The notebook was full of loosely scribbled writing. Poems, recipes, and again diary entries, seemingly carelessly and unchronologically scattered. Her mother, she was beginning to think, had a butterfly mind, leaping from here to there, from thought to thought, idea to idea, and from self-conscious musing to the need to confide somewhere, if only to an inanimate diary.
The two letters were addressed to Mary. Joss picked them up, touched that Mary should part with them. One was dated 1956.
Take care of my little one, Mary dear. Remember the doctor’s advice about his tummy aches. Kiss him for me and look after him. I’m so much happier to know he is there with you in your mother’s cottage.
Joss looked up. The letter was headed Belheddon Hall. Why had Laura thought it necessary for Georgie to go and stay with Mary in the village?
She smiled at Lyn and Tom as they appeared in the doorway. ‘Tea is nearly ready.’
Next morning, almost before they were up, David had appeared with an extra belated Christmas present for Tom – a furry, hideously green, hippopotamus with which the little boy fell instantly in love and christened for some obscure reason, Joseph. ‘Arimathea or Carpenter?’ David asked mischievously and the little boy answered solemnly, ‘Hittopomatus.’
In the laughter which followed David glanced at Joss. Pregnancy seemed to be agreeing with her. She seemed to be growing more attractive every time he saw her. Sternly he reined in his thoughts. ‘So, have you written enough for me to take to Bob?’
She nodded. ‘Two chapters, like you said. I printed them up yesterday.’
He grinned. ‘Great. Well, here’s your reward. More stuff about the house.’ He put a folder down on the table in front of her. ‘I’ve found out who Katherine is. Or was.’ He smiled. ‘Katherine de Vere was the eldest daughter of the Robert de Vere who lived here in the mid-fifteenth century. She was betrothed to the son of a local earl.
Handsome and light hearted, the young man rode to Belheddon daily
and Katherine’s father laughed out loud in delight.
“We have a love match here,” he guffawed to all who would listen
and when he saw the debonair Richard tuck his daughter’s favour in
his cap he slapped him on the back and planned the wedding.
She had eyes for no one but this young neighbour. Whilst she curtseyed
to the king and served him with wine she did not look up and see his
face.
To her he was old
.’
David turned the page in his folder and went on: ‘I’m not sure whether or not she actually married him. The records are a bit cryptic about that, I thought. Anyway only a year later in 1482 poor Katherine died, and she’s in the church as Katherine de Vere. She was only seventeen or eighteen. When her father died Belheddon Hall passed to an Edward, presumably her younger brother. He too died at the age of eighteen, but had time to marry and have a daughter. By that time we are in the reign of Henry VII. The strange thing is –’ he paused and looked round – ‘that already, by the end of the sixteenth century the house had a reputation for being haunted.’ He grinned at Joss. ‘Do you want to know this?’
‘No!’ ‘Yes!’ Luke and Joss spoke simultaneously.
David shrugged. He reached for a page out of the file. ‘“The beauteous house of Belheddon Hall, though well-favoured, did not boast many tenants. Men and dogs alike fled in terror from the wails of an apparition which inhabited its lofty chambers.”
‘That was written in the late seventeenth century by a diarist called James Cope who stayed here – only once.
‘“For more than a hundred years the house has been inhabited by this creature whose unhappiness is distressing to the ear and frightening to the eye.”’
David laughed. ‘He then adds:
‘“Though I stayed three nights it did not, to my sorrow appear and has not been seen these last forty years.”’
‘He doesn’t mention the devil, though, does he,’ Luke put in tartly. ‘That’s interesting. An old gossip like that would have put that snippet in if he had heard it.’
David nodded. ‘Interestingly though there is a mention of the devil in an account written only fifty years later by James Fosset, an antiquarian who spent several months collecting stories and history in the district. His theory seems to me to be on the right lines. Listen.
‘“Belheddon Hall, one of the most beautiful of the local houses was built on a much earlier site. Some say it goes back to the dawn of time. The name derives from the old English
bealu
, meaning evil or calamity, and
heddon
meaning a heather-covered hill and would appear to point to the site having been used in pagan times as a site of worship and perhaps of sacrifice. Superstition and fear cling to the site and as little as a hundred years ago a witch was taken and hanged after having concourse with the devil in the grounds of the house.”
‘Do you see a pattern beginning to form? The hauntings, the pagan site, some poor old woman taken as a witch – slowly the pieces are falling into place. Somehow over the ages the two have got amalgamated and the result is a wonderful legend that it is the devil who haunts, or inhabits, the house. There. Your problem is solved. Andrews was a fascinating man. He knew most of this, I suspect, though he hadn’t come across the Fosset references. He says Edward IV actually came to the house on several occasions. That was when the de Vere family lived here. In fact he may have given them the house as at an earlier date the manor was in royal domain. After their day he thinks a whole host of different families lived here – none seems to have stayed more than a few generations, if that, although he thinks on several occasions the house passed down through the female line, so of course the surnames would have been different, just as it is now of course, with you.’ He looked up at Joss and smiled. ‘I hope you are pleased with my humble efforts?’
Joss nodded slowly. Her head was buzzing.
‘
The king! The king is coming!’
The excitement in the house was reaching fever pitch.
Katherine scowled as her mother reached for the brush and dragged
it through her tangled curls.
‘Be sweet to him, child.’ The cold lips were very close to Katherine’s
ear.
The earl’s son was a good catch, but the king was better.
‘Be loving. Whatever your king desires, remember, it is his to
command!
’
‘There is so much to take in.’ Joss gave a little half laugh. ‘It’s fascinating. I especially like the link with Edward IV. As my book is set during the Wars of the Roses, I can do my research right here.’ She shook her head again. Briefly she wondered if David too had heard the strange echo which seemed to fill the spaces of the house.
I
n the kitchen Tom was whining crossly, pulling at Lyn’s long checked skirt. ‘Pick me up!’ When she ignored him he stamped his small foot and wailed even louder. Joss frowned. Her arms full of dirty washing she had pushed open the kitchen door and come in to find Lyn on the phone. ‘Lyn?’
Tom’s wails grew louder.
Lyn turned away from him in irritation, clapping her free hand over the ear that was not pressed to the receiver. ‘Listen, I can come up any time,’ she said into the phone, ‘you know I can. I want to.’ She pushed Tom none too gently towards his toys and his wails doubled in volume.
Joss dropped the clothes she was carrying onto the floor in front of the washing machine and went to Tom, squatting down to give him a hug. ‘Leave Aunty Lyn while she’s on the phone.’ She looked up at Lyn. ‘Is that Mum you’re talking to?’ she whispered.
Lyn nodded.
‘How is she? Can I speak to her?’
But Lyn was already hanging up. ‘She’s OK.’
‘But she’s not! I wanted to speak to her.’
‘Then ring her back.’ Lyn scowled. ‘Tom was making such a racket I couldn’t hear myself think.’
Joss shook her head. ‘You know he doesn’t like us talking on the phone. He just wants attention and hates us being distracted from him. It’s a phase they all go through.’
‘Well, I hope it’s not a long one!’ Lyn stared at the washing in distaste. ‘I suppose you want me to put that lot in the machine.’
Joss narrowed her eyes. Lyn’s voice was full of resentment.
‘No, I can do it. What’s wrong, Lyn?’
‘You don’t care about Mum at all. You haven’t given her a
thought. When did you last ring her? She said she hasn’t spoken to you in days!’
‘Lyn – ’
‘No. You don’t care anymore, do you. You’re just going to forget them. Your new family is so much more exciting. We were never good enough for you, were we!’ Lyn stormed across to the window and stood, arms folded, staring out.
‘That’s not true! For goodness’ sake, what’s the matter with you?’ Joss had to raise her voice as, upset by Lyn’s tone, Tom started to scream in earnest. Stooping, Joss picked him up and swung him onto her hip. ‘Lyn, what is it? Did Mum say something? Does she know what’s wrong with her?’
Lyn shook her head without speaking.
‘Is it cancer, Lyn?’ Joss put her hand on her sister’s shoulder.
Lyn shrugged miserably.
‘You must go, if you want to.’ Joss’s voice was gentler. ‘You don’t have to stay here, you know.’
Lyn sniffed. ‘You need me.’
‘I know I do. And Luke and I love having you here, Lyn. But if you’re not happy – ’
‘I love Tom.’
Joss smiled. ‘I know that too. And I love Mum and Dad. I always have and I always will. You mustn’t believe for a minute that I don’t. If I didn’t ring Mum yesterday, it was only that I was too busy – ’
‘Too busy to pick up the phone for two minutes?’ Lyn was still staring out of the window.
‘It didn’t mean I stopped loving her, Lyn.’
‘That’s what she thinks.’
‘She does not!’ Joss was angry suddenly. ‘And you know it.’ She turned away and unceremoniously dumped Tom on the floor in front of a pile of coloured bricks. Scooping up the heap of clothes she pushed them into the machine and reached for the detergent.
‘She’s going into hospital tomorrow, Joss.’ Lyn’s gaze was fixed unseeing on the window catch as she scratched at the flaking paint with her nail. Her voice was leaden.
Joss sat down at the kitchen table. ‘Why didn’t you say so?’
‘She’s going to die.’
‘Lyn – ’
‘I can’t bear it if she dies.’ There were tears running down Lyn’s cheeks.
‘She won’t die.’ Joss put her head in her hands and took a deep unsteady breath. ‘She won’t, Lyn. She’s going to be all right. I’m sure she is.’ She had to be. She couldn’t cope, she realised suddenly, if her mum, the woman who had been her mother all her remembered life, was not there in the background to support her. She looked down at Tom. Suddenly engrossed in his toys his wails had ceased as he examined a large yellow beaker and she was overwhelmed by a sudden rush of love for him. It was love that made everyone so vulnerable, in the end. She sighed again. That was what made families such a joy and such a heart-break.
Gerald Andrews drew his cup towards him and raised it with difficulty in arthritic fingers. He beamed at Joss however as he got it at last to his lips. ‘My dear, it was good of you to ask me to tea. You don’t know how much I have longed to come to see this house. It seems extraordinary that I should have written a history of it and yet never set foot across the threshold.’
The history in question, a slim booklet in pale buff cardboard covers, lay between them on the kitchen table. On the front an eighteenth-century woodcut showed the front of the house with the beech tree perhaps half as big as it now was.
‘I couldn’t believe my luck when I found myself talking to David Tregarron and he said he knew you!’ He picked up a biscuit.
‘It’s lucky for me too.’ Joss was dying to look through the book. ‘I have so much catching up to do. I know so little of my family.’
He nodded. ‘I wrote to your mother several times asking if I might come and see her when I was writing that, but I understand she had not been well. Miss Sutton wrote back and each time said it was not convenient. Then your mother left and it was too late.’
‘You lived in the area a long time?’ Unable to resist it any longer Joss picked up the pamphlet and opened it. The first chapter was called
Early Days
.
‘About ten years. I compiled some half dozen of these little books. All on the notable houses of the district. The Old Rectory, Pilgrim Hall, Pickersticks House …’
‘Pilgrim Hall?’ Joss looked up. ‘My father’s home?’
‘Your grandfather’s home. John Duncan was appointed guardian
to your mother and her brother Robert when their mother and father died – I suppose it was inevitable that his son should fall in love with Laura – he kept both houses going for a while, then after Robert died he took Laura back to live at Pilgrim Hall with them. This place was practically derelict for a bit, but of course it was Laura’s inheritance and they couldn’t sell. John Duncan came into a lot of money, late in life – an inheritance as far as I remember from some relative who had lived in the Far East. He was a strange man, John. He hated Belheddon and Pilgrim Hall with equal loathing. He settled money on the two children, Philip and his ward, Laura, and went to live abroad. His wife, Lady Sarah, stayed on for several years, until the children got married, then she sold Pilgrim Hall which is much smaller than this, and went off to join him. He never came back, not even for the wedding. It was a frightful scandal at the time. People locally thought he’d gone off with a dusky lady,’ he gave a delighted chuckle. ‘I don’t somehow think Lady Sarah would have stood for that. She would have beaten any rivals to death with her umbrella. Powerful lady, your grandmother on the Duncan side.’
Joss smiled. ‘They died abroad, did they?’
‘John did, I believe. He had vowed never to come back to England. I never found out why. Some kind of quarrel with the family, I suppose. After he died, Lady Sarah came home. She even tried to buy back Pilgrim Hall. That must have been in the sixties, but by then they had built a huge annex and turned it into a country house hotel. I met her once, because I had already published the booklet on Pilgrim Hall. She wanted a copy for herself. It must have been the mid to late sixties because your father, Philip, was already dead – that dreadful accident with the horse – so sad – but I expect you know all about that. She suggested that I write about Belheddon. She was very scathing about the place. Thought it was cursed. She thought Laura was mad to stay here, but Laura seemed to be unable to tear herself away. I can remember her telling me that she was fixated on the house. She would walk about on her own, even at night, for hours, sometimes talking to herself.’ He glanced at Joss. ‘She thought Laura had finally lost her mind when she gave you up for adoption. The whole village took it very badly. Your mother was virtually ostracised afterwards. Lady Sarah said she would never speak to
her again, and not long after that she moved somewhere up north.’ He hesitated. ‘It was her theory that the house was cursed which attracted my attention. I don’t normally believe in these things,’ he smiled almost apologetically, ‘but this place has had more than its share of tragedy by any standards.’
‘So many of the children die.’ Unconsciously Joss put her hands protectively over her stomach.
He frowned. ‘You shouldn’t perhaps read too much into infants’ deaths. Such high mortality is profoundly shocking, but remember, in every age but our own such things were normal.’
‘I suppose so.’ She was staring at the booklet in her hands:
Four major rivers find their sources in Belheddon Ridge, a
sandy, gravel escarpment which cuts across the clays of East
Anglia in an east west slash through the landscape, visible for
miles, she read. Such a place was an obvious candidate for
early settlement and indeed there is archaeological evidence of
an iron age camp under what is now the west lawn of the
house
…
She turned the pages eagerly. ‘There never seems to have been one family in the house for any length of time,’ she said at last. She glanced up at him. ‘From the letters and diaries I’ve been studying and the family Bible there seem to be so many names, although they are related.’
‘Female descent.’ Andrews reached for another biscuit. ‘It happens. If you look you will find the house was nearly always inherited by daughters, so of course the surname changes generation after generation. Not every time. There were years when it stood empty and when it had tenants, but it seems always to have come back in the end to some relation or other. It’s had a longer history in one family than you might think.’
‘Really?’ She looked up at him eagerly. ‘We’re not descended from the de Veres?’
‘Oh almost certainly. That was something which intrigued me, as I was telling Dr Tregarron. The trouble is I didn’t have enough time to follow it through in detail – you could get a genealogist to do it, I suppose, if you were interested. Matrilineal descent is a fascinating phenomenon. Strange to us but a matter of course to some people. In this case obviously it wasn’t a policy decision, it just worked out that way. No sons.’ He stuffed his biscuit into
his mouth and glanced at his watch. ‘I hate to seem too eager, Mrs Grant, but you said I might glance at some of the main rooms.’
‘Of course.’ Reluctantly Joss put down the book. ‘I’ll show you round.’
In the course of the next hour Joss was given a potted, breathless and ecstatic history of the English manor house, taking in pargetting, chamfering, stopping, plasterwork, the art of the fresco (‘Almost certainly, under this panelling. The panelling would protect it, you know,’) staircases, solars, bedchambers and the great hall as centre of the house. Her head reeling, Joss followed in his wake, wishing again and again she had a tape recorder with her to take down this man’s encyclopaedic knowledge. He laughed when she told him as much. ‘I’ll come again, if you let me. We can make notes. Now, the cellar.’ They were standing at the foot of the main staircase and his nose was quivering like a dog’s scenting a rabbit. ‘There we may see traces of early vaulting.’
Joss pointed at the door. ‘Down there. Do you mind if I don’t come down? I get claustrophobia.’ She laughed deprecatingly, aware of his sudden shrewd gaze.
‘Am I tiring you, Mrs Grant? I know I go on and on. I used to drive my wife mad. The trouble is I get so excited about things.’ Already he had fumbled awkwardly with the key, swung open the door and found the light switch. She watched as he disappeared, hampered by his stiffness, down the steep stairs, then she turned away into the study. She waited by the window, staring out across the lawn. Hours seemed to pass. Frowning she glanced at her watch. Wafting across the great hall from the kitchen she could smell onions and garlic. Lyn must be putting on the lunch while Tom would be watching
Sesame Street
on the TV. There was no sound from the cellar. She walked across to the door and peered down the stairs anxiously. ‘Mr Andrews?’ There was no answer. ‘Mr Andrews?’ There was a sudden tightness in her chest. ‘Are you all right?’
She could feel the cold air rising. It smelled musty and damp and somehow very old. With a shiver she put her hand on the splintery banister and leaned forward, trying to see into the first cellar. ‘Mr Andrews?’ The stairs were very steep, the old worn wood split and pitted. Reluctantly she put her foot on the first step. ‘Mr Andrews are you all right?’ The unshaded bulb was very
bright. It threw the shadows of the winebins, black wedges across the floor. ‘Mr Andrews?’ Her voice was shaking now, threaded with panic. Clutching the rail she crept down another two steps. This was where Georgie had fallen, his small body hurtling down the steps to lie in a crumpled heap at the bottom. Shaking the thought out of her head she stepped down again, forcing herself down the steps one by one. There was a sudden movement on the wall near her. She froze with terror, staring, and her eyes focused at last on a small brown lizard, clinging to the stone. It stared back at her and then with a flick of its tail it ran up the wall and disappeared through a crack into the darkness behind the wall.
‘Mrs Grant, look at this!’ The voice, so loud and excited, right behind her, made Joss jump round with a small cry. ‘Oh, my dear, I’m sorry. Did I startle you?’ Gerald Andrews appeared through the arch which led into the next cellar. ‘Come and see. There is the most perfect medieval vaulting through here. Very early. Oh, I wish I’d known about this when I wrote the book. It takes the date of the original house back I should say to the thirteenth or fourteenth century …’ Already he had disappeared through the arch again, beckoning her to follow.
Taking a deep breath Joss made her way past the gleaming ranks of bottles, awaiting the visit and tasting next week from the wine expert from Sotheby’s, and found herself staring up at the stone arches of the second cellar.