I'd Rather Be in Philadelphia (2 page)

I busied myself tidying the desk. Philly Prep is easy on its students, exacting of its physical plant. We stand for the highest educational values: clean blackboards, neatly aligned window shades, cleared desks.

“I’m sure your guy isn’t a wimp,” Colleen said to me.

“Well, I’m sure Miss Pepper doesn’t let him push her around and tell her what to do like you let Ronny,” Rita said.

“About whom are we talking?” I asked.

“Ronny Spingle.” Colleen looked honored to say his name. “He doesn’t go here. He’s twenty and—”

“No. I meant you were asking me about somebody who doesn’t tell me how to act. Who?”

“Hell, Miss Pepper, we know teachers are people, too.” Rita sniggered, as if despite her words, she considered the idea ludicrous. “And we know that you and the cop, the cute one who was here that time…well, you know.”

I didn’t know much—not even the cute cop’s given name.

But one thing I did know was that I wasn’t about to discuss C.K. Mackenzie or my romantic life with a seventeen-year-old in black lipstick and a woodpecker hairdo.

In any case, my shaky love life didn’t include the kind of testosterone-poisoned man the girls were talking about. I had never been attracted to Rambo types, the Stanley Kowalskis who look likely to knock around their women. Besides, we had wandered far afield from the play Rita had stayed to discuss. “Don’t forget,” I said, packing papers into my briefcase, “circumstances were different in Shakespeare’s time. Women were chattel.”

“They were cows?” Colleen’s mouth hung slightly askew.

Rita sneered. “She didn’t say cattle, stupido. No wonder Ronny says you’re dumb. No wonder—”

“Chattel,” I repeated. “Personal, movable property. Husbands owned their wives.” I thumbed through the text of the play, still thunderstruck that an idea had outlasted a class period. I found the spot and read:

“She is my goods, my chattels; she is my house,

My household-stuff, my field, my barn,

My horse, my ox, my ass, my any thing…”

“My ass,
my ass
!
I mean
really
!”
Rita waved a menacing fist and cracked her gum. “Where does that pig get off calling her a shrew?”

“And what is a shrew, anyway?” Colleen sounded whiny, like a child afraid of being called stupid again.

“It’s a tiny animal. Kind of like a mouse. A fierce fighter who takes on animals bigger than itself.”

“Is that why they call Kate a shrew?” Rita’s hands were back on her hips. “The big animal she takes on is a man? Is that what it means?”

We were talking semantics. We were upset about etymology. Incredible. “She takes him on with words,” I said. “Nagging, temper tantrums.” The weapons of the weak and hopeless.

“Why shouldn’t she get angry?” Rita’s gum cracked. “Her father was selling her to whoever paid! You wouldn’t treat your dog that way!”

“I agree one hundred percent.” These girls had hibernated in my class for seven months, and the abrupt activation of their dormant gray matter was awe-inspiring. I would have gone on admiring the transformation had not the wall clock advanced with a hiss and a click. I checked it and realized I had to leave. “Let’s talk about this in class tomorrow, and after school, too, if you like.” I buckled my briefcase and moved toward the door.

The Shakespearean scholars stayed in place. They looked at each other, then at me, gulping, sighing, shuffling their feet. Maybe I had been too abrupt. “I want you to know something,” I said. “It’s been a genuine thrill talking about ideas instead of hearing complaints about term papers!” I wasn’t kidding. My mood had lifted, my head felt clearer, and even the sun seemed to come out of retirement.

Colleen bit at her lip and stuck a finger into the recesses of her hair to scratch. “Yeah,” she said. “Well actually, now that you mention term papers…” She nudged Rita and swallowed hard.

A few seconds passed while I absorbed the fact that my lovely after-school encounter had been carefully orchestrated with me in the role of dupe. The illusion of sun dissipated and my sinuses reclogged. I had been set up, softened with Shakespeare, and now I was ready for the kill.

“No offense,” Rita said, “but the subjects you suggested? They’re no good.”

I had tried to be innovative and untraditional, to make the idea of research fun, to provide unscholarly, unanswered questions for which the students could formulate theories. I had obviously failed. My spirits sank even lower.

“They’re like for idiots,” Rita added.

Could she be right and publishing empires and supermarket checkout stands wrong? Did only idiots care about the existence of Bigfoot, pregnant ninety-six-year-old women, UFOs landing in Wichita backyards, and—the number-one concern of America—whether or not Elvis was actually dead?

“Boring,” Colleen said.

“You said we should pick what interests us,” Rita said. “No offense, but that junk doesn’t.”

I mourned those innocent moments when I’d thought they’d stayed for Shakespeare’s sake. “What would you rather research?” I asked softly.

They shook their heads. One looked like Woody Woodpecker in a snit, the other like an inverted skunk. Colleen had dyed her hair a while back and was in need of a touch-up, which made her the only person I knew with blonde roots.

They were using standard senior strategy, dithering and dawdling until June happened and they won through erosion, battle fatigue, and the faculty’s desire to see them gone. But it was only February. There was still life and fight in me.

“I have to leave.” I popped the rewound tape out of the VCR while I searched for a way to head them off at the pass. And suddenly I realized I held the solution in my palm. Literally. “But there
is
something that interests you!” They cringed at my cheery response, as well they might. “You
said so yourself!”

Their eyes slitted. They knew they’d wandered onto a mine field, one they themselves had planted. But they didn’t know how or where to get to safety.

I waved the tape of
The Taming of the Shrew.
“We’ve been talking about what interests you. Uppity women. Abuse. Chattel. Marriage customs. Male Chauvinist Pigs. What it means to be a perfect wife. What it means to be pushed around.”

“But—” Rita said.

“No buts about it! You yourself told me you cared about those issues, so go to it!”

They looked like doomed woodland creatures paralyzed by oncoming headlights.

Which was fine with me. You get hard in this line of work. I pushed my advantage, and by the time the three of us left the classroom, one of us was researching the rights of married women, one of us was investigating spousal abuse, and one of us was as happy as an English teacher can be, given that she had a head cold and no idea what she just set in motion.

Two

I WALKED INTO THE AUDITORIUM, MY CONVERSATION WITH THE TWO GIRLS reverberating in my head. I convinced myself that Rita had been honestly upset by the sexism and abuse in
The Taming of the Shrew
and that her agitation hadn’t been pure performance art. I felt a little better psychologically, if not physically.

“There’s Amanda now,” someone onstage said. I was late for my afternoon of so-called volunteer work for the annual flea market, called, since it was held inside the school, the Not-a-Garage Sale. The stage, serving as temporary storage space for donations, resembled a set for a play about the absurd meaninglessness—or messiness—of just about everything. Positioned between and on randomly placed and mismatched items—a lamp with a tiger-striped shade, a wicker bird cage, a wagon, a file cabinet with skis propped against it, misshapen chairs, and gawky clothing-strewn tables—other faculty volunteers slumped over, examined, and tagged castoffs.

“Sorry I’m late,” I said as I joined them onstage. “Some of my seniors stayed after class to talk about a film we saw.”

My not exactly accurate announcement produced astonishment and envy, except from Caroline Finney, the ever-pleasant Latin and ancient history teacher, who behaved as if such after-school intellectual encounters were common. She smiled greetings as she sorted through a pile of clothes and pulled out a threadbare burgundy velvet cape I recognized as a longtime companion of my friend Sasha.

I had encouraged Sasha to use the sale as an excuse for weeding through her eccentric wardrobe, but as soon as I saw the familiar cape, I decided to buy it and give it to her next Christmas, by which time she’d be missing it.

Rachel Leary, the school counselor, held a clipboard and seemed to be in charge. “Could you do the books?” she asked me.

“Bookkeeping? Me? Numbers are not my—”

Rachel blinked. “It’s really not hard. All the hardbacks are a dollar. One zero-zero. Paperbacks twenty-five cents.”

“Oh, the
books
!”

She looked at me quizzically. “Sort them into categories and put them in separate cartons. When we move the stuff into the gym, we’ll shelve them that way. They sell better if they seem organized. But don’t go crazy or Dewey decimalize them.”

I put Sasha’s cape on will-call, which is to say I took it and promised to pay ten dollars when the sale opened.

I settled in the middle of several dozen cartons. On my left, Neil Quigley sorted board games, checking for missing parts. On my right, Edie Friedman glued price stickers to the underside of a bilious snack set with bubblegum-pink hearts on both the plates and cups.

Edie sighed. “For romantic nibbles, I guess.”

Edie was a congenital yearner. She was attractive and clever, but the only quality men seemed to notice—just before they ran away—was her desperation. Edie subscribed to
Modern Bride
and had a full hope chest and detailed wedding plans and an unshakable trust that soon, True Love would find her.

I didn’t offer my opinion of the nauseating snack set. I sorted books instead, delegating cartons for general fiction, mysteries, science fiction, diet, and love-help. Men who couldn’t, or wouldn’t. Women who shouldn’t.

Eventually, I was surrounded by half-full cartons. I put aside a few books for myself—an Agatha Christie, a tome on the no longer so new female psychology, a slender novel whose title,
Trust,
intrigued me. Hoarding was the volunteers’ perk. As long as we didn’t set the price of the object, we could have first dibs on whatever appealed to us.

“Look.” Edie held up a small crystal lamp with a gathered, pouffy shade. Even in the gloom of the stage, its facets glittered. “It’s for the boudoir,” she said wistfully.

I had an image of eighteenth-century ladies in wigs reclining on satin lounges, and I wondered how Edie, a gym teacher with Nikes and a whistle on a chain, fit herself into a picture that belonged on a Regency romance. “Boudoir originally meant a place for pouting,” I said. “Who needs a lamp for that? It’s more fun in the dark.”

“A lamp like this is for grand seductions.” Sometimes she seemed like a mythical character under a spell. The next single male to turn the corner would be her destiny. And it was never too soon to stock up on the proper crystal love accessories. “Wish I could afford it.” Edie put the lamp down.

Wish I could afford it
could be every teacher’s motto. Maybe Caroline Finney could translate it into Latin, and we’d have a crest made. Crossed chalk and red pencil above, those words below. The subject of personal finances had occupied a lot of my thinking lately. February does that to a person. Money can’t buy happiness, but it can definitely lease a beach during winter break. A warm, adolescent-free zone with industrial-strength sunshine. Give me the beach; I’ll take care of the happiness part.

After hallucinating about the tropical escape, I had finally decided to earn it by moonlighting. The next hurdle was finding a moon to light. I vetoed the idea of parties where I’d demonstrate makeup, plastic containers, or sexual aids, and that left doing overtime with the academically impaired. I therefore had an appointment tomorrow after school at the headquarters of TLC, which ran tutoring centers all over the city and suburbs.

I continued sorting and discovered a cache of Little Golden Books. I suspected that my niece was too old for these, and I knew that my newborn nephew was definitely too young, but I nonetheless put them aside for somebody. Then I studied a nice edition of
Fanny Hill
and debated whether removing Victorian pornography from a high school sale constituted censorship. I decided to solve the issue by buying the book myself.

Next to me, Neil Quigley stood and stretched his long frame. “They give me eight-hundred-piece jigsaw puzzles. How am I supposed to know whether or not they’re intact?”

I smiled in sympathy, but his attention was elsewhere. He cracked his knuckles and sat back down.

“I have an appointment at TLC headquarters tomorrow,” I told him. “I haven’t interviewed for anything in years. Any advice?”

His expression became direct, surprised and unhappy. “Only to stay away from them. Don’t be stupid the way I was.” He picked up a game box and dropped it back down. “No timer,” he said. He looked at me again. “I’m serious. I’m sorry I ever got involved with TLC.”

“Why? I thought you were doing so well. What’s wrong?”

“Do whatever you want, okay?” Neil sounded almost angry.

“I’m only interviewing for a tutoring position.” Neil, on the other hand, had become one of their franchisees, running a center in South Philadelphia.

“I shouldn’t have said anything. It’s your life.” His voice was flat.

Neil was a history teacher in love with his wife and Benjamin Franklin. He was writing a biography about the latter. He was also a great dancer, and he played the banjo, or had, until recently, when he stopped having much to sing or dance about. First, his wife Angie developed environmental allergies which forced her out of teaching and into specially designed and expensive new quarters. Now she was very pregnant with their first child and having a bedridden time of it. Given his burdens and bills, popular wisdom had it that he was lucky to have a second income from his franchise of one of the Teller-Schmidt Learning Centers, more commonly known as TLC.