I Am Ozzy (2 page)

I hated school.
Hated
it.
I can still remember my first day at Prince Albert Juniors in Aston: they had to drag me in there by the
scruff of my neck, because I was kicking and screaming so much.
The only thing I ever looked forward to at school was the bell ringing at four o'clock. I couldn't read
properly so I couldn't get good marks. Nothing would stick in my head, and I couldn't understand why my
brain was such a useless piece of fucking jelly. I'd look at a page in a book and it might as well have been
written in Chinese. I felt like I was no good, like I was a born loser. It wasn't until I was in my thirties that
I found out about my dyslexia and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. No one knew anything about any
of that shit back then. I was in a class of forty kids, and if you didn't understand, the teachers didn't try to
help - they just let you fuck around. So that's what I did. And whenever anyone gave me shit for being
stupid - like when I had to read out loud - I'd try to entertain the class. I'd think up all sorts of insane
things to do to make the other kids laugh.
The only good thing about having dyslexia is that dyslexics are usually very creative people, or so I've
been told. We think in unusual ways. But it's a very bad stigma to have, not being able to read like normal
people can. To this day I wish I'd had a proper education. I think books are great, I do. To be able to lose
yourself in a book is fucking phenomenal. Everyone should be able to do it. But I've been able to get
through an entire book only a few times in my life. Every blue moon this thing in my head will release, and
I'll try to read as many books as I can, because when it closes up it goes straight back to the way it was,
and I end up just sitting there, staring at Chinese.
For as long as I can remember people called me 'Ozzy' at school. I haven't got a clue who first came
up with it, or when, or why. It was just a nickname for Osbourne, I suppose, but it fitted my clownish
personality. As soon as it stuck, only my immediate family kept calling me John. I don't even recognise my
birth name now. If someone says, 'Oi, John! Over 'ere!' I don't even look up.
After Prince Albert Juniors, I went to Birchfield Road Secondary Modern in Perry Barr. They had a uniform there. It wasn't mandatory, but most of the kids wore it, including my goody two-shoes little brother Paul. He'd turn up every day in the blazer and the grey flannels and the tie and shirt. Me, I'd walk around in fucking welly-boots and jeans and smelly old sweats. The headmaster, Mr Oldham, would give me a bollocking every time he set eyes on me. 'John Osbourne, tidy yourself up, you're a disgrace!' he'd
shout down the hallway. 'Why can't you be more like your brother?'
The only time Mr Oldham ever said a good word about me was when I told him that one of the older
kids had tried to kill the school fish by putting Fairy Liquid in the aquarium. He even praised me in
assembly. 'Because of John Osbourne,' he said, 'we were able to apprehend the villain responsible for this
dastardly deed.' What Mr Oldham didn't know was that it was me who'd tried to kill the school fish by
putting dish soap in the aquarium - but I'd chickened out halfway through. I knew everyone would blame
me for all the bubbles in the tank, 'cos they blamed me for
everything
, so I thought if I blamed someone
else first, I could get away with it. And it worked.
There was one teacher I liked: Mr Cherrington. He was a local-history buff and he once took us to this
place called Pimple Hill, the site of an old castle in Birmingham. It was fucking great. He talked about forts
and burial grounds and medieval torture devices. It was the best lesson I ever had, but I still didn't get
good marks because I couldn't write any of it down. Funnily enough, the only thing I got gold stars for at
Birchfield Road was 'heavy metalwork'. I suppose that was 'cos my dad was a toolmaker and it came
naturally to me. I even won first prize in a class competition for a metal window catch. It didn't stop me
fucking around, though. The teacher, Mr Lane, would end up slapping me on the arse with this big piece of
wood. He would hit me so hard I thought my arse was going to fall off. He was actually a nice guy, Mr
Lane. Terrible racist, though. Fucking hell, the things he'd say... you'd get put in jail for it today. My favourite prank in heavy metalwork was to get a penny and spend three or four minutes making it
really hot with a blowtorch, and then leave it on Mr Lane's desk, so that he'd see it and pick it up out of
curiosity.
First you'd hear: 'Waaaaahhhhhh!'
Then: 'Osbourne, you little bastard!'
Heh-heh-heh.
The old hot-penny trick. Priceless, man.

I got bullied for a while when I was younger. Some older kids used to wait for me on the way home from school and pull my trousers down and fuck around with me. I was maybe eleven or twelve at the time. It was a bad scene. They didn't fuck me or wank me off or any of that stuff - it was just boys playing boys' games - but it made me feel ashamed, and it freaked me out because I couldn't tell my parents. There was a lot of teasing in my family - which is normal when you've got six kids in one little terraced house - but it meant I didn't feel I could ask anyone for help. I felt like it was all my fault.

At least it made me determined that when I grew up and had my own kids, I'd tell them, 'Don't ever be afraid to come to your mum and dad with any problems. You know what's right and you know what's wrong, and if somebody ever messes with parts of your body that you don't think are cool, just tell us.' And believe me, if I ever found out that anything dodgy was happening to one of my own, there'd be fucking
blood

Eventually I worked out a way to get around the bullies. I found the biggest kid in the playground and clowned around until I made him laugh. By doing that he became my friend. He was built like a cross between a brick shithouse and Mount fucking Snowdon. If you fucked around with him you'd be drinking your school dinners through a straw for the next month and a half. But deep down he was a gentle giant. The bullies left me well alone once we became pals, which was a relief because I was as crap at fighting as I was at reading.

One kid at school who
never
beat me up was Tony Iommi. He was in the year above me, and everyone knew him 'cos he could play the guitar. He might not have beaten me up, but I still felt intimidated by him: he was a big guy, and good-looking, and all the girls fancied him. And no one could beat Tony Iommi in a fight. You could not put the guy down. As he was older than me he might have kicked me in the bollocks a few times and given me some shit, but nothing more than that. What I remember most about him from school is the day when we were allowed to bring our Christmas presents to class. Tony showed up with this bright red electric guitar. I remember thinking it was the coolest thing I'd ever seen in my life. I'd always wanted to play an instrument myself, but my folks didn't have the dough to buy me one, and I didn't have the patience to learn anyway. My attention span was five seconds. But Tony could really play. He was incredible, just one of those naturally talented guys: you could have given him some Mongolian bagpipes and he'd have learned how to do a blues riff on them in a couple of hours. At school I always wondered what would happen to Tony Iommi.

But it would be a few more years before our paths would cross again.
As I got older, I started to spend less time in class and more in the boys' toilets, smoking. I smoked so much I was always turning up late for morning registration, which was taken by the school rugby teacher, Mr Jones. He hated me. He was always putting me in detention and picking on me in front of the other kids. His favourite thing in the whole world was to beat me with a shoe. He'd tell me to go to the tennisshoe rack at the back of the classroom and pick out the biggest one and bring it to him. Then he'd go and inspect the rack, and if he found a bigger shoe I'd get whacked on the arse twice as many times. He was the worst bully in the whole place.
Another thing Mr Jones would do is, he'd get all the kids to stand in a row every morning in the classroom, and then he'd walk up and down behind us, looking at our necks to make sure we were washing ourselves in the morning. If he thought you had a dirty neck, he'd rub a white towel over it - and if it came up soiled, he'd drag you by the collar over to the sink in the corner and scrub you down like an animal.
He was the worst bully in the whole school, Mr Jones was.

It didn't take me long to realise that my folks had less dough than most other families. We certainly weren't having holidays in Majorca every summer - not with six little Osbournes to clothe and feed. I never even saw the sea until I was fourteen. That was thanks to my aunty Ada, who lived in Sunderland. And I didn't see an ocean - with the kind of water that doesn't have Geordie turds floating in it and won't give you hypothermia in three fucking seconds - until I was well into my twenties.

There were other ways I could tell we were broke. Like the squares of newspaper we had to use instead of toilet roll. And the welly-boots I had to wear in the summer 'cos I had no shoes. And the fact that my mum never bought me underwear. There was also this dodgy bloke who'd come round to the house all the time, asking for money. We called him the 'knock-knock' man. He was a door-to-door salesman, basically, and he'd sell my mum all this stuff out of his catalogue using some dodgy loan shark scheme, then come around every week to collect the payments. But my mum never had the cash, so she'd send me to the door to tell him she wasn't at home. I got sick of it eventually. 'Mum says she ain't in,' I'd say.

Years later, I made up for it by opening the door to the knock-knock man and settling my mum's bill in full. Then I told him to fuck off and never come back again. But it didn't do any good. Two weeks later I came home to find my mum getting a brand new three-piece suite delivered. It didn't take much imagination to work out where she'd got it from.

Money was so tight when I was a kid; one of the worst days of my entire childhood was when my mum gave me ten shillings on my birthday to go and buy myself a flashlight - it was the kind that could light up in different colours - and on the way home I lost the change. I must have spent at least four or five hours searching every last ditch and drain hole in Aston for those few coins. The funny thing is, I can't even remember now what my mum said when I got home. All I can remember is being fucking terrified.

It's not that life at 14 Lodge Road was bad. But it was hardly fucking domestic bliss, either. My mother was no Julia Child, for a start.
Every Sunday she'd be sweating in the kitchen, making lunch, and we'd all be dreading the final result.

But you couldn't complain. One time, I'm eating this cabbage and it tastes like soap. Jean sees the look on my face, so she jabs me in the ribs and goes, 'Don't say a word.' But I'm sick to my guts and I don't want to die from fucking cabbage poisoning. I'm just about to say something when my dad gets back from the pub, hangs up his coat, and sits down in front of his dinner. He picks up his fork, stabs it down into the cabbage, and when he lifts it up to his mouth there's this lump of tangled wire on the end of it! God bless my old mum, she'd boiled a Brillo pad!

We all ran to the bog to make ourselves throw up.

Another time my mum made me some boiled-egg sandwiches for a packed lunch. I opened up the bread and there was cigarette ash and bits of shell in it.
Cheers, Mum.
All I can say is, school dinners saved my life. That was one small part of my shitty fucking education that I liked. They were magic, school dinners were. You got a main course
and
a pudding. It was incredible. Nowadays, you pick up something and you automatically go, 'Oh, that's got two hundred calories,' or, 'Oh, that's got eight grams of saturated fat.' But there was no such thing as a fucking calorie back then. There was only food on yer plate. And there was never enough of it, as far as I was concerned. Every morning I'd try to think of an excuse to skive off school. So no one believed me when my excuses were real.
Like the time I heard a ghost.
I'm in the kitchen, about to leave the house. It's winter and freezing cold, and we don't have hot water on tap, so I'm boiling the kettle and getting ready to fill the sink to do the dishes. Then I hear this voice going, 'Osbourne, Osbourne,
Osbourne
.'
Because my father worked nights in those days, he would get us ready for school in the morning, before he went to bed. So I turned to my old man and said, 'Dad! Dad! I can hear someone shouting our name! I think it's a ghost! I think our house is haunted!'
He looked up from his paper.
'Nice try, son,' he said. 'You're going to school, ghost or no ghost. Hurry up with the dishes.'
But the voice wouldn't go away.
'Osbourne, Osbourne,
Osbourne
.'
'But, Dad!' I shouted. 'There's a voice! There is, there
is
. Listen!'
Finally my dad heard it, too.
'Osbourne, Osbourne,
Osbourne.
It seemed to be coming from the garden. So we both legged it outside - me without any shoes - but the garden was empty. Then we heard the voice again, louder this time. 'Osbourne, Osbourne,
Osbourne.
It was coming from the other side of the fence. So we peer over into the garden next door and there's our neighbour, an old lady who lived alone, lying on the ground on a patch of ice. She must have slipped and fallen, and didn't have any way of getting help. If it hadn't been for us, she would have frozen to death. So me and my dad climb over the fence and lift her into her living room, which we'd never been in before, even though we'd lived next door to this woman for as long as anyone could remember. It was just the saddest thing. The old lady had been married with kids during the war but her husband had been sent off to France and had been shot by the Nazis. On top of that, her kids had died in a bomb shelter. But she lived as though they were all still alive. There were photographs everywhere and clothes laid out and children's toys and everything. The entire house was frozen in time. It was the most heartbreaking thing I'd ever seen. I remember my mum bawling her eyes out after she came out of that place later in the day.
It's amazing, isn't it? You can live a few inches away from your next-door neighbour and never know a thing about them.
I was late for school that day, but Mr Jones didn't care why, because I was late for school every day. It was just another excuse for him to make my life hell. One morning - it might have been the day we found the old lady on the ice, but I can't be sure - I was so late for registration that it had ended, and there was already a new class filing in.
It was a special day for me at school, because my dad had given me a bunch of metal rods from the GEC factory so I could make some screwdrivers in Mr Lane's heavy metalwork class. The rods were in my satchel, and I couldn't wait to get them out and show them to my mates.
But the day was ruined almost before it had begun. I remember standing there in front of Mr Jones's desk as he went fucking insane at me as the kids from the other class were taking their seats. I was so embarrassed, I wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out.
'OSBOURNE!' he shouted. 'YOU'RE A DISGRACE TO YOURSELF AND TO THIS SCHOOL. BRING ME A SHOE.'
The room went so quiet you could have heard a mouse fart.
'But, sir!'
'BRING ME A SHOE, OSBOURNE. AND MAKE SURE IT'S THE BIGGEST, OR I'M GOING TO HIT YOUR BACKSIDE SO BLOODY HARD YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO SIT DOWN AGAIN FOR A MONTH.'
I looked around at all these strange faces staring at me. I wanted to fucking die, man. The kids were in the next year up from me and were just staring at me like I was a fucking freak. I put my head down and did the walk of shame to the back of the class. Someone tried to trip me up. Then another kid pushed his bag in front of me so I had to walk around it. My whole body was shaking and numb, and my fucking face was on fire. I didn't want to cry in front of all these older kids, but I could already feel myself beginning to blubber. I went to the rack and found a shoe - I was so nervous with everyone looking at me that I couldn't even tell which one was the biggest - and I carried it back to where Mr Jones was standing. I gave it to him without looking up.
'YOU CALL THIS THE BIGGEST?' goes Mr Jones. Then he strides to the back of the class, looks at the rack, comes back with another, bigger shoe, and orders me to bend over.
Everyone's still staring. At this point I'm trying incredibly hard to stop myself bawling and there's fucking snot running out of my nose, so I wipe my face with the back of my hand.
'I SAID BEND OVER, OSBOURNE.'
So I do as he says. Then he lifts up his arm as far as it'll go and brings down this fucking size-ten shoe as hard as he can.
'ARRRGGGHHHHHH!!'
It hurts like a motherfucker. Then the bastard does it again. And again. But by the third or fourth time I've fucking had enough. I suddenly get angry. Just blind fucking rage. So, as he brings the shoe down for another wallop, I reach into my satchel and take out my dad's metal rods and throw them as hard as I can at Mr Jones's fat, sweaty face. I was never any good at sport, but for those two seconds I could have bowled for the English cricket team. Mr Jones staggers backwards with blood spurting out of his nose and I realise what I've done. The class gasps. Oh,
fuuuuuck
. And I'm off, legging it as fast as I can, out of the classroom, down the corridor, out of the school, up the fucking driveway, through the gates, and all the way back to 14 Lodge Road. I run straight upstairs to where my father's sleeping and shake him awake. Then I burst into tears.
He went mental.
Not with me, thank God, but with Mr Jones. He marched straight back to school and demanded to see Mr Oldham. You could hear the shouting from the other end of the school. Mr Oldham said he had no idea about Mr Jones and the tennis shoes, but promised to look into the situation. My father said fucking right he should look into the situation.
I never got another beating again after that.