The night of the planned escape had finally arrived. We had been locked in our rooms for days, no longer allowed any freedoms at all. Tindra and Ami brought us food, came every morning to brush our hair. We spent most of our time in silence. It wasn’t hard for me to guess what Mary was thinking. I knew she wasn’t ready to talk about Eoghan anymore, not yet.
The night of the escape, we sat in our nightgowns, in my bedroom, waiting. It was well past dinnertime, but before lights-out. We sat huddled on my bed, piles of blankets heaped around us, praying that everything would work.
Mary paced the floor, back and forth, stopping only occasionally to switch out one record on the player for another. “Where is Tanner?” she said finally, her voice low and tense. “He should have been here already.”
“He’ll be here,” I said. I allowed not a shard of doubt into my voice, but on the inside I’d begun to have doubts. What if Tanner was betraying us?
Mary and I listened to
Dido and Aeneas
twice over, then William Byrd’s
Parthenia
. Then Handel, then Bach. Ralph Vaughan Williams’s
Lark Ascending
was playing when Tanner finally let himself into the room.
I felt all the air leave my body in a deep sigh of relief, and saw Mary do the same.
From his backpack, Tanner pulled out the two cadet uniforms he’d promised. “I had a little more trouble getting these than I thought,” he said. “Sorry to keep you waiting.”
I immediately felt guilty for being so quick to doubt him. Trust wasn’t coming easily for me these days.
Upon my bedspread, Tanner lay out a uniform for each of us. “We’d better hurry,” he said. “To make up for the lost time.”
They were the uniforms the British army used to issue to new soldiers in training. They were composed of lightweight navy blue cotton, simple pants and a button-down collared shirt, black boots and a cap. Luckily for us, both women and men wore the same ones.
The only alteration Demkoe made to the uniforms was the words
RYKER ARMY
, stitched in bright red across the upper left-hand corner of the shirts, like a badge. It would
mark us now, too—Mary and me—as belonging to Demkoe, just as the palace did, just as England did. I remembered my time with Cornelius Hollister’s New Guard and shivered.
We dressed ourselves quickly, tucking our hair up into caps and snugly buttoning up our collars. The boots were too big, but the rest passed for acceptable. We each shoved a pair of rolled-up socks into the toes, to keep our feet from sliding around within their loose leather.
“Not bad,” Tanner said, his eyes lighting on me in a way that made me suddenly uncomfortable. I shivered and turned away.
“Do we have weapons?” I asked, hearing the quiver in my voice.
He shook his head. “Unfortunately not. Knives only.” There was one for each of us. It would have to do.
When Tanner handed Mary hers, she caught his hand and held it. He didn’t move, only looked at her with anxious eyes.
“Thank you, Tanner,” she said. “For everything. If we make it out of this alive, we’ll be greatly indebted to you.”
It was the gesture of a queen to make a point of appreciation this way, and Tanner recognized it as such.
“You won’t owe me a thing,” he said, sounding casual. “And if I’ve got anything to say about it, we’re all making it out of this alive. Now, are you ready?”
Mary and I both nodded as he stepped outside, moving quietly on soundless feet. He sent the guards away on a made-up mission, and they didn’t question him. He was their superior, after all. As Mary said, he had been with Demkoe from the beginning.
Mary and I were standing side by side, ready, when the door reopened and Tanner nodded at us to hurry. We pulled our caps low over our foreheads and marched in file behind him along the faded hallway runners, embroidered with gold and red roses.
My heart beat faster with every step. We were headed to the one palace tunnel entrance Mary and I were sure Demkoe couldn’t have discovered—the one through the backside of the bread oven in the kitchen. Not even our longtime palace baker had ever uncovered it. Mary and I only knew about it thanks to my insistence that we play tag downstairs, back when we were children. I remembered stumbling inside the tunnel, giggling in excitement when I realized where it led. It felt like a lifetime ago.
Down the northeast staircase, through the eastern hall, a quick right, and into the kitchen, which was closed for the night, and we would be there. Through the oven, we would climb to freedom.
But just as we were about to reach the northeast stairs, one of Demkoe’s soldiers turned the corner and grabbed me.
My heart racing, I kept my eyes down. Maybe he hadn’t recognized me.
Tanner and Mary remained still, straight-backed, betraying no emotion.
“Cadet,” the soldier barked, handing me a sealed manila envelope. “Take this to Demkoe, in the palace study.”
I glanced quickly at Tanner and he allowed a subtle nod. It was clear the soldier didn’t recognize me, or my sister.
I had no choice but to run an errand to Demkoe.
Slowly, keeping my face downcast, I turned on my boot heels and headed toward the study, the soldier following me with his gaze. Mary and Tanner continued toward the northeast stairwell. We had already agreed that if anything went wrong with our plan, we would regroup at the palace stables. I would deliver this envelope, let no one see my face, and be outside with Tanner and Mary within minutes.
I maintained a soldierly posture as I marched forward to my father’s study. The soldier who’d handed me the envelope was following just a few paces behind.
Why couldn’t he have just delivered it himself
, I thought bitterly,
if he was coming this way anyway?
Probably he just wanted someone else to face Demkoe’s wrath in case the envelope contained bad news.
I paused for a moment at the door, bracing myself for what to expect. The study, its four walls of brightly colored books, its soft leather chairs, and the large cherrywood desk that dominated the space. Demkoe would be seated at the desk, I was sure of it.
All I had to do was march straight to that desk and make this delivery without Demkoe or anyone noticing me. Then I could head directly to the stables and find Mary and Tanner.
You can do this, Eliza
, I told myself. When I was posing as a recruit in Hollister’s New Guard, I had been an expert at deflecting attention, at becoming invisible. All I had to do was imagine myself a mirror, a piece of glass, something reflective and translucent, too small and unimportant to be noticed.
But my ankles were shaking in my boots, and I could feel two circles of sweat forming on my navy blue shirt beneath my armpits.
Here goes nothing
, I thought. And I pulled my cap down over my eyes, took a deep breath, and opened the door.