Honored: An Alpha Mob Romance (City Series Book 4) (6 page)

He gestured back the way I had come. “Back there. I saw you from a block up and thought I’d catch you, say hello.”

“Oh, well hey.”

He grinned at me. “Hey yourself.”

There was something about him, something irresistible. I couldn’t tell if it was his muscled body or his confidence, but I hadn’t been able to get him out of my mind ever since he had approached me earlier to ask me out. He had acted like it was obvious that I would say yes, and for whatever reason, he was right. Just like back at the school, I felt compelled to be around him.

I stood up and looked around as he kept petting Petey.

“Creepy place,” I mumbled.

“What’s that?”

“Just saying how this is a creepy spot.”

He looked around and shrugged. “No different than anywhere else.”

“You’re probably right,” I said softly.

He stood up. “Where are you headed?”

I shrugged. “Just a few more blocks and then back home. Feel like joining me?”

“I’d really like that,” he said. He said it with such a serious expression, like it was the most important thing in the world. I couldn’t help but laugh.

“What?” he asked, the serious expression fading, replaced by his smile.

“Nothing. You just looked so serious. It’s just a walk,” I said, teasing.

“Not just a walk, the best walk of your life.”

“Yeah, why’s that?”

He grinned his perfect, arrogant smile. “Because I’m here.”

I laughed again and shook my head. “All right then. Let’s get going.”

I started moving, and Petey charged ahead. For some reason, he was being particularly bad, like he had no interest in doing anything but pulling me along behind him. I guessed it was punishment for coming home later than usual.

“So, how long have you had him?” Liam said.

“Little more than a year. He was a rescue.”

“Good looking dog.”

“You should have seen him when I got him. He was a mess, way underweight, had worms and bite wounds from fighting other strays.”

“That’s horrible.”

“He’s a great dog, though.”

He nodded. “Yeah, I like him.”

We walked together in a short silence as Petey moved ahead of us, sniffing at the ground. We hit the other side of the underpass and started to walk uphill, heading south and away. For some reason, I felt relieved to get out of there. It felt claustrophobic and strange, like the roof and all the cars were going to collapse on top of me. I had been feeling a little off-center ever since I saw those guys dumping the packages, though, and it was probably nothing to worry about. Except, for some reason, even with Liam walking beside me, I couldn’t shake the funk.

“So, how did you end up teaching?” he asked me.

“I’m not really sure, honestly.”

He laughed. “Not a ringing endorsement.”

“No, but it’s true. I studied education in college and all that, but I don’t really know why I decided to.”

“I hear you. Funny how that can happen sometimes.”

“What about you? I mean, how did you get into restaurants?”

He looked away. “It was a family business. I took after my old man.”

“What sort of place did he own?”

“He owned a bunch of spots downtown. Most of them are gone now. Some of them were sold.”

“Anything I would know?”

He shook his head. “Probably not. Real shitty, small places. A few Irish bars, a few delis, stuff like that.”

“What’s your place like?”

“The hipsters call it a gastropub, but I call it a bar with decent food.”

I laughed. “I’ve never heard that before, ‘gastropub.’”

“What can I say, I’m very sophisticated.”

I laughed again and touched his arm. I wasn’t sure why I did it; there was something about the moment, funny and intimate, and I wanted to feel him for a second. He didn’t flinch away, and I got a short moment to feel the bulging muscles under his tailored black button-down shirt. He smiled at me and moved a step closer as we turned a corner, heading west.

“Anyway, that’s enough about me,” he said. “Where did you grow up?”

“Outside of the city, in a suburb called Trevose. What about you?”

“Here, in Philly. I’m a born and bred native.”

“I figured. You have that something.”

“Oh yeah, that something? I can’t tell if I’m being insulted or not.”

“You’re not, or maybe you are, I don’t know. You just have this attitude.”

He laughed and moved closer, our bodies inches away. I could practically feel the heat rolling off him and smell his clean musky scent.

“You don’t seem to mind it, Miss Boucher,” he said.

“Careful, Mr. Sullivan,” I replied, smiling.

He opened his mouth to say something when suddenly his phone started ringing. For a brief second, something flashed across his face, some emotion I wasn’t sure I could read. It was possibly terror, but that didn’t make sense. But it was gone before I could really understand what had happened.

“Sorry. I need to get this,” he said.

“Sure, okay.”

He pulled the phone out of his pocket, turned, and walked in the opposite direction from me. He flipped it open and answered it, speaking low and moving farther away. I watched him and could see how tense he was, his whole body practically wrapped around the phone. I crouched down next to Petey, who wagged his tail at me.

“What’s this about?” I said to him.

Petey sniffed at me in response.

After a minute or two of talking, he hung up the phone and slipped it into his pocket. He walked back over to me, holding his hands out.

“Hey, I’m really sorry to have to do this,” he said, “but I have to get going.”

I shrugged. “Sure, it’s no problem.”

“I wish I could walk you home, but it’s pretty important.”

“I totally understand. Don’t worry about it.”

“I’ll see you tomorrow.”

I nodded. “Nice running into you.”

He paused and grinned at me. “Yeah, I bet it was.”

What an arrogant asshole. I couldn’t help but smile though as he turned and walked back the way we had come, moving pretty quickly. I watched him go for a second and then turned, heading back toward my apartment.

“Come on, Petey, let’s go home,” I said to him.

There was something about that man, about his delightfully cocky smile and his attitude, like he was the best thing in the world and everyone knew it. There was something about his body, ripped and lean. As I walked home, Petey leading the way, I couldn’t stop thinking about Liam Sullivan. He was the only thing on my mind.

F
lirting with the girl I was about to kill. That was a new low for me.

I couldn’t do it. Of course I couldn’t do it. Not when I saw who it was.

I put my head in my hands, cursing my terrible fucking luck. Any other person in the entire city and I probably could have gone through with it. Anybody other than the one woman I couldn’t get off my mind. True, I barely knew her, but there was something pure about her, something that drew me in and made me want to know her more.

And because of that, I was fucked, and so was everyone I knew.

The office in the back of my restaurant felt smaller than it usually did. The walls were cluttered with receipts and other documents, plus pictures of my family: my father, my mother, and my little brother. But none if it mattered to me, not anymore, not since I was well and truly, deeply and darkly, fucked.

The call that pulled me away from her, the call that I was dreading the whole time, came from Max. He was gruff and short, and wasn’t really pleased when I gave him my bullshit excuse. I told him that another person walked down into the underpass at the exact same time the girl did, which made me abort the whole thing. He was pissed, but he didn’t argue, just hung up the phone like he usually did. But hearing his voice, and being reminded of what I was sent down there to do, ruined whatever pleasant moment we had been having. She went from the beautiful, innocent, perfect thing that I needed to the girl I was supposed to murder.

It was hard to keep looking her in the eye after that, so I left.

I sighed, shaking my head. Her dog saved her life. If it hadn’t barked at that exact moment, making her turn around, I would have pulled the trigger. And even though that bark may have condemned me and everyone I loved, I was still thankful for it, because even if I had killed her, and was welcomed into Colm’s inner circle, it wouldn’t have been a real life, not really. She would have haunted me forever.

I’d rather live a short, real life than suffer through a long and fake one.

Before I could dive further into my self-loathing, somebody knocked on my office door.

“Fuck off,” I yelled out.

“Liam, it’s Colin. Colm is on the phone for you.”

Groaning, I stood up and walked to the door, pulling it open. Colin gave me an apologetic smile and handed me his phone. I gave him a ‘go slam your dick in a door’ look and turned away from him. As far as I knew, he was totally in the dark about what was happening, and I intended to keep it that way for as long as possible.

“Liam here,” I grunted into the receiver.

“I heard it didn’t go well.” Colm’s snake voice.

“Yeah, well, some other civilian showed up. I had to abort.”

“Do you know why I want her dead, Liam?”

“Dead bitches don’t talk.”

He laughed. “Of course, but it’s more than that.”

I shook my head, sick of playing games. “What do you want, Colm?”

“You’re from a long line of gangsters and Mob men, all of who stuck to the honor code like the good little boys they were. They thought their honor would help protect them and their loved ones.”

“I know that.”

“Good, so you’ll understand when I say that I need you to bloody your fucking hands. I need you down in the mud with the rest of us. You’re no longer kept above everyone else because of some precious honor or whatever other old-fashioned bullshit.” He paused, and I felt my heart hammering in my chest, my anger beginning to rise. “I need this girl silenced, but I need you dirtied as well. It’s not just about proving your loyalty anymore, Liam. It’s about proving to me that you understand the direction we’re headed, and that you won’t be second-guessing every single decision I make from here on out.”

I was quiet as I absorbed his little speech.

“So you get it, Liam?”

“Yeah, I get it.”

“Kill the girl by tomorrow night.” Another pause. I was practically crushing the phone in my hand, I was so angry. “I don’t want to be your enemy, Liam. I want to be your friend.”

“That’s what I want, too.” I wanted to call him a monster, threaten to break his teeth, but I kept my mouth shut instead. He didn’t know how much I despised him yet, and that was to my advantage.

“It warms my heart to hear you say that. Get it done.”

“I will.”

He hung up without another word. I stared at the phone for a few seconds, jaw clenched, body tense.

Get it together, you fucking pussy
.

“Colin, your phone,” I called out. Colin appeared from around the corner and took the phone from my hand. Without a word, I shut the door as he walked away and returned to my seat behind my desk. I leaned back in my chair and looked up at the ceiling, my gut swirling with fear but my chest fighting with determination.

I made a choice. Maybe I made the wrong choice, maybe I doomed people that I loved, but it was my choice. I wasn’t going to give up, not yet, not when there was still a chance.

All I had to do was figure out a way to keep Ellie alive while still keeping myself in Colm’s good graces.

Easy. No big deal.

I sighed, pulled my phone out, and began to type a text.

Me: I’m sorry to do this, but I have to cancel on you tonight. Work stuff. Another time, maybe.

I hit send, frowning. I couldn’t be seen with her, not when other people in the Mob knew her face and knew she was the one that Colm wanted dead. I couldn’t risk that obvious connection, not yet at least. I hated letting her down, but I’d rather she feel a little annoyed than get a bullet in the back.

All I needed was a plan. I pulled a bottle of decent whisky and a glass from the bottom drawer of my desk, poured myself a decent drink, and sipped it.

L
iam: I’m sorry to do this, but I have to cancel on you tonight. Work stuff. Another time, maybe.

I frowned at the text, folding my legs underneath me. I had already showered and was getting ready when he canceled on me. What an asshole. Why would he wait until the last minute? It must have been important, but still. What could have been so important at his restaurant that he couldn’t at least give me a call? It was frustrating and confusing; he seemed pretty into me during our walk, except for at the very end.

On a whim, I tapped on my friend Chelsea’s name and listened to the phone ring. I figured I was already dressed up and in the mood to do something; I might as well not waste the night just because Liam decided to stand me up.

“What up, girl?” Chelsea said.

“Hey, how’s it going?”

“I’m decent, exhausted though. Haven’t seen you in like, forever!”

“I know, being an adult sucks.”

“Tell me about it.”

“What are you doing tonight?”

“Honestly? I’m having a few glasses of wine and going to bed by ten.”

“How about some ice cream with me instead?”

“Can I still have some wine later?”

“You absolutely can.”

“Great. I’ll meet you at your place. When?”

“Half hour?”

“See you soon.”

“Bye.”

We hung up. I looked down at Petey.

“Liam is such an asshole, right, Petey?”

He looked up at me and wagged his tail. I sighed, leaning back into my comfortable couch. I hadn’t been on a date in a while, and honestly I hadn’t really thought much about it. I knew there were all these different dating apps, which I guess would have been easy enough to use, but it felt weird. And I didn’t want to meet some random guy at a bar, since that could be so sleazy. Instead, I put it out of my mind and didn’t bother.

I have no clue why I was so against meeting guys in a bar. It would make a lot more sense if I were open to meeting someone great anywhere, but I guess I loved to shoot myself in the foot.