Healer's Touch (45 page)

They kept a brisk pace despite being almost certain no one tailed them any longer. Braph had other concerns, and while Turhmos knew of Llew’s existence, and might have located her trail from Duffirk, they didn’t know what she looked like and she wouldn’t be leaving any more clues for them.

At the first town, Hisham called in to purchase a new shirt for Jonas and a covering for Cassidy. On his return, he reported a combination of celebration and trepidation. While belief in Jonas’ death removed a Quaven military advantage, the townsfolk were apprehensive of their leaders sending the country to war to take advantage of the situation.

Jonas didn’t like the chances of war, either. Llew suspected their stay in Brurun would be brief, since Jonas and Hisham would be needed in Quaver before long. And Llew . . . Well, Llew would be a captive.

The trio carried on, looking relatively inconspicuous apart from Cassidy’s body resting over his horse’s back. They stopped for the night in a forest clearing, and enjoyed a meal of roasted rabbit, the spoils of a brief hunting effort after sundown. Jonas and Hisham bickered like brothers over whose job it was to divide up the spoils, and not for the first time Llew wondered what it would have been like to have a sibling, or even a close friend. She supposed Kynas had been a good friend to her at one time. She missed those early years of being together, learning the craft, or simply playing. Her gaze, once more, settled on Cassidy’s still covered form now laid out on the ground, and she thought of her own father, also lying dead in the heart of Turhmos: only he was alone. It seemed no matter how much she wished she wouldn’t, she was going to cry again. She blinked back the sting of tears and sniffed.

With a plate of hot rabbit in one hand, Jonas eased down to sit beside her and, laying his other arm across her shoulders, he drew her into him.

“It weren’t your fault,” he said, and offered the plate of oily meat to her.

She’d said those same words to him at one time, reminding him that he wasn’t at fault just because he hadn’t been at home when his wife was murdered. She didn’t know if he was talking about Braph taking her, her father dying, or even if he meant Cassidy’s passing. But she did know one thing: she had been present for them all. And yet, he was right. At least, part of her wanted to believe so.

When it came time to roll out bedrolls, Jonas and Llew found themselves standing helplessly over two lots of bedding.

“You can sleep in your own, if you like, thanks to Alvaro.”

“No, we could share,” Llew said. They’d shared a bedroll the previous night. That Jonas had barely been conscious hadn’t made a difference, surely.

Hisham shuffled into his own bedroll, unaffected by the couple’s decisions; he’d still be spending the night alone.

Jonas threw the bedroll out flat, peeled it open and invited Llew to climb in, and then he slid in behind her, fitting himself against her back. There was no doubt about it, she loved the heat. But the all too familiar blood-chill returned with each breath on the back of her neck, and while she was comforted by his arm draped across her waist, each muscle twitch made her whole body tense to the point she was about to abandon the sleeping arrangements altogether, when she had an idea.

She was fairly certain he hadn’t dropped off to sleep just yet and she turned her head to whisper over her shoulder. “Would you mind if we rolled over?”

“Sure.”

They wiggled and squirmed in the confines of the bedroll. Llew had nowhere to go, being against the sealed side, and Jonas held the open side together, keeping himself from being dumped onto the freezing ground.

“Shhh.” Hisham’s overly loud, half-joking admonishment sounded across the low-burning camp fire.

“Shush, yourself,” said Jonas.

Finally facing the other way, Llew drew Jonas into her with an arm around his middle, and snuggled in close, her cheek pressed between his shoulder blades. She smiled to herself, sighed deeply, and feeling Jonas do the same, let herself settle for sleep.

* * *

The men’s path from Brurun had been a meandering one as they attempted to ensure they didn’t miss any clues to Llewella’s whereabouts. Their return journey was more direct, but it still took the better part of a week to reach the Brurun border.

Winter had to take some credit for their ability to bring Cassidy home; but for the cold, they would have had to bury him in Turhmos.

The horses kicked up sprays of freezing water as they crossed the wide, shallow, and slow-flowing Juliald River marking the border, and then turned north to Rakun. Brurun was a long, narrow country; that narrowness was pretty much the only trait it shared with Aghacia. Its eastern side bordered Quaver and Turhmos, and its wildlife was completely different. Llew recognised none of the birds wading at the river’s edge or pecking at the feet of sheep and cattle, and she realised she missed Aghacia. She doubted she had much chance of returning, though, and if she did she’d only bring trouble with her. She looked across at Jonas and wondered what the future would bring. Since he’d found out what she was, he’d been tasked with keeping her safe. She assumed that meant taking her to Quaver. But what if Turhmos rose up and started a new war? Would he be called away, leaving her with people she didn’t know, who likely despised her?
With his child to raise on your own
. No, her future still didn’t look rosy.

Jonas sensed her looking at him and gave her a smile.

Several days after crossing the border, they entered Rakun and headed straight for Lord Tovias’ estate. Unlike their expected arrival more than a fortnight earlier, the courtyard was empty apart from a couple of guards at the gate. Before they reached the stables they heard footsteps and Llew turned to see Anya hurtling toward them with little regard for the horses’ nerves. Luckily the latter were too exhausted, and too well-trained, to make a fuss.

Llew slid from her mount as a groom took the reins, and Anya slammed into her, taking her in a firm embrace.

“Oh, Llew. Llew. I knew they’d find you.” Anya pushed back, still gripping Llew’s shoulders. “Gaemil will be pleased,” she said in a lower voice. “I told him I couldn’t possibly marry him until I knew you were safe.”

Emylia and Aris arrived at a more leisurely pace, accompanied by another woman, a stranger to them.

“You’re getting married? When?”

“Well, not for months, of course. But I refused to pick a date until you returned. Gaemil was worried it would never happen, but I told him–” Anya slipped an arm around one of Llew’s, linking elbows, and started turning her to the estate. “–there was no way Jonas would let you–” Anya gasped and her arm slipped from Llew’s. She’d seen the form slumped across Cassidy’s saddle and now looked around the group, taking inventory of those before her: Jonas, Hisham, and Llew.

“Where’s Al? Where’s . . . ” Her eyes settled on the wrapped body. “Cass.”

“The most boring meeting I’ve ever hosted closes with the news I’ll be getting married. A man couldn’t be happi– er . . . ” Lord Tovias’ stride across the courtyard slowed to an awkward last few steps as he saw the glistening in his fiancée’s eyes. He caught her as she collapsed, weeping, and gaped at the rest of them for enlightenment.

Llew could feel her own eyes welling up, but she managed to whisper Cass’ name as Gaemil pulled Anya in to him. Jonas moved closer to Llew, drew her into him and kissed her head.

“Where’s Alvaro?” Anya said, still clinging to Gaemil for support.

“He didn’t return?” Jonas asked.

“We haven’t seen him,” said Aris. “What happened?”

“Braph happened. Llew couldn’t bring Cass back, and Alvaro wasn’t too happy about it. He probably rode straight home.”

“‘Braph happened’.” Aris scanned Jonas, Hisham and Llew as he considered the brief report. “Well, I’m glad the rest of you are fine.”

“Me, too,” Anya managed.

“And what happened to your hair?”

Jonas looked accusingly at Hisham, who shrugged.

Aris let it pass and cleared his throat.

“This is Karlani.” He brought the gorgeous woman standing behind him forward. She was tall, lithe, full-breasted, dark-haired, dark-eyed, and full-lipped – and utterly breath-taking. She didn’t wear a dress; she wore a blouse, fitting vest and shapely trousers to superb effect. “She’s travelled a long way to meet you, Jonas.”

The woman stepped forward and held out a hand. Jonas hesitated before shaking it lightly. A brief moment of surprise at the flimsy greeting gave way to a devastating smile. Devastating to someone in Llew’s position, anyway. Standing before this woman, Llew felt like a little girl again. Her hand hovered over her belly. But as soon as she realised she was doing it, she dropped it to her side.

“A man of few words.” The woman’s lips curled up on one side and Llew’s heart sank lower than she thought possible. Even this woman’s voice was heavenly. It was a silk cushion, inviting you to rest your weary head. She would look after you in ways you didn’t know you needed looking after. “I think we’ll get on perfectly.” She grinned, revealing perfectly straight, white teeth. How did someone get teeth like that?

“I’m sorry, I–” Jonas floundered and looked to Aris for help. His arm slipped from Llew’s shoulders.

“She’s Syakaran, Jonas.” Aris beamed. “She came all this way to meet you.” His eyes slid across to Llew, pleased to see her shrink back, giving the two Syakara the stage.

“Oh. Well, good to meet you.” Jonas took her hand again and shook it more firmly this time. “This is Hisham, my closest friend.” He waved Hisham forward and he too shook the woman’s hand, his face awestruck. “And my, ah–” Jonas reached an arm beside him. Not finding Llew there, he looked back and motioned her forward. She stepped closer. “My, ah . . . Llew.”

Everyone gawped at them. Even Anya stepped back from Gaemil, wiping her eyes with a sleeve and sniffing loudly.

The woman must have arrived soon after Jonas had left for Turhmos, and everyone seemed to have come to the conclusion that they would be a couple. Except Anya. Llew saw a defiant “I told you so” in her eyes. But Aris, Emylia, Gaemil . . . 

“Your ‘Llew’?” The woman’s laugh was like a wind-chime catching a summer breeze. “Whatever does that mean?”

Llew looked to Aris. It wasn’t there yet, but his rage was simmering.

“It means that she’s Llew. And she’s mine.” Jonas squeezed Llewella’s shoulder.

The woman’s face fell a fraction. “Oh.”

Part of Llew wanted the earth to swallow her up, while another part wanted her to stand tall, jut out her chin and claim her right to the man beside her. Had Jonas even looked at the woman before him? Even if he had and, somehow, still favoured Llew, there was no way Aris would let her have him.

“I think I need to have a word with Jonas,” said Aris, stepping toward the Syakaran.

Llew went to move away, but Jonas held firm.

“There’s nothin’ to talk about.”

“Oh, I think there is.”

As always, the tension between the two affected everyone present. Only Lord Tovias outranked Aris, but even he deferred when Aris was admonishing his own man.

Llew caught Anya’s eye. She was the pair’s greatest supporter, but her own marriage to come was arranged: she could hardly speak out against such practices.

“Anya, why don’t you take Llew inside.” Aris might have been talking to Anya, but his eyes didn’t stray from Llew. “I’m sure she could do with a decent bath after all her adventures.”

Llew looked down at herself, ready to take offence. Well, she was a little grubby. She tried to lift an arm without being obvious. Hmm. Yes, she supposed she did stink a bit, too.

“But–” Anya began. Gaemil placed a hand on her shoulder.

Llew’s cheeks grew hot, and she couldn’t imagine Jonas would be feeling much better having his future relations discussed by committee. But she couldn’t look at him. What if she peeked and he was looking at the Syakaran woman? What if the week of return travel, a week of healing for Llew, a week of contemplation of their future, of Llew, Jonas and their child, were all for nothing? He was, after all, Quaver’s hero. He had a responsibility to do right by his country.

What if Jonas really did want her? His arm was still across her shoulders. But once he had a chance to get to know this other woman, he might change his mind. She was extraordinarily beautiful for one thing, and no doubt she was also lovely and kind and a lot of fun. Jonas could run with her, and she wouldn’t have to be pregnant to do it.

She hadn’t told him, yet. She couldn’t tell him now. She couldn’t have him choosing her over this other woman just because she was pregnant. Although, why would he? He had children all over Quaver, according to Alvaro.

Hisham led the horses to the stable since Gaemil’s stable-hands understandably lacked the courage to approach the Syakaran and his Captain glaring at each other.

Llew pushed Jonas’ arm from her shoulders and moved away, still not looking at him. A lump had formed in her throat, and if she looked at him she would only have to deal with his confusion and hurt on top of her own, and it was all she could do to hold the tears back. It shouldn’t have hurt so much. He was just a man, and she’d learnt years ago she didn’t need a man in her life.

Llew looked to Anya for support and the blonde girl stepped in, looping arms again.