Heritage (50 page)

‘Will you be riding this year, Vi?' Johnno asked.

‘Nup,' Violet replied with ease, ‘don't have time to get back into training, we're too busy at the store.' The boys didn't know about her pregnancy. Her mum had said she was not to tell a soul.

‘Not even Dave and Johnno,' Marge had warned her, ‘not until everyone's got used to you being married, Vi – it's better that way.' Violet had known exactly what her mother meant.

‘Bloody shame,' Dave said to Pietro, ‘Vi's one of the best horsewomen in the district.'

It led to proud boasts of family sporting prowess; the boys, like their father, were excellent riders and regularly collected show trophies. And then, of course, there were Cam's annual blue ribbons for prize livestock and Marge's awards for chutneys and relishes. The Cooma Show was quite a Campbell affair.

Pietro basked in it all. What a fine family, he thought. Over second helpings of apple crumble, when the talk turned to childhood reminiscences, he persuaded himself it didn't matter that he had none of his own to offer. One day his child would be a part of this family, and would grow up with his or her own memories.

But an hour and a half later, as he and Violet drove back to Cooma, Violet chattering nineteen to the dozen about how successful the lunch had been, Pietro decided that it
did
matter. The fact that he had no reminiscences of his own to share with Violet's family was indeed of little consequence, but it was now more important than ever that his child should know who he was. His child should know that he had once had a family. It was imperative to Pietro that he discover his past.

 

‘So tell me about your background, Ruth.'

Why? she thought. Why did she need to tell the doctor her background? She had no desire to talk of the past.

‘Your medical background, of course,' Maarten said reassuringly, pen poised over the patient's record card on the desk before him; he'd registered how quickly her guard had gone up.

‘Oh.' Ruth felt rather foolish. ‘Yes, of course.'

‘Any major illnesses I should know of?' he prompted.

‘No.'

‘Any family history of heart disease?'

‘No.'

‘Are your parents still alive?'

‘No, my mother died of pneumonia when I was a child.'

‘And your father?' He concentrated on his notes, but he sensed her hesitation.

‘Accidental death,' she said. Kristallnacht, she remembered it so clearly. ‘He was killed in 1938.' The receptionist had given the doctor the form she'd filled out: it showed the country of her birth as Germany, and it was plain that the name Stein was Jewish. Let him make of it what he will, she thought.

He stopped his scribbling and looked at her, his expression one of heartfelt sympathy and understanding.

‘There were many accidental deaths in those times,' he said.

‘Yes,' she answered shortly.

She was very much on the defensive, Maarten thought. Her manner was altogether different from that of the relaxed young woman he'd chatted to in the park just two days ago.

He asked her several more questions, steering clear of anything she might possibly consider personal, then put down the pen and stood.

‘Right, that's enough grilling,' he said in his comfortingly jovial bedside manner. ‘Let's see what shape you're in.'

As he sat beside her and wrapped the blood pressure gauge around her arm, Ruth felt relieved that they were getting on with the physical examination. She didn't know why she'd been so tense, but it was always the same when people asked her questions about her past: the walls automatically went up. Heavens above, she thought, the man was only doing his job.

‘Ah, 120 over 80, excellent,' he said, and he smiled as if she'd come top of her class. Then, with his pencil torch, he examined her ears, eyes and throat. ‘Say ah,' he instructed, making Ruth feel like a child.

It was Maarten who was tense now. He was touching her, actually touching her, it was Ruth's skin he was feeling, and he wondered how she could be so unaware of the electricity which he could sense pulsating between them.

He instructed her to stand and he held the stethoscope to her chest, but he was not listening to the rhythm of her heart. He was watching the rise and fall of her breasts, remembering them naked and how they'd felt, how she'd remained so still and accepting as he'd worshipped her body.

‘Turn around.' She did. ‘Breathe in,' he said, holding the stethoscope to her back, ‘breathe out.' But he wasn't listening to her lungs. He was gazing at her hair and recalling how he'd run his hands through it and how it had felt like silk between his fingers. She wore it short now; he preferred it longer, but he liked the way it displayed her neck. He longed to bend his mouth to that neck, to feel his lips brush her flesh, and his eyes strayed to her shoulders, bare in the sleeveless summer dress, the shoulders he'd massaged with such love all those years ago. He remembered how she'd enjoyed the evening ritual of his massage; she hadn't told him so, of course, but he'd felt her body's response. As he'd caressed her flesh to the rhythm of ‘Barcarole', he'd known that for her, too, the music and his touch had become one – it had been something intimate and precious that they'd shared.

He could hear the familiar refrain now and he was on the verge of humming the melody as his fingers hovered longingly over her skin.

He pulled his hand away as sharply as if he'd been burned, shocked back to the present and how close he had come to revealing himself.

‘You're in excellent health, Ruth,' he pronounced, startling himself with the sound of his own voice. ‘Just the blood test and we're done.'

He took the blood sample, concentrating upon the task at hand, divorcing himself from the past and from the fact that this was Ruth. His Ruth. And then he saw her to the door.

‘The results should be back next week,' he said, ‘and I'll instruct the clinic to send your X-rays directly to me – your appointment is arranged for tomorrow morning, you said?'

‘Yes, that's right.'

‘Excellent.' He accompanied her into the reception area. ‘Edith will arrange an appointment for you.' He nodded to the grey-haired woman seated at her desk behind the counter, and then returned his gaze to Ruth. ‘We'll have the report all finalised on your next visit.'

‘Thank you very much, Doctor,' Ruth said.

He didn't remind her to call him Maarten – he didn't trust himself. ‘My pleasure. I look forward to seeing you next week.' And he returned to his consulting room, where he stood by the bay windows watching her walk down the street, shaken by the effect she'd had upon him.

‘Miss Stein is here, doctor.'

‘Thank you, Edith.' He didn't look up from his notes. ‘Give me five minutes and then show her in.'

The moment Edith closed the door, he stopped the pretence of his paperwork and gazed at the mantelpiece clock, counting the minutes, just as he'd counted the days until he'd next see her. The week had passed slowly, but he was prepared this time: he would not allow himself to be caught out again. He must resist the temptation to reveal his identity – she was not ready for that yet; he had to ease himself gently back into her life.

‘Ruth.' He rose as Edith ushered her in. ‘How nice to see you, do take a seat,' he said, accepting the folder which his receptionist handed him.

As Ruth sat, Maarten opened the folder, settling himself once again behind his desk.

‘The results are all here: your X-rays show no abnormalities,' he said, and then he ran through the analysis of her blood test. ‘Everything quite within the acceptable limits,' he concluded. ‘You have a clean bill of health, I'm happy to say, and I've completed a full report for your employers. It's in there with your X-rays,' he said, passing her a large envelope.

‘Thank you, doctor, that's excellent news.'

‘Maarten, please.' He smiled and sat back in his chair, friendly, relaxed. It was time to establish a personal relationship. ‘So I take it you'll be starting work any minute now?'

‘Yes, I'm looking forward to it.'

‘As a teacher and an interpreter, Lucky said.'

‘That's right, teaching English to migrants and assisting social workers and psychologists.'

‘How very interesting.'

She was rising to go, so he quickly stood – he had no alternative.

‘I wish you every success, Ruth.'

‘Thank you.'

He accompanied her to the door. ‘Remind our friend Lucky when next you see him that he owes me a game of chess,' he said in a last bid for some personal contact.

‘Yes, of course,' she replied. It was not likely she would be seeing Samuel in the near future, but the doctor didn't need to know that.

‘Such a fine man, and such a very dear friend.'

‘Yes, he is.'

As he opened the door, Ruth offered her hand. ‘Thank you for all your help, Doctor Vanpoucke.'

He didn't insist again that she call him Maarten. It was plain that under the circumstances she wished to address him professionally, and besides, there were two other patients waiting in reception.

‘Not at all, my dear,' he said as they shook hands, ‘any time I can be of service, you know where to find me.'

As she left, he signalled Edith to give him five minutes before showing in the next patient and, closing the door behind him, he crossed to the bay windows and once again watched her as she walked down the street. Things were not proceeding according to plan at all, he thought.

Maarten was frustrated by the outcome of what he'd initially considered a breakthrough opportunity. Offering his services as a doctor was not working in his favour; she perceived him purely on a professional basis. It was understandable, most patients did, and he supposed it had been foolish of him to expect otherwise. But in order to reassert his power over her, he had to develop a personal relationship – and quickly, he thought. Cooma was a man's town. A woman like Ruth would attract a great deal of attention – they'd be queuing up for her favours.

 

Rob Harvey arrived at Dodds in a jeep.

‘Good heavens,' she said, ‘a jeep.' She seemed taken aback.

Oh hell, Rob cursed himself, he'd got it wrong. He'd thought she might find the jeep novel and exciting, but he should have picked her up in the Land Rover.

‘Sorry,' he said, ‘they can be a bit blowy. Do you want to grab a scarf?'

‘Certainly not,' she said, ignoring the offer of his helpful hand and leaping into the passenger seat with a professional agility. ‘I like jeeps.'

He wondered when and where she'd travelled in jeeps, but it wasn't his place to ask.

‘Where to?' he asked, climbing into the driver's seat. ‘Any preferences?'

‘Wherever you want to take me,' she said. ‘I'm in your hands.'

The jeep had reminded her of Israel and the kibbutz – but she convinced herself that it didn't matter. She realised that she actually did like jeeps: she liked the bounce of them and the wind in her hair. And she was relieved to find that jeeps no longer held any threat in her memory.

Rob took her around the Snowy first, the Guthega dam, and the works in progress, and explained the plans for future development. She was awe-struck by the breadth of the Scheme. But as they drove through Adaminaby and he told her about the planned flooding over the next several years, she said, ‘How sad.'

‘Yep, you're right,' he agreed.

To Ruth, Rob Harvey was an interesting mix: at times a man of few words, simple and direct; at others, one who was articulate, learned and intelligent. And beneath it all, she sensed a man who was shy with women. Rob Harvey was an individual of intriguing contrasts, like the country of his birth, she thought as he drove her through the valleys and plains of the Monaro and up into the stark high country of the Snowy Mountains.

‘Mount Kosciusko,' he said as the jeep bumped over the rough roads and the mountain loomed up ahead: ‘the tallest mountain in Australia.'

They drove as far as they could to the upper slopes, and he stopped the car at Ruth's request. They got out to walk to one of the patches of snow that nestled here and there in shady nooks. How long had it been since she'd seen snow? she wondered as she bent and scooped up a handful, scrunching it into a ball. She aimed at the trunk of a blackbutt a good twenty yards away and hit her mark with perfect accuracy.

‘Good shot,' he remarked.

‘I loved snow fights when I was a child.'

‘Oh yes?'

He didn't enquire any further, and she realised how extraordinarily respectful he'd been of her privacy. She hadn't offered one shred of information about herself, and he hadn't asked. Had she really communicated such a desire for secrecy? She supposed she must have, and then thought there really wasn't any need.