Incensed (16 page)

Big Eye lingered at the guardrail, wiping his forehead repeatedly. The koi slowly churned near the surface like a giant gold, black, and orange knot lazily untying and tying itself.

“Look at these fuckin' fish,” he whispered in wonder.

“Like 'em?” Peggy asked. “Look at that one. I call her Mazu because her spots look like the goddess's beaded veil. She tries to talk to me when I come up close.” She took a step to the pond and Mazu wriggled over and worked her bellowing mouth and gills. “See?”

“Just looks like it expects food,” I said.

Peggy punched my arm. “That's my fish,” she said. “And it loves me.”

Big Eye cleared his throat. “Ms. Lee, you let my daughter do real work, right? She's not doing something stupid like feeding the fish every day, is she?”

Peggy turned back to the pond. She produced a microfiber cloth from a jacket pocket and wiped the brass guardrail.

“I feed them,” she said.

Peggy offered us drinks
in her office. Not even Big Eye was willing to do a shot at ten in the morning. She shrugged, dropped into her chair and spiked her Starbucks coffee with something from her flask.

“What do you want?” she asked Big Eye. “I assume you came here for a reason.”

He cleared his throat and showed her Chong's picture. “Have you seen this bastard around here at all? He's Mei-ling's idiot ex-boyfriend.”

Peggy held the photo and turned it forty-five degrees to the right. She regarded it with interest before turning to Mei-ling. “Not bad for a starter,” she said. “I agree with your father, though. You can do much better. Is he part aborigine?”

“Worse!” growled Big Eye. “He's one of those quarter-Chinese from Indonesia.”

“I see,” said Peggy. She handed the photo back to Big Eye. She took a big gulp of coffee and pursed her lips as she swallowed. “So that's the problem.”

“Yes, it was a problem,” said Big Eye. “Mei-ling did the smart thing by ending it with Chong, but now he's gone missing. I think he's in Taipei trying to meet up with my daughter.”

Peggy turned her desk stapler on its side and played with its teeth. “Have you heard from Chong, Mei-ling?” Mei-ling shook her head. “No calls, texts, or emails?” Mei-ling shook her head again.

“She would probably lie about it!” said Big Eye.

“She's not lying,” said Peggy. “I know because she looks a little sad about it.”

I could smell that coffee from here and I sure could've used a virgin cup. I felt a yawn coming on and turned it into a full-body stretch. “Well, now that that's all settled,” I said, “maybe we should all be on our way and let Mei-ling work.”

“Just a minute, Jing-nan,” said Big Eye. “I just wanted to ask Ms. Lee something while you were here.”

“What've you got?” asked Peggy, her eyes narrowing.

“A few months ago, your family's company forced Jing-nan and a lot of other vendors in the night market to move or get shut down. What are you going to do with that street?”

“We're not sure yet,” was Peggy's calculated reply. Despite her penchant for boozing it up at any and all times, she was always sharp. I watched her hands come together, left and right fingers taking turns caressing each other. “And we didn't force anybody. We incentivized them with cash and better facilities. Some people took the money. Some, like Jing-nan, opted for a bigger stall elsewhere.” She turned to me. “Are you happy, Jing-nan?”

“Sure, for now.”

“Were people upset they had to move?”

“Honestly, Big Eye, some people took the money and ran with no regrets.”

My uncle still had his doubts. “You and your family are up to something, Ms. Lee. You're probably trying to get it rezoned again so you can build a condominium there, huh?” Peggy shrugged and drank more coffee.

Mei-ling, out of concern that her internship was in jeopardy, spoke up. “Big Eye, I think—”

“Hey, be quiet! I'm trying to find out what exactly this company is about. I can't figure out anything on your website. Everything seems like double-speak!”

Peggy slid open her middle drawer and took out a pencil. She began to doodle on her coffee cup.

Peggy was always an accomplished artist. In high school, she'd once slipped into my desk a picture of me hanging from a noose with Iggy Pop's
The Idiot
playing on a nearby stereo. That was how Ian Curtis had checked out of this life. My offense was that I had chosen to date someone else instead of her. Still, I had to admire her craft. She had captured my face, if not my heart.

“If you were a client, Little Eye,” she said sleepily, “you would have a password to access the material areas of the site.” Peggy hadn't looked up. I stepped back to see what Peggy was drawing. Big Eye was in for the caricature treatment. He was on his hands and knees, eating from a dog bowl. “Unfortunately, we're not accepting new money at this time.”

Big Eye assumed the posture of the embarrassed Taiwanese man: head slumped forward and shaking, hands on the hips, and legs together. Peggy had cowed him in a way Wood Duck hadn't. She was younger, richer, and more powerful than Big Eye and he had nothing on her. Both Whistle and Gao were wearing pained expressions.

After a few seconds, Big Eye cleared his throat and pointed at Mei-ling. “Look at that woman. I want you to be as strong as her someday. She doesn't give in to pressure!”

Mei-ling swayed slightly. “I shouldn't listen to you, then? Is that what you want?”

“Don't start getting wise!” he growled, but after his humiliation by Peggy, it came off as toothless. Big Eye flattened his shirt above his stomach. “We're going now, Ms. Lee. We have to take Jing-nan back home. You work hard, Mei-ling.”

Peggy stood up and waved to us. “Thank you for coming by. I'm glad to have Mei-ling as my intern. She's very bright.”

There would be no handshake but Big Eye didn't necessarily want one. He responded with a Japanese bow, the informal one that only went fifteen degrees down, and yet it was heavy with admiration.

“See you later, Peggy,” I said as Big Eye, Whistle, and Gao waited for me to lead the way out of her office.

“Bye for now, Jing-nan.” Mei-ling stood up and in a practiced move picked up a folder from the inbox on Peggy's desk.

When we were outside Peggy's door, Big Eye tapped my shoulder.

“Let's go see those fish again,” he said.

Chapter Eleven

I finally got back
to my apartment and showered. Gao had offered to come up with me, to make sure that everything was safe, but I refused. After all, could there be a bigger threat in my apartment than Gao?

I pulled on a T-shirt that looked like it was completely black but when the light hit from an angle it lit up the black print of the tattoo on the cover of The Velvet Underground's
White Light/White Heat
. Maybe the shirt wasn't officially licensed but it was so cool. Nancy had had the prescience to buy it for my birthday. It was always a hit with the tourists in the garish lights of the night market. The only problem was that the Americans always wanted to touch the tattoo print, and that would make me uncomfortable even if it weren't close to my crotch.

I rarely listen to music while I commute, unless I need a serious pick-me-up. For one thing, I never have that far to go. For another thing, I've already memorized every thump and howl of my favorite albums. The Velvet Underground? Entire discography of four proper studio albums covered along with the two posthumous outtakes collections. Joy Division? You bet, and include the bootlegs, too.

I stood on the MRT platform and waited for the southbound train to the day market. I was going to buy some fresh lemongrass for tonight's chicken skewers. I tapped my foot in time to my perfect recall of the title track from
White Light/White Heat,
which is the noisiest VU album. With the glamorous Andy Warhol and Nico gone from the band's camp, Lou Reed, John Cale, Sterling Morrison, and Mo Tucker could realize the full ugliness of their vision, most notoriously in the seventeen-and-a-half-minute long semi-improvised and bass-guitar-free squall “Sister Ray.” Seems like just yesterday when I was blasting Joy Division's cover of it at my upstairs neighbor.

As a train going in the wrong direction pulled into the station, I shifted gears and contemplated “Here She Comes Now,” the quiet but dissonant two-minute wisp of a song that closes side one of the album. It's the most gentle and vulnerable moment of the band's life, strung through with John Cale's tense viola. Lou Reed was never better. I don't hate any of Reed's solo albums—well, maybe
Mistrial
—but they all suffered to some degree without Cale around to keep his ego in check.

As the train I was waiting for pulled in I wondered if I had thought of the song because the title could be referring to its arrival.

These are the sorts of thoughts one is free to have when one doesn't have a proper job. I boarded the train, grabbed a handrail and looked down at my jeans and black Doc Martens. The jeans were Japanese selvage and years of constant grease splatter had made them waterproof—a bonus when a sudden rainstorm is always right around the corner. My shoes also benefited from work-related oil coatings—they always looked like they were just polished.

The train slid down from elevated tracks and as we submerged, the interior lights threw a reverse-image of myself onto the opposite window. Reverse Me looked cool. He looked like he should be in a band. You'd never think the guy worked in a night market. Maybe he was in a band that played at The Wall on a regular basis. The Wall was known as the CBGB's of Taipei before the actual CBGB's in New York closed down. Now that people are forgetting what CBGB's was, The Wall is known as the cool club that books cool bands. Camera Obscura, Deerhoof, Slowdive, and other overrated hip bands play there.

We pulled into my stop and the doors opened, splitting Reverse Me in half. I strutted out of the car. The rock star was headed to the day market.

I overtook a slow-moving group of uniformed high-school girls on the platform and thought about Mei-ling. My cousin had a job that was more academically challenging than mine and she was nearly a decade younger and technically a high-school dropout.

I felt a little down about it until I caught another glimpse of myself in the polished metal of the escalator up and smiled.

My work look was a lot cooler than hers.

Hours later, Mei-ling walked
into Unknown Pleasures, seemingly on tiptoes.

“Have a chicken-and-lemongrass skewer,” I said as I held out a plate of them. “It's the special tonight.”

She hoisted one up and bit in. “Wow, this vegetable really tastes a little lemony.”

“I picked up a bunch of fresh stalks today. A little bit of chili pepper and oil makes the citrus taste pop out.”

Mei-ling finished the skewer and winged it into the trash. “Do you think I could do another show?” she asked.

“You mean here at the night market?” I asked.

“Yeah. If it's not too big a deal to wheel out the stage again.”

“What, the stage is gone?” One of the symptoms of Taipei-itis is becoming numb to the constant buildups and teardowns of major structures. Another is forgetting what had been there previously.

Dwayne sat down roughly against me. “They took it away late this afternoon,” he said. “One of the platforms had broken in half. Bunch of idiot kids was screwing around.”

“It's rude to shove, Dwayne,” I said.

He responded by leaning even harder against me. “You Han Chinese taught us how to shove people around.” He cupped my left bicep. “It's a part of your culture, isn't it?”

I felt Mei-ling's legs swing under the table. “Dwayne is funny,” she said.

“He's only funny-looking,” I said. “But about the stage, Mei-ling, if it's gone, it's not coming back. How about a sidewalk show in Ximending?”

She wrinkled her face. “At this point it would be a step down for me. I would love to play a club there, though.”

“You have to be eighteen to get into clubs. But listen, you know The Clash used to busk on the sidewalk for change, before they made it and even after.”

“Who are The Clash?”

“Aw, man!” said Dwayne. “Even I know who The Clash are! I think you're better than them, though.”

Mei-ling inhaled sharply. “Really! You think so?”

“Mei-ling,” I said, “don't let yourself be flattered so easily.”

She punched my arm. “You only say bad things about my music!”

“I said the production wasn't right on your demos.”

Dwayne stood up and rubbed his mouth. “That still sounds pretty negative, Jing-nan.”

Now that she had backup, Mei-ling challenged me. “You see? Now you want me to play in the street like a beggar! I know there are clubs there I can get in to. I'm not too young for some of them.” She paused. “Why are you looking at me like that?”

“You
are
young,” I said. “Your nearly naked pictures on your card and your site are wrong.”

Mei-ling pulled up the collar of her shirt and shifted in her seat. “I can't help it if you think like a pervert. We're related, you know?”

“That is the only reason why I spend more than five seconds listening to you.” I thought a little more and drummed my fingers. “We're going to ride the Maokong gondola Saturday. The gondola cars and platforms are decorated with Hello Kitty characters. I should take pictures of you with that in the background. I think it's more appropriate for your marketing angle than the soft porn.”

Mei-ling hunched over the table as she considered my suggestion.

“That would be a new image,” she said. “Do you really think it would be better?”

“It would be more commercial,” I said. “That makes it better. You want to make a living from music, right?”

She nodded anxiously.

I am wary of too much tooling in the making of an artist, but a little commercial consideration is necessary. Talent will only get you so far. The Clash's manager dressed them in fatigues with stenciled slogans and their militant image became almost as important as their music. Joy Division may never have landed a record contract if they hadn't nearly forced their way on to Tony Wilson's television show.

Mei-ling definitely needed an image rebranding. The sexy look was too creepy, didn't fit her music, and, worst of all, it wasn't who she really was.

“It's settled,” I said. “We'll go up to Maokong and then maybe go to Ximending if there's time. But maybe since we'll be in Maokong, we should take the time to hike the trails and check out the mountain scenery.”

“I came from the country,” said Mei-ling. “I'd rather stay in the city as much as possible.”

“Taichung isn't the country.”

“It's a hick town and there's nothing to do at night. It's not like here in Taipei.”

I leaned back and crossed my arms. “I wouldn't know!” I said. “Look at how I spend my nights!”

I saw Mei-ling to
her door and then I swung by the
katsu
place in the subway again. I'm accustomed to the fast pace of change in Taipei, but even I was in for a surprise.

The stall was renamed “Transmission.” Could it have possibly been named after the Joy Division song? The question was settled when I saw the nebula motif—directly copied from the original seven-inch single sleeve—on the signage and walls.

I was hurt and confused. I walked up to the counter in a daze, my mouth dry and my hands sweaty.

“Hello,” said the owner. “How are you today?”

“Why are you called ‘Transmission' now?” I was blinking involuntarily. This bastard was ripping off my Joy Division theme!

“You like it? It's a new name, but we still serve the same great food.”

“Joy Division fan, are you?”

“I've never really listened to them, and I don't really get into music, but I've always liked the visual aspect of the band, the artwork on the releases. I saw the ‘Transmission' single online and I thought it looked like a
katsu
in space. Funny, isn't it? Thanks to the redesign I get to have conversations like this.” He smiled warmly.

Why didn't this guy who was allegedly in the food industry know me and my business from the news? My business was a direct tribute to Joy Division. It was done out of love. This guy just copied the artwork. Granted, the nebula did indeed resemble a
katsu
, but still, the whole deal stank. Also, if you “don't really get into music,” please go straight to hell!

If I started to tell him that I was a huge Joy Division fan and that I had named my business “Unknown Pleasures” because I loved the songs, I was afraid that I would begin to yell and wouldn't be able to stop. Instead, I wiped my hands on my pants and ordered a chicken
katsu
to stay. I wanted to see someone tell him he was ripping off an internationally known night-market stall. I'd feel vindicated.

“So that's one chicken
katsu
,” he said. “Anything to drink?”

“Oh, no.”

“Just a few minutes. Say, I like that T-shirt. It's got a hidden design in it. Where's it from?”

“It's The Velvet Underground,” I said.

“Never heard of the store.”

“They were a band,” I said, unable to stop myself from chuckling at him. He didn't pick up on it.

“Have a seat there. What's your name?”

“Johnny.”

“Johnny. My name's Kenny.” Nice original fake name, Kenny. Doesn't sound like “Johnny” at all.

“Thanks, man.”

I slid into a booth, my robe of sarcasm catching a little on the edges of the pressed-wood seat. I watched Kenny duck behind the curtain and listened to him bang around. The fryer came alive, sounding like a heavy rainstorm.

•••

I thought about a
night not too long ago when Nancy and I had argued about going on a bike trip along the Keelung River. She had wanted to go and I hadn't. I was feeling angry and vaguely righteous, yet also inarticulate.

We had retreated to opposite sides of my couch. I could have sat there all night and not said a word. I played the cold, stoic boyfriend and kept my head turned away. I knew that if I looked at her I would want to hold her.

I became conscious of my breathing. I tried to slow it down and take as few breaths as possible. I felt Nancy shift on the couch and tried to put it out of my mind. I wanted to pretend I was alone.

It was a tiring exercise to ignore somebody. Maybe I wasn't getting enough oxygen. We could have fallen asleep and woken up bloated with our unresolved conflict. The situation required divine intervention.

Out of the clear night sky, thunder cracked as loud as airborne planes meeting head-on. We both jumped for each other. As we fell to our sides we laughed and then I started crying.

“I'm sorry,” was all I could say. We slid to the floor and then slid into each other while the rain gods spat on my apartment and took turns licking the windows.

I had been in a negative frame of mind then, as I was now. I should stop feeling hyper-resentful now to Kenny because there was no point to it, really.

The
katsu
guy put
a tray in front of me as I shifted in my seat. The angry shell that I had formed around myself shattered.

“I didn't mean to startle you,” he said, “but I've been calling you, Johnny. It's best to eat it when it's crispy.”

“Thank you, Kenny,” I said. He gave a brief nod and walked away.

Spotting a bottle of lemon aloe drink on my tray, I called to him, “Excuse me, I didn't order a drink.”

“That's on the house,” he said. “The aloe will coat and protect your mouth while you're eating the hot food.”

“I couldn't—” I started.

He cut me off with, “It was a promotional case from the beverage distributor. Just try it.”

I twisted the cap and let the colloidal drink blub into my mouth. It was a pleasantly watery gelatin, the perfect complement to the
katsu
, especially after the hot mustard was applied. The freshly fried
katsu
was even better than what I had sampled before. The chicken cutlet was expertly fried yet again. The oil was at just the right temperature. The batter included the perfect blend of flour and seasoning so that the hard panko crust stuck to the supple meat like tasty scabs.