In the Shadow of the Gods (22 page)

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here was nothing like walking to cleanse the soul and the mind. It had always been one of the deepest truths of Keiro's life. His earliest memory was of walking, holding on to his father's pant leg with chubby fingers and coughing at the dust his feet kicked up. He'd walked with wide eyes, then, taking in everything, each sight something wondrous and new to hold in his heart. In the days after his first ascent of Raturo, when he'd gone back out into the world as a preacher, he'd been in the habit of walking with his eyecloth bound tight, honoring the Twins' dream.

It had been years now since he'd last worn the eyecloth. It served better wrapped about his brow, to keep back the hair that had grown long and the constant threat of sweat. And, too, it kept his eye free to absorb the new sights that came with each day. Seven years since he lost his eye, and he had never walked the same path twice. Seven years of his exile, and his heart had never been more full of joy.

He liked to think he now walked the same ground the
Twins had once strode, for the lands south of Fiatera had been theirs, in the time when they'd freely walked the earth. They had seen no steps upon this corner of the earth, and so they had claimed it, with their feet and their hearts and their love. Keiro did not claim the land with his feet, for it had been claimed by others after the Twins had left it, and, too, he wanted no lands for himself. But he worshiped the land and the gods who had walked it, worshiped with his feet and heart and love, each step a whisper of prayer. It was a pilgrimage of sorts, though his journey had no true ending. The pilgrimage was the walking itself, for his feet had taken him farther than the Twins' ever had, but the walking was truly all Keiro could ask for.

The first year he had gone west, and in the years that followed he'd gone as far west as west went. Truly, Keiro hadn't known the world was so big. He'd known of Bragia and Montevelle, the countries hidden behind the Tashat Mountains, and the hilly lands below them populated by the Shrevan nomads. The Bragians had been kind and welcoming, the Montevellese hostile. The nomads had been something else entirely; distant at first, nothing more than a retreating cloud of dust given life by their horses' hooves. The first to approach him had been a youth, full of bravado and bluster, pushing his horse in tight-stepping circles around Keiro until the mouth-sore beast had thrown the boy to the ground, and he and Keiro had both laughed about that. The Shurou tribe had welcomed Keiro in for a time, had eventually accepted him as a part of their sprawling, extended family. They'd given him the greatest gift among their culture: a horse of his own, a bright-eyed filly who loved a journey as much as Keiro. He'd cherished that horse, until he'd come to the wide river-that-ran-from-the
-sun, which the nomads said stretched all the way to the sun's distant home, and he'd had to see if that was true. He'd never found the river's birthplace, but at the crossing he had found, far northwest of the Shrevan lands, the dark-skinned women who manned the crossing had given him passage in exchange for the horse—though the transaction was done in simplistic hand gestures and much jabbing of chests, for they used words Keiro had never heard before. The crossing was too rich a temptation for him to refuse, much as he loved the horse. Finally he saw the far bank of the river he'd followed for so long, and kept going west from there. The dark-skinned people had stared and laughed at him, until a young woman, grinning, had woven braids and beads into his hair and beard. They stared less, then, and the girl walked with him for a time. “Algi,” she told him, holding one hand over her eyes, the other over her heart. He mimed the motions and named himself, but she always called him “Erokiyn.” He would learn later that it meant “old man,” and he would laugh at it. With the sun turning his skin to leather and bleaching his hair to near white, he could hardly say he didn't look the name. In time, once they'd learned some of the other's words, she'd listened to his talk of the Twins and their Parents, but had shaken her head and told him of her sun god. He sounded much like Patharro.

When west ended at the sea Algi named Forsaera—“poison water”—he had turned south, and Algi with him. Sometimes he regretted that he had gone south instead of north, for at length, following the coast, they had come to a desert—
the
desert, Keiro would learn, the same Eremori that lurked beneath Fiatera. Fratarro, when he had claimed a land of his own and built of it a paradise, had not felt the need to contain
his creation to a small piece of the world; and Patharro had not been stingy in his fury, blighting all that Fratarro had built and all the lands it touched. Algi had no name for the desert, and she had terrible nightmares after Keiro told her of Patharro's destructive hand. When Keiro turned east to follow the edge of the desert, she turned north, to find and rejoin her people. She'd grown into a woman by then, and had kissed Keiro on the mouth before she left. If he'd gone north instead of south at the sea, she might still have been with him.

With the desert heat distantly shimmering ever at his right, Keiro had found a mighty forest where the air was so thick and damp it beaded on his skin, and long-armed furry creatures with faces that looked almost like his screeched down at him from the heights of the trees. A sleek bear had nearly taken off his leg before Keiro had scrambled up a tree, and then he'd been pelted with nuts and stones by the tree's residents until the bear had lost interest. An enormous spotted cat had chased him into a pool of water but refused to enter, stalking around the banks, swiping at him and snarling through the longest night he'd ever lived. The only signs he'd seen of humans in the forest had been a few picked-clean bones.

It had been months since that strange forest, months of rolling hills and plains and forests full of creatures he recognized. He thought of himself when he was a younger man, when he'd thought Fiatera had been such a huge place. He could walk from Raturo to the Northern Wastes in little over a month. It had taken him
years
to walk to one end of the world, and he intended to walk to the other end of it as well. Fiatera was no more than a drop of ink on the map that rolled through his mind; yet, still, his heart ached for the only true home his
wandering feet had ever known. He was still a goodly distance from the southern reaches of Fiatera, but it would be good to again walk the land he had loved, to venture through the dense and sprawling Forest Voro, to gaze upon the sharp peak of Raturo over all . . .

But no, that was not how things were to be. “Should we see your face again,” Keiro repeated the words that had been said years ago, by the Ventallo who didn't know him and wrongly hated him for a perceived betrayal, “it shall mean your death.” Fiatera was forbidden to him, the land no longer his to walk.

No matter. The world was a wide place, and he imagined he would die before he could ever see all of it. That was the way of things. He had found acceptance, in the soft pad of his feet against the earth. He, a man with no home, was made for walking, and walk he would.

There were, though, some places that could not be walked.

It had been many years since he had seen the vast river, the river-that-ran-from-the-sun. It lay before him now, so wide he couldn't see the far bank, flowing steadily south as it fled the sun's home. The sight of it filled Keiro's heart with an unexpected fluttering, for it was the first familiar thing he had seen in all his long traveling. The river was wider here, and slower, than to the north, where he had first crossed it, the river having left behind its wild and reckless adolescence, grown into a steady adulthood, but it could only be the same river. He loved it, as much as a man could love a body of water, and he slept that night on the bank of the river-that-ran-from-the-sun with a smile on his face.

The smile was diminished by the sun's rising, though. It had taken Keiro months to find a crossing north of the Shrevan
hills, and even the point where he had first met the river was far north of where he now stood. There was no knowing what life, if any, lay between his position and that lonely, faraway crossing. His feet itched to walk, but they itched for the far side of the river, for the lands nearer to his forbidden home. He might waste another year trying to find a crossing.

It was one of the few times in his life that Keiro chose not to walk.

His father had taught him how to swim, long ago, in rivers and lakes they crossed on their endless walking. Keiro had not swum for a very long time, for the rippling water always seemed to shape itself into staring eyes. He thought he still had the trick of it, though, and it would no doubt be the fastest way to cross the river.

Of what little he owned, he left most of it where he had slept, a strange collection from a wandering life. A thin grass pallet, so well woven it had lasted him years; his walking stick, less fit for swimming than walking; a lump of stone that threw off rainbows when the light caught it; the hollowed-out horn of some strange beast; a clumsily made journal of parchment and bark and leaves, anything he'd been able to use for writing. He was loath to leave the little carving Algi had made for him, her own face with the smile just right; she'd given it to him the day their paths had gone in different ways, before she'd pressed her mouth to his. He hadn't had anything to give her.

He stripped off his robe, ratty and half tatters, but he couldn't ever bring himself to part with it. He was a preacher still, after all. He knotted it into a crude pack for the few things he was going to keep, his flint, his eyecloth, a bone knife for which he had traded a strange piece of metal that would fly
through the air to stick to iron. This he tied across his back, over one shoulder and under one arm, and then he waded into the warm river-that-ran-from-the-sun and began to swim.

The rivers of Fiatera where he had learned to swim were no match for a river that had spent its whole life racing ahead of the daylight.

The heat was the worst of it. The hunger he could stand, for he
had gone hungry many a time in his wandering. But the heat was almost past the point of bearing, a smothering thickness that tried to crush him against the burning sand.

He had seen his death, many times, in the long, torturous tumble down the river-that-ran-from-the-sun. So gentle, the river had seemed, from that distant bank. It had proven to be a fierce river no more than a few strokes in, a thing that fought, a thing that did not like to be crossed. It had pulled him under and spat him up more times than he could count, dragged him down its center, where he could see both banks but reach neither, slammed him against rocks and crushed him between their weight and its own force until he thought he would never draw air again. And then he had opened his eye, with sun burning his face and sand burning his back and the river to the west, and he had thought if he could survive the river crossing there was truly nothing that could kill him. He had laughed with joy at life itself, until the laughter turned to sand in his mouth.

A river, no matter how fierce, was not the worst thing in the world.

Fire and water, the Parents had used to craft the world, light and life. He had abjured the Parents all his life, and now,
wandering deep in the blighted desert, they were taking their revenge, slowly trying to kill him with their favorite weapons. It would not be an easy thing for them, with the river rushing ever at Keiro's left, but he had been thrown deep into the desert, and the Parents would have their time to try. He didn't know how long he'd been in the river, how far it had washed him from green lands.

This land had been Fratarro's once, empty as it now stood until the god had reached out his hand and named and claimed it for his own, built it into a thing of beauty and serenity. All the tales said it had been a paradise, more wondrous than anything the Parents had ever shaped. Destroyed now, all of it, burned by jealous fire so the very land cracked and crumbled beneath his feet.

There were echoes, though, echoes of the time before Eremori had been blighted. That, or delusion was settling in, but Keiro saw flickers of
something
behind his empty eye, something more than the staring babes that usually lurked there. He saw trees once, as grand and proud as the trees in that rainy forest he had passed through, but when he turned his good eye in that direction, there was nothing but sand. He would catch glimpses of enormous, black, almost birdlike creatures, hovering far above, but they always dissolved into sunspots. When the sun set and the night-cold bit as hard as the heat, he would hear laughter in the distance, a sound of utter joy, beckoning him away from the river-that-ran-from-the-sun and into the visions that hovered at the edge of his sight. He had been told, in a time long ago, that the blinding ceremony gave preachers a different kind of sight, deeper than what eyes alone were capable of, but if this was even half of that sight, Keiro was
glad he hadn't completed the ritual. The visions alone were bad enough, but the beauty of them was like to break his heart.

Keiro had walked through many lonely places in his life, walked them all with deep respect and care, and treasured every step. Sometimes, before, he had heard whispers—the voices of those who had walked before him, or the voices of those who watched over the lonely places. Gods, a superstitious man would call them, speaking in the world's quietest places. Keiro always listened, for a wise man did not ignore a voice offered into silence, and old voices were well worth hearing.

There was only one voice he would have expected to hear in this loneliest of places, this blighted land that once had been beautiful and full of life and flying with love, this place that had been smote by jealousy, razed by fear.
Find me,
Fratarro whispered, voice a breath on the dry air.

“I am trying,” Keiro said aloud through cracked lips, his voice a rasp.

Find me,
and it shimmered through the reflections of the trees that once had been, echoed in the faint cries of the things that were not birds and were no more.