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"Let him go, Joanna. You are the last one who can help him now."
"I'm his wife!"
"You are also John's daughter."
Joanna took a step backward, stared at him. "I see. So you believe it, too.
Well, it is not true, Ednyved. It is not true!"
Ednyved said nothing, but she saw his disbelief, and her eyes narrowed. "There is no evidence to support this man's story, none whatsoever. Have you not learned by now not to accept alehouse babble as gospel? You need only think upon the wild rumors that have been circulating all summer long. First we heard that the royal treasury at Gloucester had been plundered. But that turned out to be false, did it not? And then we got word that my father's
Queen had been abducted and raped, their baby son killed. But that was not true, either. It was no more than vicious gossip, tales spread by men with nothing better to do than give grief to the unwary." She drew a bracing breath, said, "And this ugly accusation is no different, Ednyved. This is no less a lie."
"I know there has never been a true friendship between us, Joanna. But believe me now, that I am speaking as a friend. For your sake as well as Llewelyn's, leave him be."
"Leave him be?" she echoed incredulously. "My husband thinks that his son is dead, and it's not true. I will not stand helplessly by whilst he breaks his heart over a lie, I will not! Now please move away from the door."
He did. "I hope you will remember," he said, "that I did try to stop you."
IT was unnaturally still. The birds had muted their songs at Llewelyn's approach, and he heard only the sound of his boots on the wet gravel of the riverbank. It had been a dry summer, and the river was shallow and slow-moving; mossy rocks jutted up toward the sun, seeming to offer a safe passage to the far shore for those willing to take the risk. How many youths had stood on this bank, gathering up their courage to put those beckoning stepping stones to the slippery test? For risk-taking was t e measure of a man. Had he not taught Gruffydd that from birth?
Llewelyn knelt, cupped his hands, and splashed river water on o his face. Yes, he'd taught Gruffydd about risk-taking and manhood an^ pride. But he'd not taught him how to die on an English gallows, fydd would have fought them, knowing no other way, would have p^ defiance until the rope choked off all breath. Llewelyn could hearfil). own breathing grow ragged; it was coming in harsh, uneven gasp ' ing the quiet woodland clearing with strangled sound.
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For a time he knelt motionless on the riverbank, and there uehind his closed eyelids a gallows laden with bodies, bodies left to rot in the summer sun, because he had been a risk-taker.
His instincts for self-preservation had long since become second nature to him; when a branch snapped underfoot, his head jerked up. The sound came again. Someone was following the trail he'd taken from the castle. He rose swiftly, hand on sword hilt. A moment later a large black alaunt broke through the underbrush, bounded joyfully toward him.
At sight of the dog, Llewelyn's eyes filled with tears. Math was his son's dog, had been Gruffydd's veritable shadow, and when Gruffydd went away, the big dog's grieving had been heartrending. When he'd begun to refuse food, Llewelyn had taken over the dog's feeding, slowly coaxed the alaunt back to health, and in the past year, Math was never willingly far from his side.
Llewelyn bent down, gathered the dog to him. Math began to bark, swiped at his face with a rough, wet tongue, and he pulled back. Only then did he see his wife standing at the edge of the clearing.
Llewelyn was the first to speak. "Go back to the castle, Joanna. This is not the time to talk."
There was no emotion in his voice; he sounded like a stranger. Joanna

hesitated, and then stepped toward him. "Llewelyn ..."
"Not now," he said, much more sharply this time. He turned away, began to walk along the riverbank.
"Llewelyn, wait!" Hastening after him, she found she could not match his pace, and caught his arm, forcing him to stop.
"My love, you must listen to me. This one time you must believe me. Your grieving is for naught. Gruffydd is not dead."
"Joanna, no!" But she clung to his arm with surprising strength; he could not free himself without hurting her.
'"rou must hear me out, Llewelyn. Please, beloved, please listen. % father is not a good man. Mayhap not even a kind one. But he would never murder Gruffydd and the other hostages. He is not capable of a "uelty like that, Llewelyn. I
know he's not, know"
'No, you do not know! You've never known John, never!" Llewe-
yn jerked free, saying bitterly, "But I did. I knew how vicious he could when cornered, how merciless, for I knew what he'd done to Maude e Braose. I knew all too well, and yet, God forgive me, I still turned my j°n over to him" He broke off abruptly, turned to stare blindly out at
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Ij What he'd done to Maude de Braose.' What do you mean by that, >vith n?" ^aising ner hand to her forehead, Joanna found it damp as SWeat. She was suddenly aware of the hot, humid air, utterly still, enveloping as a shroud; the sun had begun to hurt her eyes.

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iine amd Rhys rode through the gatai for tier husband's assistance. Slidi^ 'Goanima, disregarded protocol, and en«
' -?" Catherine's fair skin was splotcto i ^ffy. *~'l still cannot believe it.
Wheiu tedmiit she did not know, and she vaf is in his chamber, Lady Catrin."
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"What do you mean?" she repeated. "Your stepfather told me Maude de Braose died in prison. Are you saying he lied?"
Llewelyn swung back to face her. "Maude did die in prison. What Hugh did not tell you was how she died." He paused and then said "All right, then, the truth. Mayhap I should have told you long ago John had Maude de Braose and her son cast into a dungeon at Windsor Castle, and then he starved them to death."
He'd never seen anyone lose color so quickly. Joanna's face was so ashen, her eyes so wide and unseeing that he took an instinctive step toward her, put his hand on her arm. But then she raised her chin, swallowed, and said, "I do not believe you."
His hand dropped to his side. "Christ Jesus, Joanna, do you truly think I'd lie to you about that?"
He did not wait for her answer, turned and walked away. Like most huntsmen, he knew how to make the woods his own, left no trace of his passing. Math had vanished, too. Joanna stood alone in the clearing.
WITHIN his chamber, Llewelyn found Ednyved and Morgan awaiting his return.
They rose as he entered; he was grateful when neither offered expressions of sympathy or commiseration.
"I must have been gone several hours. Has there been any further word from our scouts?"
"Nothing. More and more, it looks as if John means to delay the invasion, Llewelyn."
Ednyved was holding out a large goblet. Llewelyn caught the strong odor of fermented honey, and shook his head. "No mead. Not yet." After some moments of silence, he said, "On the morrow I must begin telling the parents of the hostages that their sons are dead. It would mean much to me, Ednyved, if you were with me."
Ednyved drew a sudden, sharp breath. "Ah, Llewelyn . . ." He coughed unconvincingly, and then said brusquely, "You do not have to do that. I'll take care of it for you."
Their eyes met, held. Llewelyn slowly shook his head. "No, Ednyved, I do have to do that," he said, and the other man nodded.
"I've sent for Rhys and Catrin." He hesitated. "Did Joanna find you?"
"Yes," Llewelyn said, "she did." He sank down in the closest chair* began to fondle Math's thick sable fur. The dog had been swimmingin the river, and his legs were caked with dried mud, his tail matted wi' burrs. Llewelyn found himself remembering how Gruffydd wou groom the alaunt by the hour, wielding his brush until Math's coa shone like ebony. "Morgan . . . fetch my daughters."

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"Would you rather I told them, Llewelyn?"
"No. This, too, I have to do." Llewelyn glanced up at the priest. "It vvas in this same chamber that I had to tell Gruffydd his mother was dead. He was just five."
Morgan's throat constricted. "I know there are times, lad, when God's ways must seem"
"No, not God, Morgan . . . John." No more than that, but on his lips a common
Christian name became an unspeakable obscenity, became a vow of vengeance rooted not in reason, but in blood.
As Morgan opened the door, they heard footsteps on the outer stairs. Llewelyn stiffened at the sound. It was a shock to realize that the person he most loved was suddenly the person he least wanted to see.
But it was not his wife who entered; it was his fourteen-year-old daughter.
Gwladys was panting so, she could hardly speak. She stumbled into the chamber, clutched at a chair for support.
"Papa . . . there's an Englishman in the great hall. I overheard him saying .
. . saying that. . . Papa, it's not true? Gruffydd, he's not dead?" Her eyes searched Llewelyn's face. "No . . . no, Papa, no!"
Llewelyn reached her as she began to scream, caught her to him and held her as she wept. But he had no comfort for her, no more than on the morrow, when he would have to face the parents of the other murdered boys.
"MADAME, thank God Almighty! I've been so uneasy. Where were you?"
"Where?" Joanna gestured vaguely. "I think . .. down there. By the river."
"Madame . . . are you all right?"
Joanna nodded, not convincing Branwen in the least. Her shyness notwithstanding, Branwen could be very stubborn. "Are you sure, Madame? In truth, you look ill." But Joanna seemed not to hear. She was turning away as
Catherine and Rhys rode through the gateway into the bailey.
Catherine did not wait for her husband's assistance. Sliding from the saddle, she ran toward Joanna, disregarded protocol, and embraced her as a sister.
"Joanna, what can I say?" Catherine's fair skin was splotched, the lue eyes reddened and puffy. "I still cannot believe it. Where is Llewelyn?<<
Joanna was reluctant to admit she did not know, and she was gratewhen Branwen said, "He is in his chamber, Lady Catrin." °y now Rhys had reached them.
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less taciturn; he greeted Joanna with his usual economy, moved toward the stairs. Catherine started to follow and then stopped, looked back over her shoulder.
"Joanna, are you not coming?" And when Joanna shook her head she hastily retraced her steps. "Dearest, I do not understand. If ever Llewelyn needed you, it is now."
"He ... he does not want me there, Catherine."
The other woman stared at her. "Joanna, what are you saying?"
"He believes it, Catherine, truly believes my father hanged Gruffydd and the other hostages. I could not bear to see him hurting so, and I tried to tell him, to make him see it was not true. But then he told me ... he told me, Catherine, that my father starved Maude de Braose to death."
She saw first horror on Catherine's face, and then pity, and she said tautly, "You need not look at me like that, Catherine. It is not true."
"Joanna . . . Joanna, I know naught of politics. If you say it is not true, I
want to believe you. But would Llewelyn lie?"
Joanna shook her head wearily. "He is not lying, Catherine. He believes it to be true. I know it is not, but I cannot convince him of that." Tears were spilling down her face. She made no attempt to wipe them away.
JOANNA awoke with a gasp, did not at once remember where she was. She sat up, feeling queasy and disoriented. Beside her, Davydd and Elen slept soundly; in the other bed, Catherine lay between Joanna's stepdaughters, Marared and
Gwenllian. Joanna rose quietly from the bed, stood looking down at Catherine.
Catherine's coming had been a godsend; she'd been remarkably successful in consoling Gruffydd's sisters. Joanna had ached for the bewildered children, but she knew she'd been of little help to them. In the past twelve hours her sense of reality had become hopelessly distorted; she felt as if her emotions were somehow sealed off, under glass and beyond reach.
She did not remember the dream that had so frightened her, was thankful she did not. Moving to the table, she poured herself some wine, noting with odd detachment that her hands were shaking. She wore several rings; without stopping to think what she did, she slipp6" one from her finger, laid it upon the table. It was topaz and silver, a long-ago gift from her father. She stared down at it, telling herself that her gesture had no significance. She did not believe Llewelyn. She could not.
Elen stirred, whimpered in her sleep. Joanna stood by the bed untu she was sure her child slept, and then she moved silently toward «>

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nursery door Outside, all was dark and still The air was surprisingly cool against her skin She crossed the bailey with quickening steps, grippecl by the uneasy, irrational certainty that she was being watched, that the darkness was alive with hostile, unseen eyes
Upon the table a candle was burning down toward the wick Gwladys was curled up at the foot of the bed, having at last cried herself to sleep Llewelyn was sprawled in a nearby chair, his head pillowed awkwardly upon his arm There was an empty mead flagon on the table, another on the floor by his chair From a shadowed corner, Math's eyes glowed like embers, his tail tipped slightly in acknowledgment of Joanna's right to be in the bedchamber, even at such an hour
Joanna moved closer to Llewelyn, stood beside him for several moments His face was in shadow Only his mouth was touched by the candle light, it was tautly drawn even in sleep, communicated so much pain that Joanna began to cry again, silently, in utter despair At last she dned her tears upon her sleeve, backed quietly toward the door
WHEN Joanna returned to her bedchamber, the sun was rising above the hooded silhouette of Moel Siabod, dispelling the dawn mists that overhung the valley like fallen clouds, already the day gave fair warning of what was to come, vagrant winds and sweltering heat Gwladys was sitting on the bed, listlessly pulling a brush through her tangled dark hair She looked up as Joanna entered, said tonelessly, "My father is not here He has gone to see the families of the murdered hostages, to tell them that John hanged their sons "
Joanna was appalled, tried not to let Gwladys see it Gwladys was the most passionate of Joanna's stepdaughters, the most like Gruffydd It had been a slow and tentative endeavor, making a friend of this pndeful, spirited girl, but Joanna had eventually coaxed from Gwladys what she'd never gotten from
Gruffydd, acceptance Her heart twisted with pity now at sight of the girl's grieving, and she said helplessly, Gwladys, if only there was something I
could do "
"But there is " Gwladys flung back her hair, her eyes were as black as jet, and just as cold "You can write to your father, Madame You can ask him to return the bodies of those he murdered Ask him to return m/ brother's body for decent bunal "
VER had Joanna so wanted a day to end, never had one seemed so re to drag on into infinity She passed the hours as best she could, " her children, rising every ten minutes or so to stare out into the ailey But by dusk, Llewelyn still had not returned