Authors: Anne Mather
Tags: #Contemporary, #General, #Romance, #Adult, #Single fathers, #Fiction, #Runaway wives
Matt shrugged his broad shoulders. âI'm not on the witness stand, Mr Bradbury,' he replied coldly. âAs you prefer to keep
your reasons for wanting to find your wife to yourself, surely I can claim the same privilege for myâtemporary nanny.'
Max's cheeks were red with rage. Like his brother, he, too, was a large man, but without the gentling effects of Hugo's moustache. In fact, there was something almost bestial about Max's features, contorted as they were now. The man was a monster, Matt thought starkly. Thank God he hadn't had to invite him into his house.
Max, however, seemed to have realised he was not going to get anywhere by being aggressive. Changing tack, he lifted a hand in mock defeat. âI can see you are a loyal friend, Mr Seton,' he said, glancing round at his brother. âThis young woman, whoever she is, is lucky to have found such a gallant protector in you. I have to say my own wife does not deserve such blind devotion. Her mother is very ill, you see, and Sara has disappeared without even contacting the hospital once to see how the old lady is faring.'
Matt managed not to show his surprise at this news. Surely Sara wouldn't have run away if she'd known her mother was ill.
âI'm sorry,' he said again. And he was. If Sara's mother was ill, he was fairly sure she'd want to know about it. Max would know that too, of course. Matt suspected Max would say anything to get his own way.
âI am sorry, too,' said Sara's husband now, casting another look over his shoulder at Hugo. âI am very fond of Alicia; that's my wife's mother, you know. She's a widow, and life hasn't always been kind to her. I've done what I can, butâ¦' He lifted his shoulders, bulky beneath the jacket of his dark blue suit. âI'm not her daughter. What can I say?'
Matt wondered. Max sounded sincere, but, knowing what he did about the man's character, Matt wasn't convinced. He looked at Hugo, trying to gauge his reactions. The younger man's smile was rueful. A silent endorsement of his brother's comments? Or an acknowledgement that he had already said too much?
âI wish I could help you,' Matt said finally, not meaning a word of it. But right now he'd say anything to get rid of them.
Where the hell was Sara? Why hadn't she contacted her mother? If Max was lying, Matt promised himself he'd pay for it.
A few minutes later Matt was back in the study, jerking up the phone. The Bradburys had departed just a couple of minutes ago, and Matt had watched the car until it was out of sight. Max Bradbury had insisted on giving him his card, which listed all his phone numbers, but Matt had already dropped that into his wastebin. There was no way he'd give Sara's husband the time of day, let alone anything else.
Rob answered on the second ring. âMarco,' he said flatly, and Matt wondered if he was responsible for the lacklustre tone of his voice.
âRob?' he said quickly. âIt's Matt. Have you got a minute?'
âWell, well.' Rob didn't sound like a man who was expecting good news. âIf it isn't the incredible shrinking career man!'
âYeah, yeah.' Matt allowed him his moment of sarcasm. âI know I was a big disappointment to you when you turned up last week. But I've been thinking things over, and if you express-mail the new contract to me I'll sign it.'
Rob gave a stunned cough. âYou will?' Then he was silent for a moment before saying, âOkay. What do you want? Your signature never comes without strings attached.'
âYou wound me.' Matt tried to sound hurt, and failed miserably.
âThat's my line.' Rob was laconic. Then, âLet me guess: this has something to do with the delectable Mrs Bradbury, doesn't it?'
Matt sighed. âAll right. Yes, it does.' He paused. âShe did get on the plane with you, didn't she?'
âAnd hardly spoke the whole way,' agreed Rob drily. âThat is one close-mouthed lady, Matt. I'm not used to women blanking me for the best part of three hours. You know that.'
âMy heart bleeds.' Matt gnawed at his lower lip. âSo what happened when you got to Heathrow?'
Rob hesitated. âWhat is this, Matt? An inquisition? Do I take it she hasn't written and thanked you for taking her in. You did
take her in, didn't you, pal? That nanny business was just so much hot air.'
Matt expelled a wry breath. âJust answer the question, Rob. Did you give her a lift into town?'
Rob sighed. âNo way, man. I didn't even get the chance to offer. As soon as we cleared the Arrivals hall she took off running. I didn't see her again. I guess she got a cab into town.'
Matt swore. He'd more or less expected that. âAnd you didn't tell anyone who she was or where she'd been?'
âNo.' Rob sounded put out. âI said I wouldn't and I haven't. Why? Have you had a visit from her husband? From what I hear, that sounds like the way he works.'
S
ARA
stood at the window of the bed and breakfast where she was staying in Paddington and wondered for the umpteenth time what she was going to do.
It was a week since she'd left Saviour's Bayâsince she'd left Mattâand her decision was getting harder to make, not easier.
At first she'd checked into the small lodging house because the idea of going back to Max immediately after what she'd shared with Matt had been too painful to consider. She'd felt no shame. She might have been unfaithful to Max in word and deed, but Matt had made sure that she returned to her husband as unsullied as when she'd left him.
Which was a contradiction in itself, she thought bitterly. But Max couldn't actually accuse her of sleeping with another man. Well, he could accuse her of it, if that was what he believed, but she could answer honestly that she hadn't.
So why did she have such a feeling of loss because Matt hadn't made love to her with his body? Why was she becoming more and more depressed because she knew she might never see Matt again? She'd always known that they had no future. She'd left him in no doubt of what she ultimately intended to do. So why was she regretting it now, when it was over? When it was far too late to have a change of heart?
Of course, where her heart was concerned there'd been no change. Almost from the first moment she'd set eyes on Matt she'd known he was going to mean something in her life. She had no logical explanation. She'd just known he was a man she could trust.
She supposed she wasn't typical of most women in her situation. After years of being abused by one man, how could she instantly have feelings for another? And, if she did have feel
ings, how did she know they were genuine? She had so little experience to draw on. So much in her life she wanted to forget.
She didn't know why she was so certain she loved him, but she was. It certainly wasn't because Matt had encouraged her to feel that way. On the contrary, most of the time he'd kept a safe distance between them. What affection she'd had had mostly been from Rosie.
Yet, for all that, she'd known he wasn't indifferent to her. The awareness between them, that had begun that first morning, had grown almost without any encouragement from them. It had started even before he'd seen what Max had done to her. And when he'd tended her bruises and touched her with his lipsâ¦
Sara trembled. Was she exaggerating what had happened between them? She didn't think so, but it was too late now. Matt had been attracted to her; he had wanted her to leave Max. But that didn't add up to a lasting commitment. He'd been thinking of her, not himself. He'd wanted her to take control of her life.
If she dared.
She frowned now. She knew she'd changed during those days at Seadrift. For the first time in years she'd had the chance to look objectively at her marriage. Without Max's oppressive presence she'd been able to think for herself again. And what she'd discovered had not been a pretty sight.
She saw now that it was Max who had robbed her of her confidence. Slowly but surely he'd convinced her that she was to blame for the punishment he'd subjected her to. And, although she'd been weak to believe him, she'd been living under so much pressure she'd had no strength left to fight his cruelty.
The guilt was his, not hers, she'd realised. Being with Matt had shown her that there was another way. All she'd needed was time to rest, to relax, to find the woman she'd used to be. And being with Matt and Rosie had been the happiest time of her life.
That was the real reason why she hadn't returned to the apartment in Knightsbridge. She'd needed time alone, to think about the future, to decide what she was going to do. Max still frightened her, of course. She couldn't dismiss three years of abuse
in only two weeks. But she was prepared to face him again, to show him that the chains he'd bound her with were broken, to make another bid for freedom.
There was still her mother to think about, of course, and she knew a fleeting sense of despair at the knowledge that she'd get no support from her. But surely if she could show her what Max had done, if she could explain to her why she'd run awayâ¦
She wasn't hopeful. However determined she'd been in the past, her mother had always been able to get under her defences, to persuade her she was exaggerating Max's behaviour. She really believed her life would have to be in imminent danger for Mrs Fielding to forfeit her comfortable lifestyle. As far as her mother was concerned she was lucky to live in such luxury.
Still, she had to try. This was her last chance, and if she let Max take control of her again she very likely would dieâof heartbreak, if nothing elseâ¦
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St Jude's Hospital was in Euston Road.
If Sara hadn't been so concerned, the incongruity of its title might have amused her. But when she burst through the doors she was already running on adrenalin and little else.
The idea that she'd been hiding out in Paddington while her mother had been fighting for her life just a comparatively short distance away had horrified her. But until she'd gone to her apartment to speak to her she hadn't even known her mother was ill.
It was a neighbour who'd put Sara in the picture.
âMrs Fielding had a heart attack a few nights ago,' she'd told the stunned young woman sympathetically. âDidn't you know?'
âIâI've been away,' Sara had answered abstractedly, and the woman's expression had revealed that she'd read the newspapers, too.
âOf course,' she'd said understandingly, but Sara had had the feeling that she'd put her own interpretation on recent events, as everyone else would have done.
âAnyway,' she went on, âit was lucky your husband was here
when it happened, wasn't it? It was he who called the ambulance, you know.'
That was when Sara's blood had chilled. Max had been visiting her mother? Max never visited her mother. Indeed, Mrs Fielding had often claimed that it was Sara who stopped him from going to see her. But in fact Max himself had nothing but contempt for the older woman. Though it suited him to keep that from her.
He'd always been repulsively flattering whenever Mrs Fielding had visited her daughter, however. He wasn't a fool. He'd known that she was an invaluableâif unwittingâally in his bid to control his wife. And, despite her fears for her mother's safety, Sara couldn't believe he'd have hurt her now.
Even so, her heart was beating unpleasantly fast as she approached the reception desk. Stammering a little, she explained that she was Alicia Fielding's daughter. She added that she'd been away and had only just discovered that her mother was in the hospital.
âWhat ward?' asked the woman dispassionately, and Sara realised belatedly that she had no idea.
âShe had a heart attack,' she said, by way of an answer. âI don't know what ward she's in.'
The woman heaved a resigned sigh and turned to the computer screen beside her. âWhat name did you say?' she asked, and Sara knew a moment's panic that her mother's name might not appear on the screen.
âFielding,' she said hastily. âAlicia Fielding. Sheâshe had a heart attack.'
âSo you said.' The receptionist was hardly sympathetic. âAh, yes. Here it is.' She paused. âWard 32. Intensive Care.'
âIntensive Care!' Sara fairly squeaked the words. âWhere do I find that?'
âThird floor,' said the woman. âYou'll find the lifts along there.' She pointed an indifferent finger along the corridor to her right. âThey'll probably let you in. The ICU don't keep regular visiting hours, for obvious reasons.'
âThanks.'
Swallowing convulsively, Sara fairly ran along the corridor
the woman had indicated. She was glad now that since returning to London she'd invested her last few pounds in a cheap summer dress and deck shoes. Although she expected her mother to object, she was glad of the flat heels now.
The lifts were huge things, big enough to take the patient trolleys she'd seen in the A and E department as she'd passed. They moved ponderously, too, and she was biting her lip with impatience by the time she reached the third floor.
She found the Intensive Care Unit without difficulty. There were only two departments on this floor. The other appeared to be a recovery ward for patients from the ICU. But the receptionist had said her mother was in the former.
There was a senior nurse on duty, and she looked at Sara curiously when she gave her name. Of course, Sara thought wearily, she'd probably recognised her. And, even if she hadn't, the name would have given her away.
âMrs Fielding is holding her own,' she said, in answer to Sara's initial enquiry. If she was wondering why Sara hadn't known about her mother's illness until now she was professional enough to keep it to herself. âShe's in there,' she added, pointing towards a glass-framed cubicle. âYou can go in, but please don't excite her. She's had a really tough time.'
Sara hesitated. âIt was a heart attack?' she asked awkwardly, and the nurse nodded.
âBut you'll find her face is rather bruised, too, I'm afraid.' She touched Sara's arm. âIt looks much worse than it really is. That's why I'm warning you. According to her son-in-lawâ But, of course you must know this,' she exclaimed, with some embarrassment, breaking off.
âI don't know anything,' said Sara fiercely, uncaring what Max would think when he found out. âAs I said before, I didn't even know my mother was ill.' She took a breath. âPlease, do go on with what you were saying. What did my husband tell you?'
âWellâ¦' The nurse was clearly reluctant to be the bearer of bad news, but she evidently reasoned that Sara was a close relative and deserved to know the truth. âAccording to Mr Bradbury, Mrs Fielding was in the kitchen of her apartment,
making a pot of tea, when she collapsed. She hit her face on the sink, I believe. He was most distressed. I tried to tell him that these things happen all the time, but I think he was worried we'd believe he'd done it.'
The nurse gave an embarrassed little chuckle, but Sara wasn't laughing. The explanation Max had given sounded so horribly familiar to her. On one occasionâjust onceâhe'd given her a black eye. And spent the next few days telling everyone she'd walked into a door.
He'd been careful after that. The injuries she'd suffered at his hands had never embarrassed him again. But the idea that he might have attacked her mother was still incredible. Surely even he would never have sunk so low.
Thanking the nurse, Sara hurried towards the cubicle she'd indicated. Pausing outside, she looked in, her heart beating uncomfortably fast in her chest.
Her mother was lying amid an impressive array of tubes and computer screens, an IVF bottle suspended beside the railed hospital bed. She looked older than Sara had ever seen her, and the bruises on her face stood out in stark relief against her pallid skin.
Oh, Mum, she thought achingly, what really happened? As far as she knew, her mother had never had any heart problems in the past. Was it something Max had said that had caused this? Something he had done? Or was she damning the man without a shred of evidence to support her fears?
Taking a deep breath, she pushed against the swing doors and entered the cubicle. The smell of antiseptic was strong, mingling with the usual odours associated with a hospital ward. The room was warm, too, but not unpleasantly so. The hum of the air-conditioning unit was just one of the many systems running in the room.
Her mother's eyes were closed when she entered the cubicle. But as she approached the bed there were definite signs of awareness. The old lady's lids flickered, before lifting warily, as if she wasn't entirely sure she wanted to see who her visitor was.
Then she saw her daughter and her eyes filled with tears. âSara?' she said disbelievingly. âOh, Sara, is it really you?'
âIt's me,' said Sara, sniffing back her own tears and bending to take her mother's limp hand. âHowâhow are you, Mum? I'm so sorry I wasn't here when you needed me.'
Mrs Fielding gazed up at her as if she still couldn't quite believe her eyes. âWhere have you been?' she asked, her voice hoarse and unsteady. âIâI was so afraidâ'
Sara's stomach clenched. âMumâ'
âI thought you must be dead,' went on her mother urgently, gripping Sara's hand. âYou were missing and I had no idea where you were.'
âBut Max had a letterâ'
âFrom you? Yes, so he said. But I've never seen any letter, and I had only his word that you'd written it.'
âBut it was in the newspaper, too,' said Sara, wishing she'd been able to tell her mother where she was. âI'm sorry you've been worried. There was no need.'
âBut why did you run away?' protested Mrs Fielding. âWhat happened that night? I never believed Max's story. Not when he didn't appear to know where you were.'
The old lady was getting agitated, and, bearing in mind what the nurse had said, Sara endeavoured to calm her down. âWe'd had a row,' she said gently. âOne of many, as I've said before. IâMax fell down the stairs, and I thought he was badly injured. I called the emergency services, but I was afraid they'd blame me, and Iâwell, I ran away. Cowardly, huh?'
âOh, Saraâ'
âNever mind that. I'm here now, and the nurse says you're making good progress,' Sara added soothingly. She forced a smile. âHow do you really feel?'
âForget about me,' exclaimed her mother dismissively. âSara, why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you talk to me? Why couldn't you have shown me what that monster had done to you?'
âMum, Mum!' Sara didn't know where all this was coming from. âIt doesn't matter nowâ'
âIt does matter.' Her mother was looking up at her with tears
streaming down her cheeks. âThank God you're here. Thank God you're alive. I've been soâso worried.'