Ingo (16 page)

W
AKE UP
, S
APPHIRE
. Wake up. It’s important. You’ve got to remember.

Who said that?

White wall, bedroom wall. I’m awake, or I think I am. It’s early. Mum hasn’t gone to work yet—I can hear her downstairs.

Inside my head everything slides into place. Yes, something happened last night. The sea was talking to me, but then Sadie started barking, and the sea’s voice went away. And an owl flew past too. It came so close that if I’d leaned out of the window, I could have touched its feathers. And it turned and looked at me. Its eyes reminded me of something, but I can’t remember what, now.

I’m sitting rigid, upright in bed. It wasn’t a dream. It was real, and it was important, even though I don’t understand what it meant. I’ve got to tell Conor.

It’s hard work waking Conor. He keeps fighting his way back under the duvet.

“Go
way
, Saph. Nogonnagerrup—”

But I’m brutal. I drag the duvet right off him, and when he rolls over to the wall, I haul him back.

“WhassMAAERSaph?”

“Conor, something really important’s happened. You’ve got to wake up.”

At last words penetrate the fog of Conor’s sleep. He says clearly, “Go away. I’m asleep.”

“How can you be asleep when you’re talking to me?”

Conor groans. “Go
away
, Saph. Just ’cause
you
want to get up at dawn—”

“The sea was calling to me last night. It was saying my name. The sea’s got a voice, Conor! I think it was saying my name in Mer, and guess what—I understood!”

Conor’s eyes fly open. “What?”

“Moryow were calling me.”

“What? What did you say? Who are Moryow?”

“Did I say that?”

“Don’t you even know what you said?”

Suddenly the meaning of the word opens up in my mind.

“Moryow are the seas of the world,” I tell Conor.

“You’re making this up, aren’t you?”

“No, I’m not, I swear and promise. Moryow came close last night, as close as they can. But Sadie wouldn’t let me hear the voice anymore, and I think the owl stopped it too.”

Conor props himself up on his elbows. He looks rumpled and worried.

“It was a dream, Saph. It must have been.”

“It wasn’t. I definitely heard a voice. It was as clear as yours, and it was calling me.”

“I don’t know. Maybe it was some weirdo.” He shivers. “Thank God you didn’t go.”

“But I would have. It was only Sadie barking that stopped me.”

“Jack’s house is more than two miles away. How would Sadie barking from there have stopped anything?”

“I know, but the barking was close, as if Sadie was in my room. I could hear the lev of the Moryow; then the lev of Sadie hid it.”

Conor flops back on his bed. “This is all so crazy. ‘Moryow’—‘lev’—I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“It’s not crazy, Con. Listen. I think it only sounds crazy when you try to understand it all in a—well, in a human way.”

“Which other way can I look at it? I’m human. And so are you.”

“But imagine if I could speak full Mer and talk to everything in Ingo. Maybe I’m beginning to learn the language.”

Conor suddenly stops being angry with me.

“I’m not saying I don’t believe you, Saph. It’s just that it’s really, really scary to have a sister who suddenly starts speaking a different language. It makes you seem like a stranger.”

“How could I ever be a stranger to you, Conor! We’re broder and hwoer.”

Conor clasps his head in his hands. “Saph,
stop
it. And whatever happens, if you hear a voice like that again in the middle of the night, don’t follow it. You mustn’t do what it tells you to do. Swear and promise.”

“I can’t—”

“You must.”

“But Conor, don’t you understand? Promises made in this world only cover this world. I can’t promise here for what I might do in Ingo.”

Conor nods reluctantly. “All right, then. I suppose that’ll have to do. Swear and promise?”

“Swear and promise,” I say, and we each spit on our right hands and slap them together.

Conor believed me when I said that the seas of the world talked to me last night. Yesterday afternoon I felt as if I was on the outside of the family, on my own, while Conor was inside, close to Mum and Roger. But now Conor and I are back together.

“Hey, Saph, what’s the matter? You’re not crying, are you?”

“No, I’m just glad that—”

“That what?” asks Conor, wiping tears off me with the corner of his duvet. “You know Saph, you cry the biggest tears in Cornwall. We ought to bottle them and sell them to the tourists.”

“That you don’t think it was just a dream.”

“No. I know when you’re making up stuff. Those words sound real to me. But I wish I knew what to do.”

“Let’s talk to Granny Carne,” I say, not because I’ve thought about it but because that’s what people round here say when they have problems they can’t work out.

But to my surprise Conor seizes on the idea. “You’re right, Saph! That’s what we’ll do. I should have thought of it before.”

“You mean we should go up there now?”

“Yeah, why not? Let’s go up there as soon as Mum’s gone off to work.”

Mum’s in her bedroom, brushing her hair and twisting it into a shiny knot for work. She smiles at my reflection in the mirror.

“There you are. You were sleeping so heavy this morning. I crept up and took a peep at you and you never even stirred. You look a lot better for the rest. Roger said he had a chat with you while you were making the tea yesterday.”

“Yes.”

“That’s good. He thinks you’re a bright girl. I said that
he ought to see your school reports. It’s the same every time. ‘Bright, but can’t be bothered.’”

“You didn’t tell him about my reports, Mum!”

“No, I didn’t. I’m too kind, that’s my trouble. But Mr. Carthew’s always saying that you don’t do justice to your intelligence in your schoolwork. You could do really well, Sapphy, if you made an effort. You could get yourself to university, get a good job, get out of this place.”

“I don’t want to get out. I want to be here.”

Mum sighs and lays down her brush. “I know. You think you want to spend the rest of your life swimming in the cove and running about with Conor. I don’t blame you, I was the same at your age. I failed all my exams, and I didn’t care. But I don’t want you to end up like me, Sapphy, counting up your tips at the end of the night and hoping you’ll be able to pay the electricity bill.”

“But Mum, I thought you liked it in the restaurant.”

“It’s all right. But I want more for you. Don’t you see that? I want you to have a different life. Everyone wants more for their kids, it’s human nature.”

I wonder if it’s Mer nature too,
I think, and hope that the thought won’t show on my face.

“Conor’ll be all right,” Mum goes on. “He works hard, and he knows what he wants. But you’re such a mazey-head, Sapphy, sometimes I want to spifflicate you to make you see sense.”

Mum laughs, and I laugh too.

“Roger’s a good man,” goes on Mum abruptly. “I only want what’s best for you and Con.”

“Mum, you sound like you’re going to marry him!”

A flush rises in Mum’s face. She looks so like Conor. “Nobody said anything about marriage, did they?” she says. “We’ve only known each other five minutes. All I mean is, give Roger half a chance, Sapphy. He wants to be a friend to you if you’ll let him.”

I can’t think of anything to say about Roger. I don’t even want to discuss him. “Why’s your hair so much shinier than mine, Mum?”

“Because I brush it from time to time,” says Mum.

“I keep asking you to do a henna wax for me, but you never have time.”

“I will, Sapphire, I promise. Now stop fiddling with my hair, and let me get on. I’m going to be late. Oh, these school holidays, they go on forever and ever amen. I’ll be glad when you’re back in school and I can stop worrying about you all day long. Be good, Sapphy, and don’t go off on your own. Stick with Conor.”

“But Mum—”

“What?”

“Mum, do people ever hear voices—of things that aren’t there?”

“What sort of voices?”

“Voices calling, but there’s no one there. Maybe calling your name.”

Mum puts one hand on each side of my face, framing it. Her fingers are soft and cool. “I think there are more things that happen than we know about,” she says. “You remember I told you that I was working upcountry in Plymouth when my mum died?”

“Yes.”

“No one was expecting her to die. She had a chest infection, but she was on antibiotics, and people hardly ever die of chest infections. But she got an embolism in her lungs, and she died at three o’clock in the morning. Dad phoned me at four.”

I don’t know what an embolism is, but I’m not about to ask.

“So I never saw her again before she died,” says Mum. “But about two weeks later, after the funeral, when I was in the garden of our house—I hadn’t gone back to work yet; I was helping Dad—I heard Mum’s voice. She said, ‘Jennie?’ and I said, ‘Yes.’ And then she said, ‘Don’t worry about me, Jennie. I’m fine.’”

I stare at Mum. She’s never told me anything like that before.

“Did she say anything else, Mum?”

“No. But I felt her come up close. I didn’t see her, but she patted my cheek just like she used to when I was little. It was as real as that.”

“Was she a ghost then?”

“No. She was Mum, same as always. And then she
wasn’t there. Do you know, Sapphy, I’ve never told anyone about it until this minute.”

I look at Mum. She’s smiling, but her eyes are shiny. “Does it make you sad,” I ask, “when you remember your mum?”

Mum shakes her head. “No, I like talking about her. Come here, Sapphy. Give me a big hug.”

I hug Mum tight, squeezing her until she gasps for breath. What if Mum died, and all I had was a ghost who walked up a path and then disappeared? Mum seems to be happy about her mum doing that, but I certainly wouldn’t be.

“Promise me you won’t,” I whisper.

“Won’t what?”

“You know.
Promise.
You won’t ever just—”

“Ever just
what
?”

“Disappear.”

Mum takes a deep breath. I can feel her ribs rise as her lungs fill with air.

“I promise, Sapphy,” she says.

A
S SOON AS
M
UM’S LEFT
for work, we’re on our way to Granny Carne’s. Her cottage is up on the Downs, tucked into the hillside, half hidden. The gray granite walls look like part of the hill until you get close. There’s no track, only a narrow path, so even a jeep can’t get up here. The path is steep, and the sun beats on our backs so we’re sweaty and out of breath by the time we get up to the cottage.

We stand side by side in front of Granny Carne’s door.

“Go on, knock.”

Conor’s knock is loud in the stillness. A few bees buzz, and the wind riffles. The knock echoes, but nothing moves. He knocks again, more loudly.

“She’s not there.”

“Oh.” We stare at each other in disappointment. All that climb for nothing.

“What shall we do?”

“I don’t know.”

“Go back?”

“No, let’s wait. She might come back soon.”

We sit on the rough grass. This is where people come when they have troubles. They talk to Granny Carne, and she tells them things no one else knows. Things about the future, and the past too. People say she can look into the future, like a fortune-teller. Dad used to say that the doors that are closed to most of us are like windows to Granny Carne. She can see straight through them. I used to think he meant real doors and imagined Granny Carne waving her wand to turn them into glass, like a witch in a story-book.

Conor’s trying to make a beetle walk along a grass stalk. We both crouch down to see if it will. I squint, and my squint makes the stalk look as big as a log. This is what it must look like to the beetle. A big rough log, a climbing conundrum that he has to work out. Maybe there’s a Beetle world, just as there’s a Mer world. In Beetle world, shoes look like boulders, and flowers are as big as bike wheels. We’re giants, and a puddle of water would be as deep as Ingo….

“I wish we’d brought a bottle of water, Conor,” I say. “I’m really thirsty.”

“There’s a stone trough round the back of the cottage. It’s spring water.”

“How do you know?”

Conor hesitates. “I came here with Dad once.”

“You never told me! When?”

“Last summer. Early last summer.”

“Before he left.”

“Yeah, that’s right. Before he left.”

“What happened?”

“Me and Dad were out walking. He was taking photos at the top of the Downs, and we came back this way. He said he would just call in on Granny Carne.”

Conor stops. Like me, he can hear the echo of Dad’s voice saying those exact same words. Dad’s voice always made you want to hurry along where he was going.

“Dad went inside the cottage, but I didn’t,” Conor goes on. “I was thirsty, and I heard water trickling, so I went round the back and found where the spring ran into the trough. There were some baby frogs.”

“What do you think Dad asked her about?”

“I don’t know. He was in there a long time, but I didn’t mind because I was watching the frogs.”

Conor is good at watching. He’ll watch the seals for hours until they lose their fear and come right up on the rocks, close.

“Then he called me,” Conor says. “He and Granny Carne had finished talking. She stood in the doorway and watched us go, with her arms folded like this. I don’t think they even said good-bye. I thought maybe they’d quarreled.”

“Did she look angry?”

“I’m not sure. Maybe not angry. But they both looked serious.”

“Did Dad tell you anything?”

“No. He walked so fast I almost had to run to keep up with him. But he did say one thing.”

“What?”

“He said, ‘That’s the last time I ever go there.’”

“Then they must have quarreled.”

“Maybe Granny Carne told Dad something he didn’t want to hear.”

I try to think what that could be. It must be terrible to see into the future. To know what’s coming but not be able to change it. Like a curse.

But if Granny Carne has Earth magic, then maybe she can use her power to change the future. Then the future wouldn’t be like an accident rushing toward her; it would be a thousand possibilities. Not all of them have to come true.

The beetle has decided it’s not going to bother walking down the grass stalk, however invitingly Conor waggles it. It scurries away, back into Beetle world, away from the two mysterious giants who do things it can’t understand.

Suddenly the bright sun on Conor’s hand is covered in shadow. We look up at a tall figure dressed in white, with a white veil over its face and white gloves. It takes me a
moment to recognize that it’s Granny Carne.

“I’ve been seeing to the bees,” says Granny Carne. She takes off her beekeeper’s hat and veil and carefully peels off her gloves. She’s wearing a white smock, with trousers tucked into her boots.

“Where are the bees?” I ask.

“Up on the moor,” she says. “I’ll take my things off in the shed, and then we’ll go in.”

People say strange things about Granny Carne’s home, but they don’t say them aloud, and they don’t say them in front of children. But we know it all anyway. Nobody says they believe in witches these days, but whether you say you believe or not, it doesn’t alter what’s there. It’s probably dark and a bit creepy in the cottage. I’m glad Conor’s here with me.

Granny Carne emerges from the shed in her usual shabby old clothes that make her look like part of the moor.

“I made a honey cake, seeing as you were coming,” she goes on, taking us in. Inside, it’s not at all as I’d imagined. The downstairs is all one room, clean and white and bare, like a cave. It is cool and calm, with all the things in it you need and none that you don’t. A strong wooden table that looks as if you could dance on it without breaking it, wooden chairs with red cushions, a smooth dark floor.

“Sit down.”

There’s a sticky-topped honey cake on a blue plate.
There are three mugs, ready for tea, and a blue pitcher of water with three glasses. One for her, one for Conor, one for me. Did she really make that honey cake because we were coming? Did she put out those three glasses before we arrived? She can’t have known. We only just decided to come this morning. Maybe she saw us climbing up the hill, from a long way off? But no, if she was tending the bees, she couldn’t have been here in the cottage at the same time, making cake and setting the table.

“My kettle takes a while to boil,” says Granny Carne. “But it’s a hot day, and you’ll be thirsty from walking up. Drink some water.”

Conor pours, and I lift my glass. The water smells pure. But it’s Earth water, sweet, not salt. It belongs to the Earth. I lift it to my lips, then put it down. I want salt. I want the taste of the sea. The green-and-turquoise sea with its deep cool caverns underwater where you can dive and play. I want to plunge through the waves and roll over and jackknife deep into the surging water that is full of bubbles and currents and tides. But Granny Carne’s cottage is more than two miles from the sea. It’s buried in the side of the hill, locked into the land.

I feel trapped. I want to get out. Mum and Dad took us to London once, and we went in a lift in an Underground station. I thought it was already packed as full as it could be, but people still kept shoving in and squashing up until my face was crushed against a fat man’s suit and
I could hardly breathe. I could smell the man’s sweat. Everyone kept pushing until I was so squashed I couldn’t see Mum or Dad or Conor. I felt as if the lift was closing in on me. I feel like that now. The cottage walls press in around me. My chest hurts. I can hardly breathe.

I want the space of the sea. I want to taste salt water and open my mouth and know that I can breathe without breathing. Down, down, down into Ingo…

I push back my chair, and it clatters on the flagstone floor. Instantly, Granny Carne is beside me, tall and strong as an oak.

“Sapphire. Sapphire! Drink this.”

She’s holding the glass of water to my lips. I try to twist my head away, but she insists. “Sapphire. I know you’re thirsty. Drink your water.”

The glass presses against my lips. Earth water, sweet, not what I want. I want salt. But I’m thirsty, so thirsty. I need to drink. I open my lips, just a little. The water touches them, then it rushes into my mouth. It covers my tongue, and it tastes good. I swallow deeply, and then I drink more and more, gulping it down. The more I drink, the more I know how thirsty I am. I feel like a plant that’s almost died from lack of water. Granny Carne refills my glass from the jug, and I drink again.

The cottage walls aren’t pressing in on me now. They’re just ordinary cottage walls again, white and clean. I don’t know why I was so frightened.

“Good,” says Granny Carne. “Remember, my girl, you mustn’t ever drink salt water. Even if you crave it, you mustn’t drink it. It makes a thirst that nothing can satisfy.”

“What does crave mean?”

“When you crave for something, you want it so much you’ll stop at nothing to get it,” says Granny Carne. “But salt water’s poison to humans.”

“Sapphire’s been ill,” says Conor.

“No wonder, if she goes drinking salt water,” answers Granny Carne. “Now, tell me what you’re here for.”

“She’s started speaking another language,” Conor says.

“What’s that then? French or German?” asks Granny Carne, watching us keenly.

“No, she knows it without learning it. Tell her, Saph. Tell her the words you spoke this morning.”

“I can’t speak to her in that language. She belongs to N—” I manage to stop myself, but Granny Carne has noticed.

“What do I belong to?”

“To Earth.”

“Yes, but that wasn’t what you were going to say. You were going to say that I belonged to Norvys, weren’t you?”

I stare at her, astonished. “You can say it too! But you’re not part of Ingo.”

“Earth and Ingo share some words. But that’s not the question, is it? The question is, How do
you
know about Norvys?”

I am silent for a long time, while Granny Carne’s question presses in on me. Her eyes light on mine. They are amber, piercing—

“It was you,” I say. “Wasn’t it?”

Slowly, a smile fills her face. “Ah,” she says, “you were wide-awake in the middle of the night, weren’t you? And why should you think that Norvys can’t go into the Air, if you can go to Ingo?”

Conor looks from one to another of us, bewildered.

“Granny Carne was the owl who came to me last night,” I explain.

“No,” says Granny Carne. “It’s not as simple as that. I’m not the owl, but the owl is maybe one of my…shadowings.”

“But your eyes are exactly the same.”

“Yes.”

“We came because of what happened last night,” Conor says. “Tell her, Saph. Tell her about the voice.”

“It wanted me to come to it. It called me like this:
Ssssssapphire…Ssssssapphire…
”

“But that’s not your name!” interrupts Conor. “It doesn’t sound anything like your name. They must have been calling someone else.”

“But in another language, Conor,” Granny Carne points out. “And who was calling? Do you know that?”

“I think it was the seas of all the world,” I whisper, as if someone might overhear us.

“Moryow,” says Granny Carne.

“Yes.”

“But she didn’t go,” says Conor, as if that’s the most important thing of all.

“Why not?”

“I don’t know. I think it was because of Sadie barking. And the—the owl.”

“Sadie,” says Granny Carne thoughtfully. “Wasn’t Sadie that dog who came to you when I met you in the track below your house?”

“Yes.”

“Granny Carne,” says Conor abruptly, “my dad came to see you here not long before he left. I was with him that day. Did he say anything—did he tell you anything? Anything that we don’t know? Did he know then he was going to leave us?”

“The things that people say here are between them and these walls,” says Granny Carne.

“But he’s disappeared. He might be in danger.”

“He might,” agrees Granny Carne.

“But if he is, we’ve got to help him!”

“We won’t help him that way. We have to go gentle. But I will tell you this. When your father came to me, he had a mark on his face that I see on your faces now. It was a mark you don’t often see…in the Air,” she adds, watching us carefully to see if we understand. We stare at her. My hand goes up, as if to cover my face. Granny Carne half smiles.

“You won’t hide such a mark that way,” she says. “Not from me. We talked about it before, you remember, the last time I met you. Ingo puts that mark on a face. You know it, Sapphire. You’ve been there, in Ingo. You feel it pulling you, sometimes soft, sometimes strong.”

I don’t say anything. I am frightened. How is it that Granny Carne knows so much?

“Conor’s got the same inheritance,” Granny Carne goes on, “but it’s not so powerful in him. That’s the way things come out. Even brother and sister don’t inherit things from their parents equally.”

Conor nods as if he understands, but I know he doesn’t. He must feel as dazed as I do.

“But Conor,” goes on Granny Carne, leaning forward and looking seriously into his face, “you have your own power that belongs to you, never doubt that. The time will come to use it. Sapphire has more of Ingo, but you have more of Earth. Both have their equal power. It’s when they become unequal that there’s danger.”

They look at each other. I think again how alike they are. Granny Carne could be Conor’s ancestor. The same dark skin, the same shape of the eyes, the same shape around the lips when they smile.

“There’s always been powerful Mer blood in the Trewhella family,” Granny Carne goes on. “The Mer blood goes way back beyond the first Mathew Trewhella.”

“But it couldn’t have been passed down to us,” says
Conor. “Mathew Trewhella went off with that mermaid, didn’t he? He didn’t have human children. He was a young man, and he wasn’t married. It says so in the story.”

“No, he wasn’t married, but he had a girl,” says Granny Carne. “He was in love with Annie, before the mermaid called to him. She was carrying Mathew’s baby when he disappeared. Annie gave the baby Mathew’s name, even though he’d left her and people were saying he’d betrayed her. It’s that little baby Mathew who carried the Mer blood down and gave you the inheritance.