Highland Barbarian (Highlander Series) (14 page)

“And now you labor to restore what was destroyed.”

“It is good work. It has brought all of us together for a common goal. The anger we feel toward Gareth MacKenzie drives us, feeding our energy.”

Brice cast an admiring look at his old friend, then turned to where Jamie and several men were planing a second timber.

“I thought it was time the lad learned other than battle skills,” Angus said quietly.

With Meredith’s assistance, Brice walked closer.

Jamie gave him a wide smile. “Bowen says I will soon be able to work alone, with only a bit of assistance from him.”

“Then you must be doing a fine job. Bowen is the most skilled woodsman in our company.”

Jamie beamed at the praise. Though he continued working, he often looked up to watch as Brice moved about the great hall. Leaning on Meredith’s arm Brice walked slowly about, stopping often to talk with the men.

When Mistress Snow announced that their meal was ready in the refectory, the men set down their tools and pulled on their tunics before following their leader from the room.

It pleased Meredith to see Brice join his men at table. Servants passed around steaming bowls of soup and freshly baked bread. Joints of mutton and breasts of pheasant rounded out the meal, along with tankards of mead and ale. Although Brice ate sparingly, he seemed to gain strength just being a part of this jovial company.

When the others finished their meal, Brice stood and leaned heavily on Meredith’s arm.

“Would you like to continue to watch the men, my lord, or would you prefer the solitude of your chambers?”

“It was good to join my men once more. They have renewed my vigor.” He leaned closer and murmured, “But I believe the silence of my room will not seem nearly as confining as it did earlier.”

As they climbed the stairs Meredith was surprised at the strength in him. In no time he would be well enough to sit a horse and wield a sword.

She experienced a stab of momentary regret. For these long days and nights she had been given a special gift. She had been forced to watch him lie helpless, had gloried in his healing, and come to learn a great deal about the Highland Barbarian. He was a true warrior, who would not give up even when all were against him. He was a man of high moral principles, despite the legend and lies that had sprung up about him. He was a man much loved by his people. And he was a man who had come to mean a great deal to her. When he was strong enough to return her to her people, she would miss him.

That thought shocked her.

She pushed open the door to his chambers and took his arm. “I asked Mistress Snow to prepare your bed.”

They crossed the sitting chamber, then entered the dimly lit sleeping chamber. A fire had been set in the fireplace. Candles had been lit in the sconces set along the wall. The snowy linens had been turned down in preparation for his return.

She eased him down until he was sitting on the edge of the bed.

“I will be in your sitting chamber, my lord. If you desire anything, you need only call to me.”

“Do not leave me.”

When a look of pain touched his features, she knelt before him, her brow furrowed with concern.

“You are unwell. Where does it hurt, my lord?”

“Here.” He touched a hand to a spot on his chest.

“But you were not wounded there.” As she reached up he caught her hand and pressed it to his heart.

“Can you feel it?” His voice was low, hushed.

“Feel what?”

“The way my heart thunders when you touch me.”

“My lord...”

As she tried to pull away he caught her hand and held it, palm flat against his chest. Though he held her as tenderly as a fragile flower, she could feel the carefully controlled power in his grip.

His words were softly seductive. “You said that if I desire anything, I need only call you.”

“Aye, but...”

“I desire you, Meredith. You are the first thing I see when I awake, and the last I see before I close my eyes. Even in my dreams you are there, touching me, arousing me. All these long days and nights I have wanted you. And now that I am strong enough, I want to show you how I feel.”

“You must not.”

“I cannot let you go, my lady.”

“I believe I have something to say about that.”

“Nay.” His voice was gruff. “You do not.”

He pulled her firmly against him. She brought her hands to his chest as if to hold him at bay. But it was already too late. His mouth covered hers.

This was no tender kiss, no gentle brushing of mouth to mouth. With an urgency that stunned them both, Brice poured out all the longing, all the needs, that had been building inside him for so long.

What was even more shocking, Meredith returned his kiss with a passion that left them both reeling.

Where had it come from, this need, this hunger? How long had it been growing inside them?

When they should have pulled apart they continued clinging to each other, his mouth avid, seeking, her mouth hungry for more.

“I want you, Meredith. God in heaven, how I want you.” At his words she went very still. For days now, while she had hovered about his still form, praying that he would find the strength to recover from his wounds, she had known. No other man would ever mean as much to her as Brice. No other man could touch her with a single word, a single look.

But wanting someone was not enough. If she gave herself to the Highland Barbarian, she would be sullied in the eyes of every other man in Scotland.

And yet, her heart whispered, even that would no longer matter. There was no other man in all of Scotland who could ever own her heart. There was only this man. Her love for him crowded out all other thought.

She continued to kneel, trapped between his knees, while he rained kisses on her upturned face. His lips skimmed the corner of her lips, her cheek, her temple.

The need for her was an ache far worse than anything he had experienced during his long recovery. The need for this woman clawed at his insides until he was nearly mad with the pain.

He had to have her. Or die trying.

Standing, he caught her hand and brought her to her feet. With his hands on either side of her face he studied her in the glow of the candles.

“I want you, Meredith. I love you, little firebrand.” His love was the one thing she could not fight.

With a little moan she offered her lips to him.

“And I love you, Brice.” She moaned.

Her words, murmured inside his mouth, filled him with such emotion he could only stand and hold her while he gloried in her surrender.

And then his arms were around her, holding her so close that two heartbeats thundered as one.

N
eeds shuddered through Brice, driving him farther and farther toward the edge of madness. But the woman in his arms needed time, needed patience and care. As much care as she had shown toward him in the past days and weeks while he’d healed. He would see to her needs and bank his own.

The lips on hers were gentle now, the kiss coaxing, seductive. He longed to plunge his hands through the tangles of her hair and take her here, now, on the fur before the hearth. Instead, he forced himself to go slowly.

He sensed her fear, her hesitation. But he was certain enough for both of them.

“Don’t be afraid, love,” he murmured against her cheek. “Think of it as a journey. A slow, easy journey we will travel together.”

His lips skimmed her face, pausing to trace the gentle curve of her brow. How beautiful she was; how perfectly formed. He ran light kisses over her closed lids, then followed her cheek to the corner of her lips. With his tongue he traced the outline of her lips until she moaned and her lips parted for him.

With his tongue he explored the intimate recesses of her mouth, savoring all the sweet, wild flavors that were hers alone. And all the while his hands moved along her back, drawing her closer, then closer still, until she was pressed firmly against him.

She was aware of his arousal; aware, too, of the thundering of his heart. Its unsteady rhythm matched her own.

How long had she dreamed of being held like this, of being taken on a wild flight to the heavens and beyond? As his lips held her enthralled she flew high, then higher still, until she felt herself break free of earth. Now she was soaring, now gliding.

As his fingers reached for the buttons of her gown she struggled to settle her feet on steady ground. But then his lips grazed her throat and she was helpless once more, held powerless by the sensations that ripped through her.

Her gown drifted to the floor about her feet and lay forgotten. Now the only barrier between them was a thin ivory chemise. With deft movements he untied the ribbons of her garment and slid it from her shoulders.

For long moments he studied her. The sight of her beauty left him breathless. In the light of the fire her skin was as white as alabaster, her eyes as green and shimmering as a Highland glen. With a sense of reverence he ran his fingertips lightly across the slope of her shoulders. She quivered beneath his gentle touch. With a sigh he brought his lips to her throat. Arching her neck she moved in his arms and thrilled to the sensations that skittered along her spine.

Never, never had she known such feelings.

He brought his lips lower to the soft swell of her breast. As his mouth closed over her nipple she heard a low, guttural moan. Hers? Or his? It no longer mattered. They were caught up in such waves of passion they could no longer think, only feel.

Her knees trembled and she feared she could no longer stand. It was as if he was in perfect harmony to all her senses. In one swift movement Brice scooped her up into his arms and carried her to the bed, settling her among the snowy linens. His clothes joined hers on the floor and he lay beside her, gathering her into his arms.

His hands, his lips, moved over her, leaving her body a mass of nerve endings.

The heat between them rose up in shimmering waves. A weakness seemed to invade her, leaving her limbs heavy, her mind blank. She drifted on clouds of sensation that sapped her strength, stole her will.

She was helpless, caught up in feelings that she had never even known existed. She was once again kidnapped and held hostage. This time to passion.

As his hands and mouth worked their magic, she moved in his arms, loving the feel of his work-worn fingertips against her soft flesh. How agile his mouth. How clever his hands.

She longed to touch him as he was touching her. And yet, in her fear and innocence, she was afraid. Would he think her a wicked, wanton woman?

Tentatively she reached a hand to his cheek. He moved against her palm slowly and she saw his eyes narrow fractionally.

Growing bolder she brought her hand to his chest and allowed her fingers to skim along the mat of hair. His nipples hardened as her fingers grazed them and she lingered, stroking until she heard his sigh of pleasure.

As her fingers moved lower she encountered a series of raised scars on his flat abdomen.

At her arched look he murmured, “So many old battles. So many old wounds.”

Without thinking she pressed her lips to the flat plane of his stomach, tracing her lips across the scars. “I cannot bear to think of you being wounded.”

Instantly she felt his stomach muscles contract violently. She experienced a wild thrill at the realization that it was her touch that had caused such a reaction.

She had the power to make this strong warrior flinch. One touch of her hand could leave him as weak as she had been just moments ago. Drunk with her new power she grew even bolder, pressing her lips to his throat while her hands roamed his muscular shoulders, his hair-roughened chest, his stomach.

His chuckle of delight turned into a moan of impatience as her hands moved lower, exploring, arousing.

“Witch.”

He rolled on top of her and began an exploration of his own, allowing his lips, his fingertips, to move seductively over her until she writhed and moaned and gasped his name. It took all of his willpower to keep from taking her. This was her first time, he cautioned himself. He wanted it to be everything and mare.

“I love you, little firebrand,” he growled against her lips.

His fingers found her, moist and ready, and before she could realize what was happening, he took her to the first shuddering crest.

“And I want you more than I have ever wanted anyone, anything.”

Her breath was coming so fast she could hardly get the words out. But her hands clutched at his shoulders as she felt herself tumbling out of control. Madness. She had slipped over the edge of madness.

“Oh, Brice. I—love—you.” The words were breathy, barely coherent. She arched her body to meet him, needing him with an urgency that matched his. “Please. I—want you.”

Her plea ripped through him, shattering his careful control. He slipped inside her, struggling to be gentle. But the moment they came together, he threw caution to the wind. With a savageness that surprised him she moved with him, matching his rhythm, mirroring his strength, until together they gave in to the madness and soared to the moon.

He was enveloped in the scent of wildflowers, and he recalled that she’d had wildflowers entwined in her hair that first day he’d seen her at the altar of the cathedral. Their fragrance filled him until all he could smell was Meredith lying in a meadow of wildflowers.

Higher they climbed, then higher still, until they reached the velvet heavens. A wild, primitive cry was torn from Brice’s lips. And a million stars exploded and shattered into shiny silver fragments.

In that moment she gave him her heart. Her honor. Her innocence.

~ ~ ~

They lay, still locked together, unwilling to break the fragile, intimate contact. Levering himself on his elbows Brice studied the way she looked, her face damp with sheen, her eyes moist.

“Tears, firebrand? God in heaven.” With his thumbs he wiped the tears from her cheeks. “I’ve hurt you.”

“Nay.” She turned her head to hide her weakness. “It was just—so wonderful.”

He rolled to his side and drew her gently into the circle of his arms. “Aye. It was beautiful.” He pressed his lips to her eyes and tasted her salty tears. “And it is perfectly natural to cry at something so dazzlingly beautiful.”

“You do not think me a foolish child?”

“Nothing you do or say would seem foolish to me. And,” he added with a tender smile, “you are far from a child. You are the most beautiful, desirable woman I have ever met.”

She sniffed. “More beautiful than the women you met at the Court in France?”

He bit back a laugh at her artless attempt to be reassured. “No woman at Court could match your beauty, my lady, including the queen herself.”

“Her ladies-in-waiting thought I resembled Queen Mary.”

He caught a strand of her hair and watched as it sifted through his fingers, catching and reflecting the light of the fire. “Your coloring, perhaps. And the fact that you are both small and slender. But you are a rare beauty, Meredith. And far more lovely than our queen.”

She grew silent for a moment, gathering her courage for the next question. With a swallow she asked haltingly, “Is it always like this?”

“Loving?”

She seemed relieved that he understood. “Aye.”

With his index finger he traced the line of her brow, the curve of her cheek. His voice was low with feeling. “I fear that many people are never blessed with what we have just discovered.”

“Why?”

His finger moved over her lips, still swollen from his kisses. Though it seemed impossible, his desire for this beguiling, bewitching creature was beginning to build once again. “They are afraid to give themselves completely to another.”

“What is it they fear?”

“Losing control, I suppose. Or perhaps it is the fear of letting another witness their needs, their weaknesses.”

“Have you any weaknesses, my lord?” she asked with a smile.

“I have discovered one.” His tone was grave, although his lips curved into a hint of a smile. “One very beautiful, very obstinate firebrand that can make me weak with a single touch.”

“Like this?” With her finger she traced a pattern across his chest, then lower to his stomach.

He felt the heat as he became aroused. Before he could reach for her she surprised him by rolling on top of him.

Her hair swirled about him, tickling his chest, brushing over his fingers. Her eyes burned brightly, reflecting the light of the fire. She smiled as she began to move over him. Every touch, every movement, aroused him further.

“Firebrand, I am a man still recovering from battle wounds. You will be the death of me.”

“Then I shall simply have to leave you alone to rest and recover.”

As she made a move to roll away he caught her and dragged her against him. His hands, his lips, began weaving their magic.

Against her throat he growled, “You are the only medicine I need. Stay with me, firebrand. Love me.”

With murmured words of endearment they slipped into a world of endless delight. A world where only lovers can go.

~ ~ ~

Meredith lay in the midnight blackness and listened to Brice’s steady, even breathing.

Did he know what he had given her? Did he have any idea how much she’d needed his quiet strength, his calm assurance of his love?

So much had happened in her young life. So much chaos. The murder of her father. Desmond’s shocking death at the altar. Her kidnapping.

There had been little time for reflection. Certainly no time for love. Until now.

Brice’s arms tightened about her and she felt a quiver of apprehension at the strength in him. Did he have any idea what power he wielded? It was not physical power she feared. Despite his strength, she would have found a way to escape him in time. The power he wielded was emotional. She needed his approval, desired his love forever. Without this Highland warrior, her life would be as before. Empty. Waiting. Yearning for something she could not even give a name to. Until now. Love. That was what she had been waiting a lifetime to share.

With a sigh Brice drew her close and pressed his lips to her temple. She sighed and snuggled close, then was startled by his deep voice.

“Awake again, firebrand?”

“Aye. This is all so new to me. So exciting. I fear I will never be able to sleep.”

“Nor I.” He nibbled the corner of her lips until she turned her head and gave him full access to her mouth.

His lips were warm and firm and with one easy movement he drew her fully into the kiss.

“Oh, Brice,” she breathed against his mouth. “Will you some day grow weary of me and tire of our lovemaking?”

He chuckled, low and deep in his throat, and the sound sent tremors along her spine. “Never, my lady. It would take an eternity and beyond to even dim the love that shines within me for you.”

She relaxed against him and lost herself in the kiss.

“But I have a better way to prove my love,” he muttered, shifting until he hovered over her. “Far better than words.”

~ ~ ~

Brice lay very still, unwilling to disturb the woman who slept so peacefully in his arms.

All night they had loved, slept, then loved again until they were sated. And still he had not had enough of her. Nothing would ever be enough. A hundred times. A thousand years. He loved her. Body and soul. Completely.

He thought of the beautiful young woman he had watched from the tower of the cathedral. Clothed all in white, her spine rigid, her head held high. Even then he had sensed the strength in her, the determination. And when he had first looked into her eyes he had read the goodness there.

He dared not lose. He wanted the love they shared to be sanctified and blessed by the kirk. He wanted the entire country to know that the Highland Barbarian was loved by this beautiful Lowlands woman. He wanted to shout of their love from the highest mountain.

He glanced at Meredith and saw the slight flicker of her eyes. Sleep was leaving her now. Within moments she would awaken. His woman.

The decision was made instantly. He would send a messenger to the Lowlands to learn the fate of her people. He would wed her now, as soon as it was possible to prepare a wedding feast. And then, with the might of his Highland warriors behind her, she would return triumphant to her people. With the combined strength of her armies and his, Gareth MacKenzie would not dare to continue his litany of murder and lies.

They could bring a renewed sense of peace between the Highlanders and Lowlanders. Perhaps, because of their love, the Scots lairds could cease their endless fighting and join forces to combat their true foe, the English invaders.

Meredith’s eyes opened and she found Brice watching her. On his face was a smile of such contentment, she answered with a smile of her own.