Princeton University Press, 2003.
6
I thought of the small race
–
The Goshawk
, p. 81.
1
She purrs and chirps
– Humphrey ap Evans,
Falconry For You
, John Gifford, 1960, p. 36.
2
peculiar and somewhat sulky
– Gilbert Blaine,
Falconry
, Philip Allan, 1936, p. 179.
3
Never was there a more contrary
– Frank Illingworth,
Falcons and Falconry
, Blandford Press Ltd., 1948, p. 74.
4
not like her or her kin
– Charles Hawkins Fisher,
Reminiscences of a Falconer
, John Nimmo, 1901, p. 17.
5
a thousand pities
– Gage Earl Freeman and Francis Henry Salvin,
Falconry: Its Claims, History and Practice
, Longman, Green, Longman and Robert, 1859, p. 216.
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sociable and familiar . . . altogether shye and fearfull . . . stately and brave
– Simon Latham,
Lathams New and Second Booke of Falconry
, Roger Jackson, 1618, p. 3.
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joye in her selfe . . . my playfellow
– Edmund Bert,
An Approved Treatise of Hawkes and Hawking
, pp. 41–2.
8
crazy and suspicious
–
The Goshawk
, pp. 146–7.
9
man who for two months
–
ibid
, p. 37.
10
The thing he most hates
– T. H. White, entry for 14 August 1936 in unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Flying Supplement’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
11
monkish elite . . . small, tenacious sect
– Lord Tweedsmuir, ‘Gos and Others’,
Spectator Harvest
, ed. Henry Wilson Harris, Ayer Publishing, 1970, pp. 7–9, p. 8.
12
deeply rooted in the nature . . . born, not made
– Gilbert Blaine,
Falconry
, Philip Allan, 1936, p. 13.
13
It was not until I had kept some hawks
– T. H. White, unpublished manuscript ‘A Sort of Mania’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
14
that ancestor’s bony hand
–
The Goshawk
, p. 18.
15
the wind in your face
– J. Wentworth Day,
Sporting Adventure
, Harrap, 1937, p. 205.
16
Falconry is certainly of high descent . . . I believe he was mistaken
– Gage Earl Freeman and Francis Henry Salvin,
Falconry: Its Claims, History and Practice
, pp. 3–4.
1
Skipping and leaping
–
The Goshawk
, p. 100.
2
was evidently a matter of exquisite assessment
–
ibid
, p. 95.
3
Now, now
–
ibid
, p. 105.
4
a hump-backed aviating Richard III
–
ibid
, p. 106.
5
I braced the breast muscles
–
ibid
, p. 107.
6
grow up a big, brave . . . any of these noble things
–
England Have My Bones
, pp. 349–50.
7
I cry
prosit
loudly
– T. H. White, entry for Thursday 27 August, unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Horse’, Harry Ransom Humanities Reasearch Center, University of Texas at Austin.
8
the wisdom of certainty
– T. H. White, unpublished manuscript ‘You Can’t Keep a Good Man Down’, pp. 261–2, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
9
To anybody who has spent two months
–
ibid
, p. 271.
10
‘You went back to school voluntarily
–
ibid
, p. 263.
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avoid the kicks which frighten me . . . actually a horrible surprise . . . only a man
– T. H. White, entry for 25 August 1936 in unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Horse’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
1
insensate El Dorado
–
The Goshawk
, p. 124.
2
It had hardly any breaking strain. It had already been broken twice
–
ibid, p. 123.
3
You bloody little sod . . . my fault
–
ibid
, p. 124.
1
To him I am still the rarely tolerated enemy, and to me he is always the presence of death
– T. H. White, entry for 2 September 1936 in unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Horse’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
2
I have lived for this hawk . . . never seen before
–
ibid.
3
growing sensual
– Sylvia Townsend Warner,
T. H. White: A Life
, p. 29.
4
He has been frightened into insanity . . . and persecution
– T. H. White, entry for 2 September 1936 in unpublished manuscript notebook ‘Horse’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
1
Rooks observed to be mobbing
– Gilbert Blaine,
Falconry,
Philip Allan, 1936, p. 199.
2
I cannot remember that my heart stopped beating
–
The Goshawk
, p. 136.
3
Love asketh but himself
– William Blake, ‘The Clod and the Pebble’, misquoted in
The Goshawk
, p. 147.
1
The exhibition was the excellent
Three Days of the Condor
by Henrik Håkansson, Kettle’s Yard, Cambridge.
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Consider this, and in our time . . . look there
– W. H. Auden ‘Consider this’ (first published 1930) in
The English Auden
, ed. Edward Mendelson, Faber & Faber, 1978, p. 46.
2
Silver-gold through the blue haze
– T. H. White, unpublished manuscript notebook ‘ETC’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
3
He was a Hittite
–
The Goshawk
, p. 214.
4
I now flinch from anything frightful
– Siegfried Sassoon, unpublished letter to T. H. White, 15 October 1952, p. 1, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
5
tonic for the less forthright savagery
–
The Goshawk
, p. 212.
6
At a particular point in the journey
– T. H. White, ‘The Hastings Caves’,
Time and Tide Magazine
, 8 December 1956, p. 152.
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It will be charming to have a rest
– T. H. White,
The Once and Future King
, G. P. Putnam’s Sons, New York, 1958, p. 228.
1
get for you a other passager Gos
–
The Goshawk
, p. 187.
2
Plan for a Passage Gos . . . turns at this
– T. H. White, annotations to inside cover of Edmund Bert’s
Treatise of Hawkes and Hawking
, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
3
It made me feel cleaner
– T. H. White, letter to John Moore, in Sylvia Townsend Warner,
T. H. White: A Biography
, p. 92.
4
Think of Lust . . . like that
–
The Goshawk
, p. 204.
1
humans and animals can turn into each other
– Rane Willerslev, ‘Not Animal, Not Not-Animal: Hunting, Imitation and Empathetic Knowledge among the Siberian Yukaghirs’,
The Journal of the Royal Anthropological Institute
, Vol. 10, No. 3 (Sept. 2004), pp. 629–52, p. 659.
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Nature in her green, tranquil woods
– John Muir,
John of the Mountains: The Unpublished Journals of John Muir
, ed. Linnie Marsh Wolfe, 1938, repr. University of Wisconsin Press, Madison, Wisconsin, 1979, p. 208.
2
Earth hath no sorrows that earth cannot heal
–
ibid
, p. 99.
3
On mourning in children and adults, see Melanie Klein, ‘Mourning and its relation to manic depressive states’, in
The Writings of Melanie Klein, Volume 1, Love, Guilt and Reparation
, The Hogarth Press, 1940, pp. 344–69.
1
‘Parfay!’ quath he
–
Sir Orfeo and Sir Launfal
, ed. Lesley Johnson and Elizabeth Williams, The University of Leeds School of English, Leeds, 1984, p. 11.
2
He departed secretly
– Geoffrey of Monmouth,
Vita Merlini,
ed. and trans. John J. Parry,
Illinois Studies in Language and Literature 10
, 1925, pp. 243–380.
3
With the passion of an Edgar Wallace
– T. H. White, ‘King Arthur in the Cottage’,
Readers’ News
, Volume 2, Number 3, August 1939, pp. 26–7, p. 26.
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It seems impossible to determine
– Letter to L. J. Potts, 14 January 1938, in
T. H. White, Letters to a Friend
, pp. 86–7.
5
Every comely man
– John Cheever,
The Journals,
Jonathan Cape, 1990, p. 219.
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The story of Puppy Mason is in T. H. White, unpublished manuscript fragment ‘A Valentine’, Harry Ransom Humanities Research Center, University of Texas at Austin.
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Kingdom of Grammerie
– Sylvia Townsend Warner,
T. H. White: A Life
, p. 99.