His Revenge Baby: 50 Loving States, Washington (50 page)

And while I don’t want to call her Russian husband, Ivan, and his family of

“legitimate businessmen” shady, he did make a point of giving me his card before their wedding.

“Sola considers you family,
da
? So if ever there comes a time you are needing something or you are in any kind of trouble, you will call me.”

Back then, after defying my family to get my medical degree while living three thousand miles away from them on my own, I inwardly bristled at the idea of needing anyone other than myself to solve a problem.

But I’d taken his card. And not only that, I’ve been carrying it around with me in my wallet ever since. Almost like I knew I’d need it someday.

And on the silent drive home, I consider making the call I never thought I’d make.

Because if anyone has the resources to get to the bottom of John’s mystery, it’s Ivan and his powerful Russian family.

“Stay here,” John says as soon as we pull into one of the parking spaces beneath my second-floor apartment.

He gets out and takes his time coming around to my side of the car. And I don’t think it’s a southern gentleman thing. Instead, I get the feeling he’s doing an even deeper scan of the distance beyond my apartment building than he did when we left the police station.

He does eventually open the door for me, but he doesn’t relax until we’re inside my apartment.

“Nobody followed us,” he says. “That’s good.”

I open my mouth, but before I can get words out, he says, “Hold on, Doc. I know you got questions. But give me that backpack. I got something to show you that I think might answer a few of them.”

The backpack…I’d almost forgotten I still had it. But there it was, strung over my shoulder, right along with my Virkin.

I hand it to him silently, and he takes it, but hesitates before opening it, his intense

gaze softening a little as he says, “No lies. That’s what I asked you for and that’s what I know you want from me. I was trying to figure out how to tell you about this at the restaurant, but them bikers showed up...”

Then he unzips the backpack and holds it wide for me to see what’s inside.

My eyes saucer even wider when I see what it is. Money. So many stacks of bills and nothing else but money nestled in a simple black backpack.

I stare at the bounty, trying but failing to process what I’m looking at. And when I finally give up and look to him for answers, his face is grimmer than I’ve ever seen it.

“There’s more than a hundred thousand dollars in there, according to the police.

That’s why they kept me so long for questioning, even after they questioned me twice at the hospital. They finally let me go. But them bikers showing up at the diner is a little too coincidental, if you ask me. I’m thinking they were tipped off. I told them a few times I had to go meet you at the diner. Maybe one of those officers questioning me told those bikers exactly where I was going and what I had on me. They probably had it all planned out. The big one would distract me, while the little one stole the backpack, but that wasn’t exactly how it worked out.”

I lower my eyes back down to stare at the money. Everything he says makes complete sense, except, “Why were you carrying around this much money before your accident? And in a backpack of all places?”

He shakes his head, looking as mystified as I am. “I don’t know,” he answers. Telling me the stark truth, just like he always has since the moment we met.

But right now, even the frank truth isn’t enough to allay my fears.

“You should let me drive you to work and back on Monday,” he mumbles. “I didn’t give the police your address, and I don’t think those guys were a real threat, but I want to keep you safe, Doc.”

I have no idea what to say to that. What to say to any of this.

“Who are you?” The words tumble out of my mouth, choked and angry. I don’t realize I’m so close to hyperventilating until I’m barely able to squeeze out, “Who the hell are you?”

He immediately drops the backpack, so much money ditched like a trash bag on the floor so he can snatch me up in his arms. Hold me, comfort me, until the wave of panic begins to subside.

“I’m sorry, Doc,” he says when I finally start breathing normally again. “I know this is scary. And I’m sorry I scared you back at that diner. But I figured them guys out from the door. They weren’t old. I didn’t know either of them. But something about them felt... familiar. Like I knew what they were about, knew they’d be nothing but trouble. I was trying to keep you safe, but I made you faint instead. You don’t know how sorry I am about that. There ain’t enough apologies in the world.”

I can only shake my head into his chest, both comforted and confused by his heartfelt apology. “You moved so fast. Are you, like, a cop? Or some kind of special forces? Like Jason Bourne or something?”

“I don’t know,” he whispers into my hair. “And I can’t explain it. He pulled that gun, and it was like I went on autopilot.”

“But the things you said to him.” My stomach flips over, threatening to eject my breakfast and lunch at the thought of it. I don’t want to say it, but I find myself

whispering into his chest, “I think you really would have killed that guy if he hadn’t apologized. The look in your eyes…”

“Look at me now, Doc.” He takes my face, cupping it between his cast and his hand so I have to look into his eyes, which I find shining with emotion. “All I know is I was sure they were there for the backpack and they might hurt you to get it. Then I just...I can’t explain it. If I could, believe me I would, if only to take that look off your face. But you look at me now, Doc. You believe me when I say I would have done anything to them to keep you safe, but I would
never
hurt you. Not in a million years. And that money…” His eyes dart to the backpack on the floor.

“That ain’t my money, it’s
yours
. Do whatever you want with it. Pay back your student loans, give it to the hospital, put it in the bank—I don’t care. It’s yours. I’m yours. Everything I have is yours. If you don’t believe anything else out of my mouth, believe that. Please believe that.”

It’s so crazy. But I do believe him. And I’m just about to say so, when instead of words, my earlier meals come spilling out as I throw up all over the man I unequivocally love.

Chapter Sixteen

MASON

MASON’S not surprised when the president of the New Rebels calls him two days short of the month deadline he gave those failed abortions.

Ironically, he calls during a board meeting about next steps now that it’s been four months since D. disappeared with the money. The burner Mason bought in West Virginia goes off just as he’s thinking of saying out loud that none of this makes any sense.

SFK has used D. for bigger sells than this one. $100K just wasn’t enough to stay in hiding for as long as he’d have to stay in hiding to avoid SFK’s wrath. Either D. was a lot more stupid than he’d ever let on, or something else was at play here. That was exactly what Mason was thinking about saying when the West Virginia burner started beeping in his jacket pocket.

“All phones are supposed to be left outside on the table,” Mason’s father, the club’s vice president, says with a hard look at his son.

“Not this one,” Mason answers, unafraid in a way only a sergeant at arms of an infamous MC can be.

Mason ignores the disapproving stares from the other board members, flips open the burner, and says, “Yeah,” as he walks out of the meeting room. He’s prepared to hear some serious begging from the New Rebels prez. Begging he plans to ignore.

But instead of begging, the prez says, “I think we found your guy. I wasn’t sure at first for a bunch of reasons. But he has the black backpack the old sarge said he gave him, and he took me and one of my guys down so quick, I’m sure it had to be him.”

Mason stops in his tracks, all plans to kill this fake motherfucker completely forgotten. “Where did you see him? When? Tell me everything you know right fucking now.”

Chapter Seventeen

THE HOURS after I throw up all over John are mostly a blur. But there a few moments that I’ll remember forever—perfect and clear.

His lack of upset that I’d vomited on him for one. He simply whipped me up into his arms and carried me to the bathroom.

I remember him putting my twisted curls in an ouchless ponytail holder and telling me he’d be right back. Him leaving the room, then coming back in his boxer briefs, his soiled clothes deposited somewhere unseen.

“Tell me what you need, Doc,” I remember him saying as he pressed a glass of water into my hand.

I remember how good the water tasted in my foul mouth. How I immediately felt better after the first sip.

I remember the sight of him bent down next to me, blue eyes filled with remorse.

“Not your fault,” I tell him. “It’s probably a…”

These are the moments I remember most: trailing off because my inner-doctor is throwing down a big red flag in the back of my mind.

She’s saying that other than fainting, I’ve felt fine all day. Healthy and happy.

Usually you see a stomach flu coming before you throw up. Also, I have no fever or any other indicator of a viral infection. In fact, I can’t keep myself from eyeing John’s now naked torso, regretting that I’ll definitely have to sleep on the couch, which means none of the amazing sex we’ve been having every single night since he moved in four weeks ago.

I freeze. Not because of the medical implications of being so sex-crazy that I’m actually resenting a stomach flu for keeping me out of John’s arms tonight, but because of the “every single night” part.

How is that possible? My period has always been like clockwork, and my last one ended a couple of days before John moved in.

Now my stomach is rolling for a different reason. Or maybe for the same reason it’s been upset all along. What happened in Meirton. How it was so weird for someone who’d grown up in Compton, with a man who regularly bragged about his body count, to faint like that. Even weirder for someone who’d put herself through med school and managed several ER rotations without fainting once.

Then I think of that old Facebook meme, “See I knew I wasn’t a weak-ass bitch!”

But I don’t chuckle. I can’t chuckle.

And I ask John to bring me my phone.

More blurring after that. Phone calls. A ride to the hospital, where I’m assured the on-call OB will be waiting for me with an ultrasound machine.

The sac, clear as day on the monitor screen. Then the decision that has to be made.

So much happening all at once. But all I can really remember is the look on John’s face when I come out to the tiny waiting area that’s usually reserved for non-spouses waiting to hear about the arrival of their newest family members.

I remember him standing up as soon as I step foot into the room, as if he’s been staring at the door and waiting this whole time.

I remember thinking I’ve got another letter of apology to write to Shonda Rhimes now, because is there dramatic music playing in the background of my head at this moment? Yes, there is.

Until there isn’t.

Until somehow John’s closed the gap and I’m back in his arms.

Until everything goes quiet. And there’s only words. The only words I remember from the blur that was Saturday night.

“What’s going on? You all right, Doc?”

“I don’t know…the ultrasound…it said I’m pregnant.”

The expression on his face going from worried to stunned. I remember that.

Then me babbling on for a while about how it was uncommon to get pregnant on an IUD, but not impossible. One of the first things we learn in medical school. Even if a drug has a huge success rate, every doctor has to go in knowing there’s no guarantee any given patient won’t be in the remaining small percentage of people it doesn’t work for. Someone has to be one of the less than eight out of every thousand women who get pregnant while using an IUD.

John’s only answer to this explanation is to shake his head and say, “You were on birth control, but you’re pregnant. You’re pregnant with my baby?”

“Yes,” I remember answering, still in a daze. “But…but…I had them take it out.”

The way he freezes after I say that. The look of absolute horror on his face. I’m so confused until I realize, “Oh…no…I had them take the device out. So it wouldn’t hurt the baby. I’m still…” I have to stop and catch my breath before finishing the sentence,

“I’m still pregnant.”

Then I wait to see what he’ll say next.

Chapter Eighteen

“I’M COMING HOME!” my brother hollers on the other side of phone. “I’m coming home right now!!!”

“No, Curt!” I insist on a whisper in the bathroom of our Las Vegas hotel room.

“So you call a sister up, tell her you pregnant, and you about to break the news to Daddy tomorrow, but no, you don’t want Cee-Cee to come home. Bitch, you is out your monkey-ass mind if you think that is even a request I’m capable of granting!”

“Curt, please don’t make me regret calling you instead of Sola,” I whisper into the phone.

“Why you whispering?” Curt demands. Then before I can answer, “I wish you would call that Guatemalan bitch first. I wish I could flash forward in that alternative timeline just to see how far up your ass my heel would be if you called all the way over to fucking Russia before you called me in Chicago.”

“Seriously, Curt, please talk to me like a regular human being. I really need my brother right now. Not Cee-Cee…”

He must hear the real desperation in my tone because his voice drops a dramatic octave, and the next voice I hear is the one of the man who told me he would always be my brother, right before he left for a tour to perform as Glammette Jackson in his first headliner drag show.

“Okay, Nitra, I’m here for you, baby girl. I’m listening,” he says, just as C-Mello’s heavily gangsterized version of “We Are Family” starts playing in the background of our call.

“Isn’t that your cue?”

“Them bitches can wait. Talk to me.”

“It’s nothing. I just need your blessing.”

“My blessing for what?”

I bite my lip and look down at the thin wedding band on my hand, thinking back to earlier in the day.